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[macxsine]

I Hate You

I hate you. I hate you because I can still taste your kiss. I hate you because it's still you're smile I long for. I hate you because you still show up in my dreams. I hate you because I lose you every time I wake up. I hate you.

I loathe you. I loathe you because your voice still rings in my ears. I loathe you because I still miss you every waking hour. I loathe you because your ocean eyes won't leave me alone. I loathe you because every so often I feel your phantom touch I loathe you.

I despise you. I despise you because you are the voice of my conscience. I despise you because every word I write is yours. I despise you because I can still taste your kiss. I despise you because I still love you. I despise you.

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idk how much longer i can force myself to stay alive

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They should invent a way to kill yourself that doesn’t disappoint anyone

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Cold as HECK

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I Am Drowning

I fell in the ocean

But I couldn't swim.

So all I did was sink.

I held my breath

And I was trying my best.

But water still filled my lungs

As I got deeper 

I was crushed by the pressure 

And everything started to feel numb.

My body got cold 

And my limbs got old

As my bones broke under the water’s weight.

As I looked up above 

I saw the ones I love 

Trying to get to me.

But their words were distorted

And their faces got blurry

I was far too deep for them to reach.

Water filled my ears

And I couldn't feel my tears.

But my body still shook with dread

Existing got heavy.

And I wasn’t ready

To face these depths alone.

So I closed my eyes

And said my goodbyes.

As I let the water take me down.

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You know our situation

Four word I know far too well

Knowing brings little comfort though

I'd dare say it's more hurtful.

Like being diagnosed with a terminal illness

We really were  sick

Lacking a cure perpetuated our illness and halted the revolution of our world

We sought out refuge in any world but ours

Dopamine tolerance was the rent, and it rose each day

Now I lay,drained struggling to string together any words ,back in my world

My life, over,before it even begun

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My head is a Nascar track ,thoughts racing rapidly

But a web is a more fitting description, each line a different stream of thought.

What I'm envisioning does little to comfort me

By now my lover should've been up from their slumber

This absence brings forth feelings I tried to cover

Now ,here I lay ...naked

The stares I feel piercing me are nothing more than a mirror reflection

Regardless, being naked brings me nothing but coldness.

The pages I write on act as translucent blankets

I'm still naked,but the little warmth I feel is enough to convince me otherwise

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Respect comes before love

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Wasting resources I don't have ,to preserve sanity I long lost

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please be nice to me, i'm in my twenties. do you know what that does to a person

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I hope you find someone who hates hurting your heart

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I'm open to receiving things that exceed my expectations.

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2023

1. COMMIT TO THE BIT

2. PARTAKE IN THE DIVINE ACT OF CREATION

3. LET THE SOFT ANIMAL THAT IS YOUR BODY LOVE WHAT IT LOVES