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pitched a little fit over email when I kept getting addressed as Mrs. Mashup, despite it being a situation where I'm known to have so many other appropriate forms of address, like FF/PM or Dr. Apparently I have hit that age, where I care about things like this.

#getting old #not a mrs

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You can only reblog this today.

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Nothing like a trip to the uncanny valley to boost your mood

#sound on- 100% muted my virtual class just to get the full effect

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Definitely had one of those "being a woman in medical leadership" moments yesterday where I was called out for being too direct and aggressive for writing a pretty dispassionate email where I essentially said I wasn't going to cover for mistakes that my leadership made. Cherry on top was that this feedback was from a woman, who didn't have the balls to deliver it to me directly and instead had another woman serve as the go-between, because she felt like she was called out by me.

So I spent all of therapy today just ranting about my leadership and the lack of support that I feel from them and how I can't actually trust those people or be open with them about my feelings at work. That was a swift kick to the gut yesterday.

But I'm sure if I was a man I would have been told that I was being assertive and practicing good leadership skills.

#leadership as a woman #leading while woman #so much for women building other women up #supportive leadership yeah right #kind of want to burn it all down #women in medicine #women in leadership

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Weird place to hunt for info, but I'm looking for anything and everything!

Anyone on here who works in a PHP/ partial hospital program? How many individual patients do the therapists carry? How is the program structured? I'm trying to figure out how to get a reasonable census, structure the program, and not burn out my therapists and I'm hitting walls left and right. I want to know what works in other places!

#therapy #therapists #therapist #lcsw #social work #psychology #psychologist #php #partial hospital program #treatment #day hospital #partial program #mental health

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My grandpa was one of nine. At this point, only 3 are left. One of his younger brothers entered hospice yesterday. We haven't quite reached the point where the authorization for Crown Royal, Miller High Life, and smokeless tobacco is written on the whiteboard in his room in inpatient hospice (which was the case for one of his other brothers). However, we are getting texts with pictures of my mom's cousins mixing Manhattans for my great-uncle and bringing them into the hospital in random jars and bottles. The look of pure joy and excitement on his face is absolutely priceless.

#he was definitely an alcoholic at one point in life #but he's actively dying from CHF and kidney failure I don't really care #and no one else cares either #certain things that all of these boys have (or had) in common #midwestern boys (or little old men) and their alcohol #my family #we tried to explain what's happening to my grandma and she has no idea #adventures in going home

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Until recently, being called Miss or Mrs really peeved me, but calling me Ms was totally fine, as long as the person in question didn't know I was a physician.

I'm noticing that I have less and less patience for folks who call me Ms now as well. In almost every area of my life, I have other titles: Doctor, Lieutenant, Firefighter. Call me by one of those. Ms has started to feel really dismissive and I know that's not the intent which makes me feel a little bit bad.

#mrs is my mom #not a mrs #miss is for babies #and apparently now ms is just dismissive #call me doctor #but without the attitude of demanding the title #or just call me by my rank #but that's weird outside of a fire department or military setting #adulting is hard #adulting as a woman is harder

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I never thought of myself as a white cloud. I'm definitely not the polar opposite, but its almost to the point where this crew is starting to see how many ways they can tempt fate.

Its been 15 hours and we've only been dispatched twice. Both were bullshit. I'm never going to get to practice any skills if this continues!

#paramedic #volunteer #fire department #black cloud #white cloud #fire house juju

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towards the end of therapy, my therapist commented that he's glad that I'm going to be out of town the same time that he is because he'll worry less and I feel like I should have asked him what the heck he meant by that at the time

#therapy #when the patient is also a therapist things get a little meta #i have to stop myself from thinking too deeply about what he says #or how he responds #therapy for shinks!

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I couldn't get the emr to work on my computer yesterday while I was actually at work, so I still have all my notes to do and I've spent all afternoon sitting on the couch actively avoiding doing notes

#emr #working in healthcare #i'm never productive at home #crappy government technology at its finest #can't wait to see if it works on Monday #and this is after I did two hard restarts on the computer too

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@heartbeatsandrainstorms replied to your post “For reasons that I now can't remember, my...”:

So...did you bring the stuffed animal to therapy with you? Inquiring minds that also sleep with stuffed animals want to know :)

​You bet I did! And he's such a child psychiatrist that he picked up on the nickname I use for her and has since used that nickname to follow up and ask how it felt to bring her to therapy and said that I am welcome to bring her whenever I want in the future.

We ended up talking about my attachment style and pattern of relationships and some trends with relationships in my family which all came out of me bringing her which was productive and academically interesting, not that I've been able to operationalize it or anything like that.

#heartbeatsandrainstorms #sleeping with stuffed animals #therapy #adventures in therapy #adventures in mental health #my therapist #my psychiatrist #you know you see a child psychiatrist when....

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@wheresonichedgehogwnt I saw this and immediately thought of you

#what is it you say- feral 4-H kid? #horse girls #internet friends

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#y'all #or all y'all #and no I'm not southern

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I need a headshot where I'm not wearing my uniform for a workshop I'm helping out with. It has been at least a decade since I had such a photo, so I decided to scroll through my photos to see if I had anything that was marginally appropriate.

Selfies, photos of the pigs, and selfies of me and the pigs account for 95% of my photos over the past several years. Clearly none of these are exactly what I'm looking for in a professional headshot

#i guess its a photo of me in a fire department uniform or none at all #nothing says I am a professional psychiatrist like selfies with the pigs #being an adult #headshot

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I spent part of my NYE looking up personal grooming for elderly male guinea pigs, and after spending more time getting up close and personal with Chester than he would ever prefer, he snuggled up on my chest in a way that he hasn't done in years, so I guess despite the trauma he really did end up feeling better by the end. I feel guilty that I let things go for so long without realizing that he needed some help with hygiene and I'm equally disgusted and fascinated by the difference it made. So PSA I guess--male guinea pigs need an assist keeping themselves clean--or at the very least you should periodically check and see if they need an assist.

#I forget how old he is #6 years old is getting up there #guinea pig #guinea pig mom #Chester