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This is exactly why i was concerned i looked away for Two Minutes

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another snippet <3 even when afraid he's still just a wife guy

#this mans psyche has SO much going on at any time #also im saying it now if i ever post this. it's not going to be PG lmao #in the last blurb with bathroom man he's doing coke with the guy #its a story about a college couple its gonna be messy lmao #it wont be too explicit like. in a nsfw way. i dont write smut lol #but he does elude to it because he is CONSTANTLY thinking about it #my boyfriend kenji #< the title of it so far so the tag for it

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I started writing a book for funsies about a final girl and her boyfriend with smile mask syndrome who dies during the prologue. He resuscitates hours later and they start to think he came back Wrong but no one knows if its in a trauma way or a supernatural way. He is both haunted by the narrative and haunting the narrative. but the main character is the final girl that is both trying to cope with all of her friends getting murdered/killing someone/her boyfriend technically still being murdered in front of her while also trying to figure out what the FUCK is up with her boyfriend kenji. so ig get ready for random ass snippets of this rough draft as i go. for example:

he's supposed to look and act like a stereotypical delinquent character in public but he's honestly just a Wife Guy at heart

lola seriously has no idea if he's just really traumatized or like. actually haunted.

#no one grade my writing its a rough draft that i only write on from outer space istg #anyways ive been writing this listening to a concerning amount of ethel cain so this book will likely be traumatizing #lola and kenji are such a messy couple i love them #obviously. you can guess what prescott is a homage to lol

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i recently shaved my head to a buzzcut. it took me like a week to get over the Change but now i like it. And it's great for being um. i cant remember the word because i am So high but like. Gender Ambidextrous. because my grunge makeup and black nails just read as a pretty punk dude now

#IM SO SORRY I CANNOT REMEMBER THE WORD #CANT REMEMBER MY OWN GODDAMN WORD #I AM THE GENDER NEUTRAL PARTY IM LOSING IT SCOOB #ambidextrous is the word i went with because i know You know this is the closest term for what i mean

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I LOVE YELLOWJACKETS YESS!!

i got into it like four days ago because that same ao3 search didnt end up well. im on like s2ep3 i think? and its such an interesting watch

-anon from the cannibalism tag ask (lmao)

FUCK YEAH. me and todo just finished it a couple weeks ago and im soooo obsessed im so excited for the next season

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when you are ok again, because it will happen at one point, know that we will be at your side.we just want you to be happy, no matter if your things update now, in the future, or never, what we care about is you.

thanks it means a lot <3

honestly. i think im trying to prioritize having Hobbies again right now. me and all of my coworkers have been told by our doctors our job is literally killing us from stress of it (I work as a surveillance operative) (as well as sleep deprivation/general night shift worker bad stuff), so i kind of want to spend my time outside of work Not stressing myself out and Relaxing and Resting

i want to finish Self Aware, and one day I will. but i'm so burnt out on making Content that i have had no motivation to draw or write or Anything. i've been rotting all day waiting for the burnout to end.

but lately i've been having fun trying to get back to enjoying things. im even drawing something for fun today :)

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heyy raven been awhile. just wanted to inform you that i was looking under the ao3 tag “Cannibalism” and regen is the number one kudosed fic for it

yknow this is a great ask to receive when im hyperfixated on both yellowjackets and ethel cain

#by those two alone u know i am not well lmfaooo #im also in the middle of watching hannibal #cannibalism mention

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#coughs. lawlight

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It's a weird feeling when you do the exact things that brought so much joy a year ago, and then feel zero joy at all from them. Or from anything, really. I'm trying real hard to feel happy doing anything I used to and everything's coming up blank

#new things dont bring joy either #and i Know this means im depressed #and yeah still in mourning #but goddamn what do i gotta do to get some happy chemicals around here yknow?? #trying to feel happy when i draw again and to have a hobby back #not a cry for help its more like a 'well aint that a bitch'

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I know i said i'll start writing Self Aware again soon and that i stopped because life got real fucky wucky for a bit, however less than a day since posting it life got Somehow Even Worse?? anyways now that i've mentally shoved down that nonsense, hopefully i'll pick self aware back up sometime this month

#ive been such a wreck this year i've hardly drawn at all #let alone for this comic #i sleep all day. if im bored i go back to bed #its like ive lost all of my hobbies so im trying to get them back

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A panel of the bird from Jan 2021

the spot

I think they'd be besties

#i just realized this im losing it scoob #they have SO MUCH IN COMMON but i can't say much bcuz comic spoilers #but holy hell i wish i heard of the spot before designing the Bird #self aware comic

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The only good thing staff added recently

Mutuals we are doing this

#toe im doing that scene in matilda where trunchbull spins and yeets a small child to u

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everyone hates orange until they actually see her in context. "oh it's such an ugly color, too bright!" look at sunsets and autumn, look at campfires and deserts. she's the most beautiful and special part of the scene. now apologize.

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whats up my beloved dorks i got comms cause i wanna move! feel free to dm me here or on discord (lemon candy#6224) if you’d like one! or if you dont want any art but still wanna help, you can donate to my ko-fi! :)

#please dear god we are so poor #we were told we have to move with less than 2 weeks #and that we need 2800 bucks in less than a month #it HURTS AH

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New aesthetic just dropped in my household

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we could go back to telegraphs instead of social media. send your mutuals unspeakable strings of morse code at 4:30am