love-or-obsession

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I cannot help but feel pathetic — he’s so much more experienced, older, mature — and i’m nothing but a naive girl who got attached to one of the only men that showed her the tiniest amount of affection. And there’s nothing special in me that would make him like me. I’m plain, average, boring. I just want to love him in peace, but it seems as if there will always be someone better, smarter, funnier than me. I don’t know who I am and what I feel.

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heavenly words

aliferous: (adj.) having wings

apricity: (n.) the warmth of the sun in the winter

aspectabund: (adj.) letting emotion show easily through the face or eyes

aurora: (n.) dawn

balter: (v.) to dance gracelessly, but with enjoyment

cafune: (n.) the act of running your fingers through the hair of someone you love

catharsis: (n.) release of emotional tension

charmolypi: (n.) a mixed feeling of happiness while being sad

diaphonous: (adj.) light, translucent, and delicate

dulcet: (adj.) sweet

ephemeral: (adj.) fleeting

ethereal: (adj.) extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world

eutony: (n.) the pleasantness of a word’s sound

halcyon: (adj.) a period of time in the past that was idyllically happy and peaceful

illecebrous: (adj.) enticing

irenic: (adj.) promoting peace

kalon: (n.) beauty that is more than skin-deep

kalopsia: (n.) the seeing of things as more beautiful than they actually are

lacuna: (n.) a blank or missing part

lilt: (n.) a pleasant gentle accent

ludic: (adj.) full of fun and high spirits

meraki: (n.) to do something with love or soul

nefelibata: (n.) cloud-walker; one who lives in the clouds of their own imagination

nepenthe: (n.) something that makes one forget their sadness

nubivagant: (adj.) wandering in the clouds

numinous: (adj.) feeling fearful yet awed and inspired

orphic: (adj.) beyond ordinary understanding

pyrrhic: (adj.) won at too great a cost

pulchritudinous: (adj.) breathtaking, heartbreaking beauty

scintilla: (n.) a tiny trace or spark of a feeling

selcouth: (adj.) unfamiliar, strange, yet marvelous

sirimiri: (n.) a light drizzle of rain

susurrus: (n.)  whispering, murmuring, or rustling

sweven: (n.) a dream

temerate: (v.) to break a bond or promise

viridity: (n.) innocence

yonderly: (adj.) absent-minded

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i just want him to hold me, hug me, stroke my hair with his veiny, big hands and whisper to me sweet things on a rainy day.

is this too much to ask for ?

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Maybe I don't like him maybe I just have crippling attachment and daddy issues that make me think I have fallen in love with him and maybe this "crush" is just a coping mechanism I'm using to cover up all my problems... Nah

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ugly aspects of a tc

having LOW standards and getting excited when they do the bare minimum

constant overthinking of every little thing they do which can be exhausting and detrimental to mental health

if they do one thing off, you automatically think they hate you

feeling bad about yourself (maybe even unlovable and hopeless) bc ur tc doesn’t like u back

sacrificing other things u cared about

daddy/mommy issues

feeling guilt due to fear that you’re making them uncomfortable (even though that’s the last thing you want to do)

being desperate and resorting to unhealthy methods for their attention and praise to validate yourself

your entire mood being dependent on how they treat you

wishing they would “save” you

the heartbreaking realization that they are human and have flaws and are not as perfect as you thought they were

realizing that it will never happen and you will have to move on some day

we all romanticize having a tc sometimes and maybe this is how we’re coping, but i think we should talk about the ugly parts of having tc as well. hope everyone’s doing well and lets be there for each other <33

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Need him in a really sexy borderline codependent way and he doesn’t even know it…

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little game

there's only one player

in our pathetic little game

but i cant help but smile

when you say my name

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My favourite hobby is fantasising about him calling me nicknames. Let me be your sweetheart, sir <3

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I don’t just have a crush on him… I want him to adopt me. I want to marry him. I want to keep him in my life forever.

#fucking impossible though #teacher crush community #male tcc #tcc vent #tcc love #tcc blog #tc feelings #tc crush #male tc #tc community #tc blog

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I love the TCC coz people with crushes on female teachers be like "she looks so hauntingly beautiful today, her hair is in a loose knot. When I showed her my homework that contained three of our most pleasant inside jokes, she merely smirked." And people with crushes on male teavhsrs be like "he said my name correctly today so that's fun? Still want to suck him off unfortunately."

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He is the best person I have ever met. He has a light of optimism and compassion. Empathy, enthusiasm, and a heart of gold. I will fucking miss him.

#teacher crush community #tcc love #tcc feelings #male tc

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any teacher that’s kind to me and is cute: *existing*

me mentally: how could I ignore you, trust me I adore you-

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weekends are the worst when all i want to do is spend time with you

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why can’t i just like guys my own age… where did i go wrong in my childhood for this to happen (jk i already know the answer for that)

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yes i romanticize school; literally, I have crushes on my teachers.

#teacher crush community #teacher crush #tcc feelings #tcc love #student/teacher

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i regret acting stupid in front of him

#teacher crush community #teacher crush #TCC vent #tcc feelings

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i’m surviving solely on day dreams and fantasies at this point