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He looks so proud when he says, "my home race".

50 days until Monaco Grand Prix - I'm so not ready...

🎥 leclercsletters

#i have been in church praying for monaco 2024 #i am in the pews Kneeling. hands folded in supplication. i have been so good during lent #surely god will hear my prayers and he will win in monaco this year #charles leclerc #f1

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#i mean this in the nicest way possible but i hate Dog People #me sobbing in the bathroom when i found out lewis is the Dog Person of All Time #but also for lewis.... ig roscoe has rights #lewis hamilton #f1

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AUSTRALIA 2024; 📸: Sam Bloxham

#save me 2025 ferrari drivers save me #lewis hamilton #charles leclerc #f1

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literally article line of all time

#media try not to write poetry about charles challenge: failed #but also i read this article and it's really interesting how even though it's about both sai and charles the article really kinda focuses o #charles. and everything they say about carlos is.... not very nice? that's not the right word but i dont know what other word i can use #the part where carlos automatically signs his name lower so charles' name can be up front..... #also tom lamont is a little in love with charles and i truly believe that #but the other parts of the article where they talked about maranello i found vvvv interesting #the streets painted rosso corsa the baby stroller ferrari red jesus apparently wearing ferrari red #the church bells ringing when ferrari wins. the priest that raced ferraris with a rosary clenched between his teeth.... #you could write this in a movie and id be like 'that's too on the nose' but ferrari really is just like that #also the way tom seems to write about charles being favored.... inject it straight into my veins #charles leclerc #carlos sainz #scuderia ferrari #f1

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this is crazy i would’ve killed myself

#everytime i think about abu dhabi 2021 #i get murderous #crying and sobbing: he should've had his 8th already #lewis hamilton #f1

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"evan, i find you adorable". adorable as in able to be adored. as in capable of being adored. as in i find you worthy of adoration. adorable, from the latin adorare (to worship) to adorabilis (in the sense 'worthy of divine worship') to the current day adorable. as in maybe if we had made it to the movies or if eddie didn't show up, i could've showed you just how much i want to worship you. as in i look at you and there is a font of adoration in my heart for you. adorable as in i flew into a hurricane with you and yet this date is a thousand times more thrilling than that. adorable as in there is a person in your building who saw me jump up and down like a little kid in the lobby after i had kissed you for the first time. adorable as in i kissed you and immediately thought fuck i could do this forever if he lets me. adorable as in i want to press kisses to your birthmark. adorable as in i spent the entirety of the days leading up to our date wondering about you, if you liked your coffee with two sugars or one. if you liked storms or if the lightning strike had put you off on them all together. if you liked cats or dogs or if you were the kind of weirdo who liked goats instead. if you thought about the kiss as often as i did. if your stomach tangled into twisted knots as saturday drew closer. if you would be agreeable to sitting in my lap. if you would blush as prettily as you did the day i kissed you. if your world also realigned when our lips met. if our orbits had matched up now that we flew into a hurricane together. if the gravitational pull between us had finally been too strong for either of us to resist that night in your loft. or maybe, more simply, adorable as in, "evan, i find you adorable."

#SOMEBODY SEDATE ME #what is this #i heard that line and was like how can i wax poetry about this #tommy kinard the man that you are #like it was just an interesting line to me. it literally keeps me up at night #and then tommy immediately following it up with 'i just dont think you're ready yet' #because it's true!!! idt buck was ready for the restaurant and maybe if buck had told tommy this was his first 'dude date' #they could've picked a more secluded spot and maybe then the movies could've still happened and they could've sat in the back #as some stupid movie plays onscreen but buck would ever so carefully tangle his hands with tommy's bigger ones and tommy would #squeeze them once and buck would be so nervous he wouldn't be able to look at tommy and would stare resolutely ahead at the movie he #doesn't care about but the whole time he'd be thinking about the way tommy holds him so gently but eddie did happen and buck is freaking ou #so tommy steps back and tells evan 'i dont think youre ready' w/ the implication being call me when you are and he puts the ball back in #evan's court. and maybe tommy thinks that's the end of it. it takes people years to be ready. hell it took him years to be ready except #beautiful brave evan calls him less than a week later and says 'maybe i'm not ready but if there's anyone i'd like to find out w/ it'd be y #i need to be sedated #911 abc #evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #buck x tommy #911 spoilers #911 season 7

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walki with me... tommy kinard calling buck "baby"..... tommy kinard kissing buck..... tommy kinard gently holding buck's waist.... tommy kinard making buck laugh.... tommy kinard listening to buck ramble with stars in his eyes.... tommy kinard peppering kisses all over buck's face as buck blushes..... tommy kinard letting buck set the pace for their relationship..... tommy kinard calling buck "evan".... buck learning to love his own name because how can he not when tommy says it so gently..... buck sitting in tommy kinard's lap..... buck getting hurt on a call and tommy is there right away taking care of him.... buck waking up in the morning with his head pillowed on tommy kinard's chest as the sunlight streams in through the window and casts tommy in a sort of halo and his breath catches and buck is so happy he made it through his twenties and the tsunami and truck falling on him and the embolism and the lightning strike and any of other myriad of ways the universe has had it out for him because he gets to wake up to tommy motherfucking kinard in his bed as the sunlight gently cradles them in her embrace

("baby," tommy says, eyes still closed, less than two seconds later, hand brushing along buck's spine to card his fingers through buck's hair, "you're thinking too loud. go back to sleep."

buck honest to god flushes at the endearment. because that's what he is, tommy's baby. he's tommy's baby. jesus fucking christ, he feels like combusting. burying his head in his boyfriend's (boyfriend!!!) chest, buck tries not to whine.

"don't wanna," he whispers, peeking up at tommy, "wanna look at you."

tommy's other arm comes up to settle along his waist and buck wants to, fuckin', purr or whatever with how right it feels. tommy cracks open his eyelids to peer down at him.

"evan," his boyfriend (boyfriend!!!) says fondly.

and that's another thing he never knew about himself until he started dating tommy. he loves his name. not his nickname or his last name or buckaroo or any variant of that but his first name. he fuckin' loves the name "evan" or maybe he just likes the way tommy says it. and tommy has so many ways he says buck's name.

there's a soft, whispered "evan" in the mornings, and fond "evan" in the afternoons. there's an "evan" that tommy says like he's holding 3 tons of solid gold in his hands. there's an "evan" that he can barely get out through his laughs when buck bursts out with a fun fact at a wrong time. there's a choked-off, bitten, "ev-" when they're in bed at night and tommy can't believe buck is under him, gorgeous and panting. and there's the panicked "EVAN!" on a call gone wrong and there's an angry "evan" when buck doesn't take care of himself and there's a worried, two-syllable "ev-an" when he comes home with more bruises than he left with and there's-,

well the point is that there's a lot of different "evan"s that tommy says these day. he's going to catalogue them all one day. like his very own personal auditory archive. something to pull out on his off days.

"evan," tommy says fondly, "i'm not goin' anywhere sweetheart. i'll be here when you wake up. so go back to sleep, i'll be right where you left me."

and well-, buck forgets sometimes that this is a two-way street. that he may be tommy's baby but tommy's his boyfriend too. that tommy's practically required by law to be here when he wakes up. (oh by law?, he can almost hear his boyfriend snark. buck's bites the inside if his cheek to stop himself from giggling.) and more than some vague, ephemeral, Boyfriend Laws™️, tommy wants to be here when he wakes up. this is something tommy is actively choosing to do.

so when tommy says, "go back to sleep sweetheart" and "i'm not going anywhere, evan", well, who is buck to question that? he burrows deeper into the warm cocoon tommy has made, and let's his boyfriend's heartbeat lull him back to sleep.)

#are you still walking with me? #sorry about the word vomit at the end. this was supposed to be a joke post and then the bucktommy brainrot hit #nearly collapsed at work yesterday thinking about tommy calling buck 'baby' #and buck learning to love his name because of the multitude of ways tommy says it.... that's the good shit #they're endgame to me. like i still love buddie but like even if we never get buddie..... bucktommy is good for me #buck and tommy trying to hide their relationship except buck gets hurt on call one day and tommy comes running over and is so worried #he outs them. just gently calling buck 'baby' by accident in front of 118 and buck who is hurt and just wants comfort leaning into the #warmth tommy provides. well now i am just giving you a summary of 'all i know since yesterday everything has changed' by perfectlysunny #great fic btw. adore it. i rotate it in my head all the time. #911 abc #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard

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Sorry, not sorry

#love the addition of jimikkis on tim's side. love the implications it brings #unfortunately i cannot see tim as anything but white so to me he bought those as an engagement gift for bear #south indian!bernard dowd my beloved #like when i first saw his mom i already thought she was indian #wasian!bernard??? i see the vision #hold on this has to be a whole seperate post #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #dc

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that convo in 7x05? "i'm an ally" "well now you're... more than an ally" / "can we go back to the pronoun?" "that's not the point" "could be very much the point" / buck catastrophizing about not being a good bisexual as maddie is going through whiplash / "[...] dinner and a movie and i didnt even make it to the movie" ".... wow" "what 'wow'?" / maddie and buck siblings of all time!!!!

#that little 'wow' maddie says and buck immediately going Younger Sibling with the 'what 'wow'?' #and then maddie immediately going 'no! no! it's cool! ily!!' #she's not just any old big sister. she's a Cool Big Sister #siblings of all time #maddie buckley #evan buckley #the buckley siblings #911 abc #i love when i adamantly refuse to get into the firefighter show only to then get into the firefighter show

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Honestly? Shoutout to those of you who are completely fucking lost in life. Those who don’t know what they want to do with life. Those who are stuck in a certain part of life and can’t get out. Those who are reaching for dreams they feel are impossible to reach. Those who feel like they’re accomplishments are being overlooked. Those who feel like their enough just isn’t enough. It is. You can make it. You will make it. There is an opening at the end of the tunnel.

#me looking at myself in the bathroom mirror through clenched teeth: i will be something i will be something i will be something i will be so #queue are my destiny

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brocedes x the affliction by marie howe (insp)

#that one set of tags on a pic of brocedes in 2008 where it said 'nico is never more beautiful to lewis than one step below him' #the height.... the composition #lewis looking down!! smiling. nico jet ski with his daughter #i was going to the pool with my two daughters he was going to the racetrack #we laugh until our ribs get tough but that will never be enough (i want it back i want it back i want it backiwantitbackiwantitbackiwantitb #brocedes #nico rosberg #lewis hamilton #f1

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enbW behind the scenes (posted on linkedin)

#NICO ROSBERG GET OFF LINKEDIN AND GET ON INSTAGRAM #please #nico rosberg #f1

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do you think a 5'4 and 6'2 height difference is predatory?

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#is this what people think when they see me with a man???? #for context i am 4'11 #jesus christ #i think mayhaps we have lost the plot a little bit #queue are my destiny

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#SAILOR MOOON #FIGHTING EVIL BY MOONLIGHT #WINNING LOVE BY DAYLIGHT #NEVER RUNNING FROM A REAL FIGHT #SHE IS THE ONE NAMED SAILOR MOON #queue are my destiny #lirika matoshi

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Who let this man dress himself in 2008?

#Nico loved him when he looked like this. that's how you know it was real #<- prev so real #i love fics where lewis is like 'nico what the fuck are you wearing?' bc now i get to have nico pull out these pics #lewis hamilton #f1

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PEW PEW PEW PEW PEW

Another archive (pt 7? Idk)

Watch part 6 here

#he needs to do this next year in ferrari #equip charles with one too #i just think it'll be funny #lewis hamilton #f1

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#if we're being quite honest idrc about carlos #but this.... this i can get behind #such a normal thing for two coworkers #if they didn't want us writing rpf maybe they should be normal about each other #carlos sainz jr #lando norris #carlando #f1