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“Realgansey you’d better not be thinking about Jean at the beginning of tsc hitting his thigh as hard as he could as a grounding method vs Jean at the end of tsc tapping his leg gently as he lists things he finds delight in as a grounding method again.”

Literally me:

#NOOO #MY ONE WEAKNESS #THINGS COMING FULL CIRCLE #I don't think I'll survive this one #aftg #tsc #the sunshine court #tsc spoilers

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i present a badge for the war torn soldiers

#thank you I'll take ten of them #aftg #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil #tsc #the sunshine court

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Well,my life is officially tsc coded now

The lesson:

My brain's IMMEDIATE reaction:

#tsc #the sunshine court #jean moreau #tsc spoilers #all for the game

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important poll:

#born to be a yapper #forced to be a listener by my brain #who decided no one cares about my rants #but still #I do love hearing people talk #like yes #tell me each and every thought in your head I ache to know you so well I can anticipate what you'll feel in any situation

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tsc costing 1 dolar is so cool, i would have given my first born for it but one dollar is fine too

#the sunshine court #nora sakavic #all for the game

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nora's plot is like here are some made up people that i've made to suffer EVERY TRAUMA and the most grievous lack of autonomy i could think of. and their story starts from the WORST point in their lives where things have gotten so bad that their only two options are to literally kill themselves or to fight back, but at that point they are so succumbed to the perceived truth of their demises that they recklessly choose to do something that they never would have done before because they think they're going to die anyways. BUT THEN the rest of the book is about them processing their trauma instead of just stuffing it into a little box and learning about themselves and finding a group of people who love them and trusted mentors and doing something they love for the right reasons and learning that they can get to a place where they can love life because they have chosen to actually deal with their issues instead of just thinking that there's no point because they don't have a future and it not only makes them better people but it helps the people around them AND THEN SHE MADE THE BOOKS BE 99 cents.

i'm screaming i'm crying i'm asking nora to open the door and let me in i just want to talk

#tsc spoilers #the sunshine court #the foxhole court #THESE BOOKS ISTG #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #aftg #all for the game #jean moreau #neil josten #jeremy knox #andrew minyard #nora sakavic

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Neil Josten is narrator of all time because he does everything to live against all odds and makes me want to do the same

Jean Moreau is narrator of all time because I relate so much to haing been so unwell for so long that things I think are normal sound crazy

#they are the characters ever #neil josten #jean moreau #tsc #tsc spoilers

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HOPE WAS A DANGEROUS DISQUIETING THING BUT HE THOUGHT PERHAPS HE LIKED IT

( I'm crying )

#tsc spoilers #neil josten #jean moreau

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The foxes : *not even remotely suspecting that something might be going on between Andrew and Neil despite being with them 24/7 *

Jean * facing the horrors , with his body so broken he can't even walk, so in pain he shouldn't be able to even think straight, barely caring about those two tiny assholes, after sparing them a glance*: see that? See how they gravitate towards each other ? See how they cannot physically keep their eyes away from each other for too long? See how they have matching armbands and both stink of cigarettes and devotion? YEAH THAT'S GAY. I don't get payed enough for this shit. Back to my trauma.

#andreil you'll always be famous #they are so in love it's embarrassing #good for them #tsc spoilers #jean moreau #Andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil

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I'm sorry but this made me snort. It reminded me so much of Neil "desperation was a valuable lubricant" Josten 😭

#the chaos #I live for them #tsc spoilers

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jean: traumatised, in denial, trying to get through each day, terrified of his future-

jeremy: this is my cardboard dog barkbark von barkenstein

#this scene killed me #jean : facing the horrors #jeremy ignoring his own problems: i will keep bringing this fake dog to your room for company :)) he's a very good boy don't worry ☀️ :) #tsc spoilers

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also i find it deeply funny that in tsc andrew is just kevin’s pet goalkeeper and kevin’s pet monster and “that creepy little goalkeeper” when he takes up soooo much space in aftg in literally every fucking scene. even when he isn’t physically present he’s taking up space on the page because neil won’t stop thinking about him. then u get inside jean’s head and he’s like yeah aaron minyard is uninteresting outside of his outstanding murder charge and andrew is also there

#aaaaahhh #them

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jeremy !!! jeremy tell me why you avoid cops and why your sister said you destroyed your family !!! tell me why you hate your stepfather and why you avoid your brother !!!! tell me why you have problems with money and why you're in therapy and why any mention of your family upsets you !!!!!! do you not want jean to call you 'knox' bc you want to be a good captain/his friend or do you have problems with your surname??????? tell me why you're forced to live at home and why you still playing exy is unforgivable to your sister !!!!! tell me what happened at the fall banquet !!!!!!!! what broke your family in half jeremy !!!!!!! STOP AVOIDING ME JEREMY ANSWER THE QUESTIONS

#literally me the whole book #just because jean's problems are so many it doesn't mean you can hide behind them Jeremy #ANSWER US JEREMYY #tsc spoilers

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Yes , I am going insane over the Italian dub of more than anything, thanks for noticing

"Narravi sogni magici e idee incredibili e dicevi "raggiungimi lì"

You used to tell me such incredible stories and magical ideas , and you'd say "reach me there"

EXCUSE ME DO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF AND SOB IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS?? BECAUSE I'M GONNA

"ora ti capisco figlia mia , riconosco in te la mia follia "

Now I understand you my dear daughter , now I see in you my brand of crazy

( I don't know how to translate follia right now give me a break I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF CRYING A RIVER )

Non sei solo mia figlia / padre sei tutto per me

You're not just my daughter/ father you're everything to me

I SWEAR OH MY GOD *lies in a puddle of her own tears*

#the thing is #normally I'm the biggest snob for only watching things in their original language #BUT THIS DUB #OH MY GOD #IT'S SO GOOD #I know that the measage it's still the same but hearing it worded so well in my own language does something to me #which is make me sob uncontrollably #hazbin hotel charlie #hazbin hotel #lucifer #hazbin hotel lucifer #more than anything #hh #angel dust hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel ita #charlie morningstar #lucifer morningstar

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Instead of sleeping yesterday my mind came up with a really silly Aftg au

Imagine everything is the same but Allison is either Aphrodite in disguise (why? And why would she come to earth to end up with the foxes of all people? Playing exy???) ( Listen I never said this would make sense just let me explain) or she is a descendant of Aphrodite in some way and therefore she can feel when people are in love. SO I'm just picturing Allison being constantly hit by the unbelievable strength of Andreil's feelings for one another. I don't know you guys this made sense last night , just the idea of Allison loving love but at some point she starts to struggle because Andrew and Neil really can't get a grip, they are so gone for each other that if Allison is in the same room as them she can't really concentrate on anything and it's getting annoying. Also she's pissed because those two little fuckers manage to look completely normal and unaffected while she's fighting for her life trying to concentrate on anything but them.

( OMG IMAGINE IF IT WAS AARON

now I'm thinking about Aaron getting cursed ( maybe by Allison??) for one reason or another to feel his brother feelings for one day and everything is going good and Andrew is being chill and unaffected until NEIL shows up and Aaron feels like his heart is actively trying to get out of his ribcage to be with him

Aaron *completely baffled by this experience*: is this what you feel everytime??

Andrew: feel? I'm sorry brother dearest but what are you talking about? I've never felt anything in my life , my chest is a void where no such thing as these ~feelings~ you're talking about can thrive

Aaron with his heart POUNDING becase Neil just smiled at Andrew: OH SO YOU'RE FULL OF SHIT GOOD TO KNOW)

( I don't know how I went from Allison being Aphrodite to Aaron learning that his brother is not only human but also a pathetic lovesick loser but that's how it is sometimes)

#andrew with a straight face : i hate him #allison feeling his feelings from a mile away becase they are so strong: BITCH WHO YOU THINK YOU'RE KIDDING?? #at least my girl is making big money betting on them #not her fault everybody else is blind #greek gods #Aphrodite #magic!AU #gods!AU #allison reynolds #aftg #aftg au #crack #andreil #andrew minyard #neil josten #twinyards #twinyards bonding #aaron minyard

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Me , a full time attention whore : * bombarding my mom with my every thought becase I don't want to bother my friends but also I think I'm fucking hilarious*

My mum *most definitely sarcastic *: figliò, you should write a book

My brain immediately: YES I FUCKING SHOULD EVERYONE WOULD TOTALLY READ A BOOK WITH ALL MY THOUGHTS

#this is to say #you're lucky you get to read these posts for free #also embrace your need for constant attention #everybody in your life probably hates you for it but who cares #delusional

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Omg hahahaha you're right I did mispronounce that word! Thank you for pointing it out hahahahaha oh and now we're all repeating it like I said it hahahahahahha you guys are so right that sounds so weird hahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahha ( *takes out a dagger and stabs herself repeatedly in the gut* )

#relatable #I hope #lol why is being alive so embarrassing? #I mispronounce something or I use a word wrong once and suddenly I can't sleep at night #also if I ecounter that word again I WILL get war flashbacks as if all my friends and their dog died when I messed up that day #anxienty #overthinking