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being a system is fun

you get:

- “wait, we’re dating someone?”

- “yo who tf changed our hair?”

- littles calling you mom and the rest of the system calling you a milf

- oh okay this is cool- nvm who am i

- alters getting in fights and singing imagine dragons songs at you

- alters getting in fights and playing death metal really loudly while you’re co-con

- “where is every single thing i own”

- spending copious amounts of money on obscure things because another alter thought it was cool

- *talking to a friend* them: are you feeling okay? you: yea, why? them: i think someone is co-con, you just said “sounds groovy asf swaglord”

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hey can you just like. rb this if your blog is NOT a safe space for endos cause we're lookin for more mutuals n stuff

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to all systems who…

… don’t remember their trauma;

… are introject heavy;

… have a lot of alters;

… have less than 10 alters;

… are undiagnosed;

… are still questioning;

… can’t access their innerworld;

… don’t know how to communicate with each other;

… are afraid to tell anyone in real life that they’re a system;

… use the internet as a safe space to talk about their system;

and all the other systems who feel invalid because of something they lack or have too much from…

hey.

you are valid.

and we love you.

- Misha + Adam <3

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Your illness has not made you ugly

Your feeding tube has not made you ugly.

Your ostomy has not made you ugly

Your cane has not made you ugly

Your wheelchair has not made you ugly

Your oxygen has not made you ugly

Your wig/your bald head has not made you ugly

Your teeth or lack of has not made you ugly

Your body has not made you ugly

Your medications has not made you ugly

Your rashes, blemishes, scars and bruises has not made you ugly

Not being able to shower has not made you ugly

Flashbacks and paranoia has not made you ugly

Changes in your body and brain has not made you ugly

Having seizures has not made you ugly

Your trauma, depression and anxiety has not made you ugly

Your hallucinations, brain fog, and confusion has not made you ugly

Your lack of control over your body, brain, mood and life has not made you ugly.

Please never feel ashamed or ugly about what your illness has done to you, no matter what it has changed it can not change the beauty that you have, so even if you feel like youre not beautiful right now, please remember,

You are beautiful and your disability can never take that from you.

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someone: *telling me a long story*

me, dissociating: totally :)

them: so what do you think?

me: w̴̡̜͇̗̳̳͔͇͚̄̒͆̉͂̋̑a̷̧̫̘̹͔͎̘̹̬̖̝͗́ǐ̵̧͙̼̫̈͊̿͗̃̎͗̎͑͐͠͝͝t̶̡̛͈̦͉̮̣̟̹̦̽̒̈́͋͂̓̂̈́̈́̎̊̃͌̕ ̷̢̢͙̯̳̤͕̗̘̗̘̰̳͇̋̈́̑̓́͜ǐ̶̺̯̤͈̱̖̳̣̃̑̋̾̎̒̈́͑͂̓̒’̸̨̢̫̪̥͈̻̠̼̫̠̉̿͠m̵̠̌̌̄̔̏́͜͝ ̵̢̤̫̈̂̒̎̑̄̾͆́̓͑̚͝s̴̯͓̣͂́͆̌̏̎̏̓̆̓̔̚͘ö̵̖̻r̵̼̫̠̘̬̱̗̙̮͔̊͌̿̾̍̚̚͘r̶̰̦̲̱̼̣̫̰̘͎͓̱̬̔̐͋̌ỵ̷͉̥̹̊̋̓̑̾̎̀͑̊̕͝ ̴̧̨̬͕̳͙̠͎̞̗͍̤̂̓͠ì̷̝̣̭̙̮͊̃́̈́̀̈́͛̀̒̔͗̑̚͝ ̸͚̞̗̪̱̘͔̟̭͙͑͌̀͂́̃̾̓͊̏͝͠w̴̦̜̫̜̬̟̠̪͍̰̜̲̳̬͑͌́ă̸̧̨̩͈͇̯̞̼͍̆͊̀͒̍̈́̍̇̐̄̚ͅs̷̠̪̯͓͖̼̲̖͙͖͒͠͝n̸̪̑̓̉̃̈́’̶̢̬͍̫͇̒́̎̾͐̄̉̆̉͂̏t̶̛̛̛͇͖̟̄͛͗̓́̔̀̈͊̃̚ ̵̡̢͈͎̫̱̠̣̝̩͓͓̜̃́̏̓̒͗̆͂h̴̨̥̍̑ë̶̺̜̳̹͍̟̣̯̙̳̬́̃̑̎͋͗̓͜r̴̢̨̢͉̻͇̣̭̮̣͉͓̦͉̽̚̕͜ȩ̸̦͔̪̺̥̙͓̘̤͕̮̗̻̞̋͒̄ ̷͇̼̃̇͑̃͐̽̽̓͠t̶̨̨̛̠̦͒͌̌̏͆̒̔͘͝ơ̷̻̭̜̻̳̹̗̻͓͊̅͆̂͛̒͛̅̇̀̕̚͜͠ ̴͕̭̒̐̏̈́̋̈́̚l̴̨͈͇͛̾̆i̶͍̱̣̚ͅş̵̼͎̖̗̝̺̮̪͕̹̾̆͛̓͘͝t̶̛̺̠̏͗̊̈́̆̚̚͠͠e̴̢̗͓͓̯̙͂͛̍̃̇̎͂̔͌͂̆̆͠ṋ̷͍̙͎̗̣̗̭͖̯̱̞̮̳̓̀̾̌̈́̃͋̅̍̐̔͗͘͘ ̷̬̌̎̒̌̑̇̏͐t̷̬͇̳̙̿́̌̈͌̇͘ŏ̴̻̮̜͖̉͠ ̸̜̼͚̺̺͚̥͖̉͂́̀̑̚͜ͅy̵̛̛̟͍̮͍͈̬̩͑͌ǫ̴̛̮̹͈̻̬̩͖͑͊̎ű̵̡̨̼͙͈̭̺͙̘̲̱̘̅̐͛́͒̉̑̌̌̄̅͌̚̚ŗ̴̢̖̞̥͚̮̝̲̭̖̜̓͜ ̷̡͓̥͓̘̝̭̼̯̗͕͕̣͈̚ș̸̡̼̬͙̼͐͛̓̑͆̄̿̓͊͜͝t̴̡͕̪̮̺͚̘͖̞̳͠o̶͉͓̠̬̻̭̪̎͘͜ŗ̷͕͖̼́̓͂̚̕ỵ̶̗̳̙̺͎̼͖͚͇͈͈̇̚ ̸̲̓̊̃̕

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"'Multiple personality' carries with it the implication that they really have more than one personality. That's what the name says. 'Dissociative Identity Disorder' implies that the problem is fragmentation of identity, not that you really are twelve people. That you have not more than one, but less than one personality."

~Dr. David Spiegel, for The New York Times. One of the members of the committee that pushed for the change from "multiple personality disorder" to "dissociative identity disorder."

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Does the ISST-D believe your alters are real?

How should therapists interact with the many alters of a DID/OSDD patient?

There’s a lot of fearmongering out there about therapy, and the way therapists will treat the alters in a system.

Common fearmongering statements are: - That therapists will ignore every alter other than the “host”/“core”/“original”. - That therapists will refuse to interact with any alter other than the “host”/“core”/“original”, and won’t help other alters even if they are in distress. - That therapists will be focused on “destroying” or repressing all alters other than the “host”/“core”/“original”. - That the ISST-D guidelines say that alters are not real and should not be treated as real.

If your therapist is doing any of the above, you should immediately leave and seek a therapist who will actually follow the treatment guidelines.

The ISST-D is a guide for therapists to use while treating patients with DID/OSDD. It talks very clearly about how a mental health professional should treat alters.

The ISST-D states that a therapist must: - NOT refuse to talk to any alter. - Treat all alters as real and valid. - Treat all alters as their patients (not just the “host”/“core”/“original”).

It states that a vital part of the healing journey is helping the alters communicate and cooperate. Which means that their patient would never begin to heal, if they did the things that fearmongers say they do.

Again, if your therapist is doing ANYTHING that concerns you, you should seek a new therapist and potentially seek legal aid.

The following are some relevant quotes from the ISST-D guidelines.

“Clinicians must accept that successful treatment of DID almost always requires interacting and communicating in some way with the alternate identities. Ignoring alternate identities or reflexively telling identities to “go back inside” is frankly countertherapeutic" 

- This means that a therapist must not ignore or reject any alter who wishes to speak with them.

"The development of internal cooperation and co-consciousness between identities is an essential part of Phase 1 that continues into Phase 2. This goal is facilitated by a consistent approach of helping DID patients to respect the adaptive role and validity of all identities, to find ways to take into account the wishes and needs of all identities in making decisions and pursuing life activities, and to enhance internal support between identities.”

- This means that the therapist should help the patient’s communication and cooperation with all alters. Which requires the therapist to accept all alters as real and valid, and to help the alters accept each other as well. Breaking down denial can only happen if the therapist is not fuelling denial by ignoring or rejecting the reality of the patient’s alters. (In this situation “patient” refers to the body and includes every alter inside the body/system.)

“Although the DID patient has the subjective experience of having separate identities, it is important for clinicians to keep in mind that the patient is not a collection of separate people sharing the same body. The DID patient should be seen as a whole adult person, with the identities sharing responsibility for daily life. Clinicians working with DID patients generally must hold the whole person (i.e., system of alternate identities) responsible for the behavior of any or all of the constituent identities, even in the presence of amnesia or the sense of lack of control or agency over behavior (see Radden, 1996).” ” Taken together, all of the alternate identities make up the identity or personality of the human being with DID.“

- These parts are talking about how all alters are part of a whole. This may seem impossible to you, or you may feel like this is saying that alters aren’t real, but that is not the case. The theory of Structural Dissociation says that no one is born with an integrated personality. As a normal stage of childhood, the separated personality states integrate. If repeated ongoing trauma prevents the normal integration, then you end up with DID/OSDD. But that’s a conversation for another post. In regards to therapy, these sections are telling the therapist that they should not encourage further dissociation and differentiation between the alters. (This is also seen in the section that relates to patients naming and describing their alters, as seen in this linked post.) And more importantly, that they should help the patient learn system responsibility. That is, to take responsibility for the actions of all alters, and increase communication and connection between the alters. Truly understanding that you are all part of a whole is vital to the later stages of the healing journey, and understanding of that should come with time, so it’s ok if you don’t understand yet. (See this linked post for more discussion about this.)

” It is countertherapeutic for the therapist to treat any alternate identity as if it were more “real” or more important than any other. The therapist should not “play favorites” among the alternate identities or exclude apparently unlikable or disruptive ones from the therapy (although Downloaded by [208.78.151.82] at 09:20 21 October 2011 Journal of Trauma & Dissociation, 12:115–187, 2011 133 such steps may be necessary for a limited period of time at some stages in the treatment of some patients to provide for the safety and stability of the patient or the safety of others).“

- This part very specifically tells the therapist to treat all alters fairly, and not to focus more on one alter than any other. That the therapist should not try to avoid alters that the therapist “doesn’t like”. It also implies that the therapist should not say negative things about any alters to the other alters, as this would be playing favourites. It does state that the therapist and patient may agree that a specific alter should temporarily step back from therapy for the good of the system, but that it is not considered appropriate to “cut out” an alter from therapy on a longer-term basis.

”… it is countertherapeutic to tell patients to ignore or “get rid” of identities (although it is acceptable to provide strategies for the patient to resist the influence of destructive identities, or to help control the emergence of certain identities at inappropriate circumstances or times).“

- This part is very clear and easy to understand. It says that therapist should never try to get rid of alters, no matter what, but that the therapist should help the patient (referring to the DID/OSDD system as a whole) learn coping mechanisms which will help the system/patient live a coherent and functional life. In addition to mitigating the destructive tendencies of a destructive alter, this may relate to things such as preventing little alters from fronting at work or at a nightclub, or helping a protector learn to front in safe spaces rather than only fronting in protective situations. All quotes taken from https://www.isst-d.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/02/GUIDELINES_REVISED2011.pdf

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I'm gonna say it

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*me, flirting* so which songs are you going to permanently associate with me?

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it wasnt your fault.

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Just system thingz uwu

1)Suddenly having no contact with anyone in the system. Like, you're front stuck, you can't hear anyone, you can't communicate, nothing. It's great /sarcasm

2)Trying to talk to someone and having a headmate talking to them without fronting? Like responding to them but in the inner world so nobody but you and the other alters can hear it but you get distracted

3)not knowing who you are ever. Like, not sure if you're co con or Co fronting or just having passive influence. This happens for us all the time

4)The long switches where you dissociate for what feels like hours but it's really just been a few minutes

5)the short switches that feel instantaneous

6)When someone in the headspace says something funny but you can't laugh because you're in public

7)The noise. They're so loud. Oh my god shut up please.

8)the silence. Please come back. I'm sorry

9)Trying to enjoy media that you have introjects from and having them push to front because it's their source

10)Problematic alters. Whether their source is problematic or their views. Example, having a trasnohobic alter, bonus if you have trans alters.

11)And lastly, even if you don't like some of them, you know you have to get along for the sake of the body. It's not fun and games. Being a system isn't great. But, we're allowed to enjoy it sometimes.

Endos dni thank you

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“What happened to me?”

For those who are unsure how to label their trauma, you’ve come to the right place (disclaimer: I am not a professional or anything, this is my comprehensive understanding of these terms, also big tw for sexual abuse mention):

Assault - usually pertains to a single incident, can also mean a threat to do harm, as well as actual harm done. 

Abuse - usually pertains to a series of multiple assaults by the same assailant(s), can include manipulation, molestation, exploitation, coercion, battery, etc.

CSA - stands for child sexual abuse. usually pertains to statutory incidents (where the perpetrator is an adult and the victim is a minor), but is also an umbrella term for any childhood sexual trauma.

COCSA - stands for child on child sexual abuse. it can be considered a subcategory of csa, and usually involves a friend, neighbor, or classmate. the most common kind of cocsa is (TW) “playing doctor”.

NCCSA - stands for non contact child sexual abuse. this usually involves statutory csa through cyber exploitation. can also include second-hand trauma, or being traumatized through someone else’s retelling of their trauma.

CSEM/CSAM - stands for cyber sexual exploitation of a minor. also known as cp, child p//rn. any photos, videos, or online sexual conversations involving a minor can be considered this. 

(let me know if there are any other terms I should add)

#abuse #cocsa #csa #nccsa #csem #sa

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To alters who show symptoms of disorders more than others in your system: you’re doing great, I love you, and I hope you have a wonderful day.

-Lynn ❄️

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Ghibli films for kids

💙🌿💙

all of these are wonderful to watch at any age!!

ages 4+

- Ponyo

- My neighbor Totoro

littles with short attention spans might get bored, but they're very relaxing and beautiful to watch

ages 6+

- Kiki’s Delivery Service

- Castle in the Sky

battle scenes!

- The Cat Returns

- My Neighbors the Yamadas

- The Secret World of Arrietty

features a boy with a congenital heart disease dealing with the possibility of de*th

- Pom Poko

ages 8+

- Spirited Away

possibly scary scenes and characters at times, but so beautiful and one of my all time favourites

- Whisper of the Heart

teen romance but with fairy tale aspects, very sweet

- Howl’s Moving Castle

possibly upsetting at times for younger audiences, but so wonderful

- Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind

ages 10+

- Ocean Waves

- Only Yesterday

- When Marnie Was There

- From Up on Poppy Hill

they have lots of subtle emotional depth

ages 12+

- Princess Mononoke

graphic fight scenes and blood

- Grave of the Fireflies

very sweet but very very sad, children grappling with the aftermath of WWII in Japan

- Tales from Earthsea

- The Wind Rises

- The Tale of Princess Kaguya

- Porco Rosso

these titles have more mature themes or are presented more graphically

Studio Ghibli has absolutely beautiful animation and character design and wonderful enrapturing storytelling. perfect for little ones and caregivers!!

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thinking about the whole "mixed origin" thing and how little sense it makes. did/osdd-1 are inherently caused by trauma. that is not a debate point, it is proven fact. this means that every single alter in a system exists due to trauma. there are not any that are "endognic" in origin. it is not always severe trauma that causes new splits to happen. high and/or prolonged stress can make it happen as well. splits can happen due to certain events long after those events have taken place. that does not mean that the split is not at all tied to trauma/stress. sometimes coping mechanisms do not immediately kick in. splitting is the brain's way of coping when one has did/osdd-1. splitting new alters is possible because of the trauma one went through as a child that put the original dissociative barriers in place. the very root cause of new splits will always be trauma.

#syscourse

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Realising you have more amnesia than you ever noticed, is really hard. It’s scary.

Realising that it isn’t normal to not remember such big chunks of your week.

Realising you don’t remember what you’ve said to friends, when they tell you; ‘you’ve said this many times before’.

Realising you don’t know what ‘you’ talked about in therapy, even less than an hour later.

What else do I not remember?

Amnesia, even without overt parts/not necessarily ‘coming to’ in different environments, is still scary. You feel like you have no control. Powerless. Isn’t that why I have parts to begin with? To cope with feeling like I had no control & was powerless in much worse situations as a kid. Doesn’t seem like such a great coping mechanism now, brain.

Fuck anyone who makes this shit up for fun. Having DID is not fun. This is just one tiny thing & this is more than enough to not want to have this shit.