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I remember laying beside him all those nights. Enjoying his company, his presence. Loving the moments I could hear his laugh. Treasuring the moments I knew he could sleep peacefully for awhile. Months of this simple loving friendship. And then I remember the first night he kissed me. How afraid and nervous I was. How badly I wanted him, how gently I wanted him. I remember slowly melting into him. Our bodies shyly and slowly learning each other. I remember all those perfect nights. The slow burning passion that was gentle and sure and all consuming. Then I remember finding a million reasons why it could never work. And for the rest of my life I will regret not saying those 4 little words that could have changed everything. I hope I don't repeat my mistakes in the future. I don't want to ruin any more good things.

#nostalgias a bitch #linuhlotus #regret #alone and lonely #alone with my thoughts #why always him #wish i could forget #things i never said #spiritofdeath #to the men i've loved before #cant go back #on my mind #i love you too

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This is where I belong

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Library goals.

Bohotribex

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“I belong wandering through old forests and laughing at candlelit taverns with friends. I belong frolicking in a field of wild flowers with faeries and butterflies and bees and wonderful winged folk. I belong on a ship, sailing across the seas and swimming in the waters of foreign caves. I belong in a circle under a clear nighttime sky, looking up at the full moon. I belong harvesting in gardens and sitting by a fireplace in a cozy home. I belong dancing around a fire, singing along with the sounds of flutes and drums. I belong amongst the sun and the moon.”

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Truly it is a thing of joy and beauty

“Because sending a letter is the next best thing to showing up personally at someone’s door. Ink from your pen touches the stationary, your fingers touch the paper, your saliva seals the envelope, your scent graces the paper. Something tangible from your world travels through machines and hands, and deposits itself in another’s mailbox; their world. Your letter is then carried inside as an invited guest. The paper that was sitting on your desk, now sits on another’s. The recipient handles the paper that you handled. Letters create a connection that modern and impersonal forms of communication will never replace.”

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My lovers > yours.

A trio of switches, of pleasers, all in perfect rhythm. Honest to God's it doesn't get better than this. They make me so hungry for them and yet I feel so fulfilled......its purely miraculous

pretty pretty please 🥺

#polyamorous #switch #kink #love and lust #perfect harmony #a love like no other

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I don't know why I do this to myself. You are in my mind constantly without the help of reminders. But still I find myself going through your socials, your pictures, all our saved conversations. And gods above does it ever hurt. It breaks my heart and hurts my very soul. Loving you the way I have, amd knowing how I'm nothing to you. And I've reached the point where I'm done with trying to reach out. I'm done fighting for something I don't think was ever real on your end. But that doesn't take away what I've felt. It doesn't remove this inexplicable pull I feel when I think of you. I know I should delete the pictures and all the beautiful words you sent. I'm afraid though that with no tangible proof that you were real I might go mad. Might come to believe I'm in love with a fantasy. A figment of my own imagination.

I know you don't think of me

If you haven't already, you'll forget me entirely one day soon. And thats

. . .that's ok. I hope you are happy and I hope you are learning your worth. You bring so much greatness to this world and I hope you find a way to shine bright. And if you ever do think of me,just know there is always a little starlight shining down somewhere loving you. For better or worse, I can never stop loving you.

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Your silence is giving me strength to move on

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💜

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“I need to stop thinking about you, because I know you’re not thinking about me.”

— Unknown

#i'm done

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Going in my calendar :3

I did not know, but now I won't forget!! 🧡🧡🧡

@thecomicbookj @i-am-dubs

#polyamorous triad #polyamory #celebration #what love feels like

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And I find I'm suddenly less afraid of love as a whole

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Lucky 3

I feel so surreal right now. I slowly but surely grew to love a close and dear friend of mine. Both of us parents, we share secrets and struggles and laughs and tears and do the best we can at being authentic and Rais our babies to the best of our ability. Became close friends with her husband as well. He is a good man with a huge heart of gold who swept us up into his family and protects us like it's second nature. He's great with his kids and mine. And over time all of us getting closer and closer and spending more and more time together.......we have now all 3 of us come to the realization that we are becoming more than JUST friends. Its a connection that is growing deeper and stronger and brighter. And its......an absolute dream come true honestly. I finally feel like I have help raising my tiny unconventional family. And all of us are learning a new level of communication. Learning to open up deeper and getting down to the nitty gritty uncomfortable truths that come with being human. Relearning how to balance love and trust and faith and spirituality. Letting go of what we thought we knew about "rules" and opening up to a love like I've never known. This is everything I've ever wanted and never thought possible. I finally feel free. There's a lot left to learn here as we are just in the beginning, but I KNOW this is the beginning of something absolutely epic. How did I become the luckiest girl in the world?

#polyamourous #pansexual #triad #throuple #polycule #what a life #free to be me #the king and queen and rheir witch #my unconventional fairytale #start of something new

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i hate having to ask or beg for interaction because everyone has others they’d rather talk to than me