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Never mind she left me 🤙

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Okay this one might be the one. THIS ONE might be the one.

Please call me Eren.

Thank :)

#nonbinary #writings of eren #this one feels right

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Ugh I hate looking for names. We're trying Kit now lol

#sorry #nonbinary #writings of kit

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Funny story but anyway we're together now lmao

#some things are actually okay

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In the interest of further confusion I'm going by Wynne now lol

#being nonbinary is a pain in yhe ass bro wtf is my NAME #nonbinary #writings of wynne

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#gotta make things harder for myself yaknow #writings of ariel #cptsd #mental health #lesbian pining

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Had the first emotional flashback I've had in a while on the tail end of a call from my mother and I forgot just how Yikes they are......-2994/10 honestly

#wouldnt rate it #writings of ariel #c-ptsd #cptsd #complex trauma #mental health #flashback

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Today in the Gender Confused diaries, 'Murphy' isn't sticking so we're moving on to Ariel, please n thank you ✌

#aw shit here we go again #writings of ariel #nonbinary

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whom else has an infinite source of untapped rage inside them that they can’t direct anywhere

#😬

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#don't get me wrong i am so so so grateful and lucky to have had it! this part just sucks a bit #it's only temporary ofc so i'll be fine #but still a bit of an oof #cptsd #writings of murphy #c-ptsd #mental health #complex trauma #illness mention

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when u try to tell ur parents about a problem but they end up yelling at u

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Tw// drug abuse (mild)

Cw// cursing

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Christ I just want some sleeping tablets. My sleep is actually mostly fine rn and I don't actually need them but I just want to be able to do something I know is destructive to satisfy the urge without having the physical evidence, without consequences. I have leftover medication from when I was on a certain antidepressant last year and it knocks me for six and I wanna take it so badly even though I don't take it any more because it will feel destructive enough for the urges to go away. But I know it makes me feel like absolute shit for 24-36 hours and I just need to keep telling myself that. The drug induced sleep might feel nice and familiar but it will feel so bad tomorrow, I'll feel like a zombie.

I know this needs addressing in therapy but we're doing EMDR for something specific and I don't wanna sidetrack it.

#writings of murphy #cptsd #c-ptsd #mental health #complex trauma #tw// drug abuse #cw// drugs #cw// cursing

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Man the loneliness of trauma really does get completely debilitating sometimes

#trying not to be destructive over it lol but yikes #writings of murphy #cptsd #c-ptsd #mental health #complex trauma

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someday you'll move away from your parents and it's gonna feel so good

you'll be able to dress how you want, go anywhere you want, cut your hair or grow it out, stay up late, eat whatever and whenever you want to, have friends over, love whoever you want to -- all without the obligation to ever see or speak to them again

you'll get out one day, and from that day forwards, your life is your own

it will get better

#i'm so nesrly there #i live on the other side of the country with my friends #as soon as i'm financially independent it's over for you bitches

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Remember the time you thought you never could survive?

You did, and you can do it again.

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Not to be Emo but my friend gave me their old binder and it made me surprisingly emotional to see my chest like this for the first time....like damn. This is the body I was meant to have.

#waan't expecting to tear up but here we are #writings of murphy #non binary

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remember to listen to yourself. if you’re exhausted and don’t have the energy to commit to plans, it’s okay to say no. if you’re feeling like total crap and just can’t motivate yourself to be productive; rest! it’s okay to say no to things you’re not up to and set limits and let yourself have a break from it all, you deserve it.