itwontbethesameasitwasanymore

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how can life be so cruel yet, so sweet at the same time

#excerpt from a book i'll never write #my thoughts #poetry #just thinking

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“i can fix him” “i can make him worse” i can imagine him in little scenarios every night as i’m falling asleep

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Everyone wanted to be thicc but nobody wanted to be fat. Everyone wanted the dad bod but nobody wanted to be fat. Everyone wants fat mommy milkers but nobody wants mommy to be fat. Everyone wants to be a bear but not like, an actual fat bear. You get what i’m saying

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"Maybe in another lifetime." Why not this one?

moon song - phoebe bridgers/unknown/@/leemartenspoetry/lucille clifton the book of light: “climbing”/fred elwell - the wedding dress/WSJ gallery/waiting room - pheobe bridgers/everything everywhere all at once/we're in love - boygenius

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Sometimes self-care is, actually, NOT getting onto the computer and little treats and watching youtube videos. Sometimes those things are self-care, but sometimes they're also avoidant behaviors.

Sometimes self care is waking up and just. Fucking getting in the car. And driving to the bank. And the store. And buying the cat litter. And changing the cat boxes you've been avoiding because your brains been stuck in a hole. And picking up the trash you've been piling up. And getting a load into the wash. And mowing the lawn before the village council sends you a formal complaint and potential-fines warning.

Like its hard and annoying to do because it sucks. It sucks so much. But if I don't start working on this pile of bullshit I've let build up because it stinks and i was stuck in deer-in-headlights mode, I risk letting it turn into fuckery. I do not have the patience for fuckery that I once - foolishly! - thought I had.

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isn't life about friendship?

Lorde ribs // Ross Gay catalog of unabashed gratitude // boygenius true blue // Anne Carson Euripides // Hanya Yanagihara a little life // unknown // @billypotts // Julie Baker hurt less // Trista mateer // Phoebe Bridgers Funeral // Hanya Yanagihara a little life // @slugspoon (Alivia Horsley) // Jean Little oranges // Sally Rooney beautiful world, where are you // unknown // Lorde world alone // boygenius we're in love // Margaret Atwood // Phoebe Bridgers punisher // Ryan O'connell the people you will fall in love with in your 20s // Lucy Dacus yours & mine // Arnold Label frog and toad are friends // Anne Carson Euripides // unknown // boygenius Leonard Cohen

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I am my father’s daughter - I only know how to let people take

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2024 starting on a Monday is literally the cosmic sign we all needed. Like it’s gonna be THE year of resetting and trying again and letting things go

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"just stop thinking about it" my brother in christ, if I could stop thinking about it I would

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to consume content 15 hrs a day

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Imagine a library filled with books that represent the dreams we forgot upon waking

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next year all our troubles will be out of sight

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right person, wrong time (variations on heartbreak)

@leemartenspoetry on tumblr

vita sackville-west & fegan’s 1924 café in dublin

everything everywhere all at once (2022)

@heavensghost on tumblr

i had to get out by indigo de souza

‘calling a wolf a wolf' by kaveh akbar

river by joni mitchell

‘english song’ in a little larger than the entire universe: selected poems by fernando pessoa

slumber by ron hicks

fish in exile by vi khi nao

penitent magdalene by antonio ciseri

@ojibwa on tumblr

this is what the drugs are for by gracie abrams & the awakening by angelo morbelli

as good as it gets by fizz

lonely this christmas by mud & picture of the christmas tree at trinity college dublin, taken by me in december of 2022

this is what the drugs are for by gracie abrams & picture by andrew collins via globalnews.ca

@inanotherunivrs on tumblr & a polaroid of me taken by my ex-boyfriend

‘in a dream you saw a way to survive’ by clementine von radics & a picture of my ex-boyfriend's window, taken by me

bluets by maggie nelson & the poolbeg generating station, dublin

‘unrequited’ by sasha m george & inheritance by matthew w. cornell

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@ faraway on instagram & lavender sprigs farm cut by linda jacobus

the museum of heartbreak by meg leder

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‘seaside improvisation’ by richard siken

@ dracarysgang on twitter

@-love-letters-i-never-sent

@fromdarzaitoleeza on tumblr

explosions by ellie goulding

‘i had a dream about you’ by richard siken

the beatrice letters by lemony snicket

la la land (2016)

‘catalog of unabashed gratitude’ by ross gay

@stuckinapril on tumblr

@deathlywounded on tumblr

some are always hungry by jihyun yun

‘speaking practice’ by franny choi

 a self-portrait in letters by anna sexton & a picture of my ex-boyfriend in a lake in Orfű, Hungary

@sunsbleeding on tumblr

‘there is no absolution for the fallen, only the dying’ by p.d

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2023 -> 2024!

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i would love you in every universe. if you even care