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Whenever I take a long car ride I end up exhausted afterwards, and I'm always like "why am I so tired? I was just sitting around doing nothing all day."

But the answer, it turns out, is I was doing something. Riding in a car jars your body in many directions and requires constant microadjustments of your muscles just to stay in place and hold your normal posture. Because you're inside the car, inside the situation, it's easy not to notice all the extra work you're doing just to maintain the status quo.

There's all sorts of work that we think of as "free" that require spending energy: concentrating, making decisions, managing anxiety, maintaining hypervigilance in an unfriendly environment, dealing with stereotype threat, processing a lot of sensory input, repairing skin cells damaged by sun exposure, trying to stay warm in a cold room.

The next time you think you're tired from "nothing", consider instead that you're probably in situation where you're doing a lot of unnoticed extra work just to stay in place.

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Why can’t I hate you?

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I’d be lying if I said I’d never attempted telekinesis.

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“Don’t tell me I’m simply ‘in love with the idea of you.’ It’s so much more than that. I’m recklessly in love with you as a person. I’m enamored with your personality: your passion, your anger, your mixed emotions. I’m infatuated with the way you do things- like the faces you make when you’re grumpy, how you don’t like having your bangs tucked back behind your ears or how you get frustrated when you can’t figure something out right away, or the way you get into random cleaning frenzies and, being quite the contrary, you get into lazy frenzies as well, where your room will be a disaster; much like your mind will be calm one day and a rush of thoughts the next. I’m in love with how complicated you are. You’re a never ending puzzle and some of the pieces don’t even fit well together, but that’s all part of deciphering you. You thrill me constantly. I’m not just in love with the idea of you. I’m utterly in love with everything that makes you. Everything I’ve experienced with you and all that I will eventually experience. I’m in love with you, all of your ups and downs, equally. And that’s what makes it true… The fact that I can sit here and admit to the world that I adore every single part of you.”

— Nicole Torres//excerpt from a book I’ll never write #3 (via ntorres-writtenemotions)

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have a nice day :)

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Fireworks lit up the sky, a shower of embers;

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