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Hi there!

I am you. 2020 you. 

You have been incredibly unfaithful this year. But Christ has given you grace to see what you lack, and grace to draw close to Who you need. 

Sa lahat ng nangyari sa taon na ito, sa katunayan lang, kagalakan kay Kristo lamang ang kagalakan mo. Ngunit ang iyong puso kay makakalimotin. ‘Wag kang malimot! Lahat ng kagalakan mo ay sa Kanya lang galing. 

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Church hurt.

“Those who dont trust Christians or those who dont trust people in a body, I think its a deeper issue with our trust in the Lord... i dont believe in the church merely, I believe in the church because it’s God’s church. And I feel like God is not going to allow me to be part of a body that is somewhat good for me... You dont believe that I know what’s best for you.”

- Preston Perry

This might’ve seemed so easy to think of but was exactly what I needed to hear. Starting to heal. God, You are faithful.

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“My entire life can be described in one sentence: It didn’t go as planned, and that’s okay.”

— Rachel Wolchin (via habdichverloren)

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Psalm 139

Think of the closest person you have in your life -- your mother, your grandparent, your significant other, a friend. 

Someone who knows all your thoughts and habits. 

You know when I sit down and when I rise up;    you discern my thoughts from afar.

Someone who knows what you’re about to say. 

You search out my path and my lying down    and are acquainted with all my ways.

Someone who knows what you’re feeling before you speak. 

Even before a word is on my tongue,   behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.

Someone who catches you when you’re about to make a wrong decision, or when you do it time and time again.

You hem me in, behind and before,    and lay your hand upon me.

Someone who knows you more than yourself.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;   it is high; I cannot attain it.

I pray that you have a person or people in your life that you are able to think of when we talk of these things. I pray even more that you come to realize that these people are merely a little taste of how Jesus pursues. 

He pursues you.

Where shall I go from your Spirit?

Or Where shall I flee from your presence?

He pursues you.

Search me, O God, and know my heart!    Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me,    and lead me in the way everlasting!

This is how He pursues you.

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02.22.2018

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Because I’ve been absent, this is me trying to reflect and ask myself what there is to say, truthfully, about what happened in the last year. 

This year has been... 

anger grace-filled

frequent stumbling grace-filled

constant shortcomings grace-filled

sinful grace-filled

hurting grace-filled

hurtful grace-filled

This year has been.

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The Fear

One thing I ask right now,

That you still the fear in me.

Instill The Fear in me,

instead.

#Job2828 #poemsofJoy

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“Lahat ay Kagalakan”

“All is Joy.” 

I have very recently (30 minutes ago, recently) rediscovered this blog. I remember how much of a solace this place was a couple of years ago. Well, a place that the Lord has provided. 

Now, though I am just as flawed as that girl a year back, and yet to be unfilled of lament. I am very patiently waiting till my Lord comes, and I am resting in the Joy of knowing Him. In the Joy of Him, and hence,

Lahat ay Kagalakan.

#Joy #countitalljoy #kagalakan

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09.03.2016

I like thanking God a lot. But I think even God could say that I’ve never thanked Him this much. 

Philippians 1:3 is literally me. “I thank my God every time I remember you.”

Just by writing the words above, I’ve thanked God for you at least 5 times.

Thank God for J. Thank You for J. Salamat Lord kay J. Thank You Lord, You are amazing Lord. I can never stress that enough. I can never fathom Your love for me. Lord, thank You.

That’s five more.

#GODisLove #thankyoulord

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03.30.16

WOW. 

Everything has Your fingerprint. 

Whether that be creation or situations, everything points back to You.

#Godisamazing

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03.28.16

It’s not about who I am. 

It’s about WHO HE IS. 

What a relief.

I am flawed. Easily swayed.

I am finished with self-reliance. 

This is all You.

#Godisincontrol

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02.17.16

Dear future spouse,

(Note: Listening to emotional Pill-Oh’s February Tale while writing this isn’t a good idea. Cry-fest. Haha!)

Here I am again, writing a letter to you. I will be honest, I am writing this letter first because... I miss you. Very much. And I am waiting, very excitingly, for the day that God finally reveals you to me. 

However, I am also writing this letter as a way to stay honest, a way to show my loyalty and commitment to you. You see, I am quite afraid that I am gaining feelings for someone else. I am not able to stay away from that person because he matters to me, so very much (and we have almost all classes together) but he is such a wonderful person. I know you’ll like him too!  I’ve been praying that if a relationship with this person isn’t a part of God’s plan that God take these feelings away (just like He does with my other crushes), but God’s been quiet on this topic and just wants me to wait and put my faith on Him. I will. You are a reminder that He is faithful. You might know this by now but when it comes to relationships and commitment, I directly shrink -- at least the 19-year-old me does. I love the people I love so much that I almost don’t believe they should love me because I know I am only gonna hurt them. 

Beside God’s genius planning and perfect timing, I do not know how or what you did for me to let you in but I’m glad that you came. I’m glad that you stayed. 

I love you.

Your beloved,

H

#GODisLove #foryou

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01.29.15

Today was amazing. 

Thank You Lord.  A lot of things are happening and are going to happen but through everything Lord, my eyes are on You. My eyes will be on You. And even at times when I falter in my faith and focus, I know Your eyes are on me. Thank You. I love You! I love You! I love You!  In everything, You.

#Godiseverything #canteven #grateful

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12.8.15

Lord, in everything. Especially with finals and things coming up, to You be ALL the glory.

#togodbetheglory

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12.06.15

Dear future spouse,

I did something out of the usual today. 

I didn’t pray for you. 

I mean, I did, but I prayed that you wouldn’t come into my life. 

I got into a fight with my brother and today it was all my fault. In the aftermath of it all, I saw all my thoughts, my attitude, my self-centredness, and basically how big of a hypocrite I really am, and I’ve come to the conclusion that no one, most especially the person I truly love (supposedly you), should ever have to commit their entire life to... this monstrous thing I see myself as. 

My friends would tell me, “Hey, nobody’s perfect.” or “You can always change for the better.” and these are valid sympathies but I have constantly been trying and changing to be the best person I can be. No matter what I do, I am still a majorly flawed being. No matter what I do.

Maybe you’re thinking of how I’m just being unkind to myself tonight, fresh from a fight and all but this is the truth. I am the definition of “flawed” but then since I was thinking of you and the future, I thought of Who would be giving me you. 

I looked at the Cross. 

I looked at how much love that Cross held. 

How much love that Cross holds.

How much love that Cross holds for me.

How much love that Cross holds for me and all my flaws.

So now, I am going to pray another prayer for you. First of all, I am praying that no matter where you are in the globe right now, I pray that you are well in every aspect, especially with your walk with the Lord (or walk to the Lord). And I pray that one day I do get to meet you and see God’s glory, power, and beauty in your existence itself. I am looking forward to you fully accepting who I am. I look forward to you fully loving who I am despite of who (and what) I am not. Just as I already feel for you at this moment, in this prayer. I love you. I’ll... meet you soon.

Your beloved,

H

#Godislove #love #foryou

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11.02.15

I attended LeaderShape last week, A-MAAAY-ZING. I can’t even explain what it is but definitely worth calling the best week of my life. I actually have something that Im very passionate to pursue with my core values (shown above) too! Thank You Lord!

#thankyoulord

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10.23.15

2.42 AM

No matter how impossible it seems, HOLD ON. Sooner than you know it, God’s already brought you through it.

#Goddelivers #notjustpizza

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10.21.15

Lord, in everything, thank You. 

#thankyoulord