iti-san

[iti-san]

homesick

i thought of you and to my very core

i felt homesick; and i hated that so much

to have this feeling associated with you

cause all i wanna do is run into your arms

and be pressed up against your arms

holding me; and yes that’s all i want

right now as i think of all the things

that make me happy, your face floats

in and out of focus, cause missing you

is the hardest thing i’ve ever had to go 

through; and i’m afraid that maybe you don’t.

i look at my friends, and their perfect

love stories, well ours is still ongoing;

but i can’t help but think if its come to a halt

and i hate thinking this way, its like my brain

has gone in a hyperdrive trying to fish for 

reasons to not lose hope; and that’s when 

i realised how hopeless i’ve become.

how much you’ve become a part of my life

and i hate that i don’t want you to be my past

cause all i wanna do is lie next to you right now.

as we lie next to each other and i look

into the bottomless pits of your eyes,

i will have known true comfort;

and i never imagined i’d be so forlorn over you

and i never imagined i’d be pouring my 

heart out like this at 1 fuckin’ 30 pm

but its how i feel, and for once i don’t regret

spilling out my heart like this;

confronting my feelings: raw, is the best

thing i will have done and i won’t be sorry.

i keep replaying the scene in my head

when we finally meet; i’ll run into your arms

finally feeling safe; finally feeling loved.

and i’d look into your eyes and smile against

your embrace, forgetting my troubles in that

moment and you will have become mine

and i, yours; finally feeling content

finally feeling at peace with no war raging inside of me;

finally living the moment i will have always dreamt of;

finally feeling at home… -AM

#homesick #feeling #love #dark poetry #poetry #expression #dark academia #poemsdaily #my thoughts #relationship

[iti-san]

love is scary, but i love it

sometimes it scares the shit out of me that i love this person so much. it scares me how i can go to any lengths just to know if they’re okay. it scares me that i’ve never felt like this before and it scares me that i won’t feel this way again. never did i once think that being truly entranced by someone’s beauty, be it inner or outer, would have me encapsulated so bad. its strangely addicting, this feeling of wanting to be someone’s “someone”.  

#love #iloveyou #romance #romanticism #dark academia #the one #hopeless romantic #it is what it could be #i miss him #i love him #he deserves the world #we love #taylor swift #romantic

[iti-san]

epiphany

i thought i had it bad, till i realised i didn’t. i’m so grateful for all the little things that i come across every single day. what would my life be like if i didn’t get to see the neighbour’s cat everyday. or if i didn’t get to see the kids running around on the playground trying to catch each other’s kites. what would my life be like if i never met my friends or if i never got to taste what my grandma’s infamous porridge was like. what would my life be like if i hadn’t had this epiphany and didn’t appreciate the autumn leaves changing colour. shades ranging from crimson to golden. the sky in its enormity offering us everything. 

#romanticism #reality #lifeiswhatyoumakeit #life is beautiful #i love earth #nature is amazing #dark academia #books #literature #hope #i hope it makes sense #positive #affirmations #self love #mentalheathawareness

[iti-san]

sometimes your presence is enough

sometimes the best thing we can do for a person is just be there for them. even if there’s nothing we can do. even if we can’t find the right words to comfort them. sometimes to just know that there’s still someone out there willing to be there, voluntarily wanting to stay there with them is enough. 

#mental breakdown #love #companionship #lifeiswhatyoumakeit #there is still hope #iloveyou #romanticism #presence #memories #literature #poetry #be kind #kindness #taylor swift #therapy #mentalheathawareness

[iti-san]

let me let you hold me close in a safe embrace as i reassure you of all the good times to come, of all the life to happen :)

#romanticise your life #romanticism #romance #loverelationship #dark academism #dark academia #light academia #one sided crush #taylornation #taylor swift #i love you #classic lit quotes #tumblr #art

[iti-san]

I WANT THIS

imagine preparing a meal w your lover in the home y’all made into a sanctuary together and you’re chopping up some vegetables or stirring a pot and you feed them a carrot or gently spoon some soup in their mouth to check if it needs more salt.. ... . ... yea .love is real i promise

#yeah i’m fantasizing on main..... ¿so! #you know you’re in love when you’ve cooked 4 times in your life yet you daydream about preparing a meal for someone #tumblr pls #i love you #romance #loverelationship #dark academism #dark academia #fantasy #daydream ideas #lostinabook #romanticism #romanticise your life

[iti-san]

yeah sex and all is cool but i miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain and it’s 2 am and i’m cursing your name, so in love that you act insane and that’s the way i loved you

#taylor swift #taylornation #swifties #i love you taylor #joe alwyn #romance #lover era #fearless #red taylor’s version #fearless taylor’s version #speak now taylor’s version

[iti-san]

can i put “violent imaginative skills in conjuring up romantic scenarios that will never happen to me irl” as a hobby?

#dark academism #dark academia #pinterest #romantic aesthetic #aestheitcs #imaginary world #romanticism #taylor swift #animelover #ghibli films #tumblr #romance #poetry #loverelationship #i love you

[iti-san]

reading poetry and realising you’ve been thinking about one person all along is a dangerous game

#dark academism #dark academia #loverelationship #my crush #feelings #romantic aesthetic #romanticism #poetry #romantichollywoodhindidubbedmovies #tumblr

[iti-san]

not me making my first ever post at 4am thinking i’m gonna wake up to a bunch of people following me

#tumblr #first post #is this how tumblr works #text post #relatable #i should sleep #sleep schedule

[iti-san]

“You’re not some blank canvas for others to project their interests onto. Own your OWN interests. Own your opinions, your thoughts. You are allowed to change yourself when you want, and commit yourself when you want. Of course you can share the interests of your friends and significant others, and you can dislike what you want. The keyword here is “YOU”. Just make sure you do it for YOU.”

— (learned the hard way, and forgiving myself daily)

#THIS IS SO IMPORTANT #empowerment #advice #self love

[iti-san]

this is exactly what it feels like

creative writing’s just like yeah sure i can deal with my issues i just need to cover them in several layers of metaphors first