markadoo

[markadoo]

If you've ever played minecraft, you probably assumed that the position of the sun relative to the earth is what causes the day/night cycle. That's how it works in the real world, so it's natural to assume that it's the same in minecraft. But actually, if you mod minecraft to take out the sun, the day/night cycle still goes on as normal. So it must be something else causing it.

#posts #minecraft

[markadoo]

I got a little batch of anon hate (four messages, obviously from the same person) and I thought I'd respond to them all in one post.

So our culture considers not being on the computer to be a virtuous activity, but it wouldn't actually enable me to "get my life straight" (I doubt my life will ever be "straight"). I'd just be reading physical books and doing puzzles all day and, if I get better than I am now, which will probably happen, going for long walks, going to shul, etc. Anyway, I'm not sure why we're talking about retirement since I already don't have a job.

There's no way I'm going to be able to be living off my own wages at any point within the next five years and I've come to terms with that. I don't really have much to say about this one it would just be weird to say i got 4 messages and only show 3

I'm not a furry, I think I said as much in that post, I just think it's important for him to learn about culture; he's expressed a desire to connect with the current zeitgeist more. He used to watch popular rappers' HBO specials, which he admitted he didn't enjoy but he thought he was doing something meritorious anyway. Anyway my brain was already rotted before I started using social media in 2020, and my actual fetish, ballbusting (which, yeah, I'd never talk about with him), was well established by that time.

Literally in the quote you cited I said I know there are people who would consider it objectionable. And telling someone to kill themself is a very common way for people online to express that they find that person's actions objectionable. So you're not giving me anything new to feel bad about here.

It's nice to know that you otherwise weren't going to tell me to kill myself though, that's very considerate of you.

#this is the second time i've gotten anon hate #the first time was back in december '21 in response to markadoo.tumblr.com/post/669429182539923456/ #I could give advice on how to write hate messages that actually upset me but why would i do that

[markadoo]

I don't think I've ever heard anyone express an opinion on the song Superman (Five for Fighting) but... it's bad, right? Like, not in any way good? Nothing fun or interesting or engaging going on musically? Meaningless and overwrought? Gestures at some sort of emotion but has no idea what that emotion might be? "Looking for special things inside of me" followed by 30 seconds of belting the phrase "inside of me"?

I can't imagine what sort of state a person might be in where they would think "You know what song would hit the spot right now? Superman (Five for Fighting)."

*reads wikipedia page*

Oh, 9/11. Yeah, that explains it.

#the effect 9/11 had on the american pop scene was at LEAST as bad as the immediate casualties

[markadoo]

Imagining an alternate version of this culture where instead of porn addicts or coomers we're called "pornbros" and people talk about us the way they talk about techbros.

#Can't really think of an example of how this might work but one of you probably can #posts

[markadoo]

Had a lovely seder last night, although it definitely pushed me to the limit, autistically speaking. I just wanted to mention a few things.

yes i was in my robe.

as always, the conversation/banter was great. my family are great conversationalists/banterers

i probably wouldn't have been so worn out if i hadn't also spent much of the day prior helping cook. but (a) i'd feel bad if i were the only one not helping (b) prepping for the seder is like. a meaningful part of pesach for me (c) the conversation/banter was great. my family (not just me and my parents but my siblings and one of my cousins, who were over early) are such great conversationalists/banterers

my (eldest) sibling wore a kippah for the first time, although they still lit the candles. im not going to speculate on what exactly that means to them but it clearly means something.

we brought back potato karpas for the first time since my grandmother died. she grew up using potatoes, my grandfather grew up using parsley. we provided both.

a new element was added to the table, olives symbolizing peace, since, you know, palestine. lip service was paid to the sufferings of the palestinians (more than i expected), but i still had to wonder what exactly "peace" meant to everybody at the table.

there was a bit of subtle competing interests between my father, grandfather, and one of my siblings, who wanted to go through the seder properly and get through all the things; my mom, her brother, and one of my cousins, who wanted it to be more social and chitchatted independently through most of maggid; and my mom's brother, who had a train to catch and made us skip barech entirely, and do a pitifully abbreviated nirtza (best part of the seder), only doing the final verse of chad gadya. my mom addressed this to my dad after the seder when all my relatives have gone, calling his behavior "too cantory".

the next seder is the one dad is hosting at his shul, so i wont be able to attend.

#personally if we had to do it on a time crunch i would have skipped dessert instead of nirtza #dessert wasnt that great

[markadoo]

You know I would have put the thing about emperor akihito...maybe in a trivia section at the bottom of the article? maybe not in the article at all? definitely not in the first sentence.

#super mario wiki

[markadoo]

Why are cherry petals pink? Because they have just a hint of cherry juice in them.

#posts

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#no im not telling you what song this is about #im terrified of talking about my musical tastes on this site

[markadoo]

I've finished reading every August issue of GCN. Here are my favorite finds from the personals section.

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#personal ads #gay community news

[markadoo]

New minecraft speedrun strat where you get a book and quill and write the end poem yourself

#from a cursory look at high-end typing speeds and current records this seems viable for versions 1.3-1.14 #or arguably. since in the traditional route time ends when the end poem begins rather than when it ends #in this strat time should end once you open the book with intent to write the end poem #so it's viable for all versions post 1.3

[markadoo]

There’s a narrative I’ve constructed about my parents’ roles in the treatments that have been imposed upon me: that it’s really my mom doing it and my dad basically goes along with it. There’s some evidence behind it: mom clearly has the “front-facing” role, whenever i got a new therapist she would take me to the first session (after which they’d go by whoever was most convenient), she’s the only one who actively coerces and guilts me when I refuse; my dad doesn’t understand me as well as my mom (I’ve suspected this for probably a decade, and my current therapist said she sees it clearly when she talks to the two of them), so it’d make sense he’d defer to her in these matters. And since my wilderness program instructed them on the importance of presenting a unified front in parenting, I doubt I could get either of them to admit it even if it were true.

On the other hand, I sort of have a vested interest in it being true. All this therapy shit that’s been done to me has put a huge strain on my relationship with my mom (this is actually a new thing, like, 2023, although her role in my therapy is pretty much the same as it was ten years ago. call it maturity on my part i suppose). I get nervous just being alone in a room with her. For the sake of my sanity I have to believe that my father isn’t really involved, that he’s uncomfortable but lacks the confidence to object, that my mom has browbeaten him the way she’s browbeaten me, and that he’s been trained by TRAILS Carolina to hide all interparental dissent.

That last part (after “isn’t really involved”) is very likely cope. I have no evidence that he’s ever been anything but fully, willingly complicit. But I’d like it if he wasn’t, because I like liking my dad.

#i remember one time when i was fourteen i was with my dad in the car on the way back from my weekly appointment #and he made some comment about how he didn’t see me making any progress #and at the time i was offended. i thought he was saying i was doing a bad job at therapy #it wasn’t until several months later that i independently realized that i wasn’t making progress #and when i decided to refuse i do not remember him backing me up

[markadoo]

#ballsposting

[markadoo]

Transgender anime boy and cisgender anime girl are in a relationship that started before he transitioned; they still consider themselves yuri

#posts

[markadoo]

#gay community news #tw csa

[markadoo]

thinking about uploading my Going To The River audios to soundgasm. they're not meant to be sexy but you never know what sort of things people might get off to these days

#posts

[markadoo]

Here's the play-journal I kept while I played Mother 3. It's long (12000 words) and unedited and the gameplay/writing density ratio is totally uneven and most of what I say won't mean anything to you unless you remember Mother 3 very very well. Enjoy.

#mother 3

[markadoo]

not how the saying goes

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