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my boys i really miss you and i miss drawing you 🥺

#marion talks

[mariemarion]

hey, long time no been here. I'm sleepy, but I have something to say

I will abuse google translator a little cause I originally wrote all this in spanish :p

I haven't had energy the last few months. I am currently in a not very good state of mind so I will allow myself to be somewhat negative below.

I have lost interest in continuing with art, or at least the motivation is at the lowest level it has ever been, my only real reason for continuing is because it feeds my family, my pets and me, its reason enough to keep going , I fervently believe. But this doesn't stop me from feeling like I'm not going anywhere, that I'm stuck. Drawing has never been so exhausting, so tiring. I loved it, it may not be a permanent feeling, but currently I do not feel love for my drawings, for my current style, although I like it I feel that it is not mine, that it is not me, that I am not being sincere.

My dream is to reach that level of skill, like the meme, a rookie artist drawing something super rendered and complex and the senior artist drawing the most simplified style possible, I want to be that senior artist x'D.

How socials are treating and overshadowing artists lately also has a lot to add here, to hell with the numbers, I'm not interested in them, I'm not interested in the algorithm, I don't quite understand what it's about, I don't want to be tied down all the time , I want to come and go freely, that's all, I don't enjoy loggin into networks as i used to be.

Sometimes I would like to go back in time, when I felt free to create, when I was looking for to experiment and had fun. Today just thinking about holding a pencil makes me want to run away to the comfort of my bed or go play with my cats or to want to climb a mount and never coming back. And not to mention the damage I have done to my eyes and my hands, sometimes I can't do anything but overdo everything, and therefore hurting me, I foolishly force myself to accomplish deadlines that I have imposed on myself and that I am aware of its a short time.

I'm in a situation where I can't stop drawing, it's my job, I can't simply take a rest. I practically survive with what I earn (which lately is little), prices for many essentials are going up to the stratosphere and beyond (the price for cat food is so ridiculously expensive that I have started opting for homemade food) I have not been able to save anything, if I stop drawing and taking commissions, I don't know what else I could do, looking for alternatives is also tiring. I just want to sleep.

Apathy, that is my current state.

Fatigue.

Drowsiness.

A bottomless abyss, although when I say it out loud it makes me laugh x'D

Going to therapy has crossed my mind, I know there are issues to resolve, but thinking about the absence of money and next month's expenses somehow overlap everything else.

I think there were more things to add, but I can't think anymore.

I will not abandon art, it is clear to me, but if these last few months have been slow (in terms of making art), they will be even more so in the future, so you better do not miss me too much, you have been warned x'D

ty for reading

#marion talks

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#chalothorn #the sign the series #thai series #not Chalothorn being the real reason why I keep watching The Sign /w\ #everytime he was on screen i was like aaaah he's so venomous I love him x'D!

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late to the party x'D anyone else watching The Sign?

#the sign the series #phayatharn #chalothorn #thai series #chibi

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some characters from the book The Legend of Silver & Fire by J.M. Weimer 🌼

#commission #oc #not my oc #I enjoyed very much drawing all of them #but specially Stone giant #he seems very kind! #fantasy #im always afraid of posting non fandom stuff here #i will slowly do it #or maybe not :_D #im very proud of many of my non fandom works

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Hi!! Commissions Open!! 5 slots available for March/April batch 🍃✨️!!

Hi, January/February Commissions Open! 5 slots available ;)

Google Form / Info and TOS / Ko-fi

All reblogs are really appreciated, thank you :'D

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#yue #sakura card captor #card captor sakura #clamp #CCS #(maybe ive been binge-watching CCS lately .///.)

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Hi!! I was wondering if you ever put commissioned works on redbubble and if so if it’s possible to request that you do so? I love love love your art of malec napping (you captioned it “ah, to lie in his arms​🥰...~”, sorry idk how to describe it better than that) and would love to be able to buy it on things

hi, thanks for asking! I have the permission of my commissioner to put this piece in my store, it must be up now ;) My Redbubble

#replies

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Izumi-san... This is how you wipe off the jam.

You brat.

#ossan's love #ossan's love returns #Izumi and Akito :') #photo study

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doodling and testing krita brushes with Ossan's Love Returns :'D

#haruta soichi #ryota maki #ossan's love #ossan's love returns

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step back~

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kinn theerapanyakul #porsche kittisawasd #thai series #still going on ! #ep 5 ep 6 next!

[mariemarion]

chibis comms from last year (yes yes theres still more to share /w\)

chibi commissions are open ;)

#chibi #kofi commission #ko fi

[mariemarion]

Hi, January/February Commissions Open! 5 slots available ;)

Google Form / Info and TOS / Ko-fi

All reblogs are really appreciated, thank you :'D

#commissions open #commissions

[mariemarion]

rocking another year!!

#for mile birthday :') #mile phakphum

[mariemarion]

its been a while, how have you been? hope you have a smooth beggining of 2024. I'm coming back after taking a little break, it feels so weird, i dont know what to post or what to say x'D

i got a commission from kofi to draw Tezcatlipoca (Aztec God of the Night Sky and Unknown things o_o) and I took it as a chance to 1. Having an approach to prehispanic content and 2. To practice with Krita, that will be my new software to digitally paint from now on

#tezcatlipoca #aztec gods #sketch #kofi commission

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🤩!!

Commission by the magnificent @mariemarion with more bearded Ian & mickey being cute or whateva 🥰🥰🥰

#gallavich #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #commission #kofi commission #chibi

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hi, there's 5 slots available for Chibis or Sketches on my Ko-fi, the last batch of the year! Reblogs are really appreciated ;D, thank you!

#kofi #kofi commission