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i love six o clock because the clock looks so stupid. "|" like get real

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I started posting on Wattpad (Wattpad!) again in 2022 because the fandom I was writing for was more popular there. I get 3x more engagement there than I do on AO3 for the exact same fic. I write for me, but I share for others

The 'write for yourself uwu' culture shift has done real damage to fic writers imo. I recently had a post on the importance of strategic commenting break containment and I'm surprised by how many strangers who rb it in agreement feel the need to reassure in the tags that they do write for themselves, but...

There is a kernel of truth in the heart of this sentiment--if you only chase stats, you are unlikely to find joy in your writing. At the same time, I think we've veered too far in the other direction.

It is only natural to want engagement and the write for yourself crowd often overlooks how communal an effort fic writing usually is. So many story ideas are born from casual discussions about h/c's and favourite scenes and what ifs and the comment box is a cornerstone of this process. Not only can the discussions in the comment box be a hub for idea generation on their own, but even when the said idea generation takes place in DMs or Discord chats, commenting is often the first/easiest way into befriending authors; it's where community building starts.

Further, the write for yourself crowd similarly overlooks that the things a writer can write for themselves are often vast and many at any given time, and relative engagement levels across fandoms/ships can play a large part in which of those ideas a writer chooses to pursue--or whether they choose to publish their finished work at all.

In sum, I don't think we need to be this apologetic as writers for wanting feedback and engagement for what we post -- writing is hard work and it's only human that we want something external out of it in turn, however rewarding the process might intrinsically be.

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I felt compelled to paint this based on a photo my friend took

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Don't drink the propaganda juice, learn the actual makeup of Mandalore (hint, all characters of color either died 3-4000 years prior to canon, were introduced after people got mad about TCW's Mandalore being white, or are Fett clones).

Anyway, you can't arbitrarily apply the diversity beam to Jaster's Good Ol' Boys White Man Club and not Satine's We Have Three Character Models On A Shoestring Budget City.

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it's time for me to share this cake I decorated for valentine's day

DO NOT TAG AS ACE

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Leverage- Family Dynamics

Ugh, I'll most definitely write a bigger post about this, but don't you just love the character dynamic in Leverage and Leverage: Redemption? I'm rewatching the whole franchise and notice how over the course of the series the team just get so comfortable with Elliot, that they are absolutely not afraid of him. They know that he will never hurt them and that his gruff persona just hides a giant teddy bear inside.

Like The French Connection Job in season 5:

Elliot is like "I will stabb you in the neck" and Hardison just like "Yeah, yeah okay, but look at this cool laser and levitating food!" There is no way he would be like that in the first season LOL.

And in Leverage Redemption (I believe in The Date Night Job) when Breanna asked Eliot to cook for her and her significant other (he also made a meal for Hardison and you-know-who-because-no-major-spoilers for their date, thats just so cute) and gives him a lot of requirements, he casually throws the cooking knife into a pillar next to her. She doesn't even flinch and cassually walks off LMAO. I find it so sweet, because the team's trust in him is so absolute and they know that he will never hurt one of them and he will never endanger them, so Breanna is not even worried that the knife was flying anywhere but the pillar and that it would ever fly anywhere near her with an intent to hurt her.... And that is only just the trust that they have after working together for a bit, and her listening to Hardiso discussing his friendship with Elliot.

THEY LET ELLIOT COOK FOR THEM, BECAUSE THEY KNOW IT'S HIS PASSION AND THEY LOVE HIS COOKING!!!!!

I can't, this show always makes me fell warm and fuzzy inside. This is a team of lone wolves which becomes a found family over the course of the 5 seasons of Leverage and you are there for the ride all the way!

THEY ARE A FAMILY YOUR HONOUR!!!!!

(BTW if you havent watched these two shows, I highly recommend you to! It has everything you need for a good show- comedy, drama, action, suspense, found family, and superb characters with character developmen)

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If I had to guess, over half the people who are like "oh we don't want sexual stuff at pride" are people who've been told there is public fucking at pride by people intentionally misleading others. I know when I first heard about the discourse I thought the two sides were "people should be allowed to fuck publicly at pride, there shouldn't be any kids there bc it shouldn't be family friendly" and "pride should be family-friendly bc there will be kids there" and my initial reaction was "wait people fuck at pride? Yeah that's wrong, I think pride should be able to be attended to by queer kids and teens".

I then learned that the people who presented the two sides in that way were being misleading and went "wait wtf??" (I also learned that "family-friendly" was not, in fact, synonymous with "okay for kids to see", but was actually a dogwhistle.)

So, like, there is something to be said for the fact that 'sex in public' is a fact of life for unhoused people and for the history of queer people, and I don't want to be like 'hey any kind of sex in any place that might be vaguely considered public should ruin your life.' That's the kind of thinking that ends up with a woman thinking she's alone on a deserted beach masturbating, not realizing a family is within eyeshot up the beach, getting her arrest video posted by the cops to shame her, and dying by suicide because people harassed her endlessly. (This was recent.)

But that said, no one is whipping out their dick at Pride. The issue is that, to some people, any display of queer sexuality is considered basically the same as two dudes rawdogging on a pile of dicks.

And yeah, sure, Pride should be for a lot of people, but also, Pride started because a bunch of kinky queer adults said 'yeah, we deserve time and space for us,' and making it okay for queer kids and teens should not result in the expulsion of those who created it in the first place.

I fully support the creation of additional and alternate Pride spaces for kids and teens, but under no circumstances should that come at the cost of pushing out the people who got us there in the first place.

But yeah, there are people who are being super fucking disingenuous about this and I'm over it.

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NICHOLAS GALITZINE as PRINCE HENRY in RED, WHITE, AND ROYAL BLUE ╰┈➤ I will no longer be the prince of shame and of secrets. Starting today, the world will know me for who I am and not who you want me to be.

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i wonder how much of the jedi’s life involves childcare.

not just *teaching the younglings* but having to collectively raise them. the saying that goes, “it takes a village to raise a child” is likely how the order operates since no one has ‘parents’ in the convetional sense. perhaps even part of one’s duties and studies during their padawan phase involves a few hours of babysitting in the week - only for them to grow into knighthood and realize that child rearing doesnt exactly end…

now, pls imagine any of your fav jedi in any of the following:

potty training a 2 year old

having to teach them that “no, the temple walls are not to be drawn on…”

having to solve some kiddie drama because some youngling kept calling their peer a ‘stinky poodoo head’

“okay bad news, one of them escaped the temple - good news, they can’t have gone too far!”

fierce debates about whose parenting style is ruining the younglings

jedi knights snickering at their horrendously awkward friend with no parental instinct barely keep the peace when they’re on youngling duty

“I don’t care what Master Fisto lets you do, I say you have to be in bed by 20:00!”

speaking of bed time, night duty probably sounds like a breeze…until you have to escort several young kids throughout the night to the bathroom (the temple halls are scary at night!), escort them to the mess hall for a glass of water, coax them back to sleep after they’ve awoken from a nightmare, and of course prevent any mischievous little ones from coveting a midnight snack

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Dakota Fanning and Andrew Scott for ELLE (2024) The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 2 (2012)

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Thank you to everyone who has supported and read my fics these past few years. The next natural progression, which I'm excited and saddened to announce, is a departure from AO3 and setting up my own website. Saphwrites.com will be a nonfree accessible locale for all of my new works and projects. I will be removing all of my past works from AO3 to put them on this new site. No I won't, who said that. I will keep my backlog of fics on AO3 but I hope you follow me to my new site, saphwrites.com.

I never thought I would leave ao3, but due to circumstances well within my control, that is simply what has to happen.

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I am the storm that was approaching. I’m going away now. I’m shy.

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Kissing on the lips. No. Why? I don’t get it. Truly? What is so enticing about putting your lips together? Don’t even get me started on tongues…

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Something that has always bothered me is when a show/movie says something like “I want you to find the person for you. Then you’ll understand how it feels to be truly happy.”

Every time it’s said i yell “wrong!” at the tv. Really, are you saying the only way i can find true peace in life is if i’m in a romantic relationship?

My parents never understand why i have such strong feelings about this but that’s not much of a surprise.