itsleadingmeon

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this eating disorder has been the only thing that stayed throughout highschool

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tc bingo

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YALL today i found out i’ll have him as a teacher in the next semester again.

currently screaming crying and vomiting IM SO HAPPY

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storytime of how my tc made me scream inside #2

so as already mentioned, he has two kids which he showed me to and two weeks ago i think i was standing alone infront of school (no one was there yet since i arrived a little bit too early).

i was kneeling down cause i wanted to get something out of my school bag and suddenly i hear a ‘hello’ and i look up and there’s M smiling brightly at me with his little kid holding his hand staring up at me with the cutest eyes ever.

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quick story time of this hot tennis guy i had a moment with today

 so there's this guy (around the same age as my mom / 30+ my age) and I've found him attractive ever since I've seen him on the tennis court about a year ago. lets call him B. so B’s training is right after mine, which means i usually see him every week but ever since last summer ended i finish training earlier so i don't see him anymore unless i stay for an extra hour which i haven't done in a while though since the training is pretty late in the evening and playing tennis for 2 hours most of the time would be too much for me. means i haven't seen him in a longer while and adding to that I've also never talked to him before, only my mom did ( honestly i think she has a little crush on hi too if im honest)

before we continue little more info about B: he's a pretty tall brunette, has a beard which is most of the time trimmed neatly, looks pretty young for his age AND is a doctor. i know, super hot.

a year ago or so my mom talked to him and found out he has a son who is my age and goes to my school. so she told me his last name and let me tell you, i wanted to off myself. I've been having courses with B’s son for the past 5 years and I've talked to his son thousands of times before cause we get along pretty well (its like a love-hate friendship kinda thing cause most of the time we argue but were not that close of friends)

anyways so my mom told me to get with the son cause his dad is a doctor and has money - and i was like ‘i want the dad tho?’ (didn't tell her that)

back to what happened today. so i went to the tennis club with my mom (there was this match day for people older than me and i came to support my mom) and five minutes after we arrived B did too. when i saw him i was taken aback a little since i did not expect him to be there too. while everyone was waiting for the rest of the people to arrive, B always stood only a few feet away from me and we had eye contact lots of times, but i didn't think anything of it since he always looked away after we locked eyes. 

as the day goes on (i’ll leave out the boring stuff) we had eye contact many times and even when there was like this full room of people i noticed his eyes would find mine often, even when i wasn't the one looking first. sadly, i didn't talk to him today, except a little ‘thank you’ that i got from him when i threw him a ball that had gotten out of the field.

anyways the day went by pretty quickly and everyone gathered back in the club to talk and drink, but B decided to leave early, right as i was talking to my moms friend about school.

so he comes over to where were sitting, leans over me, says goodbye to everyone at the table and i turned around to say bye too cause i didn't realise it was B at first. and when i turned our eyes locked and my pulse went crazy when i realized it was B who was leaning over me like that. nevertheless i smiled and said goodbye. he didnt say anything for a second as he just looked at me with his hand kinda touching my shoulder (cause he was holding himself at the back of the chair i was sitting on) before he said bye too and lifted his hand WHAT SEEMED LIKE HE WANTED TO CARESS MY HEAD FOR A SECOND but then his hand stopped mid air and he pulled his hand back and just left.

i thought about that for the rest of the night and when we drove home my mom told me that B and her got along really well and THAT THEY TALKED ABOUT ME AND HIS SON????????? so he was probably looking at me the whole time cause he knows i know his son but i like to imagine it was because he thinks im cute.

anyways that's it.

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"eat or you might die" oh really i didn't know

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I feel the hunger rumbling in my stomach. The best feeling in the world

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I literally have no friends anymore no one will talk to me when I try make the effort this is so fucked up what have I done I pushed everyone away it's my fucking fault I shouldn't be surprised I wouldn't talk to me either

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currently crying

my mom wants to meet up with her girl friends which she hadn’t seen in a very long time so she asked my dad if they could go together and he said no. i told her, her and i could go together but now she doesn’t want to go anymore cause she’s embarrassed that her friends always show up with husband and kids and she always shows up alone cause my dad never wants to go :/

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i miss school him

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i went on a school trip with my tc

okay so there’s that.

little run down of what happend:

i saw him shirtless

we talked A LOT

he was face timing his children and he SHOWED ME TO THEM?

i was standing at the end of the stairs talking to my friend who was standing at the top of them and then i turned around to walk off the stairs and he was standing right there going “boo!” and when i tell you- his face was like AN INCH away from mine

he took a selfie on my phone. he held my phone in his hand.

this will be a little longer but i’ll try to keep it short: we went hiking and i but my head really hard (i literally almost cried) and ever since then he calls me ‘his little unicorn’ ????? SIR-

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story time of how my tc made me scream inside #1

(this is about M)

okay so this was around December 21' 

so im doing this thing in school where you're helping the 5th graders to get comfortable in school and help them find their way, basically just be there for them during their first year at the new school.

the first three year at my school you have swimming lessons instead of pe (literally trauma) and for that the kids need to take a bus right into the middle of the city which takes around 10 minutes from school and then walk another 10 until they arrive at the indoor pool. 

their teacher informed me and the others students in the team that we’d have to go with the class for their first few times so no one would get lost or go home or whatever. i was pretty excited for that already since i could skip two periods for that and afterwards me and the other team members went out for lunch every time. 

anyways so we went with the kids to the bus station and waited there for the bus to arrive and while we were standing there i asked them who their swim teacher was since we had to walk with them to the teacher and make sure they really arrive there. 

so i asked who their swim teacher was, totally expecting to hear the name of my old swim teacher or my now pe teacher cause she does swim lessons too, but then the girl just went *insert tc M name* and i was like ‘WHAT-’  then i remembered that he is a pe teacher so of course he'd teach swimming too.

so we went there and i was getting more and more nervous as we got closer to the building. when we arrived we got told by a worker to wait outside until a teacher would come and get the kids. so we stand there and wait. and me being me of course look into the building (just so you know there's this big glass wall where you can see the check-in) so ill be the first one to see M if he comes out.

five minutes later he did. in shorts and fucking tanktop. exposing his HUGE arms and the tattoo he has on one of them. and let me tell you, his arms had always looked so good under shirts or hoodies cause he's so goddamn muscular, but seeing them bare- 

i honestly don't know how i did it, but i basically went in there alone to talk to M about the kids and the second saw me he smiled and i melted right then and there.so i went over to him and he asked if everything went good and if all the kids were there and i said yes and then he told me to call in the kids so i did.

after all the kids went in and me and my classmates were the only ones left besides M. so we waited for him because we didn’t really know what to do.M walked over to us and stood next to me, smiling at all of us and telling us how he was glad we accompanied the kids so they arrived safely AND THEN HE PLACED HIS FUCKING HAND ON MY SHOULDER.

I REPEAT. HIS HAND ON MY SHOULDER and said something a long the lines of “thank you guys a lot, you can leave now” and i was just standing there frozen because he put his hand on my shoulder. 

after that we simply said bye and left to go for lunch and when i tell you i was sitting there almost crying of happiness because of his hand on my shoulder.

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storytime of how i developed a crush on my teacher

this is about my geography teacher which literally the whole school and their moms have a crush on. lets call him M.

more about M, he's really really tall and fine af. i honestly don't know how old he is but i think he's around 30ish and his personality is amazing, even when i didnt use to have crush on him he was my favorite teacher cause the way he teaches and behaves with the students is really amazing.

he has been my teacher for about 4-5 years so I've known him pretty long but I've only developed the crush on him like 3 years ago i think. one thing you gotta know about him is that M is very ignorant to the students he knows have a crush on him. which actually is how it should be cause there should clearly be drawn a line, but you know this is the tc community- anyways so the first few months after i realized i had a crush on him i tried to get his attention and i think i was making it pretty obvious which is why he ignored me almost completely and so i stopped trying to get his attention from then on. (just so you know what i mean by trying to get his attention: i was not doing anything what could make him uncomfy in any way, i just tried to get him to talk to me more and get friendly with him)

for the next 2 years the crush on him kinda went away and i didn’t focus on him anymore cause i knew i wouldn't get any reaction from him. throughout those years i watched and realized how he was. he was cool with all of his students until he realized which of them had a crush on him and read more into his actions as they were. 

last school year my crush on him was gone completely since i got the attention i craved from someone else but that is another story. at the beginning of this school year i still only saw him as regular teacher, but all of my fellow classmates and friends went crazy over him.

although i understood why they felt that way, i never went with it. in the middle of the first school semester, i noticed how suddenly M seemed to talk to me wayyyy more than he'd done throughout the 5 years I've known him. he'd throw a smirk or wink my way when meeting my eyes in class, talking to me outside of class too and sometimes even initiating some skin contact which made me wonder a bit.

*slight TW!ED* (only in the following part) 

now that im thinking about it, it was probably because i kinda had a glow up. i grew out my hair, changed my style, found the perfect makeup for my face and also lost a loooot of weight due to an ed. and during the time he ‘noticed’ me i started wearing more tight clothes to show off my ‘new body’

i loved the sudden attention he was giving me so faste than you can say ‘tc’ my crush on him was back again cause deep down the attraction i felt for him never went away. since i learned from the past i didn’t and still don't give any hints that i have a crush on him, which is hard but is the best thing i can do because two of the girls in my class made it so obvious that they have a crush on him that now he is just straight up mean to them.

for the past few months he and i talked a few times out side of class, and every time he was the one to initiate the conversation and let me tell you i have to hold myself back so bad cause that man ist killing me. because he is so fucking tall and we most of the time talk where its crowded and many people are, he has to lean down to hear me talk WHICH IS SO HOT.

also because im sitting at the very corned of the class in first row, during teaching he walks up to me and sits down on the windowsill in front of me. i could go on about the many times he made me scream inside but ill just tell you the most important thing.

ill go on a one week school trip with him in 2 weeks. how am i supposed to survive that? especially because he said that he’ll treat it as vacation to chill so both him and my class are able to calm down from the stress WHICH MEANS im going to see him in daily clothes like sweatpants and hoodies and stuff.

i honestly can't wait im also scared. help

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when billie eilish said ‘you ruined everything good, always said you were misunderstood. made all my moments your own, just fucking leave me alone’ i felt that

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i miss sitting in class and daydreaming about him and all the possible things we could be doing if everything was different - all while he is in front of the class, teaching, with no idea what's going on in my mind. 

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