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What I miss about you...

Being in the same room as you

Holding your hand

Being in your arms. You give the best hugs

Looking into your eyes. I can tell how much you love me in those eyes

Walking around town with you

Getting snacks together

Going shopping

Making each other laugh

When you play with my hair and I play with yours

Cuddling on the couch

Going out to dinner together

Laying in bed talking about life

Going to bed in your arms

Waking up and your next to me

Brushing out teeth together

Hugging you from behind as you cook

Watching movies together

Just existing with you...

It doesn't seem like a lot honestly the bare minimum, but I only get to see him in person at most twice a year. When you fight with your partner over little things, just think about trying to work with a distance. You don't take the time together for granted. Valentine's day is coming up and yet again I'll be alone away from my partner but if you learn anything from this is to never take time together for granted there are people fighting and waiting for the chance to see their love ones again.

#long distance #long distance is killing me #long distance dating #long distance couple #long distance relationship #long distance romance #im cryin #loneliness #valentine's day

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Reason to Live #8319

Visiting my long-distance partner and exploring her city hand-in-hand.  – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

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It’s kind of dumb, but I want to talk to you all the time. Like, all the time. Which is annoying and needy and very unrealistic, because you have a life outside of our audio messages and sporadic phone calls. But I wanna talk to you. I want you to talk to me. I want your mouth to run a mile a minute and make me laugh until I’m crying. You’re always so good at that. You’re my best friend, my confidant, possibly my world. So we won’t make out in the back of taxis. As long as you hold my hand through crowds and send me another voice memo the next morning, I’ll be okay. Because I wanna talk to you. And I want you to talk to me. And you’re my best friend. And I love you. (In case that wasn’t obvious.)

“and maybe you’re my soulmate or something”

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long distance—

“new york” by snow patrol // “spirit hold” by holly warburton // all about love by bell hooks // “505” by arctic monkeys // “untitled” by michael mao // “from eden” by hozier // “the fruit garden path” by amy lowell // “the ghost of you” by kiravieshiaArt // “as it was” by hozier // “corpse song” by margaret atwood

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Life update

I didn't realize it's been almost a year since I last wrote here. Since my last year's post, a lot has happened.

So, in April 2022, Neil did make it to the States. Everything was great. We were just so busy running around seeing everyone we had like no time to rest. The was the negative part which I am not doing that again when he comes here May/June. We had a great time though, everyone seemed to love him and even my cat loved him and she doesn't like really anyone but me. So we decided to get engaged after that pretty much.

I went to Scotland in July 2022, which was also pretty busy. I had a horrible experience with British Airways, and I'll never fly with them again if my life depends on it. That is besides the point. Neil and I went through the ringer on that trip too pretty much, but we had a very intimate conversation that meant a lot to me. It was a great time I can't wait to be back.

We got two cats in 2022, Nilly Bean and Dirty Dan, so now in this house we have five cats. My cousin wanted to get rid of her cat, so we took her. That's how we got Nilly Bean. Dirty Dan was a stray, and we were going to take him to the apl, but he ended up being a good fit for us. You can check them out on my cats' Instagram @ fruit.loop.cat

I dyed my hair and orange-red color. My friend from work did it and it was amazing!

I started dressing in a more alternative/gothic look. I've always loved that look ever since I was a kid. I just never saw people who looked like me dressed that way, so I never did. But with the power of the internet and social media, I found some inspiration

New years me and my best friend and I got in a fight, and we are no longer best friends. I had a breakdown, and it wasn't great. I tried helping his fiancé but she ended up backstabbing me and putting us against each other. They are no longer together, and I lost my best friend, so not so great. We talk sometimes, we worked out a little, but the trust has been broken, so it'll take time.

Neil and I are getting married this year, June 2nd, on our anniversary. I have a black dress and he is going to bring his kilt. I'm super excited, well, maybe more, just anxious. It can't come soon enough. If you saw my last post, you can see how my head space is right now. I'm really lonely and just want him. I just have to keep pushing. Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do to make time go faster.

Of course, there was more stuff in between everything, but those were the important bits.

#long distance couple #long distance dating #new year #life update

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Long distance rant

Hey, it's been a while. I could vent a bit, honestly. Everything has been good lately. we have our set day to get married, June 2nd this year (our anniversary day). He is bringing his parents. It'll be their first time coming to the States, so that's pretty exciting. My wallet is crying for help, though, but we'll see what happens.

What I come here for today, though, is I feel like whenever I get strong feelings for my fiancé they are never acknowledged or really anything. I have a hard time expressing emotions, so it really makes me mad when I feel happy and I guess a little clingy, and I get ignored. I know I sound spoiled, but I really just wanna feel the love in return. He is on vacation with his friends now, and I'm really jealous...even kinda a little paranoid. I hate my head space right now...

A few months ago, Neil told me that I don't give him attention when we are on the phone. It made me mad because I'm a pretty busy person, but I fixed it to the point to stop everything I'm doing to talk to him, but now I feel I'm getting it in return. He's not doing it on purpose or anything it just makes me upset that now it's just like this now. Karma right...

There is honestly nothing we can do except wait for the end of May. I told him not to prioritize me, and I won't prioritize him until we get to see each other again. I can't sit here waiting like an excited little puppy dog all the time. When I feel in love, I'm in deep, and there is no point in me wasting all that energy for nothing. Yes, I love him, but I just can't give it my all now. If we get to talk cool, if not well, that's that. I have denied picking up shift at work because I hope that I get to talk to him, I deny hanging out with people, hoping I'll get to see him... No more. I need to focus on my life. He is in my life, yes, but he also isn't. He is in a whole different country, and we live different lives. We want, wait, wish, dream, everything but all that means nothing because we aren't together yet. Being in a long-distance relationship is having the title girlfriend, fiancé, wife,etc, but none of the benefits. I can't do another 10 months of this. After we get married, we are getting this visa stuff figured out.

I'm just so tired. I feel so alone, I've cried so many times because I just want him. Honestly, just getting his attention would be nice. But nope... I can't have that. 3 months and 25 days until I can see him again...

#long distance couple #long distance dating #long distance relationship #long distance is killing me #i'm sad #jealousy #anger

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Almost there

Hello! It's been a while, but I have great news! My partner is visiting here for the first time on Monday (3 days from now). He has never been here and I'm just so excited to see him again. I don't live anywhere exciting, but I hope that he has a good time. I just can't wait to be in his arms again.

On my Instagram we will most likely do a Q&A so if you have any questions for us, you can write them here or DM me or even visit my Instagram.

#long distance dating #long distance couple #long distance relationship #scotland #united states #travel #traveling

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Keeping us apart

It is crazy that for the first time in my life I feel everything is going well. Of course, despite a few stresses here and there but I feel like I am ready for the next stage of my life, but I don't have my partner with me. I love and enjoy my job, I'm managing college, I got side income going, and have a great partner that I would do anything to have in person. If you don't know I am in a long-distance relationship. I'm from the US and my boyfriend is from Scotland. I just feel every time I try to find ways to be with him It's not possible. There are so many rules about moving to a different county and I understand why of course but it doesn't make it feel any better.

We have tried speaking to immigration attorneys just for any help to point in the right direction of what we could try. We have no ideas. I've started college luckily; I get college through my work. Again, college is going to take some years. I've tried applying to colleges in my partner's city with no luck but I keep trying. Even though that's not my favorite option because it's so much money and college, to be honest, isn't my strong suit but I'll do it to be with him.

I've tried applying to jobs over in his city but without certain documents, I am unable to. My plan next time I go there try to talk to some places and see if they will hire me and at least give me a chance.

We tried looking at many different things... we are just looking for help anywhere just to get the ball moving. If you are reading this and have anything you can offer you will be the biggest help ever! If not it's okay as well just you reading this means a lot to me.

https://www.gov.uk/browse/visas-immigration

https://www.mygov.scot/

#long distance dating #long distance couple #long distance relationship #uk #scotland #united states #help

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Tips To Get Back in Touch With Your Craft:

I’ve fallen really out of touch with my craft as of late, and this is a small tip of lists for me to start reconnecting with it again. I hope this list can be of use to someone else too!

Meditate

Starting from the basics. Try to keep a daily meditation routine. Don’t make timed goals for yourself when you meditate. Meditate just as long as it feels good and right for you. What phase is the moon on today? You can meditate on the meaning of the moon phase to help you focus if that works for you!

Ground and Center yourself (at least) weekly

It helps, it really does. Balance yourself and re-center your energies and you’ll feel more stable.

Daily Tarot

Draw one tarot card from your deck daily and interpret it. This will help you to reconnect with your decks.

Sigils for Everything

Sigils are fast and easy to use for pretty much everything. Need some protection? Draw a protection sigil on your body when you start your day! Put a beauty sigil in your make up bag! A sigil for good dreams under your pillow! A sigil for keeping hydrated on the bottom of your water bottle! Sigils can be used for so many things.

Tea? Those are Potions

Drink a lot of tea? Those are potions! Stir your tea anti-clockwise to get rid of something. Stir it clockwise to attract things. What ingredients does your tea use? Use the meanings of the herbs and fruits to charge and bring a little magic to your tea! Put honey in your tea to sweeten your mood or your day. Is your tea black, green, herbal, something else? This post has great resources for what different teas mean! Use those meanings and make tea your magical potion!

Got old spell jars lying around?

Charge those spell jars to get more out of them!

Work with any deities?

Thank your deities after eating a meal. Thank them for things big and small in your life.

Keep a dream journal! Or…

If that’s too much for you, think about the dreams you’ve seen after waking up and wonder what it might mean for you.

Pick up a new thing

Never got a hang of astrology? Start looking into it! Interested in different methods of divination? Do some research and find interesting ways for it! Start following new witches with crafts different from yours!

You don’t need to do all of these or do them the way I do them. Just pick up something and bring back magic into your life. 

Psst, remember! This post is not encouraging cultural appropriation. Be mindful!

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Grimoire - Advice for New Witches

Getting Started and Going: “So, you want to be a witch?” Masterpost witchcraft masterpost “I’m a baby witch! What do I start learning?” Beginner Steps for Studying Witchcraft Witchcraft FAQ for baby witches. How to start practicing magic Basic research for beginner Witches What to do when you first decide to start practicing witchcraft Library Services for Witchcraft Research "How to” Analyze a Witchcraft Book simple exercises for baby witches “What Is My Path and How Do I Find It?” Focus - How to develop your Craft Ways to get closer to your craft 7 Ways to Strengthen Your Powers 20 ways to enhance your magic How you can subtly incorporate witchcraft into your daily life Witchy activities to strengthen your craft & relationship with yourself Use what you have at home Actually useful shit to have as a witch What Does It MEAN? Craft Names Magical Names Witchy Things You Probably Did Before Learning/Realizing You Were A Witch Are you a natural witch? Misconceptions for beginner witches Things You Do Not Have to Be In Order to Be a Witch “to be a witch” falsehoods Common Witch Misconceptions Pt. 1 Common Witch Misconceptions Pt. 2 Things you think you have to do as a witch that you don't have to do. Roots of Your Craft 30-Day Challenge

Advice from Seasoned Witches: How Magic Works You Don’t Have To Believe in Everything Magic. Magic does not exist in a vacuum. Fighting consumerism in magic Practicing witchcraft when your religion tells you you’ll go to hell 101 Your Witchcraft Isn’t Ancient (and why that’s ok). How to Become a More Confident Witch How to be a functional witch Doing Your Own Research Three Research Mistakes Baby Witches Make Misinformation and Critical Thinking as a Witch Discipline in Witchcraft Tips for Discernment Are You Overcomplicating Things? What to do with your witchy motivation What to Do if Witchcraft Drains You When to take a break from witchcraft Why skepticism is important in witchcraft Witchcraft, and all of its subcategories, is individualistic at heart Advice for the Beginner: You don't have to become a full-time witch Advice for the beginner: Start with the herbs you know Advice for the beginner: Don't get it until you need it Advice for the Beginner: Look for the Mundane before you assume it's Magical Advice for the Beginner: Know what you're going to do with your spell remains Advice for the Beginner: Be cautious, but don't live in fear How Correspondences Work The problem with correspondences Developing Your Own Correspondences An Alternate Look at Correspondences "I feel like these 5 things were the most important pieces for me to build the foundation of my personal witchcraft practice" Could studyblogging jumpstart your personal grimoire?

Witchcraft Communities: When learning about witchcraft on Tumblr developing your craft (beyond tumblr) Witchblr : Gatekeeper or Elitist You're not going to find your spirituality on the internet Guide to Navigating Witchcraft Spaces on Social Media How Find Safe Groups, Teachers, and Authors in the Pagan and Witch Community Covens

A Bunch of Tips: Witchling tips List of Tips, Tricks and Advice For New Witches! Tips for baby witches, lazy witches, tired witches, or any witch really Practical Witchcraft Tips Big Compilation of Useful Witchy Tips Basic Witch Tips & Advice 11 witchy tips for a healthy life basic ass witch tips "Ten witch tips I wish someone had given me before I started practicing magic"

Advice From Me: Books and websites to jumpstart your witchcraft journey We never have to be on our own Let me put your minds at ease You don't have to do it all Let's talk about fear Witchcraft "Rules" Not being a hereditary witch Anyone can be a witch Simple advice: start simple What I would tell my younger self So what do witches "look" like? Witchcraft is messy business.

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Being queer isn't a "lifestyle".

Being trans isn't a "lifestyle".

Being nonbinary isn't a "lifestyle".

It's an identity, it's something that you cannot change. It is not a choice. It is engrained in a person. It is who they are as a human.

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How I see my future

I keep getting these quick visions I will call them of what I feel like could be a possible future. It could be nothing but the thought is still there. With my boyfriend I do see a future with him. Our life together will and already has so many obstacles since we live in two different countries. We are working on getting us together anyway we can but in the mean time I'm just kinda dreaming on the future we could have.

I never really saw myself settling down really or having a family. That's because I never wanted that here in the US. If I was single I would just travel the world and meet people and be just a free bird but that doesn't look like how my life has in store for me. Of course anything could happen I'm a realist in most cases I know I can't live unrealistically but how life is playing out now I think I found someone I can be happy with.

In these thoughts I see my now boyfriend but in the though husband playing with two children... our two children. They have to be a year or two apart, possibly a boy and a girl, but that doesn't matter all too much to me I would treat them as equals no matter what. My partner was hanging the one child upside-down and the other was laughing wanting it to be there turn. I just stand there in the doorway just laughing at the craziness in the living room. "These kids had to turn up like their dad?" I ask in a playful manner.

It's such a quick little thought but one that puts me at ease. Maybe one day that'll happen or maybe it wont that's the thing about life you just never know what is going to happen. Just like everything we just gotta wait and see

#thoughts #future #life #what if #dream journal #vision

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Some basics of Crystals!!! Enjoy lovelies!!

Part 1 ☆♡☆

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𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐲 𝐚𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐧𝐨. 𝟏

I am a witch

I am confident in myself and my magick

My spells work flawlessly

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