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So I work at a library and about a month ago I helped a little old woman who is legally blind figure out how to listen to our audiobooks on her tablet. We got to chatting and I mentioned that I always listen to audiobooks while I knit, which made her very excited and she told me all about the afghans she used to make when she could still see. She was so sweet and I was so glad to be able to help her figure out a way to still enjoy books without being able to read.

Yesterday I answered the phone at work and when I said my name the woman on the other line got so excited and said “Madeline?? You’re exactly who I wanted to talk to! This is Marie, you helped me about a month ago. How late are you working today?” It was her!! And about an hour later she and her husband showed up, and she was carrying a huge stack of old knitting patterns for me, and her husband brought in a few boxes full of yarn. They couldn’t stay long but I was so touched that she remembered me, and I struggled to not just flat out start crying when she handed me the patterns. When I looked through them later I realized it was her entire personal collection from over the years, including all her personal notes and drawings and even some photographs of her finished pieces. No one in my family knits, and to have someone pass on their legacy to me like that was incredibly moving.

This isn’t what I usually post here, but with life being especially dark lately I wanted to share a moment of happiness and a reminder that a bit of kindness goes a long way ♡

#libraries connecting people #i love it

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Thinking about the sniper duo

#THE SNIPER DUO #i love them your honor

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the zoro in arata mackenyu is zoroing

#i love them your honor #one piece

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me, writing yet another chapter of my original without the protagonists doing nasty stuff: damn, there's too much plot in my ancient rome gay porn

#when did it become a serious story?

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andromache's dream // prints etc

(this started as a weird pointillism exercise that basically took over my life. reference from an extremely pixelated screenshot from the movie ammonite)

#i probably already reblogged it but why not #andromaquynh #immortal wives

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Since @squeeful decided to make me question my whole idea of Nicky by tagging #…Nicky under this post:

I think the answer is “No, no”, but I had to think about it. Also, let’s consider the “world” as not just the planet but also a smaller reality, a community, whatever.

#i know i know big romantic #but listen #do you think these two would sacrifice even one life of an innocent person and not sacrifice themselves? #and as both of them would do it and the other knows it very well #do you think they woulnd't let the other go #to save one single life? #so in my opinion it's no and no

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When I was 18 I started writing a story that I was then sharing with my friends. I wrote few chapters just for fun and because my friends were pushing me to write more.

Then school finished, I started university and stopped writing it, but a few years later got back to it and eventually finished it when I was 21.

The characters of the story were my age, the younger being 19 at the beginning of the story and the older 22. When I re-read this story (and I cringe a little) I see myself, their immense desire of escaping, their feelings that the world was there for them to be explored.

I felt that way when I was their age. God, I remember I was dreaming of moving to the US while now you couldn't pay me enough to convince me moving there.

I am now writing the sequel, where they are grown up men instead of being two clueless boys doing stupid shit. And I recently realized: they are my age, again.

And now, these two characters that have been travelling the world seeking adventures and dangers for years, just want to find a place to call their home.

I never realized why I felt so attached to a story I know it's not publishable, a story that has 2-3 readers in the whole world and will never have many more, a story that probably speak to no-one except to me and few of my closest friends.

Now I understand I grew up with them and that their story is, in some way, mine.

#marco and kyros are in syria solving murders in the 30 BC #i'm in sweden calculating nuclear physics parameters in AD 2024 #we both want to go back to italy

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it’s actually so funny how challenging it is to write bona fide graphic, horny smut. like people don’t give smut writers enough credit. you are constantly running out of words to describe the same 2-4 body parts and same 4-6 motions. you are constantly attempting to do interesting and dynamic things in the prose with this extremely limited set of words. you are looking at your prose for the nastier bits and wondering if it actually sounds hot or if it just sounds goofy. you are then toning down your prose and then wondering if it now sounds tasteful or if it’s just boring. you do ctrl+F for the word “cock” and there are 37 instances of it in the doc but you hate the 1-2 acceptable synonyms so there’s nothing much you can do about it

#to all porn writers: thank you for your service

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pov: you want to go home in february. your destination airport is venice because you live close by. you check the days of carnival in venice. you reschedule your trip.

#i just want to go home #i am finishing the cheese i brought with me after christmas (yes i know it's january)

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I feel like I am living the dark academia trope.

Because I work in academia and it's dark outside. I'm in Sweden. It's winter.

#now i understand why swedish love candles so much #personal

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me: I'm writing only for fun, historical accuracy is not so fundamental, I will never publish this story, it is just for fun, chill

also me: if I don't know where these obscure characters of the roman republic were in the 43-42 aC month by month I will set myself on fire

#all of this because the protagonist of my story is a real person but mostly unknown #and i decided that along with the gay love story wouldn't it be nice to add some ROMAN POLITICAL DRAMA??? #so now i am reading Marco Giunio Bruto biography to understand when and where he could have met my protagonist #the answer is november 43 aC in Athen #I have written three sentences today leave me alone #next time i write a fucking fantasy

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After one year of silence, one week ago I started writing again

I had tried to go back to writing more than once in this 2023 and failed.

Then I thought that moving to another country and changing job to a more regular schedule would help, so I waited for August to come, moved on the other side of Europe in a new country, in a much bigger city, going from living with my partner to live alone, not knowing anybody and not speaking the language.

It didn't go well and it did not help my writing.

Then, two months later, my partner joined me in this crazy scandinavian adventure, we moved to another apartment and then I had three business trips one after the other.

It did not help.

Then I went home for 10 days for a small surgery and for visiting parents and friends.

It did help.

With the excuse of 1. surgergy, 2. beging the loved daughter who comes back home after three months away, my parents spoiled me to no end. I really had time to relax and recover (at least partially) from years of burn out. I did not write that week, but my hand was still recovering so it made sense.

Once I came back to work, my home life slightly changed. My partner and I started spending more time independetly, were we share the house but we dedicate time to our hobbies and from time to time we go to each others' room and ask how it is going (me going to his room while he plays videogame and asking: are you winning son? will never stop being funny)

At first I dedicated that time to reading but then I felt like it was time to go back to what has been my first and most loved hobby, the one thing that defined myself.

And it worked. I haven't written much, yet, but I did write several pages of an old story I had set aside.

Are the pages I have written good? Probably not. Will I ever publish it? Most likely no. But oh boy I had missed the feeling of your fingers *urging* to get on the keyboard to write, ideas floating in my mind while I walk or do my chores.

I don't know how long it will last, but I had missed it.

#personal

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cut scene from tog screenplay

what is an immortal family but being lil shits to each other for centuries

#WE WERE ROBBED #we could have this scene #i demand this scene uuuugh #tog

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Chapters: 2/7 Fandom: The Old Guard (Movie 2020) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Andy | Andromache of Scythia/Quynh | Noriko Characters: Andy | Andromache of Scythia, Quynh | Noriko, Booker | Sebastien le Livre, Nicky | Nicolò di Genova, Joe | Yusuf Al-Kaysani, Lykon (The Old Guard), Nile Freeman Additional Tags: Minor Joe | Yusuf Al-Kaysani/Nicky | Nicolò di Genova, Minor Andy | Andromache of Scythia/Quynh | Noriko/Lykon, Canon Compliant, Pre-Canon, Post-Canon, Attempted Historical Accuracy, 5+1 Things, Additional Warnings In Author’s Note, Fanart, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Humor, Team as Family Summary:

“Maybe it’s not actually here?”

Andromache shook her head, frustrated. “It’s here. I know it’s here. It’s just not where I thought it would be. Looks like you’ll have to help me. You start from that end, I’ll start from this end.” She didn’t even look at Quỳnh to confirm, just started rooting through the nearest crate as if there was no question Quỳnh would go along. Which, to be fair, there wasn’t. Quỳnh sighed, sat down in the clear space she’d made, opened an ancient wooden chest, and got to work.

Or: Quỳnh and Andy take a three-millennia walk down memory lane.

Or: 5 items from Andy’s past that weren’t the right gift for Nile, and 1 that was. Fic by astraea215, art and beta reading by sassy_wartime_nun.

(Fully written, mostly edited, will post as everything gets finalized)

It’s up! It’s up! My big beautiful giant baby is finally making its debut!

#fanfic

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The first time Yusuf dies, it happens too quickly for him to be scared. The second time he dies, he is too confused by it being the second time he has died to be scared. But the third time - the third time he is terrified. He is so afraid of waking up again. It is the last time he will feel such fear on his own behalf. The next time Yusuf feels that terror, it is the first time Nicolò dies at someone else's hands, because what if their strange gift only applies to each other? Then, the first time Nicolò dies from something other than violence. The first time Nicolò dies and Yusuf is not there. But the gift has no such restrictions, and the fear fades again. It returns when they learn about Lykon, a great roaring conflagration of horror that never quite goes out. The coals are only banked, not extinguished. They flare up again when Quynh is lost. When Andy is mortal and there's a bloody halo on the floor he can't make himself look at. It's been years now since he felt that fear. He holds a broad liver-spotted hand in his own, veined and knobbly fingers intertwined. He never feared death before; he still doesn't, though he knows it approaches, the final death, the one from which they will not wake. His fear was always being trapped in a life he could not bear but could not leave, a cage as agonizing and inescapable as Quynh's had been. The cage door is open. The fire is out. Here, now, ancient and frail and fading, they are free.

#joe x nicky #<3<3<3 #fanfic

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it's been more than a year since i've last written anything (apart from academic writing)

i could blame the time that is never enough, but the reality is that work has been suppressing all my creativity

my life will change in august, drastically. new workplace, new colleagues. new country. new language (which i still don't speak).

but working conditions should be better and i hope to find again the energy to go back to what has been my passion since i learned how to write my name.

in the meanwhile, if you receive notifications about me posting stuff, ignore them. I am posting all my old fanfiction in italian on ao3 (for archive reasons). I made a new pseudonym so in principle you shouldn't receive emails but i'm not sure how ao3 works in this sense.

#about me #personal #this year has been rough for everybody we should all be kind to ourselves #i hope that sweden will bring back my will to write

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Fandom Trumps Hate Old Guard Round-Up

For those not familiar with @fandomtrumpshate, it's a great way to support some very good causes. The way it works is, creators offer custom fanworks or services. Then other fans bid on them. Whoever has the highest bid at the end of the bidding period donates that amount of money to one of the selected non-profits and submits proof of donation. And then they get the fanwork or service as a thank-you gift.

And there are a bunch of offerings this year specifically for The Old Guard!

Fic

Aqua / sal-si-puedes

astrabear (me!)

beepbeepsan

Captain Lilja

flawlessassholes

Griselda Gimpel

HSavinien

nerdsandthelike

sharkie335

thewalrus_said

Podfic

AirgiodSLV

Flowerparrish

thirdspin

vexbatch

Art

goldheartedsky

seanchaidh7

zairaalbereo

Other

sharkie335 (beta reading with specialist expertise)

slashmarks/basketofnovas (meta/analysis)

Please check out the auction and consider bidding! There's a lot of talent here.