Maybe I noticed you first, and I didn’t know how to tell you. Maybe before you sketched your first portrait of me, I wrote my first song about you. Maybe before you painted your first portrait of me, I hummed my first song about you.
I can’t remember the first time I saw you. You were a blurry picture at first because I only saw you through passing glances. If you caught me staring, I feared, my world would catch fire! Maybe that seems irrational now, but my fear was not baseless. My face had been burning scarlet since you appeared in one of those dull school hallways. Maybe you didn’t notice.
I remember the first time I heard you say my name, though. It happened in one of those dull school hallways. You were walking with Heechul. He tended to walk two steps ahead of you. How did you keep up with him?
Maybe it wasn’t easy for you to keep up. You were out of breath, wheezing, when you told Heechul, “You better not tell Yesung that I like him! If you do, I’ll never forgive you.”
Smirking, Heechul stilled. You crashed into him. His smirk blossomed into a full smile as he grabbed you around to the shoulders to steady you. “Don’t kid yourself,” he said. “You couldn’t hold a grudge against me if you tried.”
The glare you shot at Heechul wasn’t even slightly intimidating. While Heechul howled with laughter, I snorted. I hid the sound by slamming my locker closed.
I don’t think you noticed. Still glaring at Heechul, you said, “I’m serious. I would be embarrassed enough if Yesung found out how much I like him. I’d be embarrassed and furious if he learned from your big mouth.”
“Hide your sketchbook a little better, then,” Heechul taunted. He reached for your little sky-blue book, but you shrank away from him. “You’ve said, what, two words to each other? Wouldn’t be embarrassing if he saw—”
Heechul stopped talking the moment you turned away from him. Hugging your sketchbook against your chest, you sped down the hallway.
I brushed past Heechul on my walk toward you. I tried to catch up, but I don’t think you noticed. You were too far ahead. You were too quick for me.
I couldn’t catch my breath for the rest of the day. I was still breathless when I sat in my corner of the music room that afternoon. I tore a blank piece of sheet music out of my notebook, and on it I wrote my first letter to you.
I wrote to tell you, I like you.
And, It would be embarrassing if you knew how much I like you.
And, Maybe it would be more embarrassing if you never knew how much I like you.
And, Definitely it would be more embarrassing if I was too afraid to tell you how much I like you.
And, I’ve never been shy, but I don’t know how to say the first word to you.
And, Maybe you could show me your sketchbook sometime.
And, Maybe I could show you my songbook sometime.
And, I don’t mind if I’m your muse.
And, Maybe you were mine first.
And, I’ve written songs about the way you look from my corner of the cafeteria.
And, I’ve written songs about the way you might sound saying my name.
And, I’ve written songs about the way I dream you might look at me if you, if I, if we—if we could walk together for a while.
people ask me, what water I want to be. I thought a lot about the ocean, but it seems to me that oasis suited me more. I want to be a man, like an oasis in the desert.
XIUMIN's 2024 Bucket List:
1. Have a good body!
2. Do solo concert!
3. If it's possible, participate in tennis competition!
"See each other often, see each other for a long time, let's love steadily"
Bunny Myeon's 2024 Bucket List:
Love EXO-L more
Be thankful of all things
Always stay humble
"Hope all luck falls upon EXO-L! Let's be happier with EXO this year!"
Kyoong's 2024 Bucket List:
Make muscles again
Becoming best singer
Try to meditate
Make Teolaegi's younger sibling
"Eris I will give you a 2024 filled with happy memories~ ❤️ Stay healthy and happy always!"
CHEN's 2024 Bucket List:
Work out constantly
Get a health check up
Have a hobby
"Happy new year 2024, health is the most important one!!"
LOEY's 2024 Bucket List:
Solo album!
Working out
EXO-L, family, Zzar, everyone has to have good health!
"In 2024! Let's meet more!"
Kyungsoo's 2024 Bucket List:
Constantly exercise
Keep eating delicious foods
Go backpacking for more than a month
"Fighting in 2024 too!! Be careful of catching cold!!"
SEHUN's 2024 Bucket List:
Say good things
Positive thoughts
Work Out
"Work out, have positive thoughts and say good things with me!"
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