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#paracosm: heroes #for the garden

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microdoses on emotional vulnerability by Imagining talking to my friends about my feelings instead of actually talking to my friends about said feelings

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Marie Howe, from Magdalene: Poems; “Walking Home”

#this is most of my paras #but actually I’ll tag #para: emily #para: randall #paracosm: happy haunts

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i feel like that there’s some weird nerd movie critic sitting in my mind and pointing out stuff in my paracosm, so i always change things to make it more believable/not cringe i guess???

i really have to remind myself more that all of this is in my head and i don’t have to explain shit to everyone and just go ham

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requested by  @levinson-mannion

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y.2.k.s

#para: aimi #paracosm: angels among us

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Me: wow i wish i had better social skills to talk about my madd online and with other people

My brain: that is literally why you have madd

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#para: emily #paracosm: happy haunts

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happy holidays madd tumblr! 🎄💫

(and if you’re choosing to celebrate with the most self indulgent holiday-themed daydreams possible, then nobody’s judging you. so am i.)

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here’s to all the madders!

the ones who just learned about madd

the ones who have known for years

neurodivergent madders

madders who are battling other mental illnesses like depression and anxiety

the ones whose madd was a trauma response

madders with other mental illnesses that they’re dealing with

recovering madders who are starting to get their shit together and are helping the others

madders who are still struggling to deal with their daydreams and aren’t quite sure what to do

lgbtq+ and poc madders

older madders juggling college/their careers and madd

younger madders dealing with school

madders who have an offline support system

madders who haven’t told anyone outside of the online community about their madd

questioning madders

madders who created original paras and paracosms

madders with paras and paracosms from existing media

ALL THE MADDERS!

we’re all dealing with this shitty disorder that there isn’t a lot of research about and that a lot of people don’t know about and it sucks ass. i will be the first to admit it. and despite all of that, we’ve created this amazing and supportive community of thousands of people all across the world who know what it’s like, and we’re lifting each other up and giving each other advice and creating our own unique brand of humour and just…making this shitty disorder a little more bearable. i think i can speak for most, if not all of us when i say that the madd community, with its wonderful madders, is one of the best things in my life. to all of you amazing madders out there, i love you, so much. i know it’s difficult feeling split between two worlds, and being unsure of your identity, and feeling foreign in your own body, looking in the mirror and seeing a stranger. i know that a lot of times we hate all the dissociation and derealization and intrusive daydreams and sometimes physical injuries that tag along with this disorder that never seems to take a fucking vacation. i know that recovery seems daunting and terrifying, and we fear losing the last tiny shards of ourselves that we haven’t lost, and we are scared of having to rebuild ourselves with this crutch that has become such a constant for us. i know.

and it’s okay. it’s okay that we’re unsure, that we don’t know how to cope and which way to go next. it’s okay that sometimes we feel far to reliant on our daydreams to even function normally. and i can’t promise that it will just go away in a day, a month, a year or even multiple. but i can promise that we will always be there for each other. there is a beautiful and complex and vibrant world outside of our daydreams that is worth living in, and maybe one day, we’ll have kept on supporting each other and kept on working towards it, and we’ll realize it isn’t as hard to get there. so, thank you to every single madder. thank you for existing and being incredible.

<3

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madd culture is forgetting to reply to online conversations a lot/putting it off by accident because you were daydreaming

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sick of feeling so empty when reality hits

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#para: emily #paracosm: happy haunts #except emily has darker hair #but otherwise

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Come on, dance with me. The earth is spinning. We can't just stand on it.

To everyone who believes that books are magic.

#para: theodore #paracosm: puzzle pieces

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Pov: You’re a camera in a Maladaptive Daydreamer’s room

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#paracosm: dechambeau school for mages #para: kailey #specifically

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me: *makes a blog about my disorder and makes friends with people with the same disorder*

also me: *does not post on said blog or talk to said friends because of said disorder*

#meeeeeee