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dantes brainrot over his designs 6 hours later im studying buddhism teachings for my next edguda fic someone save me

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something something dantes who saw a star and decided to witness its brilliance in a place of despair, heart captured by such a light at the end of the 7th day, who loves and loved that star but had to let go for its sake and its own wishes, burning up like flame until he is but embers and roa who saw the moon, and immediately reached out breathlessly, damned into a hell of yearning to pursue eternity as a means to finally hold the moon in his hands, and feel for himself that which he saw that night, the distant and cold princess born for one purpose, the very moon that was seared into his heart, the last vestiges of that which is 'roa' continue to persist because of that alone like droplets of bloodstains refusing to be erased even as time for each incarnation will eventually end... hm.

#its always a fateful encounter bruh #also i havent read tsukiRe just tsukiOG ok #this reminded me i have to. read mahoyo augh #fgo #tsukihime

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mental image in my brain where tarantellaroa gets flipped off by a smug dantes while he has an arm around guda meanwhile theres a text below edguda: "fateful encounter achieved" www since his own meeting with arc literally changed his own fate in tsukihime meanwhile taranteroa just got his soul deep fried in fate....yeah, love literally changes the narrative...

#tsukihime #fgo

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Monte Cristo Mythologie is already seriously insane on its own even without going into details about his other 2 nps, the fact that its just treated as a skill (casually activated unlike in drama CD where it felt truly like a 'decisive weapon') in fgo makes me choke in terror over the implication that the main noble phantasms dantes has in his purple count spirit origin is literally far stronger as noble phantasms are ultimate trump cards and are the embodiment of their being and thus the anti-unit attack noble phantasm and barrier noble phantasm were literally declarations of love...

#fgo #edmond dantes

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dropping roa in the gacha game .....

#like tarantella roa doesnt know arcuied but if he becomes summonable then he will still have a voiceline for her... #i feel like dantes would also be thrice vicious if he sees roa lmao

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ueueeuee thinking about how haydee in FGO is a fragment of dantes' affection, memories, and his heart and she cannot be seen or be perceived by him at all because his current saint graph is that of count of monte cristo, the avatar and personification of revenge, not edmond dantes who saw the light and let his flames be extinguished to embrace love and start anew nor will he ever see her again because his soul engraved on the Throne is popularly remembered forever as the famous Avenger that enacted his revenge, not the man saved by love but still as he was once Edmond Dantes, she lingers in his saint graph, his own shadow residing at the very corner of his spirit origin, still watching over him just like she did before............TEARS IN MY EYES.

#i want to see her in dantes valentines event i should just evaporate

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the way we have a tarantella SHADOW SILHOUETTE IN THE STORY I JUST KNOW DANTES IS COMING BACK IN AN EVENT. AGHHHH I NEED HIM BACK

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head full of dantes thoughts i cant convey them all wtf

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We should be fine as long as we do not reblog bread.

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this image as well as the yakudou MV deals 1008389x psychological damage to me after hearing Beyond the Gray Sky i can feel my eyes water without trying lmao

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ch2 up!!

Id chapter so good i got to write three fics in ONE month wtf

#complete fic from me??? impossible

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i have to roll for kagekiyo, nitoalter and jalter in NA...collect all the avengers before ordeal call 2 drops over there while earning for monte cristo funds...

#the way i dont have gorgon wtf i have a lot of work to do for my acc...

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serotonin from edguda inspiration from various media plus receiving comments from the edguda fics i write is really good..😭💖 im really happy these days...thank you to those who read, left kudos and commented...!!!

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[thinks about spending 1 usd on a snack] Im going to be in Crippling Debt

[purchases 300 usd worth of doujinshi] This truly fulfills my physiological need

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.