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i could lay next to you forever

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You ever get raped and abused and then punished for doing something about it and trying to move on? Or is it just me.

#rape #rape victim #abuse #domestic abuse #victim #survivor #wlw #gay #help

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What is wrong with me?

Do I like pain? Do I like trauma? Do I like the attention from being a victim? 

What is wrong with me?

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If there wasn't already a glaze over my eyes from the weed, there would be now.

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Is this normal?

Is this what it's supposed to feel like?

Is the work they talk about more about this than the relationship? 

If this is the work I don't think I can hack it.

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The blood doesn't make me feel better.

Why doesn't the blood make me feel better? 

I register the sting of each cut but can't seem to feel it at the same time.

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I'm aware of the hot water that's been running over my body for the last thirty or so minutes but I can't break my concentration on making diamonds in between my fingers. 

Is this what death feels like? Being aware that you feel nothing?

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Why do I hate this?

Do I hate him? Do I hate all men? Do I hate what he did to me or the person he made me into? 

I hate this.

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I won't cut my tattoos.

It might seem silly but I can't bring myself to damage artwork that someone put their time and skill into making.

If only I was artwork.

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✵𝓨𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓜𝓸𝓸𝓭𝓫𝓸𝓪𝓻𝓭 ♥

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“A lot of people tell me I’m a bit dreamy. But I like the idea of that. Of being somewhere else.”

— Alex Turner,  Arctic Monkeys

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Do you think the universe fights for souls to be together? Some things are too strange and strong to be coincidences.

— Emery Allen

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“But a long-distance romance can be a beautiful thing. It builds trust and commitment very early on in the relationship and gives way for more deeper and meaningful conversations. There’s more time for solitude, self-exploration and inner growth for the both of you and there’s more room for appreciation and less space for possession. There’s more magic when you kiss the lips of the person you love after thirty days of not seeing each other knowing that he or she will always be your destination.”

— Juansen Dizon, A Long-Distance Romance

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*snuggles stuffed animal tighter to compensate for lack of physical touch*