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I Myself, am strange and unusual

#life is strange #unusual #feelings #mental health #empath #life #darkness #dark souls

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“Don’t apologize for your feelings. Never apologize for those.”

— Jenna Evans Welch, from Love & Olives

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“Where there is love there is life.”

— Mahatma Gandhi

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No one would care!

They would all be So much better off without me!

#no one cares #no one knows #this pain is unbearable #mentally drained #no one gets it #no one understands #so alone #tired of life #always tired #i'm so fucking tired #life sukcs #mentally fucked #mentally done #mentally unstable #make it stooooooop #does anyone else relate #does anyone else feel this way? #does anyone else feel like this? #Spotify

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“How are you?”

The most dreaded words but yet it’s 3 over used words in the English language!

#don’t ask #dreaded #language #stop asking #mental breakdown #so alone #mentally drained #how are you? #silence #if you only knew #i’m not okay #tw depressing thoughts #i hate it here #i hate my liiiiife #i hate my brain #i hate it i hate it i hate it #i hate men

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“Staying quiet doesn’t mean I have nothing to say, it means I don’t think you’re ready to hear my thoughts.”

— Unknown

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“The thing about broken clocks is you can always tell exactly when they stopped working…

With people it isn’t so easy and sometimes you can’t even tell they’re broken”

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I let everyone down in the end…

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If I ever loose my battle to depression, know that I fought, know that I tried, know that I did my best to overcome

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Gone over time

Overtime I was taken in by the softness of your tone The kindness of your words The consideration you displayed as you seemed to not only listen but to also hear For the first time I believed I was heard and understood I allowed myself to delicately unfurl like the first rose of the season Each delicate part slowly unfurling Reaching toward your care and attention Overtime I shared my hopes, my dreams, my heartaches My fantasies, initially being so deeply buried within me, were gently and beautifully unravelled You taught me I was beautiful Worthy That my dreams were within my reach Overtime I took down all my barriers Let you see the me behind the laughter and smiles I shared my confusion The parts of myself that torment and ridicule me Overtime I surrendered my reluctance to need another person You taught me that was acceptable Necessary Initially I needed you for little things Tiny details I am not sure if I was testing my wings Learning to fly on a sea of trust Or if I was determining the depth of your sincerity I only know that overtime When I grew to love When I unequivocally trusted you Like Icarus, I soared on the heights of that freedom I flew in the certainty and majesty of our relationship Until the time when I turned toward you To find you gone In the depth of my crazed search for you In the midst of the frenzied understanding of your abandonment I flew too close to the sun And now Like Icarus and yourself I am gone.

Delightsofmysoul 18 May 2022

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This is a shoutout to survivors who feel like their abuse wasn’t “bad enough”. Your feelings are valid and the truth is, you should have never been abused at all. 

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