ladyautie

[ladyautie]

It's called a headcanon for a reason, mate. I'm autistic, and I see Gary King as autistic, and that's basically what I wrote. You ain't gonna win anything by trying to prove me wrong.

Autistic headcanon : Gary King

I always loved Edgar Wright’s movies. But his “World’s end” movie was the one who really struck a chord with me (it’s a special interest of mine). And i think it’s because i identify a lot with Gary King.

For those who don’t know this movie, “The World’s end” tells the story of Gary King, a man stuck in the 80′s, who, when he was a teenager, got his friends to do with him the “Golden Mile”, aka drinking a pint in the twelve pubs of his town. They never managed to get the last pubs.

Years and years after, Gary King comes back in his friends’ life and manage to convince them to actually finish the Golden Mile. But his motives might be deeper than what they initially think… I won’t go in too much details about the plot, because there are lots of plot twists and you seriously need to watch this movie blindly. However, i can safely assure you that Gary King is one of my favorite autistic headcanon, mostly because he painfully reminds me of myself about a lot of things (he might also have ADHD, which i self-diagnose myself with).

Firstly, he can’t stand still. At all. He’s always moving, always doing something with his body, never, ever still. He loves to run, for no other reason than fun, and tends to jump over anything. He also spins on himself and dances without any reason.

[gif of Gary King, spinning on himself, his long coat following the ample gesture]

[gif of Gary King, spinning slightly on his rolling chair, in front of another man, sitting at his desk. The name “Andrew” is written in big, white letters on the screen]

[gif of Gary King, walking backwards at a fast pace, arms extended]

He tends to be “jumpy” when there’s a sudden and possibly loud noise, like in this gif :

[gif of Gary King, playing with a rubber band. He lets him escape and break something, which makes him jump and then smile slightly]

This gif can also be applied to the fact that Gary needs to keep his hands busy and, basically, stims a lot. He talks a lot with his hands, an habit that he had younger and kept while older :

[gif of a young Gary King, talking and moving his hands. One of them is holding an office item]

[gif of Gary King, speaking excitedly and waving his hands]

He has troubles to “read the mood” and to know exactly how to act when someone needs obvious help and comfort. He usually tries to stay “funny” and “energetic”, not realizing his behavior can hurt other people and that they might look for other forms of comfort.

Gary has some comfort objects that he can’t just let go (mainly, his very, VERY old car and his  old cellphone, even though they barely manage to function). Presented with the opportunity to use something else, he tends to become defensive and even agressive.

I could go on and on about Gary King and my autistic headcanon, but i’d risk to spoil you and definitely, it’s a movie you should watch without knowing much about it. Also, neat anecdote : the actor Paddy Considine, who’s playing one of Gary’s friends, is autistic. And he’s awesome.

I’ll put some Trigger Warnings about the movie. If you think you don’t have any, then you can stop your reading right here, because it might spoil you a little bit about the plot.

If you want to be careful and to know what you’ll have to watch (or not, if you can’t watch a movie with this kind of subject, that’s totally okay), then here are the Trigger Warnings that i can think about :

TW : suicide mention, alcoholism, self-injury behavior, death, psychiatric ward mention.

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autistic headcanon

[ladyautie]

Orla doing the raptor hands :D. Every episode of Derry Girls has really cemented my autistic!Orla headcanon.

#derry girls #autistic headcanon

[ladyautie]

Always at the less practical time as well, those “sensory friendly” hours. Like there’s a library next door whose started to do that recently, but it’s like every thursday in the middle of the afternoon. I’m working, how the eff am I supposed to be able to enjoy that? There are autistic / neurodivergent people who have obligations. And even if you only have autistic children in mind, these children have parents that will have to take them to those places with the sensory friendly hour(s). Parents who might be working.

I’m pretty sure you can free this hour during the weekend or later in the evening...

They can turn down the fucking checkout beeps and turn off tannoys and music for 10 days in a fucking row for a person who won't even experience it (wouldn't have even when alive) but "sensory friendly" hours like one hour every month are somehow the best they can do for people who actually need those accommodations?!

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #ableism #I was never able to test those hours in any context #it's frustrating as hell

[ladyautie]

It’s not the first time JK Rowling’s being nasty to the autistic community. In a a previous essay she wrote, she basically theorized that AFAB people are “manipulated” into transitioning, especially “autistic girls”.

Here’s an article about it and the response of the autistic community : https://themighty.com/topic/autism-spectrum-disorder/jk-rowling-autism-we-are-not-confused

I made my peace with the fact that Rowling is a transphobic ableist POS. Harry Potter is no longer my special interest, despite how important it was during my childhood, and I don’t support her financially.

I suggest you do the same, because that’s how she sees us : people to pity, use as props to support her horrific views, and to manipulate.

… Of course JK Rowling wrote the “profoundly autistic” girl “thought she’d found friends” and “fell for it”. Because what else would the poor gullible friendless autistic (note the fun use of functioning labels just to make sure we understand she’s not one of those fake ones) do?

I’m gonna just assume at this point that if you support JK Rowling, you’re an ableist fascist piece of shit who hates autistic people. There’s no way you can claim to support me or my community if you support JK Rowling.

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #ableism #JK Rowling #Transphobia

[ladyautie]

According to your opinion, is Robin (stranger things) a valid rapresentation of a girl in the spectrum?

I can see how someone would headcanon Robin as autistic. Heck, I guess I do too!

I headcanon Eleven as well, because, regardless of her background, it's pretty obvious to me that she has neurodivergent traits (that Kali doesn't necessarily have, for example, when they share the same background).

Robin is relatable in many ways, but I wouldn't call her "representation" when it comes to neurodivergence, because "representation" implies that it's canonical, and as long as it's not claimed in the series or outside of the show (which isn't the best if there's no mention in the show itself, but well), it's not canonical.

Is she a good autistic headcanon for me? Yes. Could she be considered as representation for an autistic girl? No. Not until it's specified otherwise.

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #stranger things #Robin buckley #I don't trust the Duffer Brothers when it comes to handling representation #Eddie represents misfits kids and look what happened to him #I don't want to imagine how they'd feature an autistic character #I already suffered enough recently with Umbrella Academy #autistic headcanon

[ladyautie]

Hi there! I have a question about the terms nonverbal and semiverbal. It's totally fine if you don't want to answer this, I just haven't found any other sources about it. Are those only to be used for and by autistic people, or is okay for other neurotypical people to use those terms for themselves? Thanks so much!

Hi! As a verbal person myself, who tends to go mute in some stressful situations, I don't think I'm the most appropriate person to answer that question.

I do know that some of my readers are themselves semi-verbal or nonverbal, so I'm letting them give you the answer you're looking for.

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #semi-verbal #nonverbal #neurotypical #I do know that nonverbal people are very adamant about the usage of nonverbal #so I guess it might be the same when it comes to neurotypicals using it for themselves #but I'd rather let them say so themselves

[ladyautie]

It’s also too broad to insist that every autistic person will be great to connect with, as an autistic person yourself.

I have ND friends, but I was also part of a social skills learning group with lots of autistic people, and I never managed to connect with them outside of the group.

The social skills group was pretty “medicalized”, so to say, and none of the others were able to pull themselves out of that mindset, so that we could meet each other without trying to train our social skills in a NT way. I couldn’t stand the idea.

I also have a cousin who might be autistic, although undiagnosed, and we never had much of a relationship. We’re cool with each other when we meet, but that’s pretty much it.

If we’re so adamant about NTs finally getting the idea that “if you meet one autistic person, you only meet one autistic person”, we should probably avoid to generalize in a way that is definitely excluding lots of autistic people.

this is probably petty but i HATE when other autistics go "oh actually autistic people don't have social deficits! we're great at connecting with each other, just not neurotypicals :)" because

thats not true for me. i have trouble socializing with other autistic people as well. 2 of my natural social deficit traits are disinterest in peers/friendship and difficulty not taking over the conversation when i DO talk and both of those are still there even when i'm talking to other autistic people. plus i also have social anxiety from being bullied for my autism and that doesn't go away in autistic-to-autistic conversations either

MOST people i talk to are neurotypical. MOST people i talk to are not going to be easy at all to socialize with. it's almost like.... for convenience's sake... you could say... i have social deficits.

yes i could call them Special Brain Traits but i don't want to. socializing is HARD and WEIRD and UPSETTING and i am bad at it. why is it wrong to label that??? i don't think it's bad that i have social deficits. my socializing abilities don't define me or my worth anyway

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #social skills

[ladyautie]

Anyone watching Nope noticed how similar the posters for the real movie “Holes” (2003) are to the movie in the movie Kid Sheriff ?

I mean, look at them:

Given Jordan Peele’s attention to details, and how quite a part of Holes’ plot is about “not fucking with nature, especially for greediness” (Lizards in that case), I doubt it’s coincidental.

Also worth mentioning the whole plot of Barlow and Sam, although I’m not articulate enough at the moment to really say how it ties into Nope’s themes as well.

#nope #nope 2022 #nope spoilers #kinda #holes 2003

[ladyautie]

Some of them are doing it on purpose. I explicitely remember this one neurotypical old lady who, after I told her physical contact made me feel uncomfortable, decided to ram into me insistently, laughing about it and telling me that she was doing it “for my own good”, so that I’ll get used to it.

So, I can believe that some of them might not be perceptive about it. But not all of them.

If neurotypicals are so good at picking up hints, why do they never seem to notice you leaning away when they try to touch you?

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #ableism

[ladyautie]

It's not about Allison, if any other sibling in the Hargreeves family had killed Harlan, I would have been just as pissed as I currently am.

You can't compare the board room murders to Harlan's, narratively speaking. The board room is filled with unnamed people that were just created to be killed. Harlan is the only official autistic character in TUA, who has been abused and subjected to sensory overload his entire life. What he did was entirely out of his control.

His death was meaningless, only to further Allison and Viktor's feud. They could have just had him die because of the blitz thing, allowing him to get a few moments of peace in his life, but no, let's just kill the autistic character to deepen the Neurotypicals' storyline.

It honestly hurt me as an autistic viewer to see Harlan's character, one of the only older autistic characters that I know of, being discarded like that after giving me hope for good representation.

And it pisses me off that only autistic/neurodivergent people are actually upset by this development, as if every NT viewer is just okay with killing the autistic character who almost never had an ounce of happiness in his life.

Nothing to do with Allison herself or anything like that.

Anyway the only thing Allison did that’s genuinely indefensible is what she did to Luther. She absolutely did awful shit, but she’s literally related to an assassin who killed countless people to get back to his family. She’s been all about getting back to her daughter since episode one and she’s just had trauma after trauma shovelled on top of her since then, of course she snapped and made awful decisions. She doesn’t deserve to be treated like a villain

#allison hargreeves #harlan cooper #viktor hargreeves #ableism #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #check your ableism please #tua spoilers

[ladyautie]

It doesn't surprise me in the slightest. NTs are constantly advocating for us to be "normalized", institutionalized, aborted or euthanized.

Autistic characters treated like Harlan allow them to say that shit without consequences.

this is what I meant when I said people’s opinions on tv shows are very telling on how they treat disabled people in real life…

#harlan cooper #the umbrella academy #actually autistic #tua spoilers #actuallyautistic

[ladyautie]

"Will you forgive me?" Go on, Viktor, ask for your murderous sister to forgive you for protecting Harlan, the autistic man you used to babysit, who you give your powers to, and who found himself unable to control them.

Yeah, because that's really Allison who needs an apology here, the woman who killed the autistic character for no good reason and tried to force herself on her brother.

F*ck off.

#harlan cooper #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #the umbrella academy season 3 #tua spoilers #the umbrella academy #ableism #Can it get any worse? #i have a feeling it will

[ladyautie]

I'm currently watching episode 8 of The Umbrella Academy season 3 and I'm seriously pissed, especially because I was so happy in the first place.

Spoilers ahead.

As I was hoping, but didn't dare to think could be true, Harlan came back as an old man. I never, and I mean never, got to watch any old autistic character in any piece of media.

The representation was honestly nice and I was really getting behind Viktor and Harlan's relationship. All of that, so that Harlan is turned into some kind of villain (by accident, but still) AND fridged for the sake of Allison and Viktor's character development.

Do you have any idea what it means to get to see someone like you in a way you've never seen before? Aside from Anthony Hopkins, I don't know any old autistic person.

Autistic people are a lot more likely to die younger than most NTs, for various reasons. Getting to see an interesting old autistic character, only for him to be killed off unceremoniously to take part in Neurotypical characters' development, it's just awful.

I don't even care if, I don't know, Viktor get to go back to young Harlan. The Harlan I grew attached to is dead, and he never got to be happy, now that he was free from his power.

Do better with your representation. We're not just plot points for NT characters' development. For fuck's sake.

#Harlan Cooper #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #the umbrella academy #autism #the umbrella academy season 3 #tua season three #tua spoilers #ableism

[ladyautie]

Someone asked for help on a server for my work for an autistic colleague that is about to integrate our workforce (albeit in another workplace than mine), to know how they could be accommodated, what they should know etc.

One of the first Neurotypical colleagues’ answer was “Well, they’re a grown-up, they can handle themselves.”.

Another one was about how hard it was gonna be on the NT colleagues and that they should be the one prepared to the situation, not the autistic person.

A few other answers were clearly mimicking those, and it’s so infuriating. Like I’m autistic, and I had really good results. I’m good at my job, and my colleagues have told repeatedly that the work I was doing was essential. 

My accommodations (notably the fact that I don’t deal with our “customers”, although it’s not the right term in my workplace) have been helpful, because I can do the work they don’t have the time to do themselves because they’re with the “customers”. 

Most of the problems I encountered stemmed from NTs refusing to acknowledge my disability or using it to pressure me to do stuff for them. And they’re all like “well, poor us, having to deal with an autistic colleague!”.

Seriously, the more time passes, the more I lose faith when it comes to NTs. To them, it feels like we’re just an inconvenience, and all the ways we contribute are meaningless because we’re not interacting the way they want us to, or we’re flinching because of a loud noise or whatever.

Sigh...

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #ableism #autism #autism in the workplace #sorry for the lack of posts #I'm in a pretty bad shape as of now #it's hard to motivate myself to do anything

[ladyautie]

Please talk about your autism headcanon for Stefon Meyers. I agree, but I want to see what you think.

Oh wow, it's been a while since I posted that (and watched those videos), so I'm gonna try to remember what made me think that at the time.

I think it was about Stefon's mannerisms, he's really often playing with his hands, pulling on his sleeves and so all, it could be seen as stimming.

He also doesn't really know how to read the room, always talking about inappropriate places and clubbing stuff when he's asked to introduce people to places and stuff for family and such.

He's also highly expressive, in an exaggerated way, which can be an autism trait.

I probably had more reasons back when I wrote that, but that's what I can remember today.

#actually autistic #actuallyautistic #autistic headcanon #stefon snl #stefon meyers

[ladyautie]

Sometimes, NTs are so infuriating. Like there’s really someone who wrote a play about (I’m quoting) “a high-functioning autistic person and a normal autistic person". 

It’s the end of the world and they have to decide society’s fate, which means they will make decisions “neither Leftist or Rightist” and test them on a Schizophrenic person who “wants everything and nothing at the same time”.

I shit you not. That’s really the premise of this whole play. Also, of course, no neurodivergent/mentally ill person is either involved in the project or has a part in the play because, according to the theatre company, “autistic actors are tired playing only autistic parts”. 

Dude, do you even know how many autistic characters are played by NTs? You’re really gonna pretend you’re being inclusive by not including us? They’re being like “Oh, autistic people always have to pretend to be NTs, NTs should pretend to be autistic sometimes in return!”. That’s not how you’re supposed to achieve acceptance, dude!

They only have a behavioral therapist onboard (and the writer/director used to work in the socio-medical field). And they’re really pretending that it’s accurate representation. 

Also, they added that they used staging to accentuate the inherent childishness that autistic people can display, and that “we have so much to learn from autistic people, they’re soooo enlightening”. Fuck off.

I don’t want to weigh in on the schizophrenic representation, since I’m not, but given the facial expressions and everything, I’m guessing it’s just as bad...

Here’s the trailer. It’s in French and, despite pretending that they’re uber inclusive, they didn’t put any subtitles. But I think you can already see how fake and unappropriate it seems to be.

Also, what a shock, comments are disabled. I guess they didn’t want autistic people or schizophrenic people to weigh on the subject...

#actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #ableism #schizophrenia #upthebaguette #whatthefrance #functioning labels

[ladyautie]

To each their own c:. Feel free to write your own post about Antonio!

I just watched Encanto and… Autistic non-verbal Bruno headcanon. 

No, really, I think it would have been so awesome and in line with the message of the movie. Autistic non-verbal Bruno with the gift to see the future, but the inability to share his gift fully with others, because he can’t communicate verbally and the others aren’t willing to take the time to understand him. Autistic non-verbal Bruno overwhelmed by the pressure to be as “good” and “perfect” as the rest of his family, and trying so hard to help and communicate, but everyone misinterprets his visions and always thinks about the worst outcome.

Autistic non-verbal Bruno who tries to save Mirabel from his vision and Abuela and everyone else misinterpreting it, and going into hiding behind the walls, because he loves his family too much to leave them forever, but feels he doesn’t belong with everyone else either.

Autistic non-verbal Bruno who finds a person who actually takes the time to understand him and his ways of communicating when Mirabel comes into his life (alternatively, Dolores experiencing terrible misophobia because of her power and coming to a kind-of understanding of Bruno’s difficulties).

Autistic non-verbal Bruno who finds his own place in the family without having to change who he is, and everyone else accommodating his way of communicating, following Mirabel’s lead.

Autistic non-verbal Bruno!

#I started the movie really liking Antonio #but he just faded in the background at some point and only came back for contrived plot reasons #Movies have a history of putting autistic nonverbal characters as plot devicesrather than real characters #like Mercury Rising #so that's why I feel less comfortable headcanoning Antonio like that #but you do you #headcanons can be built on canon or deleted scenes or concepts #I personally identify more to Bruno or Mirabel #hence the headcanon