I’d rather be in your bed
Your arms wrapped tightly around me
Assuring me that I'll be ok
Heavy breathing and silenced sobs
Under cramps I hold my broken pieces
And give into this cry attack
As all those anxious thoughts come creeping back
From the dark corners of my fucked up mind
Darkness hugs me tightly
I can't move, I can't breathe
Depression holds my chest
I miss your loving whispers
Your hands brushing through my long hair
I'd rather be in your bed right now
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When the best people are far away you often sit back in retrospect and youre like, "what the fuck"?
And they want you to share your feelings with them but really you just want to cherish the time you have talking to them and not ruin it.
The insecurities that they will get tired of you just like you get tired of yourself. Even if they tell you they won't. It makes the feelings worse cause you know they care but you also know that YOU care enough to not want to hurt them, to not put them through that, etc.
When no one cares, you have that option you know, if you go away it hurts no one but yourself.
I'm not sure I've had people care before now... and I know it's really shitty of me but...
I'm not entirely sure I like it.
Why would I hurt people that I love? I finally, as of today, see the predicament it puts people in.
Where do you find that line where it becomes an option again? Where you know that you're hurting them more by being here? Why does my brain have to be so messy? Why can't I be okay all the time? Why does there have to be thoughts and drama?
Someone forget to tell my brain this is a drama free zone.
My head is really messy.
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Um. Really?
When, pray to tell, did I become such a cheapskate? yeah..... that was hypothetical...don't answer that... It does the job though...
Makes me a lot more nauseous than I used to be 🤔 lack of weed perhaps?
Companies going on like, " the rate of drug overdose deaths involving this drug doubled"
"this drug has increased risk of overdose and seizure" and "possible development of serotonin syndrome" and possible coma and death" "faster rates of tolerance and addiction" "increased risk of death and seizure".
Excuse me, but....
Why the fuck am I'm still here?
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Fresh flowers in the lobby at work today.
Not to be that girly-girl but... I kinda love flowers 😍🌷🌼🌻🌺🥀🌹🏵💮🌸💐🤷🏻♀️😬❤️
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I don't usually post stuff like this but this one was really accurate and well-illustrated. Sometimes it's hard for people who have been abused, but it's also hard for people who are with/around them to understand. It does take a lot of time and patience on both sides.
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