kassamigos

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– “OKAY,” CLAIRE SIGHS, AN APPREHENSIVE LOOK AT KASS, but she’ll take the answer at surface level for now. “ i just don’t want you to feel like you have to hide anything from me. i’m always going to do what i have to do, but…we can talk about anything. and, uh, hopefully she still feels like that after the interview. ” claire laughs halfheartedly, leaning back slightly on kass’s bed. it’s true that it isn’t the most perfect of circumstances, but claire definitely feels relief. actually, claire feels an entire host of different emotions all at once, which is strange considering she has a tendency to hone into one emotion at a time, all in, and tune everything else out. now, she’s excited, nervous, relieved, scared, and…well, a little sad. living with kass was the one thing she was really looking forward to after graduation – vacations in italy aside – and now the plan has changed. it’s hard to be told you’ll have to wait after planning for something so soon. and the way kass looks at her now, the way kass really seems to BELIEVE in her without a second thought – it’s a reminder of why claire wants to work so hard for this relationship in the first place. she wants to share all of her successes with kass like this. “ yeah, i don’t think i’d do very well as just your friend, either, ” she cracks a wry smile, “ and i really don’t want anyone else anyway. so, i’d do pretty much anything to make it work with you if you want it, too. ” her hands fall to kass’s waist, trying not to cringe at the phrase ‘long distance.’ it sounds like such a cliche out loud, something they should be better than, but it is what it is – and such is the world of being a spy. as far as hurdles go, they could have it a lot worse. “ we’d be in the same timezone and everything, ” claire assures with a nod, “ and…definitely not forever. just long enough for me to get my footing and to put everything that happened this semester behind me. i need that kind of fresh start in the field, the opportunity to prove myself. ” and lisanna is handing her exactly that, another chance. it kind of seemed like she had a knack for it, considering her interest in drew as well, name recently marred by the burn book. she never pictured herself in this position, but it’s honestly something claire has gotten used to – always going through with a chip on her shoulder, fighting off the consequences of reckless actions. “ and then i’ll be right back with you, ” claire adds, leaning forward to press her lips to kass’s.

“ I KNOW THAT, ”   she insists,   “ and there’s nothing i’d keep from you, really. ”   except... kass won’t get into her harrowing thoughts about how she doesn’t know what any of this means for HER, whether she’ll end up getting an apartment to herself, or moving back in with her mother, or if she can handle these next steps without her. the last thing she’d want is to make claire feel guilty for something that’s a great opportunity for her, but with all the change kass already has to overdone, doubt is beginning to settle in her stomach about how well she’s really cut out for it. it’s so easy to be ready to move on from college and life that she knows, until the time really comes. but all of that is a kass problem, so there’s no point dumping it onto claire. she’ll figure herself out when the time finally comes. moving to sit beside her on the bed, kass leans back against her headboard and rests her head on her girlfriend’s shoulder.   “ i don’t want anyone else, either. ”   she’d think it’s obvious, but a smile tugs at her lips when she says it anyway, because kass doesn’t think there’s going to be a point in her life when that changes.   “ i’ve never been to north carolina, ”   she adds,   “ so that’s kind of exciting. ”   kass doesn’t actually know what’s in north carolina, but she’ll do some research when she gets some time to herself. she bites the inside of her cheek when claire mentions a fresh start, feeling a pang of sadness that it has to come to this, even if kass knows it’s probably for the best. their first real job post-college is a fresh start for all of them in a way, but she’s right— nobody needs it more than claire.   “ who knows ?   maybe you’ll fall in love with the mountains of north carolina and never want to leave, ”   she jokes, flashing her a smile once she pulls away from the kiss.   “ we can become mountain women... so long as there’s still wifi. ”

#kass ; claire #me trying to close this but my brains on autopilot #you can? end it here? or end it yourself? or do what you want idc

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– “JUST BETTER TO BE PREPARED,” CLAIRE SHRUGS, because she thinks of it more as anticipating all scenarios – you know, just in case. besides, she knows what it feels like to get your hopes up about things, she’d rather just be pleasantly surprised. like she was when lisanna approached her in the first place. claire smiles back, but it’s tentative, like she’s not sure that kass’s quick response really SOLVES the problem at hand – if there is a problem, of course, but she can feel the sudden tension between them that hadn’t existed a few moments prior. despite claire’s usual reticence, even she knows that there is more to say. “ no, it’s fine. i get it, i’d rather you just…tell me what you’re thinking rather than pretend to be totally happy about it, ” claire says through slightly gritted teeth, because it is frustrating how difficult it makes it to be truly excited about the opportunity. the job itself, the seamless mentorship program…it’s a perfect fit for her, or…it would be, if it wasn’t in north carolina. her gaze lifts, looking up to meet kass’s eyes. there’s a moment of confusion, “ what ? why would you even…why would you say that ? ” claire asks, shaking her head. “ kass, come on, ” she shifts a little closer to her, “ i don’t think there’s ANYTHING in the world that could make me not want to be with you. especially now that i know what it’s like, i don’t think i could just go back. you’re the most important person in the world to me, and you’re my best friend. i might’ve made it through this year regardless, but it would’ve been so shit without you. which is how i pretty much think about the rest of my life – better with you in it, ” claire says. “ you still want that too, right ? ” 

“ I AM HAPPY ABOUT IT, ”   she insists,   “ really. i mean, obviously i wish it was in dc, but i still think this is a great opportunity, and you should definitely take it if it’s offered. elisa’s mom is the best, and obviously if she scouted you herself, she knows she’s getting the best in return. ”   it’s hard, because under normal circumstances kass would already be celebrating the interview, talking claire into town and having a nice dinner because of it. claire might have to jump through a few more hoops before given the job offer, but kass can FEEL it— she’s going to get it. claire’s nothing less than a great spy, and any of her professors would say that despite the attitude, she knows what she’s doing. all she needed was a chance, and now that she’s given it, kass has no doubts she’s going to go far. her cheeks heat up a bit at the intensity of claire’s words, though that warmth spreads throughout her entire body, exactly what kass needed to hear without even realizing.   “ okay, good, ”   she takes a deep breath, quickly nodding.   “ yeah, of course i want this. i can’t... i can’t imagine my life without you in it. and i don’t think we’d last very long trying to go back as just friends, ”   she jokes lightly, feeling a little tongue-tied from claire’s answer. somehow she always knows exactly what to say to calm her down.   “ so, we’ll do long distance, ”   kass tries the words out for a taste, ones she never thought she’d have to utter. it’s not preferable, obviously, but she’ll put on a smile anyway, reaching out to cup claire’s face gently.   “ it can’t be that far, anyway. it’s not like you’re going to california, ”   she lets out a small laugh.   “ and i’m sure it won’t be forever. ”   god, she HOPES not. there’s still a flutter of anxiety deep in her stomach, thinking about all the changed plans this means, but kass shoves them down as much as she can. the last thing she wants is for claire to be turned off of this opportunity because of what they’ve decided on already.

#kass ; claire #did not miss her gifs <3

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– “I WOULDN’T SAY THAT. first, you’ll jinx me, and by now, i don’t think you can even claim to be surprised by my ability to screw things up, ” claire points out, and sure, there’s an air of self-deprecation to it, but maybe there should also be pride, because screwing things up is part of her SPECIALTY. the good things in her life, like kass, still feel like a stroke of luck ! she supposes that she doesn’t want kass to be over the moon about this, it wouldn’t make sense for kass to be excited for her to be so far away – it feels both bitter and sweet, the excitement of a job that she’s interested in mixed with the anxiety about being so far away from kass, who has been her everything over the past few years. “ in a couple days, but i’ll be back in time for us to go to italy. that’s not…there’s nothing that could keep me from that, ” claire says, wanting to reassure kass that at least one plan hasn’t changed. “ are you…are we gonna be okay ? ” 

        “ YOU’RE GOING TO JINX YOURSELF, with all that negativity, ”   she scowls in her direction, because the last thing she wants to hear is claire thinking she screws anything up. kass knows better than anyone how much claire’s been through in her lifetime, but she refuses to play into the narrative that any of it is CLAIRE’S fault, even if there are some instances that are more her fault than others. the mention of italy makes her shake her head, because kass hadn’t even been worried that it the interview would affect that – though now, she supposes, she should feel lucky.   “ no, i know, ”   she assures her, squeezing her hand gently.   “ of course we are. ”   it’s a knee-jerk reaction, to smile in claire’s direction and promise her that everything’s going to be okay. and it WILL be okay, she knows ;   the confidence isn’t coming from nowhere.   “ sorry, this is... really exciting for you, obviously. i hope you know i’m really proud and everything, and i hope you get it. ”   a pause.   “ it’s just... i do wish it was a little closer, ”   she admits.   “ like, if you get this, would you want to... i don’t know, still be together ? ”   nothing about this feels like it’s leading to a break-up, but kass can’t NOT ask.

#kass ; claire

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– CLAIRE CAN TELL THAT KASS DOESN’T WANT TO SAY IT. that she’s probably THINKING it, but she’s nervous to ask outright. and claire doesn’t really want to say it outright either, but she knows that it’s something that they’ll have to address. the funny thing is, they’d prepared for this a while ago : the idea that they might have jobs in different cities or places, but when it didn’t happen, they had started making plans together. and now that they’ve made plans, it is hard to go back to the way they’d been thinking before. but claire also knows that if she were to pass up this opportunity, she’d regret it forever, especially once she made it to d.c. and started working at the gym. this is what she really wants to do, what she’s been working toward. “ yeah, that’s what i’m hoping. i mean, unless i really screw up the interview, that’s always POSSIBLE, but yeah, i think it’s a good sign, ” and it feels like a weight off her chest to say, or even to feel the slightest bit optimistic again. “ yeah, um. that’s where their only office in the states is, so…i’d move there if i got the job. ” 

        “ PLEASE, THERE’S NO WAY YOU’D SCREW IT UP, ”   kass gives her a look, because if the agency is interested in hiring someone with claire’s chaotic background, surely the interview is the least of her worries. this is a GOOD thing for claire, and she knows it – so it pains kass to admit that she’s a little disappointed to hear all this. no, maybe disappointed isn’t the right word. right now kass is packing up her childhood bedroom to move her things to an apartment in dc her mom has only just found, and in a few weeks she’s going to have to move again, once claire and her find somewhere. only... if claire’s going to be in north carolina, what does that mean for her ?   kass has never minded change, but plans being flipped on her like a switch does make her stomach churn with anxiety.   “ when’s your interview ? ”   she asks, trying to do the math in her head about when this hypothetical wrench in their plan might become a reality.

#kass ; claire

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– CLAIRE SMILES FOR A MOMENT AT KASS’S EXCITED REACTION. she can’t help it : she’s excited, too. however, she also knows that this could potentially put a wrench in their future plans, something they’d been so SET on for months now. “ yeah, well, it’s a job SOMETHING. i don’t know, she said they’d fly me out in a couple days for a first interview if i’m interested and…well, i AM interested. it’s just…when i say ‘fly me out’, it’s in north carolina. so, it’s sort of FAR. i’m not banking on anything yet, but…it’s a good company and the most interest anyone’s shown in me in months now. ” 

        KASS WANTS TO BE HAPPY FOR CLAIRE, AND SHE IS — but the mention of north carolina does make her hesitate for a moment, not really putting two and two together about its implications until claire has to spell it out.   “ that’s definitely a prospect, that’s exciting !   if elisa’s mom recruited you herself, i bet it’s just a formality. that’s so great, claire. ”   kass reaches out to take her girlfriend’s hands in hers.   “ would you... be based in north carolina, too ? ”   maybe just the interview is there, who knows. she’s definitely not going to shit on the first real job opportunity claire’s been given in months. 

#kass ; claire

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– SHE’S BEEN TRYING TO FOCUS ON THE ITALY TRIP, and how cute kass looks trying on all her different outfits ( which is especially adorable when you think about the fact that claire is just going to wear the same ripped jean shorts the entire trip. ) but she can’t, really, because she’s still thinking about her conversation with lisanna at graduation and the fact that she’s offered to fly her out to durham in a couple days for her first interview, right before they leave for italy. her head is spinning. “ this is sort of insane, but… ” she trails off, “ elisa’s mom came to talk to me at graduation. she works for this private agency, they do a lot of like…guns for hire type of shit, it’s pretty cool. ” 

        SHE’S SMOOTHING DOWN HER DRESS when the mention of elisa’s mom perks kass’ head up, turning around to face claire.   “ really ? ”    it takes her a moment, but she can see where this is going, a wide smile forming on her lips as she comes over to the bed claire’s sitting on and takes a seat across from her.   “ was it, like, a job opportunity thing ? ”   doesn’t want to get ahead of herself, but she knows claire hasn’t been the happiest about graduating without an offer for a spy position, so if that’s changed... that’s a pretty big deal. 

#kass ; claire #save the stabbings for delilah <3

[kassamigos]

         AFTER YESTERDAY, GALLAGHER IS OFFICIALLY OVER. so it’s no surprise that only a day after graduation, kass has already begun to start packing her bedroom. today’s chore has been tackling the closet, and with claire there to keep her company, she’s started throwing clothes for italy in a pile -- but it’s taking her awhile, because kass feels the need to try on every potential outfit and ask claire if she thinks she could see her walking around rome in it, as if she’s the one that’s been before. she had just thrown on a sundress from the back of her closet  ( cute, but a little too small, probably because she bought it when she was sixteen )   when claire speaks up.   “ yeah, what’s up ? ”   kass asks, studying the dress in the mirror, only glancing away from herself to meet claire’s gaze through the looking glass.

starter for @kassamigos​

– THE NIGHT AFTER GRADUATION HAS BEEN…A BIT OF A WHIRLWIND. everyone’s been packing up and leaving all day long, and claire now sits cross-legged on kass’s childhood bed as she starts the first stages of packing – both her room into boxes and for their trip to italy. everything claire owns can pretty much be fit into two suitcases, so she doesn’t have this issue. watching kass run around her room this way, opening cabinets, going through stuff…it’s a little fascinating to her, like watching a gerbil run around its cage or something. essentially : unhinged but adorable. “ hey…do you have a minute ? ” claire asks, “ i wanna talk about something. ” 

#NEW GIFS LETS GO #kass ; claire

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– “YEAH, YEAH,” CLAIRE LAUGHS, “I CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU, SUTTON.” because it’s TRUE that she can’t say no to kass at a time like this, she might not really enjoy dancing, but she does enjoy seeing kass smile – it’s been a WEAKNESS of hers for years now, no matter how hard she’s tried to fight it. at this point, she doesn’t know why, it was always inevitable, but she also can remember a time where she doesn’t know all of the things she knows now. she’d tell her past self to be less scared, if she could, even though she knows her past self would never believe her if she told her that she could be THIS happy. her arms fall to kass’s waist, tugging her a little closer. “ no, we haven’t. because i don’t dance, ” claire explains, a la chad danforth. still, she knows what this means to kass, and maybe there’s a small part of her…a part that’s loathe to admit it but a PART of her that really enjoys this, too, always scared to get caught up in the idea of fairytales as not to be disappointed by reality, but right now reality is BETTER than anything she could’ve daydreamed, holding her girlfriend this close in the middle of the dancefloor. “ well, except this once, i guess. sometimes i can be persuaded, ” she adds, though only by one person in particular ! it’s hard to believe that this is only the beginning for them, maybe the last day of their first chapter, because everything STARTED at gallagher for the two of them, two girls in a spanish class ( a class that claire nearly flunked ) and now that’s all it is. the start. and they have an entire future that spans before them, starting with their new place in d.c. together. “ i can’t stop thinking about…i don’t know, last year. and the year before. but mostly last year, where i already knew you were it for me and i was so scared…not even because i wanted you and didn’t think you wanted me, which was part of it, but also because i knew what it would mean…because when you become certain about something like that, there’s no turning back, at least not with me. and definitely not with you, but i guess that’s why looking back is so funny ? ” claire shakes her head, soft breathy laughter escaping her lips. she’d blame part of this on the drinks she’s had prior, there are some bad influences on this dance floor, but maybe there is something to be said about nights that feel like fairytales. “ because i’m not scared any more. i just…i love you. and i’m so excited about everything we’re gonna do next. ” 

         “ FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T DANCE, you’re not doing too shabby, you know, ”   kass points out with a raise of her brow, as if claire secretly knew she could dance all along. in fairness, there’s not much skill to the way their bodies sway together, but there’s a rhythm of it that comes natural, the two girls having been in sync together long before their relationship started. there’s a twitch of a smile that forms on kass’ lips at claire’s comment, because last year had been on her mind as well -- mostly how it feels like FIVE years have come and gone in that time. it had been after their first kiss, after kass had thought she bared her heart to claire only to get rejected  ( which, looking back on it now, is ridiculous ) ,   back when grey was just beginning to become a supporting character in her life. it’ll never not get old, the butterflies that come with knowing claire had been so sure of her feelings for her, even if they hadn’t been made apparent to her until months later.   “ i know what you mean, ”   she says with a small laugh of her own, thinking back to the severity kass had felt in her bones when she had kissed claire in the gym for the first time last march, knowing that their friendship would forever be marked by that. she had been certain then, and she was certain now, eyes watching claire as if her girlfriend could move stars with her smile. and with the last few weeks kass’ had, it’s nice to have a certainty. too happy to even conjure tears, she can only bite her lip to hide her growing smile.   “ you know what i remember about last year ? ”   she asks, trying not to grin.   “ ---you throwing up in the bathroom. ”   but after a laugh, she adds,   “ no, i remember you telling me that you were allowing yourself to rely on me, which isn’t an easy thing to do, and that because of it i couldn’t go anywhere. you told me you wanted me in your life always, ”   kass’ words are soft, because they mean more to her than she could ever explain. she had laughed off that night, assuming claire was just drunk and emotional, but they stuck with her in the days and weeks following, realizing only after how serious she took that promise.   “ and i told you i’m not going anywhere, and... now going to dc together, knowing we have the rest of our lives ahead of us... i don’t know, ”   kass shrugs her shoulders once.   “ it just feels good, to keep that promise. because you’re it for me too, and it’s a lot less scary going into everything, knowing i have you. so thank you, ”   okay, maybe she has to blink away for a moment, so she doesn’t tear up,   “ for relying on me. i love you too. ”

#im sorry i had to reply but <3 you can end it here #kass ; claire #have a baby gif idec

[kassamigos]

GOODBYE, GALLAGHER: Kassandra Sutton, Class of 2021

CLICK HERE.

#its_time_to_go.mp3 #kassandra sutton will always and forever be my baby #and none of my other muses get rights x #kassandra ; self para

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– IT’S TRUE THAT CLAIRE’S METHODS OF COMFORTING AREN’T ALWAYS warm and fuzzy…it’s just more of her nature, but it helps that it seems to work on kass, that she doesn’t have to change who she is in order to get through to her. claire catches the smile on kass’s lips and knows that she’s done her job, at least to the degree that she needed to tonight. her hands fall to kass’s waist with an almost SMUG expression on her face when she’s told that she’s right ! “ i think we’ve been over this enough times for us both to know that you’d be completely fine, ” claire laughs, “ but i’m glad that you don’t have to figure it out. and that i don’t have to figure it out. ” because kass changed everything for her, and maybe there was a point where claire could have shut down, figured out how she was supposed to exist without her, but instead she chose to let kass in, to trust that she could become a permanent fixture in her life. and now, existing alongside her feels like being half of a whole. “ oh my god, ” claire laughs out loud at kass’s question, “ don’t tell me you PLANNED all that to get me all sympathetic for you so that you could pull this on me. ” she’s accusatory in her glance, heaving a dramatic sigh as she can feel herself giving in. it is their final gala, after all, she might as well relent. “ fiiiine. just for a little bit. ” 

        DESPITE CLAIRE’S CONVICTION, kass really doesn’t think she could’ve done this year without her. or rather, she could’ve, but it would’ve looked a lot like their third year, when kass was bottling everything in and miserable and nearly transferred schools. her fourth and final year hadn’t been easy, but looking back on it now she’s glad that she hadn’t gone to england her very last year, if not because of her relationship with claire, but because she hadn’t known a year ago that this year would be her last at gallagher, forever. there’d be no visits to her mom and sister in the coming years, because they’ll be living in dc as well. nevertheless, she’s not sure she would’ve been able to handle another year like last, so she’s thankful that she had claire in her corner through it all.   “ i’m glad too, ”   she tells her, thumb circling softly on claire’s cheek. her lips pull into a sheepish grin when her girlfriend calls her out on it, shaking her head.   “ of course not ! ”   she hits her lightly in the arm.   “ but i mean, don’t forget i’m in a very vulnerable state right now. ”   may as well capitalize on this feeling. but she knows she’s going to give in anyway, because even claire walsh can’t ignore the nostalgia that comes with the last gallagher event of their careers. her smile widens into something so obnoxious that her cheeks nearly hurt, quick to pull herself out of her girlfriend’s grip so she could take her hand and drag her over to the dance floor.   “ have we ever danced at one of these things before ? ”   she teases as she loops her arms around claire’s neck, bringing them back close together. kass already knows the answer is no -- maybe she had gotten her to do a single dance with her at the valentine’s day event, but even that had been casual and light. this was something out of a fairytale :   kass’ finest dress, the dim of the ballroom lights, the most beautiful girl wrapped around her. THIS is exactly what she needs from their last night at gallagher.

#kass ; claire

[kassamigos]

ofclaires​:

– CLAIRE STILL DOESN’T FEEL PARTICULARLY GOOD AT THIS ; the comforting thing. all she wants is to be there for kass, but it’s hard to know what to say at an overwhelming time like this. there certainly was a point where claire would have never dared to be so affectionate in public, but she’s changed her tune, pulling kass close to her and wrapping her arms around her. “ it might be, it’s probably pretty hard to say right now. a lot of things are changing, but i’m telling you that right now is NOT the time to worry about it, ” claire says, creating a small amount of distance so that she can meet her eyes with an almost stern expression. “ you can talk to her about it later, but it’s all going to work out how it should. she’ll figure it out. ” claire doesn’t blame val for freaking out about where she stands on spies after being double-crossed by her boyfriend, after all. but most importantly, she doesn’t want kass’s worry over her sister’s future to overtake the night. “ this is probably stupid of me to say, but, ” she places one kiss on kass’s jaw, “ stop, ” two kisses, “ worrying. ” a third to her lips, “ you’re going to drive yourself fucking insane. ” her nose brushes against kass’s before she pulls away. kass has always been the person that held her down, steadfast and grounded when she felt lost to the wind. it’s important to claire to be that person for her, and she can remember last year where she felt like she missed her chance entirely. she won’t let these moments pass her by. “ she lands in an hour, i think. she was lucky they could get her on the next. ” 

        SOMETIMES WHEN CLAIRE COMFORTS HER, it feels more like she’s scolding her, chin tucked into her chest as she cast her serious gaze down at kass. these moments, surprisingly, are always the ones that stick with kass most ;   there’s something about claire’s stern look that shuts her right up and actually listens. and she is right :   now is not the time to worry about the fate of valeria sutton, not when she has a now retired mother to fall back on. slowly she can feel her stress melt away as claire pulls her closer, lips twitching into a smile from her soft kisses. kass knows her girlfriend well enough to know this is usually treatment she receives behind closed doors, so she appreciates it.   “ you’re right, ”   she says again, this time meaning it. when she wraps her arms around claire’s neck loosely, kass swats at the ends of her short hair on the back of her neck.   “ thank you, ”   she adds, holding her gaze.   “ i don’t know what i’d do without you, honestly. ”   these last few weeks -- as well the next few upcoming weeks -- would’ve been a hell of a lot more stressful without claire by her side, and she doesn’t take it for granted.   “ good, ”   kass smiles, already looking forward to getting on maggie’s good side again.   “ dance with me ? ”   her head motions to the dance floor, green eyes widening a little in a silent plea. maybe her mini-breakdown will work in her favor. 

#ur getting this right back bc it made me uwu #kass ; claire #im so distracted this wasnt even right back smh

[kassamigos]

redgrve​:

– “OKAY, WELL, IF YOU NEED ANYTHING…like, even just to talk, i’m here. i know i haven’t been through it at the level that you have, but i can probably say more confidently than most people that it’ll work out, ” he smiles. “ well, it was a fun vacation at least, ” louis suggests, even if he hates plane rides and needs to be pretty much knocked out on all kinds of drugs for the duration of them if he’s going to make it at all. “ same, it’s kind of full circle, isn’t it ? who would’ve thought ? ” his expression is fond, and it’s actually so funny to him to look back to when they first worked together as teenagers. “ most of the new things for me are just new for jas…she’s got a job in the same building that starts soon, and she’ll be moving in after graduation, so. that’s the majority of the excitement. ” and he might be up for a promotion soon, but he doesn’t want to jinx it by saying anything. 

        REACHING OUT, kass squeezes his arm lightly.   “ thank you. ”   his words mean a lot to her, and she won’t forget them.   “ no, it definitely was. germany was a really cool country. i haven’t been able to find a beer i like since, ”   she jokes.   “ honestly !   if only our intern advisors could see us now, ”   kass grins, and maybe later she’ll try to dig up some old pictures from that summer, to send to louis for a laugh. proof that internships can help you land your dream job. she knows most of jas’ updates from the blonde herself, but she nods along.   “ that’ll be exciting, you guys finally living together. what do you do to stay busy in dc ? "   kass prompts, wanting to hear more about his life in the city.

#kass ; louis

[kassamigos]

julixneaton​:

“Technically second. The first was the spring festival,” he tells her, reaching for a cupcake from the table. He does limit the quantity of dessert he eats, the cupcake being his first dessert of the night. If they weren’t made by Kass, he’d skip. Maybe he’s letting loose a bit tonight, but he’s still boring! He chuckles lightly, the shyness back. “Doing the most for her is the least she deserves,” he says, taking a bite. “She’s going to be in Turkey the entire summer, and I got accepted into an internship in England and one in Spain, so I just need to answer back with my choice. I’m flying to Los Angeles for a bit to see my family first.” And to visit Clara’s grave. “But yes, we will be seeing each other a few times.”

        KASS REMEMBERS HOW AYLIN WASN’T SURE IF THE SPRING FESTIVAL was really a date or not, so she’ll decide for the couple that this is their real first date. sorry julian.   “ you’re such a simp, ”   she laughs, taking a cupcake for herself.   “ oh wow, congrats. which do you think you’ll end up doing ?   where in spain ? ”   she’s assuming the england one takes place in london.   “ tell your family i say hi, ”   kass offers, with a smile.   “ that should be nice. ”

#kass ; julian

[kassamigos]

stcllato​:

      “  𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕  𝚝𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢  ,  we  could  throw  a  joint  birthday  party  .  i’ll  just  be  celebrating  my  half-birthday  !  ”  they  muse  with  a  grin  .  “  i  guess  we’ll  see  if  i  throw  one  ,  ”  blair  shrugs  .  they’re  not  committed  to  the  idea  of  having  a  graduation  party  .  but  they’ll  have  to  see  in  three  years  .  “  a  green  tea  shot  ?  ”  makes  a  face  at  the  name  .  “  i  don’t  think  i  have  .  but  if  it’s  classy  then  i’m  all  for  it  .  i  was  about  to  suggest  that  we  do  lemon  drop  shots  ,  ”  they  chuckle  .  “  i  don’t  know  why  but  i  feel  like  after  the  years  your  mom  has  had  ,  she  might  be  more  inclined  to  just  shoot  tequila  shots  .  ”

        “ AW, THAT WOULD BE KIND OF CUTE. then we could both get two parties -- one in december for my birthday and your half-birthday, and one in june for your birthday and my half-birthday. double the cake ! ”   birthday cake really is the most important part of a birthday, let’s be honest.   “ if you like lemon drop shots, you’ll like green tea ones, they’re both similar. green tea has jameson, i think. but you don’t really taste it. there’s other stuff in there. ”   kass makes a face, because she can’t imagine her mom taking a tequila shot.   “ i don’t think she’s cool enough for that. ”

#THAT GIF IS SO CUTE PLS #kass ; blair

[kassamigos]

coleconnerhq​:

He’d known to expect that his suggestion would set her off, and he knows anything he ever had with Val is not the same as sisterhood. He’d always admired what the two girl have as siblings, that they could always rely on each other, always have the safety of family in each other’s arms and hearts. He’d longed for it, wished for family of his own. And he knows the actions Kass takes are in an effort to protect, but Cole’s been trying to do that too, and it all still feels like he isn’t giving Val the freedom she deserves, the trust to make her own decisions. He looks to Kass, and he can’t ever be mad at her for how she’s hurting. The awful part is he does understand, and that dawns on him as he nods, eyes stinging with the acceptance that her guarding her heart is a strong choice, the choice he’d want her to make if it were anyone else. “And you’re far from that. In fact, you’re one of the smartest girls I’ve ever met, so… maybe that’s the right choice, Kass,” he says quietly with a small, sad smile, willing for the tears not to fall, but it’s harder when he can see her wiping at her own. “I just… I don’t want to be the reason you see your goodwill as a flaw. Your kindness does not make you a fool,” Cole tells her. It might be hard to accept if she thinks he’s only saying it so she could offer it him, but he hopes he can hear the honesty in his voice. He knows that might be hard, but right now, there is no pretense from him, no distant politeness, no fearful hesitance. Just his words, eyes brimming with his raw emotions. “Kass… I love her. And I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving her. And I refuse to lie to myself… or lie to her. I’m sorry.”

        SHE CAN’T EVEN LOOK AT HIM RIGHT NOW, eyes flickering away for any chance that she can pull herself back together. after all, they’re in the middle of the last event of her school career, and any minute now she’s sure claire will see her talking to cole and try to come save her, and she doesn’t really want her girlfriend to see her so rattled. the one thing she’s always liked about cole  ( from a list of many reasons )  is that he’s always seemed to know exactly what to say, in a calming voice that makes her feel like everything will be alright, even in the midst of usual gallagher mayhem. he’s doing it right now too, but even that feels tainted, because all she can think about is how they must’ve taught him that. caledonia. it’s only when he speaks of loving her sister does she finally brave herself to look back at him, fingers wiping the bottoms of her eyes carefully to not smudge her makeup. it’d be so easy to just continue to not trust him, but there’s something in his clear blue eyes that has her watching him a bit longer than normal -- and there’s her gut again, telling her to BELIEVE him.   “ i’m sorry, too, ”   she says quietly, because it’s going to take more than one conversation to mend their relationship again, though she wishes it were easier.   “ i WANT to believe you, cole. but i also just... i want what’s best for her. and you, ”   she adds, the words tumbling out. seeing him like this makes her want to reach her arms out and give him a hug, but her feet stay frozen in place.   “ if you want me to trust you again, you’re going to have to prove you’re serious, about all of this. ”   a pause.   “ did you tell val to leave gallagher ? ”

#kass ; cole #i hate that this be ending on such a bad note FDGYFUDF

[kassamigos]

thrill-cfthechase​:

“yeah, a lot of the midwest is lame and, like, fields of nothing for miles and miles, but there are other parts that are nice.” if she had to actually spend time there she would hate it, but elliot liked the outdoor bits when no one else was around. “i haven’t, but it’s not far out of my way at all. maybe i’ll go this week.” she had already failed at finding a good graduation gift for kass, and getting her a rock would make elliot feel better about that. “you’ve known each other for four years so i don’t think it’s that soon.” she’s sure that if any couple could do it, it’s them. “i’m not sure if i’d like living alone.” the closest thing she’d had to living alone was living with her father, and obviously that didn’t go amazingly. “well, i can’t wait to visit your new place.”

        “ YEAH, I CAN BELIEVE THAT. i’d love to see the pacific northwest one day, i heard that in itself is beautiful. take pictures on your trip and send it to me, yeah ? ”   it’ll help her feel closer to her friend while she’s hundreds of miles away, even if it’s just for a few weeks.   “ you should go !   you could see old faithful. get me a rock if you end up going, for my collection. ”   she’s pretty easy to please. honestly, kass doesn’t think it’s that soon either, but she’s always been a little self-conscious of the way her and claire moved so fast as a couple, so it’s nice to hear it from elliot.   “ yeah, i’d probably want to live with her if we were still just friends, too. ”   it’s only a teensy bit different now.   “ i definitely need other people around me way too much to be able to live alone. but you’re welcome to come any time, whether it’s this summer or you want a break from gallagher in the fall. ”

#kass ; elliot

[kassamigos]

coleconnerhq​:

This isn’t the first time he’s seen Kass’ green eyes glimmering with heartache, nor is it the first time it’s been because of him, and it doesn’t get any easier. “I have guarded my past for longer than I’ve known you,” Cole says quietly. “What I have left of my old life is mine, not a weapon I would use just to get closer to you and your sister. Wouldn’t I have mentioned it before now? If I had known?” His expression begs her to understand, but he knows he can’t force her to see his way. That expression falls as she goes on, echoing a fear he’s had as well. Caledonia might be dead now, but he’d be foolish to think it meant it was fully over. Cole doesn’t want to fight her, he doesn’t want to be at odds with someone he’d considered such a close friend, someone he still holds all that care for. But where he’d once wondered what the right decision was in the promise he’d made her, which sister he should give the loyalty of his actions to, he knows with clarity what the answer is now. It has to be Val every time. “I think we both have to stop trying to make that decision for her,” Cole says, voice low, but eyes earnest, and he knows she might hate him for it, but he has to say it anyway. He doesn’t raise his voice, but his words still begin to take on a longing urgency laced with the somehow hopeful sadness in his chest. “You may be right in some regard. Maybe there’s too much uncertainty in my life, maybe I don’t know what will become of my future, but I’m not afraid of that. I’ve spent so long with my choices ripped from me, and the idea that I don’t know what comes next now is so damn freeing I can’t even describe it. There are so few things I know with certainty now, Kass,” Cole please with her, the name he used to say so happily slipping into his words once he finally lets them drip with real emotion. “One of them is the way I feel about her, and the way I feel about you.”

        KASS LIKES TO THINK SHE’S A GOOD JUDGE OF CHARACTER. claire would probably disagree, especially after everything that’s happened in the past few weeks, but she believes strongly that she can tell when someone is bullshitting her or not. case in point --- she WANTS to believe that cole is bullshitting her, that these are more pretty lies he’s feeding her to let her guard down, but her gut refuses to let her believe that. of course, her gut’s been wrong before, and there’s no stronger proof than finding out cole was a double agent. torn between her head and her heart, all she can do is watch him with round green eyes, hoping to catch something in his face that would give her all the answers on what to think.   “ don’t compare me to you, ”   her eyes narrow, voice coming out a hiss of a whisper. maybe she’s not thinking about what val wants, but she’s thinking about what she NEEDS. but that fierceness doesn’t stick, eyes betraying her as they soften listening to him. kass doesn’t doubt that his life’s been hard, and she’s glad that he had escaped a future paved in decisions he wouldn’t have been making. she CARES about him, even if she doesn’t want to. kass just cares for her sister more.   “ you have to understand, ”   she tells him, trying to blink back tears, but they call silently anyway. her hand moves quick to wipe them away.   “ i’d be an idiot to just believe you after everything. ”

#kass ; cole #crying thx