meistoshi

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#i honk shoo but shake him fondly #absolcoded Kreature.. #he's friendshaped just. happens to go where the chaos tends to be #he doesnt Mean to be an omen of disaster </3

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#i had the thought ''satoshi's hair windswept as an absol's horn'' & now im here <3 #hated all my brushes today so zero pressure zero stability binary it is #visage. #pain tool sigh. #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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rotating satoshi bein absolcoded again lads

#no particular reason just. thinkin bout it...... lil omen of disaster n hope.... #holding him.. #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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i do just. think about satoshi interacting w/ fallers (outside his friend circle) & realizing that prolonged exposure to ultra aura has had adverse effects on Majority of like. normal people. & even some not quite Normal(tm). there's people that have lost swaths of their memories to varying degrees. they typically become targets for hostile ubs, not simple points of curiosity. & then there's satoshi who regularly cozied up with his ubs, both poipole & nebby, & indeed has explored ultra space with nebby's guidance with only pikachu with him, meaning of all the people he knows he's had the most exposure to ultra aura, loitering in ultra space, taking his sweet time there.

#sb's out in the field tryin to research an ultra wormhole sighting & thinks they got smth but nope it's just the champ passing by #messing w their equipment just by looking their direction. often even without. #next day theres a ub out n about that snuck thru a crack in the fabric of the sky right where satoshi'd passed #& he just. doesnt connect it at all ksjfghsf #he's not the only big-energy faller in alola def not by a long shot #but when in the region he moves around a lot & has the smell of at least two ubs on him #that kinda shit gets noticed more than a stationary source that's likely trying to hide its scent #once again rotating lila/anabel btw...... rattling the anime yall had the potential to do smth real cool n funky there #ah what's passed has passed #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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future!edward if youre reading this bc i know you fucking re-read your blog: do funee rolls for ultra shit when satoshi's in alola again <3

#it's been too quiet for him there #a person occasionally yelling at him does not count #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture. #tbd. #not actually but thats how i know i will for sure see this post again in the future

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got yoinked into watching the first two eps of that fallout series today. due to obvious reasons, i am once again gripping my laptop thinking about satoshi's radioactivity.

#he's got what was it at least five kinds of radiation???? not all necessarily like. nuclear brand. but theres def some gamma shit there #him & pikachu both actually & actually Mostly pikachu. satoshi gets most of it From pikachu. but key-ly Not All Of It #also being round aether folk who do ultra related work is fun coz their meters pick him up as a poipole #& ppl who do mega related work might pick him up as a mega stone. or two if he has his lucarionite w him. which he usually does. #theres also like. a real weird emf read about satoshi but thats not quite radiation??? #just a leftover quirk from his various n varied deaths + possessions & getting once yanked thru a spirit world gate #ghosts kinda sorta recognize him as Nearly Almost Dead But Not Quite; theres mixed signals coz of houou's aura #yeah yeah many scientists want to study him-- a lot of pokemon would Also like to study him actually #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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Im gonna die actually

#sorry i saw gio rb that Why Theyd Get Cancelled meme on guzma & immediately blacked out in a quest to find this clip again

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ok no actually coz im still & forever thinking about

#DRAGGING MY HANDS DOWN MY FACE #YKNOW?????? #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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im sparing the dash me rbing another chunk of posts but know ive been doin nothin but rotating how "thrives in adversity, will wilt in satisfaction" satoshi is

#if things are Easy something is Wrong #because things are Never easy for him & he wouldn't know what to do with himself if they Were #satoshi vc get me OUT of this COMFORT ZONE ❗❗❗ #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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they told you not to look down

you never had vertigos, but now, now you're on top of the world. everyone's under you. no more worries. no more problems. you're at the top, and it's great. you can help everyone from here. it's great.

the sun is scorching hot. the nights are the coldest. a gust of wind, you'd go down, down, down. an infinite fall.

but it's okay. because everyone will come to save you now if you fell, right?

. . . right . . . ?

the fall itself's not the thing that scares him, never has been. it's always what gets left above. if there's nothing above, if everything is down, down, down ...

oh, he could learn to embrace it.

oh, he could learn to love the fall.

oh, he could learn to crave it.

because it means there's another climb to be made. the pinnacle is breathtaking, it's everything he wants, has wanted, could ever want. but having it is only half as satisfactory as those last grueling steps to the top, no matter the prize.

the apotheosis is almost sobering.

everyone always told him he needs to slow down. now there's nowhere to go. so he's stopped. it's great.

there's a long way down. there's nowhere to go. there's only one way to go.

a nation has watched him purposefully leap off a very literal tower, in a fit of heroics, in a trajectory towards a very literal ground of, what was it, concrete ?? asphalt ?? he was caught then. a gust of wind, he'll be caught again. he's been caught at lower heights. someone's always caught him. if he doesn't fight the momentum of this infinite fall, he'll be caught again.

what's the harm in not watching his step, here, at the apex of everything ?? he made it here once.

& oh, he loves it here.

but the climb was heady, & the detox from it makes him ever - so easy ... to ... just ...

#chewing on the bars of my enclosure #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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hi i continue thinking about this & i'm putting the tags on blast :

#nr1 insert garfunkel n oates' Such A Loser #nr2...... so long as satoshi keeps hitting a wall there is something for him to strive for something to Push himself against #when things are easy he gets complacent & the longer the win streak the harder the wind gets knocked out of him when he falls #he's happy to lose. he's happy to be pushed to his limits. because it means he's kept on his toes. it means he has something to work for. #he would not survive the kind of win streak that champions like yuji & leon had #frankly his Current win streak is already clawing at him #if he didn't have such top-class battlers like the masters eight keeping him alert & the knowledge of a future match w/ ree #(who already almost fought him to a draw in the last alola league) #he would be two easy wins from self-sabotaging #he's self-sabotaged shorter streaks #never on purpose mind but........ a streak this long????? ......what's the harm in not watching his step here at the apex of everything.. #he wouldnt want to disrespect his challengers like that but. the whisper of that thought is there. not doing anything. just present.

one thing about satoshi is he is such a good loser.

#the absolute colony of worms that have been summoned thx to gio's ask yday OOOUUUUUUGH #rotating rotating rotating

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thinking bout how majority of satoshi's responses to learning new slang that originates from online circles is varieties on the very boomer-core "oh that's fun", or alternatively "huh that's... interesting...??? [does not get it]"

#pov you try to explain tiktok terms to satoshi & suddenly he's 70 years old & has never used the internet post!peak-of-AIM #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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i think rather fondly of how quick to (want to) punch & tackle satoshi is when people have the unfortune of being pathetic around him. for all the Been There Felt That, he gets so fucking annoyed by insecurity it's kind of funny

#he also gets pissy about arrogance tho so theres like. a fine line of confidence he's totally cool about fhskghal #except arrogance is chill if you're one of his friends. then he thinks it's very cool & awesome. except for when he still finds it annoying #but that's an entirely different brand of annoyance that's often fond #'cause those are people he thinks arrogance looks quite good on #still wants to wipe the smug look off their faces. thats universal. he's just less likely to punch em if theyre friends. #satoshi's got like. such a funky fuse. it's short but only specific things light it. like just being a failthing. or being a stuckup ass. #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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<- has wanted to throw hands with at least one alternate-universe version of himself (the altoshi just had a backbone the consistency of water & it really fucking irked him for a bit)

#mirror!satoshi beloved if ur out there i hope youre thriving #satoshi likes most of his alt selves!!! theyre his brothers ^w^ #& to reuse tags on this topic: #he sees other satoshis & is first like !!! woag........ Wild........ & then Quickly switches into I've Got A Brother!!!!!! mode #esp coz his first exp w an alt satoshi was his mirror self in kalos who was. the biggest mess of stress & anxiety & insecurity #& it felt like talking to his 11yo self's mind thru a mirror & left a big impression on him #n coz he hasnt yet met a version of himself Older than he's been at any given time he just. mentally clocks all alts as Younger Brother #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture. #dash comm.

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save me web weaves,,,,, web weaves save me,,

#theyre so fun to do.. #it's like character playlists & pinterest boards...... enrichment <3 #ooc. pkmn is autistic culture.

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SATOSHI  AKIYOSHI  +  THE  JOURNEY.

red choral diamond spray, the mountain goats   //   endless summer, nate pritts   //   rain shadows, andy goldsworthy   //   the greek tragedy i’ll never write, elisabeth hewer, elisabethhewer   //   little fires everywhere, celeste ng   //   journey with dante, mahtem shiferraw   //    colorful orange magenta storm clouds at sunset, keith webber jr.   //   such a loser, garfunkel & oates   //   a game of thrones, george r. r. martin   //   road to hell ii, hadestown.

#& this also for the OOUUUUU..

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SATOSHI  AKIYOSHI  +  RESTLESS  AMBITION.

proverbs 16:18   //   eating fire, margaret atwood   //   galatians 6:9   //   recollections of my nonexistence, rebecca solnit // the fall of icarus, jacob peter gowy   //   henry & june; a journal of love: the unexpurgated diary of anaïs nin   //   let it be clear, neptune holub   //   norwegian wood, haruki murakami   //   eros the bittersweet, anne carson // the great elsewhere, maria ines gul   //   when rome falls, yves olade   //   gabrielle aplin   //   glorious heights, montaigne   //   i cannot believe that little death, rainer maria rilke // on restlessness, carl phillips // notebook fragments, ocean vuong.

#CLAWING AT MY CAGE........