leilowo

[leilowo]

i'm in an on-and-off relationship with my ed

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thank you all for 250 followers btw :)

i don't post on any other social media platform so i'm not used to people following me lol

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spending time with my grandma is a dangerous game to play

i almost had to eat cake and a pretzel

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ok but like actually how is my mom not suspicious of my eating habits

i asked her for unsweetened almond milk, 3 different kinds of soup, moster ultra and blueberries when we were shopping earlier and she didn't even question it

i do this every time we go shopping, does she actually not notice anything weird about that???

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i hate when i make plans for the weekend and then realize that i don't wanna do anything on the weekend

at least i might actually be able to (at least liquid) fast the whole weekend bc of my plans

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i just discovered how easy it is to talk myself out of meal times

i literally just had to say "i ate bread earlier" and boom, my mom didn't even consider making food anymore

wish i would've found that out a lil earlier but oh well

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[leilowo]

guess who binged 😐

i'm fasting this weekend

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i thought "maybe our scale magically isn't broken anymore" and stepped on it a couple of times

the lowest number it gave me was 32kg (70lbs) and the highest was 36kg (79lbs)

i regret stepping on the scale bc now i wanna know what i actually weight but i still have to wait a little over a week until i can find out :/

i am scared that it's higher than 36kg

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[leilowo]

anyone else who doesn't even know why exactly they wanna be super skinny?

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i would love to go to the grocery store more often and buy low cal food but it always sends my anxiety through the roof :/

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when i was a little kid my mom said models eat paper so i started eating paper whenever i was alone in my room lol

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my sister asked my mom to make pasta tomorrow and she said yes

how dare my sister have a healthy relationship with food and eat what she wants >:( /j

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i really chose to eat an unnecessarily high amount of bread when i could've just kept eating my vegetable soup

ig it's not that bad bc it was my only meal today but i'm still pissed

i'm gonna do my stupid just dance workout now :/

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i love how my mom doesn't care if i eat enough

she makes one meal a day and as long as i eat a little bit of that meal i can eat however i like

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[leilowo]

WHY DOES INSTAGRAM KEEP RECOMMENDING STUFF LIKE THIS TO ME 😭😭

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[leilowo]

i can't sleep bc i'm hungry :/

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[leilowo]

the way i'm just arguing with myself over food every day

ik u hungry bitch but could u stfu pls??

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