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My brother's been stabbed

He's apparently ok, he's in the hospital.

Little shits who just wanted to fight someone, not even a mugging.

Wrong place, wrong time.

I don't know what else to write, I'm shocked.

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #random violence #I might dislike my brother but doesn't mean I want him to be hurt #fuck the bastards that did this though

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I hate when you can't remember the name of a piece of art so try googling using increasing vague descriptions which makes your google history look like you're trying to search for p0rn like a boomer

[edit] FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT!

It's The Cursed Woman (La Femme Damnée) by Nicolas Francois Octave Tassaert

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #art #damn that took too long for me to remember

[mayoldacquaintancebeforgot]

I'm still here.

I'm signed of sick but I'm still here.

Not so much still standing as lying down but yeah, still here.

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #I am beplagued #but not covid at least

[mayoldacquaintancebeforgot]

Christ in a fucking bucket

Fucking hell.

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I want to post something but I don't know what to write

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #I'm like the wish version of GLaDOS #I'm not really doing science but I am still alive

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“No one is ever really alone. You are part of everything alive.”

— William S. Burroughs (via perfectquote)

#quotes

[mayoldacquaintancebeforgot]

I'm still alive

Recently went to the Night Vale live show dressed as the Glow Cloud again. I don't know if the heart breaker was there but if he was, he would have seen me as the outfit wasn't exactly subtle. But fuck him, I wasn't going to let him ruin Night Vale for me.

Not sure if the pills are working but I've just started a new role so that's def helped the mental health a bit. Turns out I can work on a team where I literally don't speak a word of the language but so long as I have a team, I can do it.

Might have hit pre-menopause, not entirely sure.

I'm alone, but it's not so bad. My brain has a great sense of humour.

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #welcome to night vale #I ain't dead

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I hope Neil Gaiman's having a good day.

Haven't even watched The Sandman yet, I'm just pleased for him in general.

#neil gaiman #he deserves everything

[mayoldacquaintancebeforgot]

Happy Pride Month 2022!!!

Faust the Crow loves you even more than she did last year!

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Just keep scrolling, I'm just dumping here as I can't put it anywhere else

Facebook friend messaged me this evening asking if I've heard from the guy who broke my heart recently as she & another friend of his haven't been able to contact him for 6 months and they're worried. She didn't know what had happened between us.

I am not so narcissistic to believe that his absence online is due to me. I strongly suspect that his phone & laptop finally gave up the ghost and he's been unable to afford to replace either because he's broke.

But there is a part of me that actually hopes it is because of me. And I hope he is miserable.

"Don't be reckless with other people′s hearts, don′t put up with people who are reckless with yours."

#can't put this on any social media where I'm identifiable #life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #just a post #I'm actually fine right now #just my usual bitter self

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updates more for myself really

Survived being at home & having to be in same space as brother: the anti-depressants have absolutely numbed me so felt nothing about it all.

The doctor has written me a referral for a therapist (ha ha, let's see if I can find one!) and just noticed earlier that she's diagnosed me with a depressive episode and PTSD.

Gotta admit, I did not see that one coming. In hindsight, yeah it makes sense but to actually see it in black and white is a bit startling. Aaaaaaand I have nobody I can really talk to about it so I'm posting here.

I've been told to come off the pills due to not sleeping through the night for 4 weeks so hopefully the emotional fallout won't hit me too hard. Or if it does, fingers crossed I've already found a therapist by then.

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #mental health #I'm still here I guess #lesser known song by Elton John

[mayoldacquaintancebeforgot]

Back on the pills

Former AD girl is back to being AD girl.

It's fine, I just have another maybe 4 weeks of side effects to get through before my brain considers making happy chemicals.

 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#life of mayoldacquaintancebeforgot #black dog #depression

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#I'm in this picture and I don't like it #queue

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A school of fish following a duck

#queue

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#stacy must have very attractive parents #queue

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Seeds For Tomorrow

Inspired by the brave Ukrainian woman who told the invading Russian soldier “Put sunflower seeds in your pocket so that sunflowers will grow when you die here.”

#queue

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I just heard my mom tell my brother, “when you die, you will go outside and garden until your father says you’re done” and it took me a second to realize that my brother was playing a videogame and this was not a theological discussion.

#queue