SILENT TREATMENT
TODOROKI ‘DABI’ TOYA X F!READER
warning(s): ooc?!dabi, mentioned blood and injuries, spoilers, slight miscommunication(?), one kiss (make-out?), pet name(s) (dabi calls you doll), and that’s really it
notes: this was originally on my wattpad, but i decided to bring it to tumblr because there’s more people on here now than wattpad nowadays. this is my first 1k+ oneshot (literally 7.1k), and i’m super proud of myself because i actually sat down and took the time out of my day to spend this much time writing something i’m happy with. i’m also a little upset because he is ooc in this and i had originally planned to have him not be like that... but plans change
you find him on the side of your apartment building, all battered and bruised, blood dried on his knuckles and cheeks as some weeps from the open wound on his side. at first, you're frozen upon the sight of him, his head was down and you could hear his ragged excuse for breathing. bile rose in your throat at his mangled appearance, what happened to him?
being the good samaritan you were, you pitied him; although a stranger (and an injured one at that), you still had the decency to question your next move, question if you should help him or not. your common sense told you not to, hand itching to grab your phone and call the cops. nails grazing the glass screen, you began to tremble, almost as if you questioned your movements. but you knew better, you knew exactly who this man was, so why hesitate?
with your eyes beginning to sting, you stood there, contemplating, debating, you didn't know why it was taking you so long. you knew the right thing to do would've been to call the cops, because if one couldn't recognize the purple, dead-looking skin being held to his limbs by staples, then one hadn't had their eyes open. (but, in a sense, you didn't either).
you had recognized him instantly. with that, your blood ran cold. at some point during your days, you'd turn the television on for white noise, often too busy with other things as you idly walked around your apartment doing various activities. but you could always remember when the news came on and a voice spoke up, loud and assertive as the reporter went on to warn citizens of occurring events.
a few specific reports stuck out, the guy before you was definitely a villain. though his name unknown, he'd been mentioned a few times. you never paid much attention to the words spilled by the reporters, but he'd always caught your attention; you found his flames to be pretty.
if his actions were of his own accord or orders you didn't know, you just never expected to stand face-to-face with the villain.
but just standing there wasn't going to get you anywhere, nor was a shaky hand that hesitated to grab your phone. but you didn't dare take it, and instead took a wobbly step forward, going against all you knew as you held out a sweaty hand, "d-do you need help?"
he must've thought you were crazy. the look on your face and the croak in your voice told him you'd recognized him, and that you were wary of him. who wouldn't be, a villain with a quirk that could kill you with a snap of his fingers, you'd be a fool not to have a shake to your legs and a waver to your conviction.
you knew you looked pathetic, a girl dressed in a brown pencil skirt and a black button-up who gave a lousy excuse of an offering of help, but you didn't try to fix yourself. if he wanted help, he'd take your hand, and if he didn't.. well, you just hoped he wouldn't do what you had in mind.
it took a minute before the villain moved, the bloodied hand on his side now gripping your hand; your face pinched, and you felt sick all over again, "don't mind if i do, doll."
it's two months later and you still find yourself at the villain's (who you learned to be named dabi) beck and call. ever since you'd patched him up that night, he'd been coming back to you with a lopsided grin and a bag of "please, bear with me," snacks. and honestly, you'd do it without the snacks, as shameful as you think it is.
"what was it this time; a robbery? a stupid street fight?" you question with an annoyed bite, cursing. another one of your towels soiled by the blood that seeped from his arm.
he'd gone and done it again, you think dabi was one to enjoy the pain brought upon him (by himself). you didn't know why he'd let it get that far, you've heard of the things he can do, you've even seen it once before. so for an opponent to get close to him was a scary thing.
"'mm both. some guys got issues, doll," that pet name gets you every time, a warm buzz to your stomach and heat to your cheeks has dabi laughing at you. but you know it's only out of comfort, you two had gotten aquatinted (or, as acquainted as you could get with a villain) over the span of two months, now you wondered how much more you could find out later down the line. "don't worry, it's only a scratch. nothing i can't handle."
all joking aside, you knew he said those words to ease your worry, hoping to relax you and lead you astray from the rant (or advice, as you called it) he knew you wished to give. dabi read you like an open book, your lingering gaze on his wounds (previous or new), the way you took on a gentle touch when it came to patching him up, all of it painfully obvious.
you'd grown an odd attachment, but whether it was good or bad was a mystery.
"well, sometimes you handle too much," soaking the cotton pad in rubbing alcohol, you take his arm in hand and bring the cotton down to dab it along his gash. you start slow, teeth digging into your lip at his soft winces. with all his bruises and past, healed wounds, you would think he was used to pain. (and maybe he was, just not the pain you came to think of). "you're going to end up coming here with a missing limb! and i won't be able to do anything for you."
dabi laughs, tapping his foot along your tiled floor as you stand between his legs to clean and patch him up. he's come to know you more than you think, your tells always so easy to pick up on. though he didn't think that as a necessarily bad thing.
"awe, you care that much?" it's taunting when he speaks up, a pull at his lips and he's baring his teeth in a smirk. he's putting a hand to his heart, feigning delight, "i'm touched, doll." you think his ego couldn't get any bigger with the way he was, but a simple slip up and you'd be in for it.
rolling your eyes, you move to grab a clean cotton pad to repeat your previous actions, "shut up, asshole. better it be your head than a limb!" he laughs again and you shake your head, nodding when you think you've cleaned the wound enough before disposing of the dirtied cotton pad.
you go to wash your hands again, watching as the blood mixed with the water and flowed down the drain. it was something you did every time, almost like a show you couldn't help but replay. you'd gotten used to it by now, the smell and color of blood on your clothes and hands, it was a thing you wished wasn't now normal to you.
drying your hands with a frown, your brows meet as you reach for your needle and thread; you always hated this part. (although you worked as a fashion designer's assistant, sewing one's skin back together wasn't something you were taught). "do you want some alcohol before i begin?" you'd always offer beforehand.
dabi shook his head, eyes on your face as he watched you chew your lip raw and bleeding, sterilizing the needle and thread throughly, "no, but you look like you could use some."
his uninjured arm comes up to run his thumb along your bottom lip, pulling it from between your teeth and you flush when he lets his touch linger. though his hands were rough, his touch was hot and searing on your skin. (he was always doing uncalled-for things, but you found yourself aching in their wake).
it was moments like these you thought that dabi was just a man, not a villain. he often took on a hard exterior, never cracking, never letting anyone in, but there were times when you could see between his shell and smile. he was a young man, not much older than you, only a year off of the same, and he was already fighting; just him against the world.
you often wondered if he had a family. it was a topic never mentioned, and you never brought it up, but the growing urge to get to know him was suffocating.
did he have siblings? were they older or younger? what was his life like when he wasn't with you; when he wasn't being a villain? you never knew and you secretly feared you never would. dabi never spoke a word on his own life and you guessed that was normal (for a villain), but you wanted him to speak to you as just a man.
"you always look sick when you do this part."
you took a breath, the time to think gone within an instant as you pressed into his skin and stiffened at the soft sound of the needle piercing his thick skin. getting used to this sound was almost impossible, the smell of metal and blood sharp on your nose.
a hand came to rest on your shoulder, soft and delicately squeezing as an effort to comfort you. you smiled at that, dabi might've been a rough looking man with an even rougher exterior, but with you he was gentle and took your own being into consideration. (a man of a villain, you would say).
"well, wouldn't you too if you had to stick a needle into someone else's skin?" you joked with a dry chuckle, pulling up as you came to pull his skin together. he never answered your question (if out of fear your image of him would change, you never knew), it was one you would ask on a normal basis (well, that normal basis being the times he came by for patchwork). you never would say it bothered (saddened) you for you didn't want him to lock you out of his shell.
dabi shrugged, watching you finish the last of your sewing before you tied it at the end and cut it free. you huffed at your seamanship, giving a nod as he went to move but you gave him a light pat, shaking your head as you moved to grab a roll of bandages from your drawer. "sit still, i'm not done."
you expected a sly comment along the lines of feisty, i like it, or easy doll, i'm not leaving just yet, but neither came. you worried if he'd lost the will to retort with a sarcastic drawl. though when his arm rose in surrender and a grin turned his lips upward, you knew he was keeping quiet out of enjoyment.
the bathroom rings with your soft movement, an itch born of the silence that lingered between the two of you. not that it was awkward, no, but you couldn't stand to bear the stare of his (beautiful) eyes any longer, "say... may i ask a question?"
your words were met with a throaty hum from the villain, obediently allowing you to finish up with your work.
"where do you go after you leave my place?" you didn't mean to come off as concerned but you did, it was audibly notable with the way your voice cracked between your words and their syllables. he would've teased, but dabi could tell you weren't looking for a funny joke, but something more than just an anywhere and everywhere.
and he was going to tell you, whether it be because he wanted to or because he took pity on you and your wonderfully (dangerously) curious mind, "i have a hotel room, quite nice, too. 5 star rating." he spoke with a raise in his brow, as if content with the value of the hotel room, "i get room service, though i could go without being called mr. tokunaga."
you gasped, giving a light push to his shoulder as he laughed at the expression you wore, "that poor man! that's fraud you know!" it was a sour joke that happened to be true, was it bad to say you weren't judging him on his actions?
dabi shrugged again, exaggerating with the rise and fall of his shoulders, "well he can piss off, it was his fault for losing to me at a poker game." now there was something new, he had the habit of sharing things about himself unintentionally; if they're the little things or not it doesn't matter. (not that you minded).
"you can play poker?" you sounded shocked. knowing how to play poker wasn't one of the things you imagined he could do, but you had a feeling dabi was full of many surprises. and you were eagerly waiting another spill of words that told a tale about dabi and the mystery he was, "here i was thinking you just acted like you had a brain!"
a sharp gasp came your way, laughing loud and fully as you made your way out of your bathroom and towards the kitchen. his footsteps padded softly behind your own, and you were sure dabi was walking behind you with a hand thrown over his heart as he wept up an act.
"you wound me!" playfully bumping your shoulder, dabi walked past you and took seat at your counter. he watched you smile and open your fridge, retrieving the bottle of alcohol you had stashed behind a bag of leftover chinese food, "your words hold fire, doll, hot fire."
you giggled, snatching two glasses from your dish drainer and placed them before you two on the marble counter, flicking the alcohol open with a pop! "i could never burn you, fire man."
now you never imagined the words you spoke would strike deeper than you intended them too, but when dabi's smile faded and his eyes sank, you damned those words you spoke all to hell. (or, you wished to eat those words and then some).
this time the silence was deafening and like a knife drawn down your back. dabi shouldn't be mad, you hoped he wasn't, it was no other than his fault you'd carelessly thrown around those words. after all, you didn't know him; both would say you would, but in reality there was a wall built between the two of you. a wall far too tall and far too long for you to even try and begin to break down.
you went to speak, mouth dry as no words came and you pleaded to yourself inwardly. still, nothing came.
dabi must've noticed your lack of words, your hesitance, for he was quick to stand and down the shot you poured for him. giving you a light pat on the shoulder, he turned towards your door without a word. you were hurt (and surely he was too), but he could've made a show of being unbothered; the strain on your relationship was far too evident now.
no attempt was made to stop him, you didn't think you should, it wasn't like you were friends. your guys' relationship had no clear label, and if it did, it would be of nurse and patient. you were only there to clean his wounds and then he was off doing who knows what.
you just didn't expect his silence to sting this badly.
dabi hadn't come for a month now. you're sure he's gotten into trouble these past weeks, but you also guessed he was still hung up on the words you said; i could never burn you, fire man. hell! you didn't even know the meaning to those words, they didn't sound like much to you (but you'd always been known to have a loose mouth). he was also busy with his new work, if you wished to call it that.
there was a news report earlier in the month, it was about the League of Villains, an up-and-coming villain association you knew to steer clear of. but what would you know, none other than dabi had found himself apart of their ranks. you were shocked, but you knew he had to live somehow.
and that was the only report on dabi you'd seen all month. checking the daily news, you always hoped (and yet wished not) to see him on the featured report. but with no luck, you were met with low-life villains and stories about how "an armored assailant was caught at 7 this morning, failed attempt at stealing from the Morning and Night convenience  store!"
television had never been so boring to you, and you surely never expected to hope for a villain attack until now. (done with much shame).
you went as far as to even checking online reporters for villain stories, yet you came up high and dry. there was nothing about dabi, the last story written about him four months ago. (the news report from a month before all you had keeping you sane).
honestly, focusing on a villain shouldn't be your top priority. despite that being true, you find yourself at your window at 2 in the morning, a warm cup of coffee in hand as you watched the night draw by. it was silly to wait up for him. most of the time he came by, he'd rattle you awake with blood staining his clothes and faint breathing; the first few times you even threatened to call the cops. (hint: you never did end up calling the cops).
with the added bonus of dabi's sudden lack of appearance, it didn't help your work life wasn't in tip-top shape either.
suddenly, you'd been tasked with selling and purchasing the new designer material for the up-and-coming fashion week, knowing that if you messed this up, the top designers wouldn't even dare to give you a second glance in the industry. it was in your best interest to keep your head on straight and your thoughts off of the villain dabi.
but that was easier said than done. sleepless nights were beginning to become a reoccurring inconvenience. you longed for the villain to come and bleed on your white towels once more, his company one you chose to indulge in. in simpler terms, you were lonely and found purchase in a villain's company.
you laughed at yourself at the thought. growing up in a society where villains were nothing but the scum of the earth, yet here you were, knowing this villain was more of a hero to you than any actual hero. it was pitiable, no one would give you the time of day if you were to try and reason with them that dabi was more than just a villain.
and that's the sad truth. he really was just a villain, and he really was nothing more than that to most people. one could argue that even if he had heart, even if he could smile and laugh like any other, he could just as well take a life; and he has, you know that. but you'd turn a blind eye because you know how he can smile.
it hurt to say you just knew he could smile, but to say you knew him would be a lie. because it's rooted deep in your bones, almost branded to the marrow; you don't know dabi at all.
(but, saying he doesn't know you would be far from the truth).
"hey doll," it's sudden and chilling in your ear, hair standing on end as you peel your eyes from your television and turn to your window. and there he was, in all his beaten glory, "miss me?"
"w-what—what are you doing here?" your voice cracks, you hope he thinks it's from your startle and not because you missed him (which you did).
dabi grins, easing your window closed before he made his way to your creamy colored couch. he came to stand in front of you, blocking your vision of the television, but you didn't mind. it gave you the chance to look at him, and you could use the excuse that you were "checking for injuries!"
luckily it didn't look like there was too much damage done. he had a gash above his right eyebrow with dried blood leading down to his cheekbone, a cut to his lips and some smeared blood on his white t-shirt. you felt relieved at his appearance, the weight once on your chest now light as a feather.
"i'm here for you to patch me up, what else?" as if the most obvious thing, dabi took a seat beside you, not bothering to remove his jacket or boots. "can you do that for me, doll?"
you nod dumbly (though slowly), and stand to go and retrieve your medical kit from your bathroom. you don't mind leaving dabi to his lonesome in your living room, you laugh when you say this with truth, but you trust him; a villain. but around you, you would say he wasn't a villain, but a man in a villain's body. (to you that's what he was).
"where have you been?! it's been weeks.." you hurry back to him, flicking the lamp on as you take a seat beside him once again. dabi sits up, angling his body to face you as he shimmy closer and place the kit on your lap, "i thought something had happened to you, asshole."
dabi blinks, sighing when you push the hair resting in his forehead away with a soft touch. it felt as if you were being gentler than usual, soft fingers even softer as they come to lightly dab at the wound above his eye.
"was busy," it's a simple answer, a vague one, too. you think he won't tell you, you hope he does, you forgot how gravely his voice was (and how much it had you blushing).
tilting your head, you grab a bandaid and tear it open, applying it to the wound with delicate precision. ah, your handiwork was as good as ever, a small smile on your lips as you go to apply Neosporin to the small incision on his lip. you're a little embarrassed to do so, but you take your ring finger and begin dabbing it on the cut; ignoring dabi's stare in the process.
"i can't know, right?" your tone flat and cold, you wipe your finger off and move the kit onto your table. you wait for him to speak, only met with his breathing as you heave a deep sigh. you're tired, tired of this and everything else, almost to the point you felt like giving up, "i get it."
if anyone knew better, they'd think dabi had been chilled by your response and tone, which wasn't entirely wrong. you'd only ever spoken with a monotone and quiet voice, unless you were to laugh or smile. he knew you must've been upset with him, though he never left any means of contacting him behind, you weren't that hard to find.
a quirkless fashion worker in the apartment buildings near the Kiyashi Ward Shopping Mall in Tokyo. you weren't rich or the most popular person, you never did have many people over (aside from the monthly visit from your parents and friend from Musutafu). but you were fine with that, your quiet, quaint life in the city wasn't bad or far off from perfect in your eyes. though when dabi arrived, you couldn't necessarily call it that quiet anymore.
speaking of dabi, he hadn't spoken after you snapped. silence never was a big problem for the two of you, but you began to worry you'd offended him.
forcefully clearing your throat, you stood stiffly and went to your kitchen without sparing him a glance, "alcohol? i need alcohol!" (need it because you're dying of thirst? no. need it because you feel like suffocating with the tension? yes).
bouncing with each step, you took a glass from your cabinet, twitching as you took a glance over your shoulder. dabi hadn't moved from your couch, back glued to the cushions as your television gave a soft static background to the silence. it couldn't hurt to grab him a glass, too, shrugging as you carefully took the glasses between your fingers and opened your fridge to grab the familiar transparent-green bottle.
placing them down, you quickly poured the golden-brown liquid into the cup and set aside the bottle. it's been a while since you two last had a drink together, what better way to reconcile than a hard drink?
with a smile, you grab them and head towards your living room. it's a short trip, you do live in an apartment after all. what only takes a small shuffle and four steps feels like an eternity when you know dabi is there waiting for you, but you welcome the eternity with a wide grin and two shots.
you get there with the expectation of pouring your heart out and tell him you're sorry for acting like how you did, but you don't expect to see him sound asleep on your couch.
it was a new sight to behold, one you didn't mind. thinking dabi was beautiful when his eyes were open and eating you up like a dog was nothing compared to when he was sleeping.
his lashes were longer than you thought, fanning along his cheeks as he breathed smoothly and evenly. he looked so calm, so at peace, like he felt safe in the place he resided in.
you'd always found your eyes shifting down to admire the curve of his lips, so even in their shape you found yourself becoming jealous. and although the purple, stapled skin had had you retreating at first glance, you now found them to be just part of him; part of dabi. if you were to accept the villainous part of him, you'd better believe you were to accept all of him.
taking time to admire him was oddly refreshing, it'd been so long since you last saw him you almost panicked when you felt as if you'd forgotten the color of his hair. (overdramatic, really).
you felt silly, giddy even, it was obvious you had a crush. it'd been a long time since you had one of those, high school was a long time ago and a time you could go with forgetting. (but, would you count a celebrity crush on hawks as an actual crush?). or maybe you could describe it as puppy love, he'd given you attention when not many others did, and you wound up craving it even when you didn't know you did.
discarding the drinks onto your table, you took the blanket from the back of the couch and fanned it over his body; any conscious thought to mind his bloodied shirt forgotten. it wasn't every day you got to see him so defenseless and open, it felt good to know he trusted you enough for him to sleep in your presence. (or you hoped he trusted you).
but you paid that no mind, instead curling into the corner of the couch as you took some blanket for yourself and made sure dabi was covered and comfortable.
with a murmured goodnight, you were soon fast asleep and cushioned by the warmth the blanket (and dabi) gave you.
today marked the 6th month of your guys' "relationship." after that night when dabi passed out at your apartment, he'd began coming around more often; with and without injuries that needed your mending.
his actions were welcomed and encouraged, offered dinner and movie nights had become a weekly thing now. you knew for sure your relationship had been labeled as friends now, but you always hoped for more. lucky for you, the black-haired villain had found a friend in you. (maybe even more...).
but dabi was cautious with how many times a week he came. he was still a villain at the end of the day, one with plenty of people out to get him; you never know who was watching, or how many people were doing so. and with you not having much to defend yourself, dabi took extra care when it came to his nightly scouting.
(when referring to nightly scouting, i really mean when he comes to watch you at your apartment. and not in a creepy way, of course).
dabi comes in the dead of the night, seating himself on the building just opposite of yours, hiding in the shadow of the chimney. there he sits and watches over you for a good couple of hours, making sure you're safe and sound. he's alert with every shadow that falls over your window and every noise that clatters below in the alleyway.
he only deems it okay to leave when he sees you come and take a glance out the window, as if you were searching for someone, before locking and closing your blinds. he knows you were going to sleep then, the light in your apartment going off signaling you had turned in for the night and do just as he thought.
though he did this, you were oblivious to dabi's routine, and he intended to keep it that way. even if it was obvious he cared for you, more than he should (and intended to), the added boost to your ego wasn't needed.
so he kept quiet and let you go on without knowing.
"i've been helping you for so long..." you mused, off in your own world as you spoke aloud.
it was around 12:30, and dabi had come only 15 minutes before to "hang." (but you would call it freeloading). those minutes were filled with small talk and an order in to a cheap thai place, which seemed to have just come as you smile at the sound of your doorbell. you jump up, bouncing to go and retrieve your order.
the two of you sat in your apartment, this one of the many nights dabi came by without such as a scratch to his appearance. you could only smile when you saw his clean look, no bruise or cut anywhere to be seen, it made you happy to not see him injured.
dabi watched from your counter, seeing you pay the delivery person with a smile before taking the food, "are you finally getting tired of me?" he raises a brow, pushing the work papers you had scattered along your counter to the side to make room for the plastic bag of steaming food. (your order was all thanks to a few coupons dabi snatched up).
"i was tired of you months ago!" smiling with a laugh, you begin taking the food out, separating your guys' portions of the shared food evenly.
what you said was clearly a joke, anyone could see that. and it was obvious why; your gaze lingered on the villain when he wasn't looking (or when you thought he wasn't looking), your gentle touches as you patched him up began to linger and turn into those you only should use on a lover. this little crush had festered and boiled to a pop, until it was now evident you had come to love dabi.
you didn't want to, you didn't know much about him. but when he would come to, gifts or trinkets for you in hand, you couldn't find it within yourself to stop these feelings from coming up. (it was a shock you hadn't blabbered yet).
this hopeless pining was beginning to become too much. it was only a matter of time before you couldn't take looking at his lips when he spoke, throwing caution to the wind before you cupped his cheeks and gave him a kiss neither would forget. you only dreamed of that, you wondered how his lips would feel; how he'd feel, or if he'd push you away.
you hoped he wouldn't.
"what're you thinking 'bout, doll?"
blinking, you shrug and clear your throat, breaking your chopsticks as dabi copies your actions, "nothing much," you bit your lip, digging into your noodles and curry as you take a wary glance at the villain, "just… that i wish i knew more about you."
it was silent for a moment, dabi swallowing the food he'd previously been chewing before he reached over to take some sauce, "what d'ya wanna know?" he knew it was a risky suggestion, but he felt he'd grown to know you well enough to know you wouldn't tell anyone; besides, he thought you had waited patiently and long enough.
but he didn't expect you to have a list of questions lined up for him to answer. these questions he knew you only used as an excuse to cover up what you really wanted to know and ask. but he answered them all honestly, letting you learn about him and what kind of person he was outside of being a villain. (but you'd come to find that being a villain and being a man were one in the same).
an hour passes and you're still interrogating him, the excitement in your eyes made dabi's answers easier, he didn't feel unsettled by answering you. in fact he wanted to, you let him in quite literally the second you met him, maybe a little too easily, but that was okay.
"when's your birthday?" silly to think this topic hadn't come up sooner, you just didn't want to scare (if you even could) him off. a silly little question, but you wanted to know.
"january 18th," finishing the last of his drink, dabi placed it inside his empty food box. he'd gotten a little tired after all your questions and eating, but that didn't mean he would've stopped you in your little ramble. he liked when you spoke to him freely, not as if he was a wily villain. "here, i've got a question for you."
now you were a little nervous, but you nodded nonetheless. you don't know why you felt like this, maybe it was because of the way dabi held your gaze as he spoke, drawing out the suspense with his thick colored irises. you felt an odd rush of adrenaline, ready for whatever he had coming your way.
"what do you think of me?"
you weren't expecting that to be his question, it was more vulnerable and deeper than you thought it would've been. but you knew your answer immediately, didn't even need to think of the words to say. (and maybe the alcohol you had drank eased the words out).
"i think you're beautiful." you were red in the face when you spoke, be it from the alcohol or embarrassment you didn't know. what you did know, was that using a word like that to describe him must've caught him off guard. despite that, you kept going, and didn't plan on stopping any time soon, "everything about you to me is beautiful, you're so much more than a villain to me, dabi—" here it comes. "—i l—"
dabi hadn't let you finish, long arms reaching over your counter to cradle your neck and pull you to meet his lips.
wow, you were expecting to be the one to initiate the first of anything between the two of you, but you weren't complaining when the rough skin of his thumbs came to caress just below your lashes.
it was soft, softer than he'd ever been, moving your lips together in a dance you would only call desire and adoration. it felt like he'd been wanting this just as much as you had, not missing a beat when your own hands came to hold your weight as you leaned over your counter to get closer.
you were a bit fuzzy in the head, dabi was doing so many things to you, and you loved it all.
you gasped when you felt dabi nip at your lip, soothing the pinch with his tongue as one of his hands moved to cup your jaw and draw down the span of your neck. he was touching you in the best way, he has you shivering in the wake of his fingers along your exposed skin of neck and shoulders.
but it ended all too soon when dabi pulled away, smirking as you drew closer and after his lips again. drawing a hand down to smooth out your hair, he looked so soft in that moment; and yet, why was it now that his walls began to come back up?
"don't say anything you'll regret, doll."
after that, dabi was distancing himself again; and it hurt. you don't know how much time had gone by, too lost in a world far from the one you lived in. however long it was felt like an eternity, even more so because you hadn't heard from (or of) him lately. that was until the news had been broadcasted and hacked by someone, and you'd seen it all go down on television. it came as a shocker, you never expected this outcome.
dabi was endeavor's son; todoroki enji's son.
it was an unexpected turn of events, one that lead you to think; what happened? for the son of the number one hero to turn out a villain was… peculiar. you just can't even begin to think of why or how that could've happened. (although, you knew endeavor had a bad temper, an even worse attitude, so you could only imagine what lead to the point in dabi's life where he turned to villainy).
your imagine of dabi wouldn't change, you had admitted it to yourself (and almost him) that day; admitted that you loved him. and to love one means to accept one, every flaw in all.
knowing dabi, he was feeling more than he let on, and you found out he felt more than you could've imagined. how he must've felt all these years, going by as a villain while his family walked in that of the light (if you wish to call what endeavor walked in light). you found out things about him, but you never did pressure him for details of his family and past.
now you understood why he never offered to mention it, too.
another few days go by after the broadcast, you're left to call in sick from work as you'd paced yourself back and forth to exhaustion. you wanted to call him, yet you still had no means of contacting him; it was all in his hands.
a knock to your window came and you snapped your head to it, noticing the familiar figure quickly as you dropped everything and made your way to unlock it. you missed him.
"eager to see me, are we?" as soon as your window was open dabi was already cracking jokes, a smile adorning his features and he took your tight hug in surprise and with open arms.
"you can't just do that and not come back, asshole!" he knew what you were referring to, a soft hue to his cheeks as his arms circled your waist. you only hugged him tighter, never letting go yet moving a few steps back as to actually let him enter your apartment.
his hand rubbed circles on your back, kissing at the crown of your head as he felt you shake in anger and soft sobs. he forgot how much he liked your presence; how much he liked you. the time that passed far too long (but it was only his fault).
"'m sorry," dabi grinned into your hair, moving to bow to your height and meet your watery eyes, "i really am sorry, i just needed time to process my own thoughts."
you frowned, hands now dropped to rest on the bone of his hips as you shuffled closer until you felt the heat of his skin on yours, "…what thoughts?" some part of you prayed that it would be the words you had wanted to say, but you didn't want to get your hopes up.
dabi tilted his head, a knowing glint to his bright eyes and a curve to his lips showed he could read your thoughts almost as easily as you could his.
his hands moved up the curve of your spine, fingers tickling you as they glided to come and rest just below your shoulder blades. (if this wasn't an intimate moment, you don't know what would be).
"y'know… just thoughts on how much i love you."
you felt like your heart had burst with how happy you were, not surprised when more tears came as you laughed. with broken laughter, you tip-toed to softly peck his lips in your giddy fit. you felt alive again, just a few simple words from dabi had you reeling on cloud 9.
it'd been so long, you've waited so long to hear those words, and when he finally spoke them you thought you would be composed enough to reply. but with your wobbly lip and sobs in laughter, it was a little hard to let words fall from your tongue. (there were some words you could say though).
"d-don't say words you'll r-regret, dabi."
the villain laughed at your stammer, resting his forehead on your own as a hand came to hold your face; the love in his eyes enough for you to know he'd never regret them.
"i could never regret loving you."
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