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Dreams are only of use to those who have the luxury of denying reality.
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Sorry if this doesn’t make sense but how do you… art? Like from looking at your art, there’s just so many different fandoms and it’s all fantastic!! How do you not stick to one or feel like you *have* to stick to one? Sorry
Aw Friend! No need to apologize! :D You asked your question plenty politely! That's a really interesting question actually, and I'm fascinated to be asked it! Because I actually do know the kinda thing you're talking about! or at least I have experiences that feel like they line up with what you're asking. A lot of its... growing up? I guess? And not in the sense of like. becoming an adult. but the non-stop process of growing and learning more about life. When I was younger, an actual child, I just Did it. I drew whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I didn't question hoping to a new interest or drawing different fandoms. I just did it. But the older you get the more complicated a lot of things get right? 😔 That was true for me.
I actually spent several years terrified, of moving on. Of leaving old fandoms behind. There was one fandom I actually forced myself not to leave for like... 2 years? Because I was afraid of all the projects I wouldn't complete, all the stories I wouldn't tell, all the art i wouldn't make. But honestly that was a horrible decision? It burnt me out of the specific fandom SO BADLY. Its only been around this last year that I've been able to enjoy things around it again without an overhanging shadow of stress.
I was still scared to fandom hop after that incident tho. Despite having gotten burned by caving to my own fears. It wasn't until I got into Trigun that I actually started to get less scared. A friend I met in that fandom, someone who was older than me, told me that... things have a way of coming back around. If you know the song "Everything Stays" From Adventure time? She said it was like that song. You will inevitably get older. But these things won't be gone. And you can always come back to them :) That clicked in my brain... and it took a bit longer, a bit more time of accepting that fact for me to find peace... but honestly? I kinda have now. At least for this moment in time. I wouldn't be surprised if the fear comes back around again, fear is funny and insidious like that. But I have the tools to beat it now :) The other two things I would mention are these: For starters: this might be obvious? But I'm a hobbyist artist. I don't make money off of my art, I don't sell it, I don't need numbers or clout in order to pay my bills. I'm completely free to do my own thing! Ain't nothing wrong with making a living off of your artwork and if that's the path that you want to walk GO FOR IT. But that path does have its own challenges. Because I don't walk that path, I am free to make whatever I want, without worrying about how it might reflect on my finances. The other thing is...
PERFECTIONISM...
THIS, NASTY LITTLE VILE COCKROACH, WILL RUIN YOUR ART LIFE SO BADLY ITS INSANE. It will ruin your NORMAL life super fast too 😔 it is an insidious little shoulder devil telling you, that you will be happier if you just do it the "perfect" way. IT IS SO SO SO SO SO SO WRONG. That is the key to the door of endless procrastination and broken dreams. SFLJSLF to get less metaphorical about it though: If you're always waiting for the perfect moment to make art for a fandom, to leave a fandom, to join a fandom (in this case i just mean "Get into the thing that interests you" when I say "Fandom") or create literally anything, you will be waiting forever. I know because i have been :') And its made it very hard to draw both in my past, and right now this very day.
Truthfully i'm still working on that one??? I've had some epiphanies recently that have helped a lot with my perfectionism... but I haven't tried drawing since having them? (drowning in the new Honkai Star Rail Patch WHEEZE) So uh. Not sure If I'm over that hill yet xD But yeah, if that's one piece of advice i could give you to take seriously, its don't chase perfection, in ANYTHING. Especially art. It will never be enough for you. And if you're doing it for other people, it will never be enough for them. Art is wonderful and messy, and human. And that is okay.
Its taken me a lot of soul diving and thinking and a lot of help from outside influence and kind people for me to figure this stuff out too. So don't feel bad to ask for help kay? We all need help. A lot xD I'm still not like, the king this stuff either. There are a lot of smaller, more niche, fandoms, I want to draw for, but still haven't, because of my own anxiety and embarrassment. There are fandoms I haven't drawn for because I don't feel like i have the adequate amount of information to be, ""allowed"" too (which is totally a fake standard btw, there is no barrier to entry for when you're "allowed" to draw something). I'm working on these problems every day.
Oh actually one last note: People can influence how hard it is for you to draw for a bunch of fandoms too. If you know you'll get made fun of for drawing something, its hard to draw. If you know you'll get praised for drawing something, sometimes that makes it easier to draw. Both of those things can mess you up BAD. Constantly drawing for other people (when its not a deliberate gift) can make you feel really upset and angry, and dissonant with your artwork.
But it can be equally as hard to realize nobody will share your enthusiasm if you don't draw what they like. That's not a judgement against anybody's friendships, we all got our own interests, and nobody can be 100% Invested in everything their friends enjoy. But It can make it a bit more emotionally challenging sometimes. And it can be hard to like?? Emotionally deal with that? in a way it makes art that you know will perform well, either with your friend group or online, like... "Candy". Its tastes good, but it doesn't give you long term energy (ie there's nothing wrong with it, but its not sustainable as your only form of sustenance) Meanwhile making art that is purely self indulgent is like eating a full and healthy meal. It gives you that long term energy of personal satisfaction, and your enjoyment and happiness also doesn't inherently hinge on whether or not other people appreciate it like you do. Obviously there's no issue if what you genuinely want to draw would also do well online/with your friends!
ANYWAYS, yeah, I'm still maturing and learning and growing with a lot of my opinions and perspectives and emotions on this stuff? Its definitely easier said than done, and while from the outside it looks effortless... I understand why you'd be struggling anon. I hope you can figure it out for yourself too! Best of luck :D also i could go on and on and on about this topic for years because alsjdfaksjdflJSDJGSD ooohhhhhhh boy I have learned and witnessed and thought many a thunk.
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insertsomthinawesome · 2 months
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Placing this down. Hello! I was the anon asking about side profiles! I was debating whether or not to show it but here’s the March 7th profile I did, no clue why I drew her angry. Still getting used to profiles, but I’m positive I’ll improve at it over time. Hope you had a great break! Welcome back!! ⭐️
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OOOH!!! HI HELLO THERE!!!!! 👋Aw thank you for sharing! OOH SHE LOOKS LOVELY!!!!! OOOH!!!! OOH!!! YOu draw such nice hair!!! It looks so fluffy??? Its very clean too! But the shape of it is very very satisfying! I love Her face shape oooh you did such a good job with the side profile!!! What a good nose and jaw!!! Really really nailed the expression too! I can see the rage and anger. Its really protrayed well. Genuinely friend this looks awesome! Really Really good. You absolutely will improve over time! And it looks to me like you're already off to an amazing start :D (Also LSDFJSD On the angry thing, that's such a mood. Sometimes you just draw a character with an emotion because its fun xD) AW THANK YOU!! It was a very productive break thank you :D Glad to be back
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checking lord morax's human form
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love this trio
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New art to commemorate Break The Ice rerun on CN!
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Peace talks
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sobbing over this dungeon meshi page....
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I don't even play gacha games, but being on Tumblr I absorb a lot of information about them against my will, and I have to admit it is in fact extremely funny that a. the limiting resource in Arknights is your characters' mental health, and b. the items that restore mental health are a series of increasingly unethical experimental combat drugs, and then you hit the top of the item tier list and the most powerful mental health restoring item of all is an ordinary fast food hamburger.
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i might be dumb alskdfj but i stg i scoured your blog and your DA for the art in your icon and i can't find it omg can u link it pls ;w;
YOU'RE NOT DUMB AT ALL! I'M SORRY ANON I FEEL SO BAD, THAT ART ISN'T POSTED ANYWHERE ALSKJFSDLKJAGDSG ITS A DOODLE I COLORED IN AND SLAPPED DOWN AS MY AVATAR ON A WHIM
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THIS IS IT SLDFKJDLKJSDG
Wrio: Still alive tho Sigewinne: Your Grace that's not as reassuring as you think it is.
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Gods I’m obsessed with how you draw jaws and chins I always want to eat your art style
HAHAHA AW ANON THANK YOU I APPRECIATE THIS COMPLIMENT A LOT <3 <3 <3 alkdsjflkSJDLGSDJ BONE APPLE TEA ANON, ENJOY THE FREE FOOD. MUNCH AWAY.
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welcome back!! <3
Thank you!!! :D 💜
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I WAS THE ANON THAT ASKED ABOUT SIDE PROFILES!!! I JUST SAW YOUR POST (About time tumblr) SO HELLO!! HI!!! YOU HELPED ME SO MUCH!!! I ENDED UP DRAWING MARCH 7TH TO PRACTICE WITH AND IT ENDED UP LOOKING GREAT!!! I CAN’T THANK YOU ENOUGH!!!! THANK YOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUU
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OKAY I'M SO GLAD IT REACHED YOU!!!!!! YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I AM SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT FRIEND AW YES!!!!! (if You want to share i will gladly see it 👀) YOU'rE SO WELCOME FRIEND!! I'm legit so happy to be able to help you out!! You are going to be an amazing artist friend >:D
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Heads up to anybody who has just started getting into Dungeon Meshi (Delicious in Dungeon) because of the anime! Or just people who are starting the manga I will rebloging some VERY LATE GAME Spoiler arts. They will be tagged with "Dungeon Meshi Spoilers". I've read 99% of the manga (i legit just need to read like... the last chapter. help akdsljfLDSKJDSG) and with the influx of new shiny art i wanna get some reblogs in at some point.
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I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!! Okay so honestly I have been very very inconsistent over the years with just disappearing for periods of time due to various things 😂 So it probably seemed pretty normal to most people.
But it felt different on my side, so I'm excited to be back in business. I took a month long hiatus! 31 days of not drawing digital art. Its not something I talk about on here? But I've been suffering from some serious long term Art Burnout for.... a really really long time. Long enough that I should've taken a break probably years ago. It finally got so bad that I could barely draw. I was scared to do it (cause it always looked "bad" in my eyes [i'll come back to that]) and doing it was exhausting and disheartening.
I talked it over with somebody and realized that the fear and anger and frustration I felt towards my own artwork was uh. Not Normal or Healthy. And I finally committed to taking a real break for once.
I still drew a little bit by hand? Traditional art has always felt like it has lower stakes for me (i don't often share it online, and sometimes I don't even share it with friends) so I did some of that when I felt like it. But Digital art was completely off the table.
I had put such an immense pressure on myself to make my digital art perfect, to make as much of it as quickly as possible to satisfy something. It wasn't fun anymore. I'm proud of what i've made over the years! But for a long time now the stuff I've been making was made while hating every second of making it. With some rare exceptions.
I hated my art! It was a combination of Perfectionism, taking in too many external expectations, and the burnout. If you hate doing something its kinda hard to love it even when you want too lol. It wasn't "Bad" in the sense that the quality was low and it was ugly! It was "Bad" in the sense that it was unhealthy for me to keep doing it at that point in time.
I'm glad to report though, that with my hiatus officially over as of Wednesday last week: I am once again. In Love. With doing art, and being an artist :)
I put off taking a break for years cause I was scared that taking a break would mean that I would never achieve all the things I wanted to do with art. I was scared it was a stupid and lazy thing to do that would mean I'd never achieve my dreams. And Also even though I kinda hated drawing, I also loved making art. Its a weird duality that I can't even really explain??? I hated it but I also loved it. I wanted it but I also wanted to run from it. It wasn't until I was more mature and had more clarity and insight (and unfortunately also until the problems got worse) that I was finally able to let go of those fears and just do it.
And I'm really really glad I did. It was everything I needed. And I hope to strike a better balance in the future with art. Taking more breaks when I need them, or just when other things have my attention like reading or Video games (Some star rail got played during this time xD)
From the outside things probably aren't going to be that different?? At this point I don't really have any sure plans to post anything I've been drawing since my Hiatus ended. I might or I might not xD I'm still a hobbyist artist taking things at her own pace, but I hope that it shows how much happier I am :)
Whumptober 2023 is being officially put to rest by this post btw! I was in major burnout when that event started, and I'm ready to just, move on from all the past expectations I'd shoved on my shoulders. If I feel like filling any of the prompts or going back to any of the ideas I'd come up for it I will! But I'm not going to worry about doing it unless the desire sets in. Thanks to everybody who's been so kind to me throughout my time on here as an artist! Ya'lls tags and screaming and kind words, the fanfic, the asks and the responses? Its been fantastic :) You guys have made me laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy. I hope from here that things only get better and sweeter! And if I have bad days again, that's okay too.
Here's to 2024 and whatever it may bring ya'll :D 🎉🎉✨✨🧡💜
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