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fun things

#i am at the point where being out of liquor makes me panicky #im fine its fine

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dont think i like the s4mb ucky post going around 

#thats all that h*dra did #its funny ig but also. Not.

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blah blah blah whatever whatever i want to die

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reminded again how easily i could kill myself & it go unnoticed under the guise of "i work almost 40 hours a week and my family is exhausting and i havent felt much like talking lately"

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who cares who cares

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its just that when people offer to do stuff i feel the wrong kind of bad for company & when i feel the right kind of bad i'd feel like a nuisance if i asked

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u know what’s rough? missing things that are bad for you

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A core dilemma of C-PTSD is that your longing for connection conflicts with memories that tell you relationships aren’t safe.

Arielle Schwartz, “The Complex PTSD Workbook: A Mind-Body Approach to Regaining Emotional Control & Becoming Whole” (via pdxyogini)

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i dont have any words i just feel bad and bad and nobody would miss me

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hi my name is self pitying sack of shit and i don't know how to shut the hell up

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i just got so overwhelmed with the concept of trying to not kill myself for a whole entire other year and started crying and i really really don't want to i just want to die

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it’s weird to like

i don’t know how to finish that and i don’t know if i want to i just miss koda

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god Damn i miss my mom

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ive determined i don't mind she/her but i don't like any other feminine words like mom or sister or shit like that which is . probably really weird

#whatever

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#...

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don’t even know whose they are or who i am or anything i just . want them back

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i want my wings back