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A Newsies and Book of Mormon Crossover with Morris Delancey & Elder Cunningham. Might be a bit odd but bear with me. I got a plot bunny for this filled with character redemption and all that good stuff.

#i love this??? #newsies #book of mormon #bom

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C U R S E D

you can dance

you can jive

having the time of your life

UWU

see that girl

watch that scene

dig in the dancing queen

#mamma mia #whyy oh why

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Davey Jacobs

Deserved his own song, 

just imagine all the riffs that Ben Fankhauser would have added to that song.

#newsies #davey jacobs #YES THIS IS THE ONE TRUTH

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poets born under each sign

aries: robert frost

The best way out is always through.

taurus: william shakespeare

My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground: And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare As any she belied with false compare.

gemini: walt whitman

Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.)

cancer: pablo neruda

But wait for me, keep for me your sweetness. I will give you too a rose. 

leo: charles bukowski

attend the boxing matches, go to the racetrack, live on luck and skill, get alone, get alone often, and if you can’t sleep alone be careful of the words you speak in your sleep; and ask for no mercy no miracles;

virgo: mary oliver

You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.

libra: e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

scorpio: sylvia plath

I wait and ache. I think I am healing.

sagittarius: emily dickinson

I dwell in possibility.

capricorn: edgar allen poe

Ah, dream too bright to last! Ah, starry Hope, that didst arise But to be overcast! A voice from out the Future cries, “On! on!“—but o'er the Past

aquarius: langston hughes

Hold fast to dreams For if dreams die Life is a broken-winged bird That cannot fly.

pisces: jack kerouac

This transcendental Brilliance Is the better part (of Nothingness I sing)

#HELL YEAH I GOT NERUDA!! #poetry #cancer #life stuff

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the beautiful instability of “For Forever”

(This is a rewrite of an old post! The old one was spread over a series of reblogs, so I thought I’d just consolidate it all in one place.)

tw: multiple suicide mentions.

“For Forever” is a really messed up title for a song that’s actually about a suicide attempt.

From the haunting opening chords to the deceptively simple lyrics, I’ve always thought there was something eerie and unsettling about the song. I slowly began to understand why when I realized the two meanings nestled of the title. Perhaps “For Forever” isn’t just Evan’s flight of fantasy. I’d like to suggest that it is actually a rather accurate–though metaphorical–description of Evan’s suicide attempt.

As we find out later in the show, the early summer day Evan is describing is actually the day he attempted suicide. And just beneath the surface, the song continually acknowledges that fact. 

Let’s start by taking a look at this brilliant Genius annotation by AmityRavenclawElf: 

“All we see is sky for forever

We let the world pass by for forever

Feels like we could go on for forever this way”

In many ways, Dear Evan Hansen is a play about duality. The axis of the story is the juxtaposition of Evan and Connor. As AmityRavenclawElf’s annotation reveals, the language of “For Forever” works in a similar mode of duality.

The key words in the song are terribly ambivalent: they are each so full of beauty and life, but also so close to death. Each ostensibly positive word also contains its opposite, just as “go on” contains the echo of “die.” 

Let’s look more closely at the language. 

“All we see is light”

“Wondering how the world might look from up so high”

Gorgeous, thrilling language–but isn’t the language of light and watching from on high also idiomatic of death?

From far across the yellow field I hear him calling, “Follow me”

Isn’t yellow a strange color choice? I don’t intuitively think of fields as being yellow. But it’s an incredible descriptor because yellow evokes sunlight (and thus life), but it also indicates sickness and decay. 

And in the art history world, the image of the yellow field is almost always a reference to Van Gogh’s painting Wheatfield with Crows, which is often cited to be his last painting before he purportedly committed suicide. It is also often pictured as the site where his suicide took place.

Let’s go back to the broader meaning of the line. Evan is imagining Connor calling him from faraway, from the other side. Evan is picturing someone who committed suicide beckoning him to follow in their footsteps. 

Evan is imagining someone who committed suicide leading him up the tree where he makes his own attempt.

No wonder the song feels so unsettling. The song itself is literally unsettled, constantly wobbling between two radically different meanings.

And just as the song holds the deepest sadness imaginable, it also holds such life. 

Though “You Will Be Found” is the musical’s “anthem,” “For Forever” is the motif that keeps coming back–it’s the finale, after all! But it’s a little different at the end. 

“All I see is sky for forever”

Referencing Genius again:

This signals to us that the meaning of this song has been subverted. Its duality has resolved itself and settled into a single meaning. And Evan’s terrible identification with Connor has ended. The mirroring of the two characters–the thread that has kept the story together–has finally unravelled.

“For Forever” is no longer about death. It is no longer about Connor.

It’s about Evan this time. “For Forever” is now about life.

Bonus: in the last scene of the musical, Evan meets Zoe again in the orchard where saplings are growing. Guess what Zoe means in Greek?

Life.

#for forever #dear evan hansen #deh analysis #deh

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#dear evan hansen #deh #bmc #be more chill #jared kleinman #jeremy heere #will roland #YES SAME

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UHMMM HDJFNDISJ

#dear evan hansen #deh #will roland #jared kleinman #be more chill #bmc #bmc musical #jeremy heere #IM FREAKING THE HECK OUT DNJDKDKS

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BEAUTIFUL CHILD

Mike Faist as Meka on Deception

#mike faist

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#mind dump #day one #journal #journaling #mindful moments #studyblr #diary

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Maybe I’d see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all

#djdjksnd im sobbing this is sad #the last five years #tl5y

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where the heck is this from

Look at Will Roland fuck up this box

#dear evan hansen #deh #jared kleinman #will roland #WAHAHA this is such a mood

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#TRUEEEE

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BRINGING THIS BACK FROM THE DEAD BECAUSE HOLY HECK MY HEART

so I was really bothered by the fact that we don’t see evan and jared make up after evan’s fuckup and jared storming off, and so I drew this

i’m not very happy with a few of the pictures but fuck it, i’m tired and i’m not a person for long projects so I just wanted to get it over with, as much as i don’t like to say it 

#dear evan hansen #evan hansen #jared kleinman #kleinsen #favorite

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Hi yes please don’t sleep on kleinsen,,, they’re another iconic red/blue ship pls

#kleinsen #jared kleinman #evan hansen #dear evan hansen #WTF THIS IS PERFECT???

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Alana: Evan, is Jared the “one”?

Evan: oh yeah! he is the “one”~!

Evan: the one who gets on my fucking nerves

#HDHDHSJM HAHAHAHAH I WHEEZED SO HARD #favorite

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