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[kaylawhitmer]

He’s the best things that’s stepped foot into my life. Since the day he took me on our first date I knew no matter what I wanted this man in my life anyway possible. I messed up a lot in the beginning, he came in my life and repaired my broken heart. I didn’t think I deserved someone as good as him. I was terrified. He had plans and a future and he was the light at the end of the dark tunnel I was in for so many years. There’s still so many things we have to learn and it’s still the beginning of forever with the man I love the most. I love you Collin 💕

#husband material #forever grateful #forevermine #i love you #alwayslearning #always you

[kaylawhitmer]

I wanted to stop doing drugs, but you just wouldn’t go away✨🖤

#followforfollow #interact with me #witchblr #ttcsupport #new blog #spirituality #mental help #message me #someone help

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Hello, I’m thinking about going back to sleep.

#interact with me #goodmorning #follow me #followforfollow

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Three of Swords. Four of Pentacles. Five of Wands.

Within the midst of heartache, do not lose sight of your strength. Let your soul be surrounded by healing energy. Even though at times it may feel like you do, know that you do not walk a path of solitude. Do not fear vulnerability. Embrace honesty. Do not hide your feelings. Allow your heart to be open, and in time your pain will subside.

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The amount of pregnancy posts on my Facebook right now is unreal.

A friend is ready to pop and she got married when we started ttc. Seeing her posts makes me happy but ache.

I'm happy for them but having a pity party for me for a few minutes.

Took a test yesterday, too early and I knew this but was just so hopeful. Negative.

We've been trying for 18 months now and had one loss.

I'm so frustrated.

I hoped for a pregnancy by Christmas 2020.

I'm losing hope.

[kaylawhitmer]

Me and my husband have been trying to convince for almost a full year. To some of y’all it’s been even longer and I could only expect the feelings to get worse and worse each month you get that negative pregnancy test. This is month two trying fertility medicine and it seems to be that I have an ovulation problem. I live in Louisiana and there are people who just certainly should not have kids and should wait. They use drugs and hard drugs and they break up every single month. You never think you’d care. Why should I care?

It’s honestly just not fair. I try my damn hardest to be the best wife, best friend, family person and I go to the doctor. We spend money. I get blood test, ultrasounds... inner ultrasounds more test and medicine and you’re telling me these people that our CRACKED out can get pregnant on fucking accident... it’s my turn. Everyone around me gets a chance and it’s beautiful and I want to experience it myself with my family. I never thought I would be at this point in my life were I’m trying to have a baby and of course, I can’t get pregnant bc I have an ovulation problem. When is it my turn ?

#infertility #medicine #pregnancy #i want a baby #ttcsupport

[kaylawhitmer]

The High Priestess.

Listen to your inner voice. Trust the words spoken by your heart. Focus on self awareness. Do not be mislead by a waking world. Follow your subconscious. Be mindful of your dreams and symbols that may normally go unseen. The enlightened mind is one that chooses to share knowledge, it does not use knowledge solely for self serving purposes.

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crystals/stones grouped by use

Crystals for Healing

Agate / Amethyst / Aqua Aura / Aventurine / Azurite / Bloodstone / Calcite / Chrysoprase / Cornelian / Fluorite / Haematite / Iron Pyrite / Jasper / Jet / Lapis Lazuli / Quartz (Clear) / Sodalite / Sugilite / Tourmaline / Turquoise

Crystals for Strength

Agate / Amber / Bloodstone / Blue John / Diamond / Kyanite / Scapolite / Unakite

Crystals for Love

Agate / Amber / Aquamarine / Beryl / Chrysocolla / Chrysoprase / Diopside / Garnet / Lapis Lazuli / Malachite / Moonstone / Quartz (Rose) / Rhodochrosite / Sapphire / Tourmaline / Turquoise

Crystals for Protection

Agate / Amber / Blue Coral / Carnelian / Citrine / Jasper / Jet / Lapis Lazuli / Leucite / Malachite / Obsidian / Onyx / Peridot / Quartz / Ruby / Sapphire / Sulphur / Tigers Eye / Turquoise

Crystals for Luck

Amber / Aventurine / Jet / Tigers Eye / Turquoise

Crystals for Psychism

Amethyst / Aquamarine / Aventurine / Azurite / Calcite / Carnelian / Citrine / Emerald / Geode / Jet / Lapis Lazuli / Quartz  / Sugilite / Tigers Eye / Turquoise

Crystals for Peace

Amethyst / Aquamarine / Aventurine / Calcite / Carnelian / Chrysocolla / Malachite / Obsidian / Sodalite / Tourmaline

Crystals for Happiness/Optimism

Amethyst / Dolomite / Goldstone / Malachite / Quartz (Rose)

Crystals for Divination

Azurite / Haematite / Jet / Obsidian / Tigers Eye

Crystals for Wisdom

Chrysocolla / Hornblende / Lapis Lazuli / Sodalite / Sugilite

Crystals for Wealth

Aventurine / Bloodstone / Calcite / Lapis Lazuli / Peridot / Ruby / Tigers Eye / Tourmaline / Turquoise

Crystals for Clarity

Amazonite / Tiger Iron / Zircon

Crystals for Meditation

Azurite / Celestite / Dioptase / Eilat Stone / Fluorite / Larimar / Moss Agate / Quartz (Snow) / Serpentine / Sodalite / Thulite / Variscite / Wollastonite

Crystals for Friendship

Chrysoprase / Jade / Rhodochrosite / Turquoise / Vanadinite / Verdite

Crystals for Confidence

Astrophyllite / Bloodstone / Cerrusite / Corundum / Danburite / Sodalite /Spessartine / Tourmaline

Crystals for Imagination

Franklinite / Hickoryite

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~ fresh herbs and wildflowers I gathered a few days ago 🍃⛅️ most likely my last little harvest of the season 🌾🌻✨

[kaylawhitmer]

“These mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb.”

— Najwa Zebian

[kaylawhitmer]

A Secret from Me to You

There is a thing  You should know before reading this tale. 

Despite my best efforts, I still do not know how to love myself.

But here is the secret that no one told me.

It’s okay.

It’s okay to feel like you’re drowning inside your own bones sometimes.

It’s okay to weep like a sky devoured by a storm.

It’s okay to be aware that there are wounds in you still that you aren’t letting heal.

Survival is ugly. Healing is messy. Self-love is complicated.

It is your hardest days as much as your best days that help you grow.

All of this is part of being human.

You and I, we do not need  to learn alone

when we can learn together. How to be gentle with ourselves. How to be kinder to ourselves,

especially when life feels like it is more endings  than beginnings.

Here is another secret no one will tell you, There aren’t any masters of self-love, not even the Gods and Goddesses themselves. 

─ The Girl and the Goddess, Nikita Gill

[kaylawhitmer]

For anyone scrolling by:

My name is Kayla and I live in Louisiana. It’s one of those days where it’s cold and rainy so you spend all day inside.

I guess the purpose of posting is to get all my thoughts out of my head and shed light on a daily dose of my life. I’m 21 and engaged to the man I have always thought I was going to marry, i call him my husband already but just know we plan on getting married in 2021. 🔐

I struggle with serious depression and anxiety, it’s been that way since I was little. It’s always been around. Some days aren’t as bad and some months are better than others but it is ALWAYS there. It doesn’t mean I’m not greatful for what I have and the friends and family and love that surrounds me.

But there’s just some things people don’t understand and that’s okay. Everything isn’t suppose to be perfect 1.2.2020🖤

#witchblr #spirituality #fight #wecandoit #we gotta do what we gotta do #fireplace #christmas #depressing shit

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Depression isn’t something that everyone understands, the happiest people can be struggling mentally, holding on to what little they have left.

Sometimes people don’t know how to handle their loved ones with mental illness and what to say when they come to you and the things that people can say to someone who has these mental illness can really distroy them even more sometimes. Be kind. Be patient. Show love.

#mental help #mental illness #depressing shit #anxious #i’m here #follow me #message me

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Nothing melts my heart more than a man who loves my MooMoo as much as I do♥️

#thanksgiving #grandmother #husband material #love #family