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I work 13 hour shifts, when you where born without an arch in your feet it really takes a toll. Got in my car after work and had a mental breakdown in the parking lot because my feet where hurting so bad I just wanted my shift to be over. My boss asked if I cleaned kennel 12 before I left, I said yes. My coworker called over the radio if kennel 12 had been cleaned, I said yeah, I just cleaned it. Turns out I cleaned kennel 12 outside not inside. Embarrassed, and about to breakdown I was apologizing over and over. She was really understanding, granted I am new to my kennel assistant job but I felt so useless and stupid. My anxiety isn't built for this. Whenever I mess something so simple like that up, especially in a professional environment, it makes me feel useless and like I'm uncapable. Because I try so hard, but I always tend to mess something up. I take pride in doing my best and pressing through even if i am in pain. I don't like complaining, I don't like being late, I don't like doing anything unless I do it to my fullest. Ugh, I wish my mind didn't work this way. It's exhausting.

#mental health #mentally fucked

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JUST HOLDING ON //

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“When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, then compliment yourself. It’s not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It’s up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside.”

— Joel Osteen

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I wish time passed as fast as it does when I'm just sitting scrolling on my phone waiting for my 12 hour shift to start.

#overwhelmed

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Currently me 5:30am I have 13 hour shift

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never discount the possibility that this change might turn out to be for the better.

sometimes a new way of living gives you a new perspective on what’s possible.

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😐

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Lita Ford, Debbie Harry and Joan Jett by Chris Stein

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Today was one of those days 💫I cried at work💫

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My sunflowers are thriving! I can't wait till they bloom!🌻💕

#sunflower #sunflowers #gardening #naturephotooftheday #beautiful #flowers

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Summer/2021 🌞

#love your skin #photooftheday #poolside #tanning #enjoytheride #bikini bum

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You absolutely do not support people with mental illness if you call us difficult or selfish or get mad at us or tell us to just get over it or that we're looking for attention the minute we show symptoms, especially symptoms that you don't like. Mental illness isn't going to conveniently cater to what you think it should look or be like. Physical illnesses don't and you don't get mad at people for having symptoms of those.

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“if you can’t brush your teeth that’s fine uwu one step at a time” posts are supportive and that’s great but I’m about to have a 4.4k$ dental bill because I wasn’t taking care of my teeth when I was super depressed so uhh brush your fuckin teeth