janiedean

[janiedean]

#I L D #but N also was a strong contender #wish americans exported pies instead of mcdonald's #i should learn to make some *cry* #queue of the beam #food

[janiedean]

This makes so much sense

#queue of the beam #hahahahaah atm my energy is at the lowest possible levels in existence #if i have 40% and give 40% tomorrow I'll have 10 #anyway not counting that #this is actual good advice

[janiedean]

two episodes of nervous crying your brains out for longer than one hour in the span of three days were not in my bingo card for 2024 when I graduated ten years ago and I would like to frankly get the fuck over myself

#personal for ts #one day i’ll be able to put into words #the absolutely hateful feeling of thinking you got over your shit #and then finding out that NOT ONLY you aren’t #but KNOWING you’re falling back into shitty coping mechanisms you STILL let it happen #honestly my self loathing is off the roof because fifteen years ago i didn’t know i was shitty coping #now i KNOW i am and guess what here i am doing the whole isolating myself and forgetting to reply to ppl song and dance #christ i thought i was okay with handling that kinda shit guess not #and yeah ofc i need to fix it for myself but this time is so much worse i’m just #my kingdom for waking up one morning and feeling some level of mental clarity #and for some goddamned financial stability #and for the force of will to keep the house tidy enough that i dont feel sad just looking at the state of the living room #guys also honestly sorry if i forgot to reply to your ask or pm or anything i’ll get to it at some point #i swear i’m not ignoring people on purpose i’m just completely overwhelmed sigh

[janiedean]

#mental health #god #the level of truth #queue of the beam

[janiedean]

i would beg my brain chemistry to magically realign itself on a sensed wavelength before I end up begging for meds i don’t think it’s too much to ask is it /s

#personal for ts #ngl i get why therapist would rather not but god i just cried for twenty minutes #because i couldn’t find the thing you use to put water in the iron #and i looked at the living room desk which is a complete mess and burst out in tears #i’m late answering EVERYTHING I can’t bring myself to get out of bed at the right time in the morning #I need to finish commissions and I can’t do three sentences #and ofc 90% of the relatives think that i either need to calm down and NO NEED TO STRESS or think i have no reason to be stressed anyway #i’m so fucking tired #and like i know that i’m shit at getting over things quick and i just got worse with age #idek what i’m getting at #and i feel ridiculous bc ik what kicked me into the spiral #and i need to get the fuck over it because there is no way i’m getting any closure on that front #i KNOW that #but my brain doesn’t i guess #we’re back at i am this picture and i don’t like ir while staring at stannis baratheon aren’t we #sigh #anyway sorry for the debbiedownering s2g im answering everyone soon

[janiedean]

#i try to eat everything responsibly #but like i couldn’t survive for shit if was veganything i already will regret my crap calcium levels i know that #queue of the beam

[janiedean]

più invecchio più l’avvelenata diventa un mood esistenziale

#ogni volta che sento la parte della pensione sa un lato lo sento nel sangue dall’altro piango #ngl so tre anni che mi sento il mood dentro per ventordici motivi diversi #che non è per un cazzo ma eoba positiva ma ok #sigh

[janiedean]

manual boopery

Heehoo beans

#awwww #TVT

[janiedean]

OMG the backstory behind the whole boop thing is amazing.

#lmfao omg #tumblr

[janiedean]

for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

#ah okay that was it #tumblr

[janiedean]

don't mind me I'm trying to figure out wtf is tumblr doing for april's fools

[janiedean]

sweetest post ever??? 😭

#queue of the beam #good omens #oh my GOD this is so wholesome 😭

[janiedean]

EVERYBODY SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MANS

#vincent van gogh #happy birthday ily

[janiedean]

literally begging for any chain ever to fucking let terf wizard collaborations in the dust i don’t want to give that woman a cent of any of my money ever but i’d also like to buy food that’s not like shitty thank u

#this is brought to you by italian hugeass supermarket chain #that i have near the house #and has like p cheap prices for relatively good quality #i have two alternatives that are slightly cheaper but esp one of them is obv not great #so i’d like to get food there more than once in a while #but they keep on fucking putting out hp figurines or stickers or merch collaborations for points #and like ofc i don’t get the points and i don’t use them on THAT #but god dnw to pay money to a chain that gives joanne money #not that i don’t have it with jer for basically everything #but that time she bragged about her royalty check was so fucking shitty i can’t fathom how she sleeps at night #anyway that was me ranting after being in a coma for three days i’ll be back answeing to stuff soon

[janiedean]

i need feminism because when jesus does a magic trick it’s a goddamn miracle but when a woman does a magic trick she gets burned at the stake

#lmfao always reblog #the only reason i gaf about easter weekend at this rate is that #i can be four days off work #but legendary post is legendary

[janiedean]

Monument Valley

#united states #monument valley #queue of the beam

[janiedean]

i always forget my grandma used to be a clown so it caught me the fuck off guard when she saw this

and no hesitation saying “oh it’s that creepy clown- oh he’s drinking that’s against clown code”

#sdklgjgkdjklgdssjldgkjkdlgs #clowns #I'M FUCKING CRYING #tbf it's a relatively sensed code #i love the clown code #also the last burn #slòslgdk #queue of the beam