hi, this is lia, she’s 2 y/o. some weeks ago i asked for $12 so i could buy more medicine for her ‘cause i’ve paid for the vet visit and some medicine too and i couldn’t afford more. but now she needs a x-ray and unfortunately i can’t afford it right now,
she had rhinotracheitis, it’s a feline respiratory disease and we need exams to see more about it.
here’s a video of her.
she needs a chest x-ray and it’s 180 BRL = 34,35 USD. please, donate to us if you’re able to, anything helps.
thank you so much!
Estoy de vuelta y ahora hablando en español, porqué me recordé que me encantaría ser fluente y para eso necesitamos practicar, ¿eh?
Acerca de mi salud mental, yo estoy solamente un poquito mejor, pero aún deprimida, penso que yo no estoy me esforzando lo suficiente, na verdad, algunos días ayer yo leí en algún lugar acerca de mecanismos para lidiar con las emociones VS lidiar con las situaciones. Yo me di cuente que yo solamente intento lidiar con mis emociones (y aun no sé bien hacer eso)...........
Más tarde yo tendré una sesión de tarot con mí amigo, yo penso en preguntar:
1 Cómo mejorar mí comunicación
2 Cómo mejorar mí salud mental
3 Qué debo hacer acerca de trabajo y universidad
Ahora mismo estoy queriendo hundirme más en la depresión, dios mío, yo estoy también intentando recordarme que yo necesito ser más activa en mi recuperación, yo necesito eligir mejorar en todos los momentos de todos los días, ¿sí o no? Yo necesito eligir ser una persona mejor y yo necesito hacer lo que puedo para mejorar.
Me encanta muchísimo escribir en español, ahora mismo yo quiero escribir cualquier cosa solamente pelo placer de escribir en español jajajaja y me encanta decir "¿sí o no?" como Pablo Escobar en Narcos o "¿eh?" como cualquiera en Rebelde jajaja
Yo me di cuenta que yo tengo 7 meses para ser la persona que me yo quiero muchísimo ser, yo espero que en el día 17 de febrero de de 2022 yo seré una persona sociable, con salud mental, buena artista, más activa en el movimiento esperantista, más delgada, una mejor persona en general y otras cosas más.
Every time I feel more intensively the symptoms of mental illnesses, I always repeat to myself that I'm... Pretending and exaggerating and it's not that bad, that I'm CHOOSING to feel and do what I'm feeling and doing.
But then I try to remember that I don't feel and do those things when I feel good, there are days that I don't want to go sleep, because I'm being productive and happy and excited with everything I have to do, I can make plans for the future, I have goals and dreams. It's SO easy to talk to people, I receive a message and before I notice I'm already answering them. I don't have intrusive actions.
But there are days that I put on my to-do list: answer this and that friend and I... can't do that. It's hard, I feel anxious with the idea of sending a message! I don't feel excited about anything, I don't even feel excited about the stuff I love. It's hard doing what I need to do.
I'm still depressed and a bit worst than yesterday, and yesterday I didn't made what I needed to do (stuff from college).
But I sunbathed and exercised.
Gosh, years ago I saw on tumblr that recovery is boring and for sure is boring, but it's way better than relapse..........
I need to remember my reasons to recovery and the person I want to become and I need to do better. Today I need to do better than I did yesterday and tomorrow I'll need to do better than today.
I'm thinking about going out, walk on the streets and sit on a park.
Damn, I'm getting worst at communicating and kind of start to getting afraid to going out because coronavirus and this is not funny.
Gosh, I've been talking more here, because I'm lonely, but I don't want to talk to people at the same time.
I really think I would feel better if I could distract myself, like with a job, for example, but damn... I even sent my curriculum to supermarkets and no answer, I'm awful at communicating and I get VERY stressed when looking for a job. I mean, the solution could be selling my art online, right? Lol
Well, 1 month of college and I'm already procrastinating and still feeling bad lol the problem it's me or on me. Being unemployed is not the reason of my problems.
It's going to be okay, I'll have a nice afternoon, I'll embroider or paint, I'll study and everything is going to be okay. And in 7 months I'll be a better person, everything is going to be better.
I'm still depressed, but I was able to do what I most needed to do yesterday. I'm stable, I'm not feeling worst than yesterday or the day before.
Well, today I feel like being on my dark room avoiding responsabilities and not being really productive and I this would feel comfortable, but I know I can and would feel better if I sunbathe look at me using correctly a new word hehe and draw outside.
I need to choose recovery all the time. For sure I need to respect my limits, but I can and should do more than isolate myself on a dark room, right?
sometimes we forget how vast life is. how many people we have yet to meet. how many places we still have to see. how many smiles, how many compliments, how many whispered affections, how many hugs. sunsets and coffees. flowers and books. waiting for you. don’t worry, you’ll be there soon.
I have been participating on a polyglot club from my city for 1 and half year now and I just noticed that....... Besides 2 or 3, I don't like those people, I don't want to be their friend. Like, I talk to many of them (used to be 10 different people everyweek), but I always want to avoid the meetings, because it's not a pleasure, I just participate, because I want to practice esperanto, english and spanish.......
I guess I should look for other groups to practice, maybe this could bring me some joy and make me excited to talk to people.
For example, this week I participate on the esperanto meeting and I'm not good at small talks and I don't have anything to talk to a woman (I talk to her every single week for 8 months now) so I was basically quiet and she was talking and talking.
What can I do?
Well, for practice Esperanto I can try the group on discord r/esperanto and for english and soabish I can find some group that interests me and just participate.
I feel like if future me could travel back in time she'd have a lot to tell me off for haha. Sitting like a gremlin, eating like a gremlin etcetc. But also we'd probably have a lot of good chats. If you could meet old-you, what would you talk about?