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finally

#destiny #destiny 2 #destiny oc #oc #oc art #warlock #exo #exo warlock #.png

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updated chasms profile a lil

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got a bunch of designs for sale on toyhouse rn

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teehee

oh chasm my boy how ive missed you

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oh chasm my boy how ive missed you

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#art #artists on tumblr #oc #oc art #.png #dnd #tiefling #dungeons and dragons

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Doodles of myself, my roblox sona ig and young (?) Cawgrin

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Dnd stuff

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SLAMS HANDS ON TABLE WHAT IF JUST WAS SCIFI DND

#im throwing shit at the wall man i cant take it anymore #not a vent #.txt

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continuation of this cuz ig this is worse than i expected

chat, never put your self worth into your work cuz holy fuck does it fuck you up

i feel so worthless for not being able to make anything or showcase my stories cohesively outside of characters and backstories

i wanna be able to write what comes AFTER all of that

AFTER the backstory

the past

whats the characters present

future

but its like theyre stuck there unless theyre fan ocs

its been so difficult and in the grand scheme of things it shouldnt be for me

and i shouldnt even be that upset about it cuz theres so much more important things going on in life

and yet this is my biggest problem

or atleast the one giving me the most grief

one of my friends (bless her heart i love her) told me she admires me for being able to write up so many characters and put so much thought into them and i really appreciate that but at the same time i feel like im conning her into thinking that cuz

outside of backstory and personality and some character interaction

the actual story theyre in is non existant

i struggle so much with world building

the closest ive gotten to a finished story is my pokemon fangame but even that is in wip hell

its so unbelievably frustrating

especially with what my other friend had said before that i talked about in the first post

i cant start anything

i cant end anything

im in a limbo of never doing anything or finishing everything and its driving me insane

even JUST is like this

always in rework hell cuz im never satisfied with any of the ideas im coming up with for it

the only fully written character is lucius and hes just a side character

i dont even know who the main character is yet

the conflict i thought of for JUST doesnt feel right either

even fan writing ive been doing has been falling flat

i feel like ive failed as a creative

and i know i havent

or atleast i shouldnt feel like i have

theres no such thing as failing in art

but i cant help but think that i have

so many have made their stories and shown them to the world

why cant i

a vent about creating ig

recently ive been looking through my old inspirations and ive found that all of them finally got their stories out as webcomics or games or whatever else, or are already far into planning with scripts n stuff and im really really happy for them

but its got me thinking about my own creative projects

ive scrapped so many

and the ones i havent scrapped, they arent even completely sure yet in concept of story

im so envious of people who can put their creative original thoughts into something cohesive

all ive been able to do for years now is just make fan characters

its almost starting to feel like im not really

creative

i know thats probably not true but ive just been thinking like that alot

i cant really help it tbh

its hard not to when im surrounded by amazing works done by people younger than me or started when someone was younger than me

im not even that old yet

and yet i feel like ive wasted it all already

i wanna make a story

a webcomic

a game

something

anything

to tell people about something i made without telling them that im not actually sure where the rest of the story will go

i want to make something memorable one day

see people enjoy my stories as much as i enjoy the stories of others

but it feels so useless

so many things are happening irl and its hard to even begin with anything of the projects i want to start on

i think this feeling has been getting worse since one of my irl friends said he didnt want his project to end up like one of my scrapped webtoons i was gonna do until complications caught up to me

its so small of a thing but it makes me feel like i failed cuz i havent been able to finalize or even start on any of my projects

theres so much more important things going on in life right now but it just feels so horrible that i cant even do that as an artist and a writer

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New disc server

https://discord.gg/u5aGWbVkbv

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a vent about creating ig

recently ive been looking through my old inspirations and ive found that all of them finally got their stories out as webcomics or games or whatever else, or are already far into planning with scripts n stuff and im really really happy for them

but its got me thinking about my own creative projects

ive scrapped so many

and the ones i havent scrapped, they arent even completely sure yet in concept of story

im so envious of people who can put their creative original thoughts into something cohesive

all ive been able to do for years now is just make fan characters

its almost starting to feel like im not really

creative

i know thats probably not true but ive just been thinking like that alot

i cant really help it tbh

its hard not to when im surrounded by amazing works done by people younger than me or started when someone was younger than me

im not even that old yet

and yet i feel like ive wasted it all already

i wanna make a story

a webcomic

a game

something

anything

to tell people about something i made without telling them that im not actually sure where the rest of the story will go

i want to make something memorable one day

see people enjoy my stories as much as i enjoy the stories of others

but it feels so useless

so many things are happening irl and its hard to even begin with anything of the projects i want to start on

i think this feeling has been getting worse since one of my irl friends said he didnt want his project to end up like one of my scrapped webtoons i was gonna do until complications caught up to me

its so small of a thing but it makes me feel like i failed cuz i havent been able to finalize or even start on any of my projects

theres so much more important things going on in life right now but it just feels so horrible that i cant even do that as an artist and a writer

#shit has hit the fan!!!!!!! #i hate being an artist sometimes cuz i feel shit like this #ive hinged most of my self worth on the things i should be able to do as an artist #sisyphus moment #.txt #vent #ough

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elm redesign

#dnd #tiefling #tiefling warlock #oc #oc art #dnd oc #.png #tiefling oc

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i...

i bought...

yeah...

#roblox #yeah #join my emo band #/ref #.txt

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