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No matter which direction I go, in the end it's a dead end. I am stuck. I don't know what to do next.

#borderline #borderline personality disorder #depressiv #lost #fucked up #thoughts #bpd #alone #no control #nobody #i hate it here #help #emptiness #loosing my fucking mind

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nobody talks about how ptsd feels like genuinely embarrassing and humiliating sometimes

like you’ve been through however much shit and then years later you’re crying in your kitchen cause you got triggered by something super mundane you see every day like.. dishes, and you can’t explain why because the connection to trauma is vague and weird and contextual and so you’re just like why is this who I am…

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somewhere in between trying to live my life and trying to run away from it

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Losing sleep because your heart feels heavy is the worst thing

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Losing sleep because your heart feels heavy is the worst thing

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I'm so fucking tired of my life

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The Society of Others by William Nicholson

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It really hits me that I just don't enjoy life anymore.

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I used to think I was in a bad mood but it’s been a couple of years now so I guess this is just who I am now

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breaking news: everything hurts

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It’s true, I’m lost without you

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adonis, tr. by khaled mattawa

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