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Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Richard Siken, Crush (Little Beast)

George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones (A Song of Ice and Fire)

Margaret Atwood

Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

Yves Olade, Bloodsport

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No but YOU don't understand. Peeta, who's never been anyone's priority being Katniss’ first choice in all three books is something very important to me.

In The Hunger Games, when Peeta's name was called in the reaping, no one volunteered for him including his older brother who is not only old enough to participate but also a better wrestler than him. Even in the arena, Haymitch chose to keep Katniss alive over him. And the only person who prioritised him was Katniss herself. She chose to keep him alive when he was dying. She chose to die with him by eating the poisonous berries. She chose to go as far as defying the Capitol and President Snow to protect him.

In Catching Fire, once again, we heard his family would mourn if he died but they'll eventually move on. Other victors only keep him alive to form an alliance with Katniss. And Peeta still got captured by the Capitol in the end. But Katniss’ first priority was keeping Peeta alive. She made a pact with Haymitch to protect him. She was ready to kill Finnick or anyone on the spot if they dared to hurt him. She clawed Haymitch for not rescuing him over her. She became suicidal when he was captured.

In Mockingjay, Peeta lost his family. Then President Coin and other rebels didn't want to keep him (and other captured tributes) alive. And the only person who was visibly devastated over his capturing and hijacking was Katniss, again. And in the end, she finally chose him over Gale. And ultimately chose to be with him for the rest of her life. She gave him the family he lost and he became the family she lost.

“No one really needs me,” he says, and there's no self pity in his voice. It's true his family doesn't need him. They will mourn him, as will a handful of friends. But they will get on. Even Haymitch, with the help of a lot of white liquor, will get on. I realise only one person will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies. Me.

“I do,” I say. “I need you.”

— Catching Fire

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He rips out one eye and everyone forgets what a nerd he actually is.

He does close up magic and card tricks.

And he talks like a theater kid.

Everyone: calling Nina the Drama Queen.

In the meantime Kaz: "My mother is Ketterdam. She birthed me in the harbor. And my father is profit. I honor him daily."

He's an ✨ICON✨ and we love him

#Kaz Brekker is a dweeb #he probably drinks plain milk #six of crows #kaz brekker #inej gafha #jesper fahey #nina zenik #wesper #kanej #helnik #the grisha series #crooked kingdom

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the crows: *existing*

kaz: caw caw motherfuckers, it's heist time

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Inej: We all have our demons.

Inej: *grabbing Kaz* This one’s mine.

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Something I adore in Crooked Kingdom is the parallels between Kaz and Inej as performers.

“You square your shoulders before you start a move as if you’re about to perform, like you’re waiting for the audience’s attention.”

AND

“Kaz slipped free like a magician escaping a straight jacket in a show on East Stave.” … “He spread his gloved hands wide. Again Inej thought of a magician. Nothing up my sleeves.”

Inej has never hidden away the fact she was a performer. It’s an integral part of her character and a connection to the girl she was before she was kidnapped by slavers; while Kaz’s whole persona is a performance to cover up the wounded boy he is was but also a poke at his innocent fascination for magic as a young child.

Just two deeply scarred individuals putting on a show for a cruel world that would never stop insisting on another encore.

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So I saw some people on bookTok discussing Ninth House and I was kind of shocked by some of their criticisms but there was one that really stuck with me…

I saw some people say Bardugo tried too hard to be dark in her content by making Alex’s trauma explicit but failed to give the character any justice, but my response is that the entire present day timeline is Alex’s justice…. Alex was abused and violated by something the most privileged people she knew saw as a gift. It is a widely known horrible part of our reality that the world doesn’t believe or protect victims, it doesn’t protect women. The fact that so many people saw her trauma even if she didn’t want them to and completely wrote her off so they didn’t have to deal with what it meant, is the most realistic part of her character. She was poor, a woman of color, homeless at more than one point in her life…I can think of nothing more realistic that her not getting feasible, malleable justice. But to say she got none at all would be wrong, Alex’s justice was cosmic and metaphorically and more meaningful than some get in the real world, she gained a different sense of self worth imprinting herself onto Tara’s circumstances, fighting to find out what happened to tara meant acknowledging that she and Alex were one in the same— at least in The sense that the world values them the same, she became attached to Tara because she saw herself in a dead body that no one else seemed to care about and couldn’t help but imprint on that experience. Alex knew the world valued her and Tara the same, she saw the parallels between Tara and herself and yet she still came to the conclusion that Tara deserved better than what she got in death, and in life. Those thoughts are more kind than Alex was to herself on a normal basis, and maybe they wouldn’t have meant anything if Alex wasn’t the narrator but she was, she was the one aligning their value, and ultimately accepting that she deserved better than what she got out of life…Alex’s justice was aligning her value with every victim belbam took and saying that they all deserved better.

#ninth house #ninth house 2 #ninth house adaptation #alex x darlington #alex darlington #alex stern #galaxy stern #daniel tabor arlington iii #darlington #darlingster #pamela dawes #belbalm #house of lethe #the houses of the veil #leigh bargudo

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No but can you imagine Inej when Kaz gave her the first dagger?? Can you imagine Kaz when he finds out she named it?

I want to know what it was like when Kaz was training Inej the first year they met. The banter? The arguing? The late nights eating dinner together? Kaz learning that Inej’s angry face is adorable? Kaz making Inej laugh? Inej making Kaz laugh? Did Kaz ever get decked in the face and have to pretend like it didn’t hurt the shit out of him? These are the thoughts that keep me up at night.

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You’re right my wording was bad, but it felt like the only way , in my head at least, to really draw attention to the parallels between the two… and while I agree that obviously Kaz isn’t anywhere in the mindset of having an heir, wylan and kaz both being present when Van Eck and Rollins talk about their legacy is very important, in that it calls out that wylan is more of a protege than another crow, he is kaz’s protege, their dynamic is different from everyone else despite him learning from everyone.

and you’re also right in that he will never become what Kaz sees himself as, you’re right that they have very different ambitions but I would argue that they’re defining purposes are a lot more similar than people realize, survival and destroying the perception of weakness. Kaz obviously being others perceptions of his weaknesses and wylan being his perception of his own weaknesses

He’ll also never be like Kaz in the sense that the sense of togetherness and family was something that coincided with him being brought into the six, kaz came up isolated and even by the end still barely trusts it…

So we agree on more than we disagree, and I did misspeak but I genuinely think my 1st comments were just me overvaluing the importance of wylan’s realization of his own strength, which he did through a lot of imitation of kaz’s explanations of survival….I loved that subplot and overall I enjoyed seeing someone post about the importance of wylan’s growth.

If Wylan was really the uwu soft boy the fandom paints him to be Kaz Brekker would have thrown him out of the tank with no hesitation the moment they exited the Ice Court. But no. So don’t make me throw you out of the tank as we exit the Ice Court, I will not hesitate

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He is quite literally baby Kaz,

Out of everyone, Wylan was with KAZ when both antagonists were going on and on about legacies and babies.

He is kaz’s baby.

And the comparison to David in RoW confirms it too

If Wylan was really the uwu soft boy the fandom paints him to be Kaz Brekker would have thrown him out of the tank with no hesitation the moment they exited the Ice Court. But no. So don’t make me throw you out of the tank as we exit the Ice Court, I will not hesitate

#wylan van eck #kaz brekker #six of crows #crooked kingom #shadow and bone #inej ghafa #kanej #grishaverse #shadow and bone netflix #wesper #wylan hendriks #jesper fahey #lbardugo #leigh bardugo #rule of wolves #king of scars

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How do readers not like Matthias’ chapters, they are literally all about Nina and inej ??????

#inej ghafa #kanej #kaz brekker #grishaverse #six of crows #shadow and bone netflix #crooked kingdom #helnik #jesper fahey #kaz x inej

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Okay but just the subplot of him never being able to find anything about them and his Van Eck overthrow just “coincidentally” being big and destructive enough they seek him out, finally satisfying his curiosity…also could you imagine just how intense that curiosity actually was, this is a man with an overwhelming desire to be in the know about anything that could be an advantage or weapon and the only thing that topples that is his trauma that was born and came to life in the harbor, the harbor which the tide makers also control.. imagine being a kid all of that happening in a city you know nothing about just to find out their are grisha that control the waters, even a normal drowning victim could become obsessed but thinking about what else happened to kaz in that water, there is no part of Kaz Brekker that would let the tide makers stay unknown to him.

okay but what if Kaz was a tidemaker 🙂 just a thought

#kaz brekker #you can’t hide from me water people #grishaverse #six of crows duology #leigh bargudo #crooked kingdom #six of crows netflix #tidemaker #grisha #inej ghafa #kanej #kaz rietveld

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I have no earthly idea who Andrew minyard is but him and his boyfriend look so cute in the little pictures I see on here all the time

#andrew minyard #gay

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“Kaz Brekker isn’t funny” what book did you read that boy is constantly making jokes. maybe you just have a bad sense of humour

#I DEFINITELY didn’t tell them to blow up the lab

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Having a deterrence to physical touch, when you still actively crave physical/sexual intimacy doesn’t make you asexual….. both of them want to touch each other, intimately/romantically/sexually, their aversion is strictly trauma based. I don’t think its appropriate to label those characters asexual when bardugo when out of the way to explain Kaz’ want and desire for inej and vice versa, she even introduced a memory, in explicit detail, of the lengths Kaz went to avoid the first girl he had experienced sexual attraction to, simply because he knew he couldn’t make himself act on it. Using that label, despite whatever intention, comes off as minimizing the effect of the trauma they both endured- especially when the trauma of one of the characters in question is sexual in nature…..

Kaz is the only straight one out of the six crows (he is asexual though, obvious reasons)

In my head you have:

Inej: Unlabelled (I can't find a sexuality that fits her) and asexual, once again, for obvious reasons.

Wylan: Gay

Jesper: Bisexual

Nina: Bisexual

Matthias: Bi curious

Now that that is out of the way...

Kaz is an absolute ally. You dare be homophobic to any of his friends and you will find that he does not take kindly to it.

Like, he really cares.

But he doesn't show it.

Ofc.

He wouldn't be Kaz if he showed that he cared.

But the offender would not have a happy ending.

#just my opinion #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wylan hendriks #jesper x wylan #nina zenik #mathias helvar #helnik #shadow and bone netflix #shadow and bone #soc #six of crows #grishaverse #kaz x inej #kanej

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No but in season 2 I need emotional Turmoil

in this past season we got an ounce of Book Kaz, an ounce. I want the building blocks of his Ruthlessness and cynicisms, we are already past the point of when he was injured, I want him rising up in ranks cause let’s be honest season one Kaz would be afraid of chapter one Kaz, so in my head he isn’t a general or lieutenant yet. I want inej doing more jobs building her legend as the wraith that way show watchers get to see the Book dynamic of the crows more naturally, I’m talking Jesper being attracted to both of them and realizing he is on the outside of their connection and him being snarky about it, I want inej’s justified anger at Kaz’s Inability to rely on her despite all she’s done to prove herself. I want Kaz’s begrudging admiration of what she does for a man like him despite the moral opposition, despite every thought telling himself he is in fact irredeemable. I want scenes of Wylan’s dad sending him off to “school” and him almost being killed in The harbor, I want to see Kaz plotting to keep Wylan safe at the stupid warehouse job and shabby motel, I want Wylan getting the first letter from his dad just when he though he was safe.

#aleksander morozova #freddy carter #nina zenik #kanej #grishaverse #inej ghafa #kaz brekker #six of crows #siege and storm #soc #shadow and bone netflix #ruin and rising #darklina #wesper #helnik #ketterdam #king of ravka #ravka #leigh bardugo #kaz x inej

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I really really don’t know how I feel about this casting… wylan had red curly hair and his face was painted with freckles, I think this casting will underplay Nina’s parem-amplified powers cause if his hair is already black, his eyes too, couldn’t couldn’t an experienced tailor richer his skin tone and alter the shape of his eyes?

EVERYONE SHUT UP

#wesper #kit young #jack wolfe #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #six of crows #shadow and bone netflix #cast #siege and storm #ruin and rising #leigh bardugo #the dregs #kaz brekker #kaz #inej ghafa #kanej