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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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hey guys. please don't scroll past this.
I'm not using this tumblr anymore. Please follow my new one @itsmoiamesss.
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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Listen up. There is literally an app that can help you avoid self harm and I don’t know why we aren’t talking about it.
Calm Harm can be tailored to your needs and will provide strategies to help you get past those crucial moments of wanting to harm.
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It’s also totally FREE.
once again, it’s called CALM HARM
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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A Newsies and Book of Mormon Crossover with Morris Delancey & Elder Cunningham. Might be a bit odd but bear with me. I got a plot bunny for this filled with character redemption and all that good stuff.
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house-ad · 2 months ago
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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C U R S E D
you can dance
you can jive
having the time of your life
UWU
see that girl
watch that scene
dig in the dancing queen
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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Davey Jacobs
Deserved his own song, 
just imagine all the riffs that Ben Fankhauser would have added to that song.
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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poets born under each sign
aries: robert frost
The best way out is always through.
taurus: william shakespeare
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground: And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare As any she belied with false compare.
gemini: walt whitman
Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.)
cancer: pablo neruda
But wait for me, keep for me your sweetness. I will give you too a rose. 
leo: charles bukowski
attend the boxing matches, go to the racetrack, live on luck and skill, get alone, get alone often, and if you can’t sleep alone be careful of the words you speak in your sleep; and ask for no mercy no miracles;
virgo: mary oliver
You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
libra: e.e. cummings
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
scorpio: sylvia plath
I wait and ache. I think I am healing.
sagittarius: emily dickinson
I dwell in possibility.
capricorn: edgar allen poe
Ah, dream too bright to last! Ah, starry Hope, that didst arise But to be overcast! A voice from out the Future cries, “On! on!“—but o'er the Past
aquarius: langston hughes
Hold fast to dreams For if dreams die Life is a broken-winged bird That cannot fly.
pisces: jack kerouac
This transcendental Brilliance Is the better part (of Nothingness I sing)
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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the beautiful instability of “For Forever”
(This is a rewrite of an old post! The old one was spread over a series of reblogs, so I thought I’d just consolidate it all in one place.)
tw: multiple suicide mentions.
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“For Forever” is a really messed up title for a song that’s actually about a suicide attempt.
From the haunting opening chords to the deceptively simple lyrics, I’ve always thought there was something eerie and unsettling about the song. I slowly began to understand why when I realized the two meanings nestled of the title. Perhaps “For Forever” isn’t just Evan’s flight of fantasy. I’d like to suggest that it is actually a rather accurate–though metaphorical–description of Evan’s suicide attempt.
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As we find out later in the show, the early summer day Evan is describing is actually the day he attempted suicide. And just beneath the surface, the song continually acknowledges that fact. 
Let’s start by taking a look at this brilliant Genius annotation by AmityRavenclawElf: 
“All we see is sky for forever
We let the world pass by for forever
Feels like we could go on for forever this way”
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In many ways, Dear Evan Hansen is a play about duality. The axis of the story is the juxtaposition of Evan and Connor. As AmityRavenclawElf’s annotation reveals, the language of “For Forever” works in a similar mode of duality.
The key words in the song are terribly ambivalent: they are each so full of beauty and life, but also so close to death. Each ostensibly positive word also contains its opposite, just as “go on” contains the echo of “die.” 
Let’s look more closely at the language. 
“All we see is light”
“Wondering how the world might look from up so high”
Gorgeous, thrilling language–but isn’t the language of light and watching from on high also idiomatic of death?
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From far across the yellow field I hear him calling, “Follow me”
Isn’t yellow a strange color choice? I don’t intuitively think of fields as being yellow. But it’s an incredible descriptor because yellow evokes sunlight (and thus life), but it also indicates sickness and decay. 
And in the art history world, the image of the yellow field is almost always a reference to Van Gogh’s painting Wheatfield with Crows, which is often cited to be his last painting before he purportedly committed suicide. It is also often pictured as the site where his suicide took place.
Let’s go back to the broader meaning of the line. Evan is imagining Connor calling him from faraway, from the other side. Evan is picturing someone who committed suicide beckoning him to follow in their footsteps. 
Evan is imagining someone who committed suicide leading him up the tree where he makes his own attempt.
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No wonder the song feels so unsettling. The song itself is literally unsettled, constantly wobbling between two radically different meanings.
And just as the song holds the deepest sadness imaginable, it also holds such life. 
Though “You Will Be Found” is the musical’s “anthem,” “For Forever” is the motif that keeps coming back–it’s the finale, after all! But it’s a little different at the end. 
“All I see is sky for forever”
Referencing Genius again:
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This signals to us that the meaning of this song has been subverted. Its duality has resolved itself and settled into a single meaning. And Evan’s terrible identification with Connor has ended. The mirroring of the two characters–the thread that has kept the story together–has finally unravelled.
“For Forever” is no longer about death. It is no longer about Connor.
It’s about Evan this time. “For Forever” is now about life.
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Bonus: in the last scene of the musical, Evan meets Zoe again in the orchard where saplings are growing. Guess what Zoe means in Greek?
Life.
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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UHMMM HDJFNDISJ
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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BEAUTIFUL CHILD
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Mike Faist as Meka on Deception
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house-ad · 3 days ago
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A journal app where words are optional. Check out Day One.
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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Maybe I’d see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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where the heck is this from
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Look at Will Roland fuck up this box
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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BRINGING THIS BACK FROM THE DEAD BECAUSE HOLY HECK MY HEART
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so I was really bothered by the fact that we don’t see evan and jared make up after evan’s fuckup and jared storming off, and so I drew this
i’m not very happy with a few of the pictures but fuck it, i’m tired and i’m not a person for long projects so I just wanted to get it over with, as much as i don’t like to say it 
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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Hi yes please don’t sleep on kleinsen,,, they’re another iconic red/blue ship pls
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justamusicalobsessedkid · 4 years ago
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Alana: Evan, is Jared the “one”?
Evan: oh yeah! he is the “one”~!
Evan: the one who gets on my fucking nerves
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house-ad · 2 months ago
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