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Even though I was so resolute about that…

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it’s too early for this

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I want to explain neuroanatomy for the younger medical students who suffer to understand this topic,but im too fucking lazy to talk. Talking is exhausting and i hate it. Ugh

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it is tiring and terrible and terrifying and absolutely worth it to have to be brave all the time.

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Ha ha seriously tho.

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I get perplexed about almost everything. Anything can hold multiple options in which I'd be too confused to choose one. I'd be over analytical and mentally measure all the possible consequences and odds. Absolute killer for the sheer spirit of fun.

For example, right now I'm puzzled. Should i start this new chapter of a book I'm reading, or just sleep?!.... Neither...

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you will be healed.

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“[I]t is actually more expensive to be poor than not poor. If you can’t afford the first month’s rent and security deposit you need in order to rent an apartment, you may get stuck in an overpriced residential motel. If you don’t have a kitchen or even a refrigerator and microwave, you will find yourself falling back on convenience store food, which — in addition to its nutritional deficits — is also alarmingly overpriced. If you need a loan, as most poor people eventually do, you will end up paying an interest rate many times more than what a more affluent borrower would be charged. To be poor — especially with children to support and care for — is a perpetual high-wire act.”

— It Is Expensive to Be Poor | The Atlantic

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“Nothing endures but change.” - Heraclitus

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David A. Hardy - Saturn from Rhea, “Challenge of the Stars”, 1953.

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The Lord of the Rings requested by @maybe-queen-of-numenor

Even the smallest person can change the course of the future.

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So i just dropped watching Please Like Me after S04 E02. It's the episode of when Arnold and Josh brokeup.

The breakup scene was so frustrating and hard to watch, and I'm one of those who actually don't give a damn about relationships and cringey stuff like that.

It was just so hurtful to watch someone with anxiety disorder losing another valuable thing (or someone in this case) due to their mental illness.

*It was relatable to me in many aspects.*

The ironic thing is that Arnold actually feared this end and was afraid of his own reaction and the damage this relationship will cause in which he says to Josh "I'm afraid to be vulnerable for you" but as the connection between them was growing, this fear drifted away. But in the end, he was right, and eventually he was crushed..

I understand how hard it can be to build a healthy relationship with a mentally ill person. Anxiety in particular brings nothing but desolation and suffering for both individuals in the relationship.

It was just hard to witness that such people are doomed to be alone and never find love.

It wasn't like i was hopeful to begin with, it's just i didn't appreciate the reminder. I only wanted a witty show to watch while exercising on my treadmill, not a sudden hit of reality I've chose to accept and forget about.

*i hate this show*

#please like me #josh #Arnold #s04e02 #lgbtlove

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legolas: *statement in elvish*

aragorn: *annoyed retort, also in elvish*

legolas: *disbelieving reply, still in elvish*

aragorn: THEN I SHALL DIE AS ONE OF THEM!!!

the rest of the men in helm’s deep:

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Ezgi Polat

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“Nine companions. So be it. You shall be the fellowship of the ring.”

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 - J. R. R. Tolkien