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{{ trying to figure out if a thing you love more than anything has somehow lost its joy and light

or if your brain is being stupid due to a lack of serotonin and dopamine }}

#ooc #a shitty drama fiiled fandom CAN absolutely taint/dull/ruin your love for something #thats all I'll say

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{{ AND THIS IS WHY WE LOVE SHADOWHEART IN THIS HOUSE }}

#ooc #she said 'Wyll I like you but keep your judgement thanks!'

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{{ aaaand Eunjae immediately lying to Ulma about what happened with the spawn

So HES the toxic one here I see }}

#ooc #this is basically mafia verse him with magic abilities

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{{ ok so

Eunjae's playthrough - Spawn Astarion, romance route (although the "canon" is Ascended and it's slightly killing me inside to break my roleplay to go against that)

Uryu's playthrough - Spawn Astarion (hopefully) non romantic route

Lorelei's playthrough - everyone's going dark and it's probably going to suck actually because this game is fucking good at making Evil really alluring until it happens and then you get realistic consequences and it fucking HURTS but her chaos demands it. She'll prob romance Astarion though given Chaos and well. She's into it }}

#ooc #look I'm someone who cant even do crack rp cause I dont like my characters behaving ooc #I've NEVER been able to do that #FOR. THE. ROMANCE!!!

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{{ ok but yall should send your morally grey or evil characters @ Lorelei or Sanghyun }}

#ooc #chaotic bloodbath bbys

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{{ Psych, it's Eunjae }}

{{ BG3 time? BG3 time

now the question is...Lorelei or Uryu }}

#ooc #I'm sure everyone is surprised #but im gonna redo the Astarion bit to get the spawn ending #Maybe Lorelei will let him ascend and deal with that. she'd be into it #whatever causes the most bloodshed

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{{ BG3 time? BG3 time

now the question is...Lorelei or Uryu }}

#ooc

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{{ ....slow dawning realization that it's possible that Jang-mi tried to blood bond Eunjae }}

#ooc #shes horrible for the record #AND THIS EXPLAINS EUNJAE'S AVERSION TO CREATING GHOULS OUTSIDE OF WHATS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY #WHY did he just let me in on this? who knows #abuse cw

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song of achilles rp starters

by madeline miller. i altered some quotes so they fit better  ♡

❝  i saw then how i had changed.  ❞ ❝  name one hero who was happy — you can’t.  ❞ ❝  i feel like i could eat the world raw.  ❞ ❝  you are half my soul, as the poets say.  ❞ ❝  i have no need to forgive you. you cannot offend me.  ❞ ❝  i do not fear ridicule. i never have.  ❞ ❝  you have always trusted so easily; you have had so little in your life to fear or suspect.  ❞ ❝  do you hear me? please, say something.  ❞ ❝  your face is like quicksilver, always racing to something new. you unsettle me.  ❞ ❝  you do not give things up so easily now as you once did.  ❞ ❝  now i know how to make you follow me everywhere.  ❞ ❝  i would know your face in dark or disguise. i would know it even in madness.  ❞ ❝  there is no law that gods must be fair.  ❞ ❝  i have never seen anyone fight the way you do.  ❞ ❝  our dead come for their vengeance regardless of witnesses.  ❞ ❝  the sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin.  ❞ ❝  when you die, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with you.  ❞ ❝  you were always better with words than i.  ❞ ❝  i will never leave you. it will be this, always, for as long as you will let me.  ❞ ❝  you smile, and your face is like the sun.  ❞ ❝  i thought you were — something. you do not — you do not move like a human.  ❞ ❝  do you want to walk up to the woods?  ❞ ❝  you can’t be very wounded if you can stand for so long.  ❞ ❝  there are no bargains between lion and men. i will kill you and eat you raw.  ❞ ❝  we are like gods at the dawning of the world.  ❞ ❝  nothing could eclipse the stain of this dirty, mortal mediocrity.  ❞ ❝  i yearn for the darkness and silence of the underworld, where i can rest.  ❞ ❝  those seconds, half seconds, that the line of our gaze connected, were the only moment in my day that i felt anything at all.  ❞ ❝  you seem utterly unaware of your effect on the people around you.  ❞ ❝  it was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. it was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came.  ❞ ❝  you are a weapon, a killer. do not forget it.  ❞ ❝  i have heard that men who live by a waterfall cease to hear it — in such a way did i learn to live beside the rushing torrent of my doom.  ❞ ❝  if you have to go, you know i will go with you.  ❞ ❝  there is no one like you.  ❞ ❝  we have given each other wounds, but they are not mortal.  ❞ ❝  and perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.  ❞ ❝  who can be ashamed to lose to such beauty? it is enough to watch you win.  ❞ ❝  do not let what you have gained this day be so easily lost.  ❞ ❝  you have killed them and taken your vengeance. it is enough.  ❞ ❝  no man is worth more than another, wherever he is from.  ❞ ❝  strange that such a small kindness feels like grace.  ❞ ❝  you can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.  ❞ ❝  i cannot bear to see you grieving.  ❞ ❝  i remember little more than scattered images from my life then.  ❞ ❝  i would recognize you by touch alone, by smell; i would know you blind, by the way your breaths came and your feet struck the earth. i would know you in death, at the end of the world.  ❞ ❝  i see a dozen men here ready to leap on each other’s throats.  ❞ ❝  in my land a bow is marked as the weapon of cowards.  ❞ ❝  you may still make a good person.  ❞ ❝  you don’t bother to threaten me, yet. i should be worth threatening.  ❞ ❝  the memories well up like springwater, faster than i can hold them back.  ❞ ❝  i hoped that you would come.  ❞ ❝  the voices of the dead were said to have the power to make the living mad.  ❞ ❝  i have weathered the anger of gods before.  ❞ ❝  i thought of how many nights i had lain awake in this room, loving you in silence.  ❞ ❝  there is nothing in the world i want more than to know what you had not said.  ❞ ❝  you will never gain fame from your fighting. does this surprise you?  ❞ ❝  my mind is filled with cataclysm and apocalypse: i wish for earthquakes, eruptions, flood. only that seems large enough to hold all of my rage and grief.  ❞ ❝  i will not cry in front of you.  ❞ ❝  listen to me. you go too far in this. i will not be able to protect you.  ❞ ❝  there is no honor in betraying your friends.  ❞ ❝  i’m afraid I have been prompted by a rare stirring of guilt.  ❞ ❝  i promised myself that if i ever saw you again, i would keep my thoughts behind my eyes.  ❞ ❝  i did not want you to see my fear, though normally we kept nothing from each other.  ❞ ❝  gods and mortals never mix happily in our stories.  ❞ ❝  you will be dead soon enough.  ❞ ❝  you are destroying yourself. you will not be loved for this, you will be hated, and cursed.  ❞ ❝  you left yourself today. and now you are returned.  ❞ ❝  you are a better person than i.  ❞ ❝  whatever you do, i shall stand with you, as i always have.  ❞ ❝  you have looked at me a thousand thousand times, but there is something different in this gaze, an intensity i do not know.  ❞ ❝  my life is my reputation. it is all i have.  ❞ ❝  may i give you some advice? if you are truly his friend, you will help him leave this soft heart behind.  ❞ ❝  what are you thinking about?  ❞ ❝  even the boldest of people would whisper a prayer if they brushed against me.  ❞ ❝  the keen edge of my envy was like flint, a spark away from fire.  ❞ ❝  do you think we fight hopeless wars?  ❞ ❝  it is strange, that you would speak against betrayal.  ❞ ❝  if every soldier killed only those who’d personally offended him, we’d have no wars at all.  ❞ ❝  no one has ever tried to take something from me.  ❞ ❝  stay behind me.  ❞ ❝  will you help me put the rest of my armor on?  ❞ ❝  your face is blank and barren, like another language, impenetrable.  ❞ ❝  i am here because i believe that we will win. i am staying until the end.  ❞ ❝  your presence is like a stone in my shoe, impossible to ignore.  ❞ ❝  he is not worthy of you. he never has been.  ❞ ❝  will you tell me who hurt you?  ❞ ❝  it is like a nightmare; i expect, each moment, to wake to relief. but there is no waking.  ❞ ❝  i do not need to prove myself to you. to any of you.  ❞ ❝  you have always thought too much of yourself.  ❞ ❝  some men gain glory after they die, while others fade.  ❞ ❝  even here, behind the darkness of my eyelids, i cannot name the thing i hope for.  ❞ ❝  our joy is so bright we can see nothing else but the other.  ❞ ❝  you have a tender heart. an admirable quality, surely.  ❞ ❝  you are spring, golden and bright. envious death would drink your blood, and grow young again.  ❞ ❝  i will not be the raven on your shoulder all the time, predicting gloom.  ❞ ❝  you look different in sleep, beautiful but cold as moonlight.  ❞ ❝  when there is greed, there is hope.  ❞ ❝  i could have told you more, of the dreams that leave me bleary and bloodshot, the almost-screams that scrape my throat as i swallow them down.  ❞ ❝  you are angry, and not without reason.  ❞ ❝  you feel mislead; you were promised victory.  ❞ ❝  you know, it’s funny; i keep thinking i’ve seen you before.  ❞

#(meme) #YALL CANT PUT THIS ON MY DASH AND EXPECT ME TO NOT GO FERAL

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{{ so tempted to bring one of my siren/mermaid characters over to this blog... maybe Morgan and Marin (brother sister duo) or Citrine (lesbian sea witch!!) }}

#ooc

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{{ confession: I really couldnt care LESS about F/allout lmao }}

#ooc #im kinda over the apocalypse stuff #can we do something cooler and nicer pls

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#I actually think stretch marks are gorgeous #I have some on my hips. they look like lightning bolts #it makes me feel powerful as hell. like built in tattoos #ooc

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{{ as a 30 year old woman, I think this and have since I was a CHILD: wrinkles and blemishes are beautiful. the only reason you should be worried about damage to your skin is when its sun damage because of cancer risk. but wrinkles? crows feet and laugh lines? pores? You have skin! Skin is elastic! You have emoted in your lifetime and have lived long enough for this organ age and protect you through age!

Im saying this also as someone who has had acne since 17 and STILL gets bad acne thats left scars. at 30.

THERE IS NO SHAME TO LIVING AND GETTING OLDER. CELEBRATE EVERY DAY. FUCK PEOPLE WHO THINK AGING IS SHAMEFUL }}

#ooc #men woman enby idk #unless its doing physical harm or causing you pain. its not a bad thing

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{{ hey @ that mod and people who use the mod to smooth out Astarion and Jaheira's faces of wrinkles and make them look like 20: fuck you for being weird }}

#ooc #OH NO A MAN WITH WRINKLES #HES A GD VAMPIRE LEAVE HIM ALONE #SHES A LITERAL LIVING LEGEND. LET HER HAVE HER CROWS FEET. SHES GORGEOUS WITH THEM

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{{ like for a starter with Eunjae in his VTM verse }}

#ooc #sc #I SWEAR Im gonna work on replies in a bit

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{{ "If I succeed, maybe I'll be allowed a pet." is one of the single saddest lines of the whole game, change my mind }}

#ooc #you can’t

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{{ also her fascination with masquerading (ha) as other clans. She just went “what if I got a third eye”

Me: honey. No. Why?

Lore: idk the outside would match the inside, seems fun }}

{{ WHAT is Lore’s fascination with the Tzimisce? Is it an Antritibu thing, is it a Malk thing, or is she just weird like that }}

#ooc #meanwhile Uryu an actual Salubri: ITS NOT TRUST ME