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kirayamidemon · 25 days
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"Not one he can be proud of. I can't even grant his wish. I want to send him off with a smile, and yet... I'm...I...!"
#twisted wonderland#twst#half a year; has it already been more than half a year already; it feels like both so long ago n yet like it was only fucking yesterday#n yet im still the same as i was more than 6 motnths ago; youre prolly cursing down at me right now but can you really fucking blame me#can you blame me for hating that i was only left witht his fucking family even tho you hoped wanted them to take care of me#can you blame that im so fucking bitter with them with just everything in gen#how can i when they all seem like theyre able to move on that they maybe hAVE moved on n i cant#how can i when they all seem n act like theyre ok n they can push thru it while i *cant while im still hurting hurting not ok never ok*#youre like this youre aLWAYS like this you alwAYS have to make things fucking difficult you always have to piss me off you aLWAYS#you even have to make shit difficult in my fucking sleEP at tiems where i have dreams that hurt the worst of the fucking thing i want most#where i no longer wish to have dreams where i actually wANT would rATHER have n prefer the dreamless sleep that i cursed before#mroe than 6 fucking monthes where youd prolly curse me n nag n berate me to stop being a lazy piece of shit n to change n pick myself up#to fucking move on already but it doesnt fucking worK like that n where youd prolly bring up how you were able to n how this is similar#how i was able to for her n that i should be able to for you but thats the fucking thing isnt it bc its nto the fucking sAME#grandma wanst sick; she wasnt the one who was with me all my life; she wasnt the one who left me fucking *alone* n wasnt so fucking selfish#even if you didnt like it or refused to accept it you were still at least given time n hAD time to process it#you had siblings that would understnad n know wat you felt n went thru;siblings at the end when she left even if there was physical distanc#so fuckign tell me how it can even be reMOTELY the fucking samE; bc wat do i have wat the fUCK do i hAVE#you couLENDT EVEN you couLDNT EVn fucking give me *tIME* you couldnt even fucking grant me that you fucking seLFISHH#EVEN THO DEEP DOWN I KNOW ITS NOT INHERENTLY YOUR FAULT EVEN THO DEEP DOWN ITS MINE MY REGRETS MY GUILT MY FAULT N YET#IS THAT WHY YOU FUCKING ASKED ME THAT WHEN YOU FIRST CME BACK WHY YOU BROUGHT UP THAT SELFISH REQUEST PLEA QUESTION *LAST FUCKING WISH*#BC SOMEHOW DEEP DOWN YOU KNEW OR HAD A FEELING BUT I REFUSED TO SEE IT REFUSED TO ACCEPT IT *REFUSED IT* N WOULD ONLY HAVE THE ONE I WANT#OR HAD YOU ALREAYD GIVEN UP LONG BEFORE THEN WITH NO REGARD TO ME WITH NO FUCKS BOUT WAT I WANT WITH NO THOUGHT HOW ITD AFFECT ME#I HATE HIS I HATTE THIS I HATE YOOU I HATE YOU *I HATE MYSELF EVEN FUCKING MORE*#MORE THAN 6 FUCKING MONTHS N IM STILL EMPTY N HATEFUL N BITTER N PISSED#MORE THAN 6 FUCKING MONTHS N IM STILL NOT EVEN LIVING N HOLDINT BACK N NOT LETTING GO REFUSING TO UNABLE TO#MORE THAN 6 FUCKING MONTHS N IM STILL CRYING N GRIEVING N SOBBING SOBBING AS IF I HAVENT CRIED EVEEY FUCKING DAY SINCE THE START#MORE THAN 6 FUCKING MONTHS N IM STILLL IM *STILLLLLLLL*#more than 6 fucking months n i dont even know myself cant recognize myself dont even know if i can come back or be normal again#but all my life knowing that im a complete fucking broken mess that only got more fucking broken n became even more of a fucking mess
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kirayamidemon · 2 months
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hIS DUDO IS WITH DEUCE MALLEEUS DUO IS WITH DEUCE IM FUCKISNG SCREAMGINGGGGG
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kirayamidemon · 3 months
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i fucking hate didspslex, worst gift eveer
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kirayamidemon · 3 months
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wAT THE FCUSKK
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kirayamidemon · 3 months
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watt eh fUCSK
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kirayamidemon · 3 months
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wat the fufsk
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kirayamidemon · 3 months
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i need him to come home sosbbs
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kirayamidemon · 4 months
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i'll be openly hornier on here if it pisses off losers. like i try to stay palatable and for what
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kirayamidemon · 4 months
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I HATEE CHE 7 SO FUCKING MUCH ALL THE FUCKING CH 7 CARDS LOOK SO GOGOD N I WANT THEM SO BAD BUT I FUCKING CANTTTTTTT
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kirayamidemon · 4 months
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WTA TEHE FUCKKKKKKK DISDPLEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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kirayamidemon · 5 months
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YANA ALWAYS FUCKIGNG KILLING ME WITHT THE CARDS IN THIS FUCKING GAMEE
THEE COMPAARE N COSNTRASTS WITH PRE N POST GROFOVIES
THEE OSYMBOLISMS THE MEANINGSSS N UNDERELYING HINETS
THE THOUGHTS THAT GO TINTO IT
THE DETAILSSSSSS
THE CONTRASTING COMPARISONSSSSSSS AAAAAAA
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kirayamidemon · 5 months
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“imagine your otp”
i do. always. in literally every scenario.
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kirayamidemon · 5 months
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fuck i dont even remember wat the fuck i did on this shit dumpsterfire hellsite
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kirayamidemon · 5 months
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"Not one he can be proud of. I can't even grant his wish. I want to send him off with a smile, and yet... I'm...I...!"
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kirayamidemon · 7 months
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“Oh  güerito…”
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kirayamidemon · 8 months
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I would like your permission to punch those shitty anons in the face. Sorry you're going through this. Some people seem to forget or they are not capable of realizing that fiction is not reality, and it shouldn't be taken too seriously.
I personally love how short and adorable shrimpy Yuu is~ Makes for a good contrast against the tweels. Height differences for the win~!
Sadly nothing you can do bout it esp with how worse theyre getting each gen, needing to assign morality n irl standards for every single little thing
But thank you thoooo, you're always so sweet ;;;;
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kirayamidemon · 8 months
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With how much hate there appears to be recently, I just wanted to say that I really like how you draw the Tweels, and I like your Yuu
Aaawww thank you!! I'm glad you can find some enjoyment in my stuff ;;
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