imdeadlysad

[imdeadlysad]

keeping myself numb as if it’s the solution to being suicidal

#depression #cvtting #depressing shit #mentally unstable #self harrrm #feeling suicidal #fresh cvts #mental disorder #mentally drained #mentally tired #self h4rm #triggering content #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #tw suicide #tw sh #suicidal #sewer slide #bpd thoughts #comfortably numb #tired #exhausted #cigarettes #pensieri suicidi #tw depressing thoughts #mentally fucked #mentally ill #tw ed stuff #pain

[imdeadlysad]

I hate that people are always ranting about the fact that you only live once.

Honestly, I beg to differ: I believe that during everyone’s lifespan, you could happen to die and live countless times.

During happy moments you live, and every single happy moment is life, is living. But during the sad moments, or, if you’re mentally ill like me, during the dreary intervals between those little happy moments, you die. And that can happen, as said, countless times.

You do not only live and die once: you live and die multiple times during just a single lifetime.

#depression #depressing shit #mentally unstable #self harrrm #cvtting #bpd stuff #mentally drained #mentally tired #self h4rm #tw sh #tw death mention #tw self destruction #styrotumblr #night thoughts #mental disorder #triggering content #fresh cvts #tw vent #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #tw selfhate #mentally fucked #feeling suicidal #tw suicide #tw sui thoughts #mental illness #mentally not here #im so tired

[imdeadlysad]

what do you do when you’re to tired to even care about anything really?

#depression #self harrrm #tw self hate #tw sh #tw sa #mentally tired #mentally unstable #mentally drained #depressed #tw suicide #suicidal #feeling suicidal #tw self destruction #self mutilation #drowsiness #struggle #struggling #anxiety #self h4rm #s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #cvtting #cvts #fresh cvts #styrotwt #mentally ill #depressing thoughts #depressing shit #tw ed stuff #dissapointment

[imdeadlysad]

I wish I could take away all your pain and keep it myself; I’d rather live a life suffering knowing you’re happy than let you live in pain

#lesbian #couples #wlw post #mental disorder #depression #i love you #i love her #mentally unstable #tw selfhate #triggering content #wlw love #love quote #love quote for her #love #relationship quotes #relathionship #her #sapphic #miss her #she’s everything #my heart #girlfriend

[imdeadlysad]

I'm so sorry for being me, it hurts me too

#mental disorder #fresh cvts #triggering content #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #cvtting #cvts #depressed #depression #suicidal #feeling suicidal #tw self destruction #self h4rm #self mutilation #s3lf h4rm #self harrrm #i'm so sorry #guilty #tw self hate #tw suicide #tw suicice #mentally tired #i hate me #hate myself #self destruction #self h@rm #tw death mention

[imdeadlysad]

can someone please tell me I'm not dead inside? I beg you..

#mental disorder #fresh cvts #triggering content #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #cvtting #self harrrm #tw death mention #dead inside #depressing thoughts #depression #tw suicide #feeling suicidal #suicidal #tw vent #im problematic #s3lf h4rm #self mutilation #tw self destruction #self h4rm #tw sui thoughts #tw death #tw sh #tw sa #cvts #tw depressing thoughts #sad thoughts

[imdeadlysad]

I'm just a useless piece of shit

#mental disorder #fresh cvts #triggering content #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #depressing thoughts #depression #feeling suicidal #tw suicide #suicidal #cvtting #piece of shit #tw self destruction #self harrrm #tw selfhate #tw vent #tw sui thoughts #night thoughts #sad but true #self mutilation #i hate me #tw death #s3lf h4rm #s3lfharm #depressed #mentally tired #mental instability #mental breakdown

[imdeadlysad]

idk man, I feel like hitting my head against the wall till I collapse

#fresh cvts #triggering content #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #depressing thoughts #depression #depressed #tw suicide #feeling suicidal #suicidal #self harrrm #just ed shit #tw self destruction #self destruction #tw death mention #self blame #tw sui thoughts #s3lf h4rm #self h4rm #tw self hate #depressing quotes #tw vent #cvts #cvtting #sh mention #tw depressing stuff #mental disorder

[imdeadlysad]

the feminine urge to watch the entirety of Skins everyday 🙄

#triggering content #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw cvts #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #skins uk #depression #depressing thoughts #suicidal #tw suicide #tw self destruction #cvtting #cvts #mentally tired #tw self hate #self harrrm #not pr0 just using tags #tw sh #tw sa #tw ed stuff #just ed shit #s3lf harm #sex assault #rock bottom #bpd life #tw sui thoughts #tw death mention #pro ana #s3lfharm

[imdeadlysad]

and if we'll decide to die, then let's please die together, as we promised each other. I love you too much to let you go alone or to live without you.

I know you're tired, so am I, but please stay at least another day with me. You matter.

I don't know how, but we will be ok, I promise you.

#tw suicice #self harrrm #feeling suicidal #suicidal #tw depressing thoughts #tw death #tw sh #tw self destructive behavior #tw self hate #tw selfhate #depression #cvts #cvtting #tw self destruction #sad thoughts #depressing #i love you #i love her #lesbian #gay #loml <3 #i miss you #don't leave me #words #love quotes #crying #tears #tw ed stuff #girlfriend #relationship

[imdeadlysad]

evil me be like "I love myself 🤪"

#self harrrm #cvts #cvtting #tw self hate #tw ed #tw sh #tw self destructive behavior #depression #struggle #sadness #pain #hurt #suicidal #feeling suicidal #s3lf h4rm #tw suicide #tw death mention #tw death #not pr0 just using tags #pro ana #pro mia #anamia #tw self destructive #self mutilation #tw self destruction #problematic person #depressive episode #sh memes #tw selfhate #s3lfharm

[imdeadlysad]

why can't I just die?

#tw suicide #feeling suicidal #suicidal #tw death mention #self harrrm #s3lf harm #tw selfhate #self h4rm #cuts #cvts #cvtting #hurt #tired #night thoughts #sad thoughts #hurting #sadness #tw sh #tw ed #tw sa #s3lfharm #I wanna kms #self mutilation #tw self destruction #tw self destructive #tw vent #problematic person #depressive episode #tw self destructive behavior #i'm delusional i know

[imdeadlysad]

non mi sopporto. mi viene da vomitare per la rabbia e per l'odio che provo nei miei stessi confronti.

#odio #depressione #autolesionismo #tagli #suicidio #dca #lametta #depressa #dolore #tristezza #mi odio #voglio morire

[imdeadlysad]

I wanna commit suicide lol

#depression #death #tw death #tw death mention #tw suicide #suicide #suicidal #feeling suicidal #self harrrm #cvts #cvtting #sadness #pain #hurt #struggling #tired #exhausted #depressed #sad thoughts #mess #disaster #problematic #problematic person #tw ed #tw sh #tw sa #s3lfharm #sh memes #self hate #tw s3lf h4rm

[imdeadlysad]

Smiling hurts so bad.

I just want to lay in my bed and keep pouring or I better die.

#depression #cvts #cvtting #self harrrm #night thoughts #sadness #suicide #tw suicide #suicidal #feeling suicidal #tw death #tw sa #tw sh #tw ed #ed stuff #tw death mention #I wanna kms #crying #tears #self mutilation

[imdeadlysad]

fr I had missed a lot the feeling of cutting myself on the arms. this is the first time I do it on my arms in months, all this time I forced myself not to go over the waist and atm having it done on my arm is so freeing istg.

#self harrrm #depression #cuts #cvts #cvtting #depressing thoughts #suicide #tw sh #tw sa #tw ed #blades #tw suicide #suicidal #feeling suicidal #kms #I wanna kms #depressional #sadness #sad but true #autolesionismo #suicidio #tw death #death mention #tagli

[imdeadlysad]

pov: my heart is melting while I'm watching her sleep on a videocall

pov: it's not a pov

#lesbian #lgbtq #i love her #miss her #sleeping beauty #in love #girlfriend #gf #i miss you #kiss #couples #video calls #night thoughts #i love you #marriage #marry me #love quotes #love