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why do people like this show like man? i want to finish it cos i keep leaving things half way but oh god

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ppl keep telling me i’m normal whenever i tell them i’m not and i want to scream

#i’ve felt like an alien in the society forever and now everyone just wants to tell me normal doesn’t exist #like ok woman #maybe i’m just autistic but no ofc i’m just ‘normal’ #whatever gona cry abt it forever 👍🏽

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got angry and cried at the infirmary feel bad but oh 👍🏽dying

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anyways wow fun being sad i don’t want to talk there ever again but i wish i actually followed thru that lmao i always say it and then start talking to the same person fun

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"I Understand Social Interaction"

A Quick Guide for Those Recently Diagnosed, Researching Diagnosis or Self-diagnosing

It is important to note that how difficulties with social interaction present depends on many factors. These difficulties will be present from a very young age, so confirmation with family is often needed if possible.

Secondly, masking can alter how these difficulties present, too, as well as trauma or other mental health issues can change how one interacts. Many autism tests will ask if difficulties are present "only now, before the age of 16, or both before and now" for this exact reason.

Life circumstances, other neurodivergences, accommodations etc will also alter how these difficulties present in each individual. It is important to take a look at your whole life, circumstances, how you understand interaction in different settings etc.

Lastly, it is important to note that I am a moderate support needs autistic but with high masking skills. Not all autistics will experience these difficulties in the same way, or some may have other neurodiversities that affect their views.

So, how can these difficulties present? This is an example list only and is by no means an exclusive list and in no particular age progression order:

Inability to describe what a friendship is. May believe any interaction qualifies as a friendship and frequently be hurt by bullying, lashing out by perceived friends etc

Has difficulties in telling when it's their turn to speak in a conversation.

May be accused of "hijacking the conversation" or may be told they don't contribute to the conversation.

May often be told they are rude, offensive or inappropriate in conversation as they do not understand the nuanced rules around conversation.

May leave the group mid-conversation, being seen as rude or weird. Again, not understanding the rules around conversation. May simply feel "I'm bored now" and not comprehend the tit-for-tat of conversing.

May build up scripts in their mind which are based heavily off of previous successful conversations. May also take information for scripts from books, TV or movies.

Small talk is painful and the person may be seen as giving too much personal information as they do not understand or comprehend the purpose of small talk. May also think questions are literal, leading to oversharing.

May bully at a young age due to the inability to understand how friendships are formed. May see friendships simply as "I want to hang out with you, so we're hanging out. No questions required."

May take over play at a young age due to not understanding social niceties or difficulties with self-induced imaginative play. Possibly early form of scripting.

May become exhausted after short interactions or show an intolerance to interactions from a young age.

Watches others interactions and begins to create rules around these in order to appear "normal".

May practice vocal tone, facial expressions or conversations when alone. Will fear messing these up in direct interactions. May replay interactions over in their head to look for any mistakes.

May feel like they are an actor on a stage, disconnected from real society. May feel alien, misplaced, alone etc.

These are just examples from the top of my head and there are many many more ways these difficulties can present.

And for any non-autistics reading this thinking "I do that and I'm not autistic" please remember that occasional social difficulties are normal. Constant and lifetime difficulties as experienced by Autistics can be isolating, debilitating and are lifelong.

#this is so me i’m crying lol #university has been a bitch abt and dealing w these social problems is not going well ✌🏽 #the amount of ppl that i talk to that r not ‘my friends’ or just stop talking to me after our first interaction is way too high #i need to stop over sharing or thinking ppl r my friends when they r not… #now to learn how to do this in online spaces 🤣

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i have such a hard time making friends or any connections and i’m so lonely all the time this is so funny

#i wish i could be normal #idk if it’s related to my autism or not #like i’m so aware of my body all the time and i’m always thinking the worst #as if …. idek no one enjoys my company tbh i see ppl have bland add talks w me but such fun convos w others and idk #i know i should give myself time but that doesn’t stop me from being lonely #also lol #idk i’m so tired #i wish i was someone else

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college wanting detailed disability proofs to give even basic accommodation is so ,, shit

#like bro #even the docs can’t figure out what’s wrong w me #i get told it’s all in my head #but i sure as hell know i’m gonna faint if i keep walking in ur campus #like? #whatever #what’s the use of promoting ur college as this disability frendly shit if you’re gonna be like this #i’m just fucking salty and irritated #bc they keep asking for shit that i cannot get

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i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

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man even kim sejong is making it hard for me to enjoy this drama

#today’s webtoon #What does he mean that romance is everywhere #aromantic ppl literally exist #like ? #yea there can be webtoons without romance that do great and r great #in fact adding unnecessary romance does show weak writing lmao #like?

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i wasn’t feeling anything but now i’m super fucking anxious abt going to college

#what if i just idk #i’m so scared #i idk #lol #university is um #yeah #idk #the thought of this is so #overwhelming suddenly

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don’t worry abt it, i love reading ppls thought on stuff!

and i agree with you so much. and even aside from this episode, they do glorify toxic work culture. like yes, artists do face unbelievable amount of pressure from both readers and their companies to produce constantly but that doesn’t mean it’s right? they shouldn’t define that as ‘oh it happens u need to learn the truth of this industry’ and then normalise it.

and the fact that we get actual dialogues from characters who’re supposed to be more knowledgeable and they basically excuse EVERYTHING. like fuck kwon and his fucking work life and ethics. he’s an asshole and there’s no justification.

i wish they’d just gone thru the root of exploring the work life of artists and making an actual useful commentary on it. not glorify it.

(also not sure what screaming scene u mean tho)

the work culture in this show is so fucking toxic i can’t deal w it

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As much as I'm liking the plot and characters of Today's Webtoon, I absolutely detest the -"you have to work harder" - propoganda they keep pulling up every episode.

Glorifying overworking is so toxic. Those webtoon artists deserve break, those employees deserve break, it's not healthy to wake up till 3 am to work. Damn

I'm still going to continue watching though

#this this this #i cannot say this enough #they r making me go crazy w their nonsense #i’ll watch for the fl but this aspect is really ridiculous

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the work culture in this show is so fucking toxic i can’t deal w it

#today’s webtoon #can they not try to explain how it’s ok to overwork literally desperate teenagers? #like no in no scenario is it ok to have someone work without sleep and food and in pain just bc u think u r in a position to take advantage #of them #fuck you #that kwon dude is not ok in the head #idc what he went thru and why he became a miserable fuck.

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i love you films without sequels i love you limited series i love you stand alone novels i love you self-contained stories

#me @itsay #not a film but #IT DID NOT NEED A SEQUEL FUCKing hell #ruined my whole life 😔💔

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I WOULD LIKE TO REITERATE THIS cos he’s such a dumb fuck omg

VEE IS SO EMBARRASSING

#laughing like he’s so stupid it’s pathetic #love mechanics #thank u for giving me my 5 min of laugh after a tiring day tho

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i’m so tired of romance like bone tired

#aromantic #i wish i could explain to ppl how exhausting romance is #like i’m fine w it some days but sometimes it just leaves me so hollow #and i hate that that’s considered such a bad thing #cos if i whine abt romance there’s 500000 ppl who’re gonna be on my head #like i’m not trying to be quirky i’m just tired of it #and the nonsense ok? #i can’t even explain why it makes me so tired some days #it’s exhausting to see that the only reason someone’s imp is bc of romance #exhausting to hear that you’ll just up and leave ur friends for ur partners #exhausting that they’ll always matter more #even if it is in shows #makes me question my own worth sometimes

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“friends don’t get jealous like that”

stares in my aro ass who def does get jealous w friends

#aromantic #like yeah maybe i’m just mentally ill #but you’re telling me your friend hangs out w cooler ppl and u don’t get jealous ? #couldn’t be me #i gotta get over it and wtv but it’s so funny when ppl use this ‘no friend gets jealous like that’ as a shipping reason #LIKE?