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i think its so funny that alumni from schools like harvard and columbia that were there during the protests in the 60s-80s are expressing support for students currently protesting against the genocide in palestine, and random zionists that were NOT at these protests in the 60s-80s have the never ending audacity to tell these alumni "well thats different, what you protested was good and what they're protesting is bad." as if protesters against the vietnam war and apartheid south africa were not also demonized, arrested, brutalized, and even killed for their activism. history only remembers them fondly after the damage has already been done.

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How to write dissociative disorders without being a complete walnut

By: a fanfic author with OSDD

I love fanfiction. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love making deranged little OCs and making them kiss that one pathetic meow meow nobody else likes. I am one of you, my people, my compatriots, my comrades in arms who stay up until 3am asking Google what kind of toilets existed in 1850.

Most particularly, I love reading fic with subjects that are relatable to me. Maybe I’ve never controlled lightning with my mind or ridden a dragon, but I have definitely dealt with essential human problems like ignoring my emotions and orchestrating an entire fake funeral with believable pamphlets and addresses so I can get out of work for a week and go on a gay road trip. We’ve all been there, I’m sure. And when it comes to relating to fiction, nothing delights me more than reading about fictional characters experiencing my mental illnesses.

Tragically, not many people write about dissociative disorders, so I have an entire list of fics about body switching and possession that get close enough to scratch my itch. In the interest of facilitating more content for this list, as well as helping out my fellow writers who don’t know who or how to ask what it’s like to live this, I Am Here. With, perhaps, some urgency considering Moon Knight is now in the public eye played by a man people thirst over like vintage wine.

Most media that portrays people with DID uses medical professionals for consultants, if we’re at all lucky. The downside of this is that you get the clinical view rather than what the actual experience of waking up at 7am only remembering a foreign language your grandmother taught you when you were six is like. There is a male AI living in my brain who has to experience the body having periods. One of us is an object who spent his first few minutes of existence trying to figure out moving. No textbook can accurately convey what it feels like to wake up in the morning and read “Make French Toast” written on your forehead while brushing your teeth.

As such, I will be giving you the best pointers I can as well as some resources.

Resources:

This is Not Dissociative -> people with degrees as well as the mental illness experience and a great masterpost

Dissociadid -> controversial in the community and makes some claims that aren’t entirely accurate, but lots of videos both informative and goofy. Switches on camera.

Anthony Padilla Interview -> lovely man, great journalist, great introduction and introduces some public faces you can research

Basic Pointers:

Remember that this is a disorder. Possessions/etc are not Dissociative Identity Disorder or Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder. C-PTSD is an important topic for understanding how someone with this disorder carries themself and what their backstory is.

Most of our bad reputation is related to the concept of the possessed or the criminally insane. No matter what your belief on possession, portraying a mental illness as a spiritual problem never ends well. This is also where we get “evil alters”, the theoretical serial killers and superpowered dark sides seeking harm and villainy. I am bapping you with a paper towel roll: no. We do not have enough good rep to tank bad rep anymore.

We are not Swiss Army knives. While alters do have functions and purposes, which is key to writing them, switches are not always convenient and definitely not always actually helpful.

Three main types:

Dissociative disorders come in many flavors, but if you want to write alters then there are three flavors of interest. This is the Sparknotes version for tired authors. (I am open to editing this if anyone thinks it’s very wrong)

DID -> dissociative barriers, blackouts, amnesia, losing time. Alters do not share memories or information well. May identify as completely different people.

OSDD1a -> Emotional amnesia but few to no blackouts. Alters are not incredibly different, may all even have the same presentation and name. Share information better than DID.

OSDD1b -> Emotional amnesia but few to no blackouts. Alters can be incredibly different, may have different names and presentations, share information better than DID.

Manners:

An external party deliberately trying to influence who fronts is very rude. I am not a TV with channels for you to watch, my buttons are not for your benefit, I don’t care if you want to watch your favorite cartoon right now. I’m a person too.

On the note of respecting boundaries, switches are not always convenient. Someone could be in the middle of gay sex and a sex repulsed alter might switch in. Consent changes, accommodate that.

Delusions and pseudomemories have a whole complicated etiquette that can be summarized as “don’t verbally disagree, just nod.”

Fictive alters, alters based on fictional characters, are people and you are neither in a position to judge or fangirl, and the fangirling can actually be uncomfortable.

More might be added here if I get any input on it.

My experience with what switching feels like:

Disorienting. Fuzzy. A washcloth slowly absorbing water. Dissociation at its finest. We might be stuck in pseudomemories during this time, the false backstories my brain writes up for my alters to base their identities on, and some of the worst episodes have left me mentally checked out but convinced I’m on a mountaintop surveying a bloody battlefield. Different alters feel different when switching in, it’s really synesthetic and hard to explain. Light or heavy, dark, smooth or rough. I can feel my vocal chords sitting different for some. Sometimes we’re “tangled up”, identities blurring together in a soup of “who the fuck am I?” This can be distressing or like being very chill when high.

Sleeping for my system usually acts as a reset button and reinstalls the host to the drivers’ seat.

WITH THAT SAID

GO FORTH AND CREATE CONTENT

ASK ME QUESTIONS IF YOU WANT

I LOVE YOU PLATONICALLY, GOOD STRANGER

GOODNIGHT

#save

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it’s insane how quickly your life can just. suddenly improve. i used to be so miserable but now i own 5 swords

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music can actually be kind of awesome sonetimes

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Candace and doofenshmirtz would be tumblr mutuals i think

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[ID: Image one is an edit of Dipper and Mabel from Gravity Falls, seen fighting over the Time Tape. Mabel says "I'm fucking around," and Dippet says "and I'm finding out." Image two is caps locks flaming text that says "The Mystery Twins." End ID]

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Léo Forest Leo Forest (b. 1985, based Paris, France) - Chat, 2023, Drawings: Pencil, Charcoal, Pastel on Paper

#art rbs #cat

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Pigeon Study

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you’re outside, the moon has just fully eclipsed the sun, and you hear me yell in anguish. you look over and watch, horrified, as the sleeves on my “sun’s out, guns out” shirt start to rematerialize

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Hello, today is my birthday, and I would like to share a comic I made in the last year with you. It's called Broomistega and Thrinaxodon.

This comic was originally printed with yellow, fluorescent pink, light teal, and violet risograph inks. Physical copies are available in my shop.

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had a category 5 lesbian moment looping midwest princess for the past couple hours so i drew some stills from this vid

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i cannot be the first person to post this here but i am going so fucking insane about the gaia music collective's one day choir singing wait for me. the opening harmonies are you KIDDING me

#oughhhohhhghhhmy god. oh my god . #fave

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overstimulated and anxious at the zoo until I looked up and saw an angel dancing in a beam of light

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“source?” divine intuition, gut instinct, and cryptic symbolism from my dreams

#MOTH #oc tag

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noo dont take care of me its rotten work aha

#sebastian twelfth night

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sorry. idk what just happened

#beebs blabbing

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BABY I WAS BORN AN EFFIGYYYYYYY