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You can't send me to jail for introducing my furbaby to my friends furbaby. Look how precious.

Also @wastedpiece @ziegenkind094 @sunny-solstice your turn

Found this on Twitter, so I thought, why not posting it here and doing a tag game 😊

Ok, I’ll go first

If he is the reason, I’d go to prison gladly 🥰❤️‍🔥

Tagging: @killerqueen-ofwillowgreen @nic-214 @milkyway-ashes @dr-radiation @whitequeen-ofwillowgreen @sunsetdaydreamer @therockywhorerpictureshow @delicatelyfantasticninja and everyone 😊

Sorry if I forgot to tag some of you!

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Riko rant part 2 but make it even more edgy I am waiting asking and begging (and saying pretty please!)

Instead of a rant, i give you this:

something something - Good Omens aftg au

He should’ve been at the club. I cannot stress it enough how much little prince of darkness should’ve been at the club.

#aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #riko moriyama #good omens aftg au #tfc art #aftg fanart #riko moriyama fanart #the perfect court #nora sakavic #aftg art #omgggg this is beautiful!!! #aaaaaaahhhh i love it

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saw a hc about jean moreau being hyper sexual especially post-ravens. thoughts? feelings?

thoughts AND feelings! Oh the joy of being given a chance for a hot second to discuss this. You came to the right place my love. ❤️

Trigger and age warning : rape, sex connected trauma, dissociation, psychological abuse, controlling relationships, discussion of sexual acts.

Okay so, being hyper sexual. You know who does that in the books? Andrew actually. I know some might look at me weirdly rn like, 'what the hell are you talking about, he doesn't let anyone touch him'. Yeah, that's true! But that doesnt take away from the knee jerk reaction. (I'm sorry I know this isn't exactly what you asked but I need to discuss andrew first, and that has a lot to do with jean, bear with me).

Andrew finds a partner that he can to some limit trust (leverage, deals, careful observation, "training" them to behave how he tells them) to follow his instructions, which gives him a sense of control. They can fuck, but it's him who's doing it. It's him who's touching, kissing ect. The other person, of course if they consent, get to partake but not create the experience. It's one of the very, very valid scenarios of hyper sexuality as a responce to rape. He is rewriting every poisoned nerve ending in his body. He doesn't actually get off from the sex. For his own release he needs privacy, as shown in the books. Andrew's problem can be, that due to his truly inhumane trauma he can fall into the mindset of defining his sense of self through sex. It's an action and he's a tool in this scenario. Then again, We circle back to control, which is also a key feature of his decisions and protectiveness. Taking total control of the situation which used to be utterly outside of it, with no way out of it. Rewriting it, giving the traumatic experience a positive ending, hell an ending - when, and as suddenly as he might want it to end, is the motivator here. I think what he finds satisfying in terms of sex, not control, is giving sexual consent to his partners and, which he finds just as important, them giving it to him. Because it wasn't given to him. It's a way of building trust.

The motivations sound pretty nice, even if heartbreaking, don't they? Seem uplifting? The problem is, even if in good faith, this process can be very harmful, trauma surviviors mention that (at least ones I discussed it with personally) it feels good, but in the long run it does what this type of coping mechanism always does to your brain (similiar reactions can be seen for different traumas), which is hurt it. It's a form of desensitisation that limits your brain's ability to percieve the situation. It's hard to rewrite and leads to hot and cold kind of reactions, so yeah, having a relationship with a capital R is, difficult. That's what I always understood as Nora saying they are never actually okay (andrew and neil). Or at least partly understood it as.

Okay, so this cleared a couple things up. Now JEAN. Jean and Andrew share some factors of their trauma. While not treated as such, Jean was technically fostered by the Moriyamas, and well, Andrew's experiences with being fostered are faaaaar from what it's supposed to be as well. The difference is in Andrew's situation everyone tried to pretend the horror is not happening, there must have been a lot of manipulation and coercion and just plain fucking gaslighting in these houses. Its hard to talk about but I can imagine some of these monsters wanted him to act like he is enjoying it, and thats just out if the emotional range of dealing with for anyone. Jean knew he's in a trap from day one. Moreover, when it comes to the rape's he was victim of it was ordered by Riko to be done by others. That's a different level of fucked up. What's even more important as distinction here is he stopped, when Jean stopped reacting and fighting it. Because what Riko wanted wasn't violation, that was the tool. He wanted to psychologically break him. When the fish stops flailing on the cat stops pushing it around.

And Riko was constant, his modus operandi was regular, and the psychological torture was the motivator behind most of his "conditioning" of Jean. This is a situation where the abuse has a cause for the victim. It sounds sick and I don't agree with it, but it's a game in their mind. In the books we can see that he learned how to limit the amount of attention Riko gave him and as we know he is not confrontational like Andrew with his problems. And yeah I don't mention Neil as confrontational here bcs he has conditioned himself to run from everything and say he's fine to everything so..., sometimes it erupts frk mit but that's not exactly the same, its a last resort.

Circling back, I think Jean is more likely to be sex repulsed. For him sex, which was a form of punishment, is a cause of anxiety. Sexual tension is easy to mix up with nervous tension because of a feeling of losing control of the situation. That's why if we do get romance in the new book, I am putting my money on it being very messy from his pov. The magical thing about trauma responces though, is that they're not black and white, and someone who is sex repulsed might also seek an ending to their anxieties through it. Yet, it's ts a bit of an opposite motivation to the one Andrew has. When Andrew thinks of himself as a tool, Jean is more likely to think of himself as an object. There's a difference. While Andrew wants to take control, Jean is more likely to use it as either a way to retraumatise himself - so his version of hypersexuality would include less control and more roughness and violence, actually trying to rile the partner up. It might stemm for him from low self worth or be a way of letting out his angers and frustrations. It's not that he is used to being hurt, it's that he doesn't expect anything different. I also think he is more likely to have problems with opening up in therapy. Where Andrew is active Jean is passive, and the opposite. The upside is he might actually be more likely to communicate emotionally than through rules and laws, it will take longer, but be a smoother transition, because more people understand it than Andrew's way of building relationships.

Hope this anwser satisfies you, I'm sorry if I got a bit carried away. 😅

#jean moreau #andrew minyard #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #jean moreau headcanon #the sunshine court #aftg headcanon

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"Tell me it wont hurt,

Now I, I’m your passenger"

Shh don’t disturb him, he’s listening to his favourite playlist. 🌞

#jean moreau #the sunshine court #jean moreau fanart #jean moreau art #all for the game #aftg #aftg fanart #all for the game fanart #the sunshine court fanart #jerejean #nora sakavic #aaaaaaahhhh i love it #omg this is soooo beautiful #Jaśmina you incredibly talented beautiful person #beautifuuuuuuul

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Lemme add my friends brilliant playlist to this post

in honour of tsc i bring back one of my favorite jean moments aka his reaction to the riko roast

#man literally saw neil and said 'what the hell is this???????' #jean moreau #kevin day #neil josten #riko moriyama #aftg playlist #aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court #Spotify

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When the moon fell in love with the sun.

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We're finally getting our despises everyone boy x sunshine boy!!!

Believe me I'm here for the angst like *gently pats Jean's head* "This man has endured so much trauma" but guys we might be getting soft Jean moments. I REPEAT SOFT JEAN!!

#aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court #jean moreau #jeremy knox #jerejean

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I absolutely adore you Nora. Chef's kiss but now I need to know what Jeremy actually looked like all those years.

so Tashie just informed me that Jeremy is morally obligated to be blond unsure if being gaslit or bullied (pretty sure it's the former) had to slam the brakes on everything else to put the draft under a microscope and fix it I am so tired

unrelated, it feels a lil awkward taking inspiration from a song that was written specifically for another book, but "I Am Not Nothing" by Beth Crowley is quite lovely

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Guys remember that time Riko got shot!? Cause I do and am I ready for that man's funeral. Aka let's burn the trash cause JEAN IS GETTING HIS OWN BOOK.

To get in the right vibes I present to you my wonderful friends playlists

Cause why not say "fuck you, Riko!" One last time before obsessing over The Sunshine Court.

#aftg #all for the game #jean moreau #jeremy knox #jerejean #laila dermott #alvarez aftg #andrew minyard #neil josten #kevin day #riko moriyama #the sunshine court #aftg playlist #Spotify

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nora sakavic's comeback and a possible jerejean spinoff was NOT on my 2023 bingo board but boy am i fucking HYPED

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nora sakavic really went from “one: the number of drafts in which jean does not commit suicide” to “this time i said no, you have to live, and i never asked him if he actually wanted to” and expected me to be normal about it huh?

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“Nora sakavic really just announced a new aftg book on a random saturday” NO ITS ANDREW AND AARONS BIRTHDAY SHE ANNOUNCED IT ON THEIR BIRTHDAY IM GOING INSANE

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Happy Birthday Everyone BBC did not stay down despite getting shot

The Dabi dance reveal remains iconic

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Jean Moreau stans rn:

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For those interested... the second part is up and running

Hi, I want to recommend "The Unchosen Ones Of The Southern Seas" by "TheQueenofAngst". It had magic, pirate foxes, lost kingdoms and angst. It even has a map. First part if done, second idk, I just want this work to be more popular because it deserves all the kudos ♥️ 🤍

Hi friend, thanks for this lovely rec that comes with some gorgeous art attached too.  The author announced in an added chapter to this Reverse Big Bang contribution that they were working on part 2 in September 2022, but unfortunately we don’t know any more about it.  - S

The Unchosen Ones Of The Southern Seas by TheQueenofAngst [Rated T, 44540 words, complete, Aftg Reverse Big Bang 2022]

Part 1 of the The Unchosen Ones Of The Southern Seas series Nathaniel Wesninski is a prince made out of scars and secrets. In a kingdom that is built on bloodshed and salted ashes there is one secret that will lead to his death if it were ever revealed. Nathaniel Wesninski has magic. When his father arranged a marriage to the Moriyama's second son Nathaniel runs away. He doesn't get far. There is a group of pirates waiting for him—the Foxes. A new name—Neil Josten, and a deal with the captain of the most feared ship of the Southern seas. Andrew Minyard is a man of truth who keeps his family close with deals he won't break whatever the cost.

tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: scars

NB: find art by @safinisaway for this fic here

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The story continues

Aaron's decisions has led him to many places, one of them was Knox. But the battle of Wesninski still haunts him, and with that new horrors will follow.

Kingdoms have fallen and risen. Cursed and broken. And Kevin feels like he's the one responsible, it started with his mother and he has to be the one to end it for once and for all.

With Riko growing stronger the Foxes need to stand together, to gather allies for their cause. Someone is already on their way, someone none of them would have counted on, didn't know he existed.

Back in Palmetto the Foxes are all fighting on their own ways to regain their strength, to be ready for one more battle.

Will they be able to win this time?

#aftg #all for the game #aftg fanfic #the unchosen ones of the southern seas #the chosen ones of the lost Kingdom #aaron minyard #katelyn (aftg) #andrew minyard #neil josten #kevin day #danielle wilds #matt boyd #seth gordon #allison reynolds #renee walker #nicky hemmick #erik klose #jean moreau #jeremy knox #alvarez aftg #laila dermott #thea muldani #riko moriyama