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[ihopesheseesthisbro]

i’m watching an ocean vuong video right now and he just said “language is real. the power of it is that it gets deeper than any human touch. if i were to touch you right now, i would only get to your skin. but when i speak to you, i’m all the way through”

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

I'm always too fucking late. So far below average after deluding myself that there is a single exceptional thing about me. Behind the curve and even when I have an inspired idea, I cannot get it to the masses before I see a TikTok already sharing it in a more artistic and catchy way than I can imagine. My brain is on fire and my soul is the withering wick of a candle.

#Fuck me #Depressed #Fuck #Lonely #Suicidal #Anxious #Overthinking #Worthless #Exhausted #Pointless

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

What if Pereira unironically becomes a weeb? Like an undercover FBI agent who ends up embracing Islam at the mosque he infiltrated.

#Weeb #Otaku #Weeaboo #Israel adesanya #The last stylebender #Stylebender #Alex pereira #Poatan #Brazil #Mma #Kickboxing #Championship #Champion mentality #Ufc #Japanese #Pikachu #Pokemon #Anime #Islam #Mosque #Feds #Convert

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

I struggle to be consistently kind to myself. This isn't some sort of capitalist humblebrag where I'm always striving to be my best, most productive self and don't take enough vacations because I'm sooo productive. I'm frequently unmotivated and textbook example of ADHD, albeit relatively high functioning within my little bubble.

I'm always disappointed that I'm not achieving what others believe I'm capable of, or (thanks to social media), what others I deem less capable than myself have achieved. I was not a "gifted kid" in the chronically online description of the term, but I have always been aware that I have a way with words and a thirst for depth that cause people much more financially successful and/or educated than me to proclaim that I'm "really smart."

I'll readily admit to the narcissism and main character syndrome that you might infer from my jealous judgments of other people's successes. How convenient it must be to be an armchair intellect who's never seen a sliver of success talking down on those who are thriving while I contemplate unaliving. The irony (and the agony)!

But ultimately, I don't say this to hone in on the bitter envy I feel. Rather, it is actually motivating to me that someone can be an actual human with huge intellectual blind spots, not an Aaron Sorkin or David Fincher movie character, and still live an impressive life by being really dedicated and confident about a small subset of skills.

I haven't yet forged the path that will lead me to my biggest wins. The bumps in the road feel like insurmountable mountains sometimes. But I'm made of tougher stuff and I'll find my way. God, I hope I find my way.

#Personal #Rant #Confidence #Self confidence #Self talk #Depression #Wordplay #Intellect #Intelligence #Gifted #Gifted kid #Dear diary #Manic #Potential #Gratitude #Self assurance #Positivity #Narcissism #Success #Failure #Humility #Self love #Belief #Finance #Suicidal #Unalive #Aaron sorkin #David Fincher #Film #ADHD

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

What is up with these fake accounts following me en masse lately with random women in the profile pics? It seems very scammy/OnlyFans promo-esque but there are no posts on their pages. What's the angle?

#OnlyFans #Tumblr #Scam #Scams #Scammy #Fake profiles #Porn profiles #Porn #Followers #Random

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

Last one for tonight.

#David bowie #Space oddity #Meme #Funny

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

Cleaning out my phone is bringing me lots of laughs.

#Relatable #Forever alone #Lonely #Incel #Women #Men #Dating #Relationships #Funny meme #Interstellar #Sex

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

#Funny meme #Funny #Men's health #Gq #R Kelly #Meme #Boobs #Women #hornyposting #Horny #Lonely #Incel

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

I've since tried to minimize being self-effacing but this is still hilarious and relatable.

#Relatable #Personal #Dear diary #Memes #Funny meme #Jabba the hutt #Star wars #The mandalorian #Boba fett #Incel #Women #Men #Girls #Guys #Relationships #Dating #Lonely #Me

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

Man, my meme/tweet compendium was powerful before my mental health got destroyed by the pandemic.

#Relationships #Sex #Dating #Women #Men #Single #Casual #Tweet #funny tweets #incel #Relatable #Insightful #Society #Social media #Elon musk #Depression #Loneliness

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

— Virginia Woolf, from “Carlyle’s House and Other Sketches.”

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

Must be nice to not be suicidal, misanthropic, and alone as you look back at 2022 and "look forward" to 2023

Maybe someday I won't always feel like I have to scratch and claw for the mere promise of satisfaction. If I were a betting man, I wouldn't bet on it though.

#Depressed #Depression #Loneliness #Death #Suicide #Suicidal #Happy new year #misanthropy

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

"If a tree falls down in a forest and there's no one around to hear it, does it make a sound?"

I know what I have to offer. I'm witty, I'm kind, I'm a nuanced thinker. I have a huge heart. I'm a giver. I have an extensive vocabulary and an eclectic musical palate. I have an old soul and a youthful exuberance. I express myself authentically. I leave people better than I found them.

But if no one appreciates me for me, what does it fucking matter? If there's no one receive what I have to give, what's it gonna matter when this mortal shell expires? No one cares about your truths. It's all about what you can sell.

#Personal #Diary #Depression #Suicidal #Incel #Lonely #Philosophy #Musings #Fuck everything

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

I don't know if there's a worse pain than loneliness. Having no one to revel in the little victories or commiserate in the disappointments of life with you. If you try and speak up about this pain on the internet, you get a bunch of people searching your post history to tell you why you deserve it. Well, the people who actually know me in real life tell me I deserve good things. The one thing they have in common with the internet is none of them can give me when I crave.

#Lonely #Loneliness #Depression #Pain #Suffering #Suicide #Suicidal #Suicidal thoughts #Incel #Life sucks

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

That's what makes it so excruciating to be alone.

#Lonely #Forever alone #Ted Lasso #Loneliness #Hard times #Depression #Suicide #Incel #Single #Marriage #Relationships #Dating #Relatable

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

[ihopesheseesthisbro]

I'm just fucking perpetually bitter and jealous. Of every success I observe and encounter. And especially of the world's willingness to overlook, minimize, or even reward the flaws of others while I am perpetually punished for who and how I am.

I have a bad habit of not singing my own praises so it seems like an unjustified pity party when I whine about how unfair it all feels. I know you don't trade in good deeds and hard work for tangible rewards anyway, I'm not so naive. But I just wish I didn't always feel like I was solely built to suffer.

#Pain #Depression #Suicidal #Personal #Vague #Useless #Futile #Anxiety #Fml #Diary #Jealousy #Bitterness #Incel #Lonely #Loneliness #Emo #Insecure #Insecurity #Petty #Envy