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jizemderler · 1 year
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Well, hello I guess. It‘s been a few years. A lot has happened and I don‘t know how many of you are still here.
I‘m a researcher now. Psychiatry and addiction and all that. Currently working on my degree as a Psychotherapist. And I got married. That happened. I moved far away from home.
Kinda new and scary, nice and bad things going on…but I guess I‘ll be back on here more often now. I kinda forgot how healing writing was for me…so in the need to destress I came back.
Happy to be back.
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jizemderler · 3 years
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hiii i’m just curious r u still writing? or like r requests open?
Hey there anon!
Sorry for this late answer. I do write still but I‘m not as fast anymore. I‘m working on my thesis right now and that sh*t is wrecking my life. But other than that I am taking requests, they will just take some time to write.
Hope y‘all stick aroun!
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jizemderler · 3 years
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ya i got a question — are you black? this might seem weird but the way you described the doctor in your noah imagine was simply interesting so im curious lmao
Sorry for answering this sooooo late...but no I‘m not, woman of colour yes, but not black.
Now I‘m curious what made u think so?
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jizemderler · 4 years
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Namjoon: I mean, small creatures are way more vicious. It’s because their anger has less space to be bottled up in. 
Jin: Ridiculous. Give me one example of this. 
Hobi: Spiders. 
Taehyung: Wasps. 
Yoongi: Terriers
Jungkook: Jimin.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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send me 2 idols and i'll choose which one is more of my ideal type
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jizemderler · 4 years
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heyyy can you match me with a member of bts please??? i love listening to music like k-pop and alternative, i love the sun and the outdoors, i have an obsession with cottagecore and dark academia and i’m a clean freak. i’m shy at first but i’m very loud once i get close to someone and i smile a lot. i have a habit of making dirty jokes and i’m a sub. i stress and procrastinate a lot and overreact but i’m always there for others. i have an iq of 137 and i’m a sub. i’m an intp and i like cats. ty!
Hi qt!! Y’all probably forgot about these but I will answer all of them anyway
I ship you with...
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with this one! Someone who loves the sun has to be shipped with this sunshine. And I have a mini blurb for you:
You walk into the bathroom to get ready for your trip toady and as you see how Hoseok left it after using it, an annoyed laugh left your lips. You put the lid of the toothpast back on and put it back where it belonged before cleaning the bathroom counter. His shorts and tshirt were lying on the floor next to the shower. You picked them up with a growl and threw them to the pile of dirty clothes - where it belonged. You were picking up his socks from under the toilet when the bathroom door was pushed open and your head snapped back to see who it was. It was Hobi. A very butt naked Hobi. You arched a brow at the sight infront of you - his annoying habit of being untidy momentarily forgotten - because hot damn this man was built like a greek god. You were kneeling on the floor with his socks in your hands while he shifted uncomfortably from one foot to the other. “I was gonna clean up. I wasn’t finished yet.” he said pointing at the shower while holding up a new bottle of shampoo. “The shampoo was empty and I had to get one from the drawer.” he explained while you got to your feet trying not to gawk at his ver prominent lower part. You ignored the feeling in between your legs while you stepped closer to him and handed over his socks. “You’re driving me crazy.” you oressed out and left the bathroom. If you gave in now you would never be able to go on that trip today. “I love you!” he yelled after you and you rolled your eyes.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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you know, when i said i wanted the real world to be more like harry potter i just meant the teleportation and the butterbeer, not the entire plot of book 5 where the government refuses to do anything about a deadly threat so the teenagers have to rise up and fight back
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jizemderler · 4 years
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Namjoon: C'mon Yoongi, go talk to the kids.
Yoongi, looking at TXT with unknown fear: I just don't know how to approach them.
Namjoon: Just be yourself! Say something nice.
Yoongi: Which one, I can't do both.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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“what are you gonna do, cry about it?” yes . the fuck
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jizemderler · 4 years
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Namjoon: *hugs Yoongi*
Yoongi: What are you doing? 
Namjoon: Appreciating the little things in life. 
Yoongi: Bitch.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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Wedding (Kim Seokjin)
A/N: Attention SMUT ahead. I saw the pictures of him at the wedding of his brother so I wrote this. Enjoy!!
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Jin was looking around the room nervously while you were fixing his tie. “Hey Popstar.” you called him knowing that he hated that nickname. He rolled his eyes and you chuckled. After you were finished with his tie you brushed your palms over his shoulders to flatten his black suit. He was still nervously moving and you finally cupped his face to keep him still. “Hey.” you said again making him look into your eyes. You smiled and you could see his worried features. “It’s going to be fine.” you said and he sighed defeatedly. “This is horrible.”
“No it’s not. Come on.” you said and leaned in to give him a peck on his lips. “It’s a small ceremony. There are no paparazzis and Oppa needs you with him.” you said and he looked away, sadness filling his eyes. “I think he would appreciate it more if I didn’t show up.” he said and you shook your head. “No, Jin. You´re his brother. Family. He needs you to be there.”
“You don’t get it. It’s supposed to be his big day and no matter what I do people will shift their attention on to me.” he said now seeming really selfconcious. “I´m really sorry that I can´t take you with me. That will just throw everything out of proportion.” he apologized and you sent a warm smile his way. “Don´t be sorry. I totally get it. Just enjoy the day with your family and make your mom happy.” you said and he suddenly wrapped his arms around you. “I don´t know how you can be so good towards my family even though they´re giving you a hard time. Especially my mom.” he said after placing a kiss on top of your head and you chuckled. “That´s not true, Jin. She´s just worrying about her son. And that´s her right as a mom.” you said trying to ease his mind. His mom was giving you a hard time. She didn´t like you very much and sometimes it did hurt your feelings and put a strain on your relationship with Jin, but you overcame everything together. He was about to say something when the door to the dressing room was pushed open and his mom walked in, wearing a beautiful yellow hanbok, making you two pull apart. Both of you bowed to greet her and she nodded back. “We´re ready to leave when you are.” she said towards Jin and he nodded. “I´ll be right out.” he smiled at his mom and tried to play off his nervousness. “We´ll see you tonight, Y/N.” his mom adressed you and you smiled politely. “Have a great ceremony. I´ll congratulate Oppa and Unnie when you´re back.” 
His mom nodded at your answer and turned away towards the door. “I´ll wait outside.” she said and you were surprised that she didn´t drag Jin out of the room. You put your hand against his back and pushed him forwards gently. “Go. I´ll see you tonight. Have fun.” you said and he gave you an apologizing kiss before going after his mom. 
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You spent the evening doing things you didn´t have the time to do usually. There must have been a few people who snuck photos and posted them online without anyone recognizing because you saw photos from the wedding online as you scrolled through social media. You were snuggled up on the couch, some random show running on tv while you were on your phone. A smile spread across your features as you saw Jin on the photos. He was really trying hard not to draw attention. He was nervously clasping his hands or standing in the back at a table greeting new comers. His tall and broad statue didn´t help his attempt not to draw attention. You would have some calming down to do when he came back from the wedding. 
It was late at night when you heared the lock of the door click announcing that they arrived. When someone walked ino the living room you expected it to be Jin but found his mom walking up to you. You stood up immediatly to welcome her and she sat down on the couch next to you. “Do you want to drink anything?” you asked politely but she just shook her head and patted the seat next to her. “Come on sit down. I need to tell you something.” she said and your eyes widened. What could be this important that she needed to talk to you at this time of day?
“I know I didn´t particularly welcome you to the family.” she said and you started an attempt at denying it but she stopped you with a hand gesture. “I gave you a hard time this whole time but..” she said and looked away from you,”as I heared how you talked to my son today while he was getting ready for the wedding..I-..you calmed him down, never said a bad thing about us even though it would´ve been your right - I cursed about my in laws whenever they were not around and I was alone with my husband - you´re always trying really hard to make him happy and you take care of him. He looked like a lost puppy at the wedding without you.” she said in one go, as if it cost her all her energy to say that. A big smile spread across your face. “I´m still unsure if you´re the right one for my son.” she said trying to hold up her pride,”but as long as he thinks you are, I´m going to be nice to you.” 
“Thank you. This means a lot to me.” you thanked her and before she could say anything footsteps got closer and Jin was standing in the room. “What means a lot?” he asked and a hint of horror passed the features of his mom, afraid you might tell him what his mom just did. “Nothing. She just brought some photos and food back for me from the wedding.” you lied and she exhaled in relief. “I´ll get going.” she said and got up. “Aren´t you staying the night? It´s late.” Jin said but she shook her head in denial. “No way.” she said and was her old self immediately which made you chuckle lightly.
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He tried making you tell him what you really talked about but you just brushed it off everytime. He was lying in bed next to you with his arm wrapped around your shoulders and your head resting against the side of his chest. “I’m proud of you Jin.” you said into the dimm lit room and he placed a kiss on top of your head. “I’ve done nothing to be proud of. You’re the one pulling me through all of this.” he said and you rolled your eyes. He was the worst at accepting praise. You swung your leg over his hip to sit on top of him and smiled down at him. He looked surprised at your actions but very happy nonetheless. He rest his hands on your hips and let his fingers glide under your oversized shirt. His cold fingertips against your warm skin gave you goosebumps. “Did you miss me while I was gone?” he tried teasing you but you were feeling too confident to be teased by him. “Baby I know for a fact that you need me more than I need you right now.” you said sliding your hands down in between your legs to fumble with the waistband of his shorts. “All that built up tension...” you purred and stroked over his member,”has to go somewhere.” you teased him back and his eyes changed from bright and peacefull to dark and lustfilled in seconds. “I mean...” you said sliding your hands back up and under his shirt to pull it up. He lift his torso for you to pull his shirt over his head. You breath catched in your throat at seeing this beautifully built man laying in front of you in all his glory. The moonlight was shimmering on his toned skin and made him look extra delicious. “I saw the photos and you were looking really,...” you kept talking while tracing his lower abdomen with your fingertips while slowly grinding your hips against him,”really stressed out. Keeping all that stress can’t be healthy for you.”
He growled something under his breath as the friction of his shorts sent sensations to his brain that would push him over the edge shortly. “Babe..” he hissed as you picked up your pace and his grip got tigther on your hips. You lift your arms above your head signaling him to take off your shirt and he did that immediately with no hesitation whatsoever. He leaned up to take your bra off too and tossed it to the side before leaning in to place kisses on your chest. When he sucked and played with your nipple you let out a statisfied moan and you could feel him smile against your skin. He moved up to your throat and arrived at your ear with his wet kisses while he kneaded your breast with his hand firing himself up. You could feel him growing harder and harder underneath you. You were already dripping wet from all of the action and the fabric seperating you drove you crazy. He captured your lips with his and you grind harder against him to pull a deep moan out of him. “Take them off.” you said in between kisses and he did while you took your own panties off. You were about to climb back on top when he arched a brow and you smiled at him. “I’ll take care of you today.” you said and let you fingers tangle in his hair while climbing back onto his lap. You wrapped your hand around his leangth and stroked him a few times to get him fully ready. While you sat up to align him at your entrance, he cupped your face and kissed you passionately. As you pushed down on him he let out a low groan and burried his face in the crook of your neck. “Fuck me.” he cursed at the sensation of your walls clenching around him. “Shit...” he said breathlessly and you smiled enjoying your own high. You tucked at his roots while he streched you out real good. You bit yourself into his shoulder while trying to adjust to his girth. He started kissing your shoulder and neck softly when he realized that you were having a hard time adjusting. “Ugh..it’s been so long.” you moan in to his shoulder and the moan leaving your lips makes him want to pound into you until you’re left moaning his name. He’s been on tour before the wedding and when he came back he was so wrapped up in the wedding preperations that there was no room for you two to catch up. “I need to move.” you beg him after adjusting and realizing that he has a firm grip on your hips not allowing you to move even an inch. “If you answer my question.” he says suddenly out of the blue and you pull away to look at him. The tiny movement making you both wince in desire. “What? Ask me. Hurry.” you say impatiently and he smiles. “What did you talk about with my Mom?” he asks and your eyes almost fall out of your head.
“Jin!” you scold him while slapping his chest,”how can you ask me about your mom while your fucking dick is inside of me?!”
He laughes at your reaction and kiss your lips. “Major turn of.” you growl after he pulls away. “Tell me.”
“No!” you exclaim and try pushing off him because this is getting ridicilous. You manage to move a few inches and the friction blows both of your minds after not moving for such a long time. “I never thought soaking would be this pleasing.” he panted against your lips while both of you tried really hard not to move. “I know.” you breathed, the tiny argument from seconds ago long forgotten. “I don’t think I can handle you moving.” he moaned while holding onto your back and a devilish smile spread across your face. His hands were already trembling and he wasn’t holding on as hard as before so you could easily move up to let him slide out of you. Both of you moaned in unison at the feeling and you pushed back down immeaditely because the emptiness felt horrible. “Jin-...oh fuck.” you cursed, not able to form a logical sentence, while you kept grinding on him picking up your pace.
“You feel so good.” he praised you and slid his fingers between your folds and started circling your clit harshly to add to your pleasure. You took your lower lip in between your lips, closed your eyes and leaned your head back to enjoy the sensation of his fingers. “So beautiful.” he breathed and you clenched around him which made him moan out in pleasure. “Jin..” you tried to warn him that you were close but just couldn’t gather your thoughts. When he felt you getting closer he finally thrust his hips up to meet yours which made you cry out his name. “Right there, right there.” you moaned and he drowned it in a kiss. “I’m so-...” you pressed out and he nodded knowingly. “Cum for me baby.” he purred into your ears and nibbled at your earlobe before sucking at your sweetspot. That pushed you off the edge and you came moaning his name through the entire apartment. Your statisfaction made him follow close and your movement became sloppy while both of you rode out your highs.
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You were back in cuddling position just without clothes this time and much much more statisfied and relaxed. Your eyes were closed because your eyelids were heavy and when something came to your mind you smiled to yourself. “Jin?” you whispered sounding very sleepy. “Hmm?” he stirred and you chuckled. “She thanked me for taking good care of you.” you said happily and snuggled closer to him. There was a long silence and you could practically hear his inappropriate joke coming. “If you make an inapropriate joke about me taking good care of your dick while I’m talking about what your mom said, your sleeping on the couch tonight. Try me.” you warned him and he chuckled nervously while pulling you closer. “You are taking good care of me.” he finally said and you rolled your eyes before both of you fell asleep happily.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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“Anonymously send anything in your mind.”
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jizemderler · 4 years
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OMG HIII MAYBE SOME MAFI TAEHYUNG?💕💕
HI THERE BEAUTIFUL!! sooo I did my best here I hope you like it!
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You were going through your closer when Taehyung walked in to your shared bedroom. “Hi.” he said kissing your temple and walking past you towards the bathroom. “How was work?” you asked him raising your voice a little so he would hear. You heared him groan while walking back out with a old white shirt and some shorts on. “That was a quick change?” you said arching a brow and he shrugged his shoulders. “Don’t you have any appointements tonight?” you asked because he usually had dinner plans with his associates from the company. “I cancelled them. I’m tired.” he said while sitting down on the bed and you looked at him through the mirror. His hair was tousled from changing his clothes and his eyes were really looking tired. You turned around with a warming smile on your lips and walked towards him. You stood between his legs and cupped his face with your hands. He rest his hands on your hips and pulled you closer. “Get some rest while I’m gone. I’ll take care of you when I’m back alright?” you said and gave him a peck on his lips. “Wait you’re going out?” he asked while furrowing his brows. “Yeah. Gina invited me to dinner. We’re going out for some dumplings.” you smiled and his serious expression confused you. “I remember telling you to NOT go out today.” he said in a low voice and you rolled your eyes. “It’s just dinner. I’ll be back in a few hours.” you said and wanted to step back but he held you in place with his grip on your hips. “No I’m serious. You can’t go out today.” he said and this already ruined your mood. “What are you talking about?” you said freeing yourself from his hands and stepping back. “You can’t.” he said and you groaned. “Not this again!” you whined and rolled your eyes while turning away. Every now and then Taehyung would get really obsessive and forbid you to go out. Not for long. It was always just one night and if you went out he would follow you very close. Since you wanted to be alone with your friend there was no chance of doing that today.
“Tae I’m not your property.” you said and he nodded. “I know.”
“So stop treating me like I am.” you growled and he got up from the bed. “I’m not. Seriously. I never controll anything you do. But you have to listen to me when I say you can’t.” he said as if it was the most plausible thing. His calm voice and behavior made you even more mad. You tried sneaking out, leaving and ignoring him whenever he wanted you to stay home but none of it worked out. So you found a soloution in staying home but not talking to him. “You’re driving me fucking crazy.” you said throwing the dress you held in your hand to his feet and walked out of the bedroom. You were mad, no fuming. So to prevent anything worse happening he didn’t cross your way.
You cancelled on your friend and told her that you couldn’t make it. You ignored his attempt at making it up to you and left him hanging. He planted himself on the couch where you had to see him while walking around the house. You were in the bathroom cleaning your stuff when you recognized his suit scrunched up on the floor next to the sink in the corner. “This mother fucking bitch can’t even throw his dirty clothes away properly.” you cursed under your breath and bent down to pick it up. As soon as you unfolded the material you let out a gasp. The white dress shirt was drenched in red colour what looked like blood. You covered your mouth with your hand and rushed out to the bathroom. As soon as you reached the living room you planted yourself next to him and pulled his shirt up. “Are you hurt?” you asked worriedly and all anger was long forgotten. To loose all that blood he must’ve gotten injured really bad. “What-...no?” he said confused and pulled his shirt back down while whincing in pain at the sudden movement. Your eyes widened and you tucked at his shirt again. “Yes you are! Where’s your wound? What did you do?” you asked while examining his body and he tried to shield his body from your gaze.
“What are you talking about?” he said finally jumping up in order to get away from you. “I saw your shirt.” you said and his eyes were about to fall out from his head. “Shit.” he growled under his breath. “I’m not injured.” he said while holding his hands up and you squinted your eyes in disbelief. “Take your shirt of.” you said and he rolled his eyes. “Come on babe. That’s ridiculous.”
“Taehyung.”
“Okay, okay!” he gave in and pulled his shirt over his head and spinned around himself once to show that he had no wound. His quick movements didn’t hide the bruises on his back though. “What happened to your back?” you said reaching out your hand to touch his skin but he flinched away. “Nothing. I-...” he started but stopped when your head snapped up to look at him when the realization hit you. That was not his blood. It was someone elses. And there was alot of it.
“Taehyung what happened?” you asked and you saw him obviously getting nervous. “Babe. Let’s sit down for a second.” he said trying to hold your hand but you flinched away. “Who’s blood is that?” you yelled at him in horror and he hated the scared look in your eyes. He hated himself for being the cause of it. “I’ll tell you let’s just sit down.” he begged you but you couldn’t wipe the images flooding your mind. What kind of horror could’ve caused such an amout of blood. “There is a reason why I didn’t want you to go out at certain nights.” he said and confused you even more. What did that have anything to do with his blood stained shirt?
“I’ll tell you everything. Just sit down. Please.”
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After he finished explaining to you what he did for a living and that the company was just a facade to hide what his real profession was, you couldn’t hold back a disgusted sound from leaving your lips. You couldn’t react any further though. Everything you knew and loved about him vaporized into thin air. “Please say something.” he begged after a long moment of silence but you stood up without looking at him and walked to your bedroom. You were packing a few things when he entered the room. “I know you’ll hate me even more but I can’t let you leave right now.” he said carefully and you glared at him. “After...what happened today. They’ll be out on a hunt for me and my family.” he explained and you wanted to punch him. “You’re the only person I have close to a family.” he added with a tiny voice and you couldn’t believe your ears. You let the bag fall out of your hands and tears filled your eyes.
“Who are you?” you asked and your voice broke into a sobb. He wanted to step forward and pull you into a hug and wipe the tears away. But he knew for a fact that if he touched you right now you would punch him with no hesitation. “You won’t have to see me-..just...please stay in the house.” he asked you and you turned your back on him not able to handle to look at him.
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You don’t know how the night passed. You cried the majority of it thinking back at your moments with Tae. You couldn’t believe that everything you lived was a lie. When the sun started seeping through the thick curtains you swung your legs off the bed and stood up. Your head was pounding from the lack of sleep. You walked in to the kitchen to fill yourself a cup of water and drank it hastily. You heared heavy footsteps coming closer and Tae leaned against the doorframe. Unsure what to do or how to act. He didn’t want to loose you. It felt like you were slipping through his fingers.
“I can’t bring myself to hate you.” you admitted to yourself and him and put your glass in to the sink. “And that makes me hate myself even more.” you added and looked up in to those brown eyes that used to give you so much love and security. “I don’t want to hate myself Tae.” you said and he couldn’t hold himself back anymore. He stepped forward and pulled you into a tight hug. You could hear his heart pounding in his chest. He looked like, smelled like the Tae you loved. But knowing what he was capable of and what he did made you shudder. You leaned your forhead against his chest and shut your eyes. “Please let me go Tae.” you begged and tried not to cry. “Please let me hate you more than I hate myself.”
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jizemderler · 4 years
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Nightstand (Min Yoongi)
A/N: This one is angsty as fck WARNING: mentions of self harm and death...idk why I’m doing this to myself I appearently enjoy pain, so enjoy it too
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“Please just don´t do anything. Someone is coming.” the guy on the other end of the line said but you were too far gone in your thoughts to identify or understand him. You put your phone next to you on the handrail you were sitting. You watched as the sun went down and the water underneath you flowed hurriedly under the bridge. Your legs dangled towards the water and you could hear people gathering behind you but it was all hazy. “Y/N?” you heared a familiar voice call your name and furrowed your brows. “Y/N?” your name was being called louder, the person closer now and you looked over your shoulder to look into those brown eyes you once loved so much. You chuckled at his sight and shook your head while looking down to your lap. “I can´t believe they sent you.” you said to yourself and were sure that he could hear it too. “Do you wanna come down?” he said and you chuckled again. “Do I look like I want to?” you said and he had to think fast what he could say next. You were too calm for his liking and panic started to set in his guts. “Can I sit next to you?” he asked and you shrugged your shoulders looking straight ahead and ignoring what was happening behind you.
Yoongi signed everone to step away and move along while nodding towards the police officers that he got it under controll. He was praying to all the gods that he actually had it under controll. Carefull he swung his legs over the railing and planted himself next to you. “You know,” you said while watching the brids fly higher and higher, “your the least person I want to see right now.” Your confession that didn´t surprise him didn´t help his panic at all. He didn´t know why Jin called him but as soon as he explained what was going on he found himself on the bridge. “Should I leave?” he asked and you shrugged your shoulders again. “You can do whatever. I don´t own this bridge.” you said and took a deep breath while letting go of the railing and he almost grabbed onto your arm, afraid that you might lean forward.”I´m not here to jump Yoongs. You can stop staring at me.” you said with closed eyes but he was still tense and ready to catch you. “Then why are you sitting here?” he asked and his pet name falling from your lips made his heart yearn for your attention. “Why do you even care? We broke up remember?” you said and those words were like dagers through his heart. “I´m tired.” you said before he could think of a response, “I´m tired of living.” you said with a sad smile on your lips and the panic got the best of him and he grabbed your wrist. Your head snapped towards him and you looked at him with an arched brow. “I´m not here to jump.” you said again seeing the look in his eyes and groaned. “Are you going to believe me if I get off the railing?” you asked and he nodded immediatly. “One can´t even enjoy the sunset anymore.” you said while swinging your legs back. As soon as you jumped off on to the bridge you found yourself in Yoongis arms, your own dangling by your side. When he noticed you not hugging him back he let you go and you realized that his hands were slightly trembling even though he looked calm. “There are easier ways to die.” you said and shrugged your shoulders, “Also I can´t do that to my Mom.” you said leaning against the railing now and crossing your arms infront of your chest. “How do you think she’d feel?” you asked watching the sky which had a light pink hue since the sun was going down. “Devestated.” Yoongi said like it was on the tip of his tongue and you chuckled. “Yeah. She’d be the only one.” you mumbled to yourself and he found himself shaking his head. This was a nightmare to him. He wanted to wake up. “Well if I did. It wouldn’t b because of any of you.” you said and turned towards the water and let your arms hang over the handrail. Yoongi stood next to you, his shoulder brushing yours lightly. You pushed him playfully with your shoulder and he relaxed a little bit seeing that you were fine...well you were okay. “It’s not your fault.” he heared you say and his head snapped towards you. “What?” he asked an a high pitched ringing appeared. “It really isn’t.” you said and Yoongi furrowed his brows because his sight was getting fuzzy.
He blinked a few times and suddenly he was in his room. In his bed, staring at the ceiling. It was really silent and it was unbearable. Especially when his mind caught up on what just happened. He looked over to his night stand to see your picture smiling back at him and a sudden sobb escaped his throat and he shut his eyes again, covering them with his arm. He wanted to sleep again, he wanted to see you, hear you again. Another sobb escaped his lips and it didn’t take him long to be full on crying. His painfull cries became so loud that his bandmates came in and he was embraced in a big hug by his leader. “I saw her.” Yoongi sobbed while Namjoon carressed Yoongis back and let him cry. “I miss her so much.” Yoongi said and his voice broke along with Namjoons heart. “I know.” Namjoon said trying to calm him down. “I know.” he said again looking at the picture of you on his nightstand.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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hii! would you write an imagine for bts if you’re still open to it? if so can you write a badboy! taehyung having a soft spot for you (an unpopular girl but not a nerd either im tired) bc u helped him and his family out before, and one day you get cornered by bullies in college and he helps you out if the situation and y’all become close friends ;<
Hii! Thank you for requesting, I hope you’ll enjoy!! This got kinda cheesy soo..
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Taehyung didn’t know when it all started. He found himself looking for you, thinking about you or checking on you if you were okay. You definetly left a mark on his mind when you helped him and his family out the one time he was his most vulnerable self. What bothered him most was that you didn’t talk to him after that ever again even though you oassed each other in the halls.
“Man are you even listening?” his friend scolded Taehyung as he realized that he was talking into the air. “What are you staring-...” his friend said and followed Taehyungs gaze to you. You were sitting on top of a wooden table with your feet propped up on the chair and you were reading a book. You had you earphones plugged in to shut the noises out and were enjoying the story you were reading. “Do we know her?” the friend asked and Taes mood changed immediatly. The last thing he wanted was to draw his friends attention on you. “No, we don’t. I was looking at Rebecca.” Tae lied and turned around to take his bag. “Did you hit that last night?” his friend laughed and Tae rolled his eyes at the immaturity of his friend. Tae shouldered his bag and was about to walk to class when you caught his attention again. Two guys were at your table and he saw immediately that you were uncomfortable. He watched them knock your drink over and act like it was a mistake. They walked away laughing and Tae was growling to himself while he took his bottle out if his bag and walked towards you.
Without saying anything he put the bottle on the table next to where you were sitting and walked away as if it was the most normal thing to do. You watched the guy with the black leather jacked and black jeans walk away while wondering why he left his bottle here. You knew Taehyung. Well, you didn’t exactly know him - you knew he exsisted because to be honest everyone at your college knew about Taehyung. No matter what kind of trouble appeared, Taehyung was always a part of it. You wondered how he managed to stay at college and not get expelled. When your class was about to start you took his bottle with you and hurried off into the direction you needed to be.
Later that day you were in the cafeteria and saw Taehyung standing in line and decided to walk up to him. “Hey! You forgot this earlier.” you said reaching out the bottle and he furrowed his brows while looking at it. “That’s not mine.” he said and turned away showing his disinterest. “But it is. You left it..” you started again and his head snapped back to you and he shot you a glare. “Move. You’re in my way.” he said and pushed past you, not giving you a chance to explain yourself. He on the other hand couldn’t believe that you didn’t even open the bottle. You must’ve had nothing to drink the whole day, which annoyed him even more.
You finished your classes and were walking towards your car when you heared some people talking to each other. Which you thought was a innocent conversation turned out to be some guys ganging up on this one dude you knew from your sience class. They were all standing around him, circling him ver close and his back was pressed against the car. When you recognized who was in trouble you brain started working. You were small built and had no chance against those giants so you had to be smart. “Hey Jungkook!” you called his name and all of them looked your way. You smiled towards Jungkook and waved him over. “Sorry for being late. We can go now.” you said and tried hiding the nervousness in your voice. Jungkook stuttered something and you wished he would just hurry up. No one wanted to be on the bad side of these guys and you were really trying hard to deescalate the situation. “Come on we have to be there at 4.” you said and Jungkook caught on. He mumbled something and stumbled out of the middle of the group before they knew what was going on you two were sitting in your car and were driving off.
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You didn’t know who those guys were. You didn’t know that it would mean this much trouble. You were walking through the empty halls towards your mext class. You had an hour before the class actually started so you were just passing time and walking very slowly while going through your phone. You should’ve been looking up because you walked into someone and stumbled backwards, lost balance and found yourself in some random dudes arms. “Hi beautiful.” he smiled and chuckled nervously while trying to get out of his arms. “Sorry.” you mumbled and stumbled backwards to get free. “Where you going at?” he asked and you looked around to see three other guys lurking around and coming closer. Now that you looked closer at them they kind of looked familiar. “To class. I’m actually in a rush so...” you said and tried pushing past him but he blocked your way. “You know...” he said and stepped closer making you step back,”you should feel sorry for bumping into me and for ruining our fun the other day.” he said and the other guys started laughing and gathered around you. After a few more steps your back hit the lockers behind you. As he said that you recognized them as the guys who were bugging Jungkook the other day. “I don’t know what...” you started but he wasn’t listening.
“You’re not looking too shabby.” he said his gaze wandering down your body and you felt disgust rush down your spine and formed your hands into fists. “I’ve got an idea how you can pay me back baby doll.” he purred and you wanted to vomit. You’re reflex made you slap him across the face and that was the worst thing you could’ve done becaue that made him angry as fuck. He slammed his palm against the locker behind you locking you in place, his face only inches away from you. “Now you really owe me bitch.” he cursed and you shut your eyes and your whole body froze in place. Memories from the past threatened to bunbble up in your mind.
“Let her go.” someone growled but you were too afraid to open your eyes. You felt the guys lips brush over yours ever so lightly and a loud thud followed. “I said let her go!” the second guy roared and when you opened your eyes at the loud voice no one was standing infront of tou anymore. There was a dark haired guy on top of the guy harrasing you and he was pounding down on to his face. When you realized who it was that was smashing his fist down onto the guys face you defroze and stepped forward. “Stop!” you yelled as you saw that the guy on the floor stopped defending himself. “Taehyung stop!” you screamed and with his name falling from your lips he looked up at your scared face. You flinched as his head snapped towards you and you saw the glare that was meant for the guy on the floor who was almost unconcious. His gaze softened as he saw your state but you felt dizzy from all the things that just happened. The next thing you knew was him grabbing your wrist and pulling you towards the exit without listening to your protest.
He pulled you to the bleachers where no one could bother you two. He was still panting in anger, the image of your pressed against the lockers looking absolutely scared, engraved in his mind. “You’re squeezing my hand to death.” you said after wrapping his bleading hand into your spare shirt you had in your bag. He looked down at your hands and let go immediatly and you stood up. “Don’t do that ever again.” you said and were about to leave when he grabbed your arm to stop you. “Excuse me? I saved you?” he said sounding offended and you glared at him. “Did you think I would thank you for beating that guy to death? Now what? He’s going to get us both into trouble. Might get you expelled.” you said and he rolled his eyes. “Should’ve killed the bastard.” he growled and gripped the shirt tighter that was wrapped around his hand. “Stay away from me Taehyung. Just leave me alone. And tell your guys to do the same.” you said and a hurt expression rushed through his eyes.
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You didn’t go to class for a week until the council decided to give those guys a punishment. It was a sunday afternoon when your doorbell rang. You walked over to the door wondering who it was. Your eyes widened as you saw who was standing infront of you and you peeked around the corner to see if anyone else was there. “What are you...” you started but he interrupted you. “I’m sorry.” he pressed out and took his hands to the front to reveal the flowers he was holding. “What?”
“I’m sorry for being an ass. That’s just who I am but I’m sorry nevertheless.” he said and held the flowers higher. You took them carefully and furrowed your brows still not getting why he was doing this. “I tried cleaning your shirt but...” he said and took a lump out of his bag holding it up for you to see,”the blood stains wouldn’t come out.” he admitted. “Sorry ‘bout that too.” he mumbled and scratched the back of his head. He looked absolutely adorable all flustered and nervous - there was no hint of the Taehyung that was punching a human being recklessly as if it was a punching bag.
“Well, then..” he started and took a step back. “Wait, d-...uh..” you said doubting yourself and he arched a brow looking at you with a tiny hit of hope and curiosity in his eyes. “Do you wanna come in?” you asked and opened the door further and stepped to the side. He thought about it for a second, scared to hurt you with his presence but couldn’t hold himself back. “Sure.” he said and stepped inside. You took him to the kitchen to put the flowers into a vase and he looked around. “You still have my bottle.” he said pointing at the bottle near the window and you glared at him. “I knew that was yours.” you growled and he chuckled nervously while scratching his head again - obviously a nervous habit of his. “I-...You know-...” he stuttered and you couldn’t hold back a chuckle. This friendship was going to be a hell of a ride.
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jizemderler · 4 years
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if you ever see me with a random long object in my hair that is NOT me being asian (i am so calm your tits), that is me loosing all of my hairties because those mf are appearently spies and no where to be found - i grab whatever is lying around to put my hair up these days BECAUSE SHIT ITS FCKING HOT HERE somebody tell the sun to calm down
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jizemderler · 4 years
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hii i'd love to be matched ! i’m 171cm, 19 y/o with dark brown hair and eyes (lightskinned kinda wheatish indian). I'm an INFP-T I am really into creative things and i draw alot specially portraits it is one of my passions I'm i a shy person around strangers but when i open up I'm really fun to be with and clingy too, i love skinship. And I'm really sensitive but also bold and scary if i see injustice. I love foreplay, overstimulation praise kink I'm a sub. Not into hardcore too much
Hiii! Smut ahead so bewaaaare
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this hottie! Mini drabble:
Yoongi was not the guy to show affection. That’s why he loved you being clingy. It gave him the chance to be close to you without acting out of his usual unbothered self. So whenever you were mad at him he was really deprived of your touch and he would start longing for it. “Babe come on. You haven’t spoken a word to me for two days now.” Yoongi finally begged you to stop being mad. But him trigerring you justice sence lead to a big fight. “Come on.” he said while cupping your face with his hands and forcing you to look up into his eyes. And looking into your eyes he already knew that you forgave him. But angry make up sex was going to be great. He pulled you closer by your hips and pressed his lower half against you. “I’ve been longing for your touch.” he said in to your ear and placed wet kisses down your neck. “I need you to touch me.” he said in between kisses and guided your hand inbetween your bodies. You folled his request happily and started rubbing him over his pants. A low moan escaped his throat and he sucked at your sweet spot. He grew harder with every stroke of your hand and finally grabbed your wrist to stop you. He was breathing heavily against your lips and his darkened lust filled eyes pulled a light whimper from your lips. “We’ll finish this in the bedroom.” he said while tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. You lean closer an take his earlibe in between your lips and bite and suck at it slightly and you can feel him twitch. “You wish.” you whisper into his ear and pull away to glare at him. “I’m still mad at you.” you said and turned away to walk into the kitchen, leaving him frustrated.
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